2011
Kun luja-sanaan lisää o:n
Kyltti pimeällä taivaalla rakennustyömaalla. Kuolema on ajatus. Kun katulamppu sammuu yöllä ja jäät pimeään hapuilemaan epätasaisella.
Nainen laittoi kätensä Alkon hyllyn väliin ja veti koko rivin alas. Epätosi versus epätodellisuus ja etsiä pelkästään virheitä kummastakin. Mietin mikä saa niin tekemään. Ei joko halua nähdä hyvää tai sitä ei ole löydettävissä tai aina on jotakin täydellisempää. Jotain näkökyvyn esteitä, ajattelun esteitä?
LUMIÈRE IS A GIRL IN JEANS
Lumière a girl in jeans, look at the light. Where do you place your hands? He asked if I had gone any further. How far do you want me to go? What do you think I should find? Is it something particular?
I try to measure every word and I realise it is not enough, because then I am not me, but trying to please someone else.
Vulva is a door. It is a sow and woman riding it. She lifting her skirt with dagger in her hand. Sight chases the demons away. Pit of chastity, of virtue, entry, passage way, vestibule, horns of Uterus, Fallobian tubes, Interforamireum, space between two holes, Genitalis Mueliebris Ambitus. There was a time when female genitalia had no shame, women didn’t have to be ashamed of their bodies.
To take a dip into hellish visual reality, attacked by refined junk. Negativity in the absolute, positive push: finished, perfected, brushed and polished images. Wrappings and packages, boxes, bags, plastics to burst coverings of great delicacy, of something to want, desirable ones, items to have. Female body is strictly regulated possession, it is under conscious and cruel use of power. We monitor consciously and unconsciously bodies of ours and others to fit in. It is obsessive and means are never enough. This is an everyday topic, topic of attraction and what kind of options we have and are given.
(It is like perfecting images and they are never perfect enough. Or when they are they are dead.)
Sounds as chanting this world. Christ is crisis. Chanting in crisis. Chanting an end.
Call it divine, call it repetition of the name, repetition of the sound, call it repetition of the act, the same movement, the same fear and hate in the call,
do not expect the same, expect the worst, do not expect the sane, expect lunacy, expect your narrowest nightmare corridor with mass of people in it with you unable to breathe, with them and their smells unwashed.
Call it hypothetical trust, blind hypothetical trust, insane hypothetical belief, expect the unseen, the unknown purity command, fury, need to make the idea of purity happen in black. See the flag, see the scarfs, see the eyes. Nothing will turn their heads around from this mission. Nothing. Crisis is in the not negotiable, in the smallest space, in the smallest breaths inhaled, in passing out with the rest.
ThreatExpect the crisis, threatExpect the hurt, threatExpect the ill, it will come, it will be a terrorist, call it a terrorist, call it an organizationTerrrrrrrrroriiiiiist, Terrrrrrrrrrrroriiiiist! It will be an explosion, a blast. Call it what you will, call it fear, terror, tyranny, call it many of who were hurt, many of those who are dead. Call it your blind heart, call it the answer of the kind heart.
It is not a comical POW. It is not a comical savage. It is the hidden savage of Christ, the one you deny, the one you do not want to acknowledge, because it is in you, in your religion. Smell of the divine captivated, taken, imprisoned. Moral imperative making monsters, sounds of this world, being a monster in an acceptable way, the same way as chanting righteousness, justice, superiority. Us and them, heaven and threat, Paradise of safety and Hell for the uncovered. Those who did what they had to do. Those who accomplish God’s plan to save what there is for us to be saved, next to nothing. Standing next to nothing, next to a plan of salvation drawn onto ground.
Language
Language of repeating clichés
Language of beauty
Language of aesthetics
Language of banality
Language of architecture
Language of concrete
Language of living
Language of taking the bus
Language of loving
Language of walking
Language of getting home
Language of aggression
Language of stigma
Language of sleeping
Language of violence
Language of hitting
Language of doing the dishes
Language of forgetting them
Language of dating
Language of passing out
Language of dressing up
Language of being alive
Language of eating
Language of thinking
Language of solitude
Language of looking
Language of having sex
Language of celibacy
Language of an old man
Language of existing
Language of a riot
Language of revolution
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Demonstration
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