Fighting giving meaning in us, for us to structure the world and make it maybe simpler, maybe better. Fights making us and making us do good and bad. To write about good and evil, it is clear to me that I stand on the side of good. Why is that so clear? Does my origin, ideas, gender, age, skin color, profession(s), art, deeds, tell how good a person I am? What deeds, characteristics tell my quality of goodness or evilness? That is what I think now, because I’m not so sure. What is good and just, it is that I have chosen to realize and do as I see fit and they serve me, my idea of good for me. Do I take rest of the world into consideration in my goodness? To choose and accomplish, it is a question of self and losing self, to not make only what your self desires, not only letting your need want you to want. Decide what is good. Tastes good, makes you feel good. Is my body that decides since I must eat, sleep and drink? It decides much for me as do my feelings. My feelings and sentiments, gut tell me which paths to follow. It tells me something about good, what might be good.
irrational right and wrong
Alert Orange, fake Uzis Mary McCloud. What kind of birds are like parachutes?
I do think I’m a good person I exploit fears and frustrations, insecurities, wrongdoings. I don’t think that adds up with good. It does have to make sense to be good.
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Is it like something messy made by someone who thinks is an artist in a space that is thought to be art space? Why don’t you eat meat? Is it like animals suffering kind of thing and you feel sorry for them? Definitions for installation please and why do I think it is better not to eat meat.
arborescent dimension
rhizomatic eschewal of Humanism
in favour of pluralic views
repressive views of institutions, we have become
blocks or over-coding
lines of flight
rationality has its way, made us made logical in natural way, how I miss illogical obverse and increasingly dissatisfied
calculations and definitions, but I love numbers, could you understand my need for fantasy, pass the way for
hoho, could you not to try not to all the time, because it could be so much better if you didn’t
measure everything in millimeters and money
I would appreciate it much
thank you.
My sentiments poor thing: you just think in a very predictable way
me to be e, to be what you think in your way is strength. What do you mean, in your way, exactly? or You think is strength exactly, at all, physical or mental, is it a thing of comparison, to know? This or that, either way, what you lack is its depth and the dark where one cannot see, a place which is deep and dark at night.
Me to be a letter, me, to be a. Why should not I have all kinds of feelings about it, the good in destruction, there is humiliation, of course, I will be humiliated. I with lack, me the inferior by this and that, of course, I want you badly to look, how else I am the one to be belittled, take a look. Destroyed by looks is a weird process, if you subject to it. Want me to be a? So, I want you to b b.
Descent into hell. Icon. Second half of 14th century. Collection of State Russian Museum
Divine Harmony, there was a dark hair in between the first pages of the booklet. Lucernarium psalms and stikhirad (verses)
O mild Light, mercy of Peace, praise
troparion (something repeated) short hymn
polyphonic we
drink coffee out of vases,
hang ourselves to trees and ceilings
no time to get gloomy though
Week of the Blindman with clay in his eyes
I think he was telling me the truth on Easter Monday. Nonsense. Couple of lines from a movie Big Bullet written down for fun: My name is Bird. My name is Bird.
Don’t stare at me. Please. My name is Apple. Forget Fiona.
My name is Jeff. Anything else?
My name is Tongues of fire?
Maybe, You want blood on your hands? Why would I want that?
Valhalla this is Thor with Bernard Fontanelle
Profound killing, profound birth, deep rest with mercury, put your hand in it
breathing in to the root of things and to pure chance, taking it
don’t let anything stop you
be part of my filth
but be compelled to change dramatically
arrangement equilibrium, condition of a system, hexagonal someone said, diagonal pace, speed of atoms shaking, fluctuations which physicists often call noise. tranquility, postmodern triangle on top. Could you just remove it. It is horrid. Even as symbol on a wall, against the sky, could you understand how ugly it is. It represents nothing but horridness of it all.
Shapes of progress are going more flat, more insignificant, more or less close to nothing with big size. Don’t you see.
”Behold a universe so immense that I am lost in it. I no longer know where I am. I am just nothing at all. Our world is terrifying in its insignificance. ” B.Fontanelle (1657-1757)
Malicious nocturne, young temperature of instantaneous and perhaps total entropy of the universe, sounding grand, finding it in my lungs
The need to come out. Phrase for someone admitting and showing. Coming out, revealing maintaining dignity and when you lose it, fearing shame, thoughts and talk. Maintaining, what does it mean, how. What needs to be maintained and which parts could be discarded as useless. Keeping up, staying in posture, situation in life against for what would be a better decision, difficult. Is it following tradition, listening to somebody else’s opinion than one’s own, on one’s life, rules, dictations, how to. What is losing dignity? Deliberately, carelessly, why put yourself to disgrace, what will come of it, of not wanting to care about the consequences. I hoped to be killed in the most brutal way possible, publicly. I knew you could do it. I knew it. Idea of failing and starting something new, or ending up having disastrous after life. Fear of losing face, fear of showing you my face. What is the worst scenario that might happen?
Snowflakes form this way of water drops
at temperatures several degrees below water’s normal freezing point
depressions as ponds and lakes
zero zero Celsius centigrade and below
water all, is ice infinitesimally small drops
all the corruption in my hand
Clitoris
Do you dare? Masochistic need to destroy yourself, a child.
Do you dare to look at it? To lick it.
Perversions and something worth trying
Desire to let go of consequences, of obligations, of anything
but dirty ideas
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