Trying to understand really, do faces tell much how dangerous the world is and who can be trusted?

Killer, pencil on paper, acrylic on canvas, 2022

How do we read faces nowadays and to what features and details we pay attention to? Light, shadows, color of the light, background, skin and shape of the face, youthfulness, freshness and an outgoing fun feeling. Who looks like fun, some use the word sassy. Women are obsessed with the shape of the face, that nothing is hanging, fat or loose, everything is taped, you can put tape on your neck, under you tits. Wrinkled, spotted, off, uneven, bulging, even pores are too much, lips are too thin in comparison to someone else’s. Envy is pretty rampant. Any kind of abnormal spot is hideous and must be erased. Roundness is a hint of fat. Still natural beauty isn’t much, faking the natural is the it thing. There is fake everywhere. Fat should be in the right place, nature places it all over one’s body. Now we see color of the skin to the extent white is evil. Black can do whitefishing but whites can’t do blackfishing. What a battle with visuals and owning what nature has made. Who owns a fat ass owns it, but blonde hair is just color, but it can be added just like fat. It is difficult enough to deal with human mind. Somehow you always do wrong, but to add complete manipulation of the image and how that reflects to the real world and what happens there outside the virtual world, when we live much in the virtual and madeup.

We distrust heavily, what we see online, adults I mean. It is a mere matter of survival and knowing how and what. Deceit is normal since there is so much to gain with deception and lying. Dangers are really how fakes are seen, maybe we answer with deceit back, deceive the deceiver and steal or just to bully, which is fun for many and create drama, which is a business. Study the deceiver and the methods used online. Human face needs quite a lot of grooming and the space we are in needs adjustment to look good online, that is what we want, to look good and wealthy. Anything you show is judged, therefore why not play with it. We like to play and do gimmicks. Images of people that are not manipulated at all somehow are the most interesting. She is there as she is and we do read the face immediately with our biases and using only biases which are always there, funnily yes. Being afraid of what people think is a real fear since thinking we know works in the world and thinking it doesn’t because we are open-minded now is naive. Strangely millions of years of evolution got quicker and we are altered to a better species. Accepting and humaine, as we say of the good people, which sudden change is truly fascinating in some sense. It’s a miracle like everlasting youth. You can obviously do bad things, but don’t get caught, is the tune of the day like always. Slowness and messiness become more intolerable as the virtual moves so fast. Thinking how would we deal with not having the internet?

Centuries long oppression and hate against women and girls, which seems to go on and on is reason enough to be fucking angry.

I see this division very clearly in the art scene where working class based artists and audiences are minority, at least working class-ness is a very distant echo. Feminist theory and queer theory are very popular topics in the arts, which of course deal with important issues, but I have felt the more theory is emphasized the more distant art gets. This goes with feminism which paradoxically and firstly is about making change happen on grass root level not only on idea level, which is of course vital what comes to making change in academic studying and research more welcoming to women. So far historically Feminism is divided into three waves which begin from suffrage movement evolving to development of ideas and to action of women’s liberation movement and third wave is continuation and reaction to the second wave feminism There is hostility in Feminism which can keep it distant and repulsive. It is accused of hating men, hating sex, but looking from what kinds of issues Feminism springs out feelings of hate are more than understandable.

Feminism is first a movement, demonstration and fierce action claiming equal rights for all, possibilities to choose how to live. After having put action out Feminist theory started to develop. Prejudice has made it so that Feminism is not mainstream ideology even we are bound to it as ideology. It is not all that common to be working class feminist. Feminist theory is working and looking out from middle-class points of views and is seen as radical movement of those who can afford radicalism still. Working class is not all that radical anymore, at least not in Finland. They are scared and conformist, contents consuming quiet citizens. Feminist theory does not address everyone as doesn’t science as a whole even though it is meaning of science to serve everyone. Elitism and academic towers can be isolating. To talk to only certain kind of people of social change is not enough to make that change needed happen. Change required does not happen within middle-class, in academies and in theory, theory is empowering as is being able to think for yourself. Middle-class and working class do not respect each other enough, know each other enough, speak the same language or even want to understand each other. There is a mutual contempt there which stops multilevel action, compassion and collaboration.

What is gender, what is the meaning of gender? Is gender the most important ruling feature of people? How much does it dictate what happens to me? Funnily it has got to do with everything there possibly is in life. Gender dictates something naturally, people make strange delusional gender rules and orders themselves. Many say in this day Feminism is outdated, that Feminism has lost its power and meaning in making equality happen because it is about women, because capitalism has harnessed Feminism since Feminists demanded women right to work outside their homes. It is a shame to be a Feminist to demand equal rights as people. It is like a profanity and curse just like being a woman has been. How odd it sounds to be female and a curse. Most appalled I am that women curse gender of theirs, themselves and other women. The matter of division of genders is one of the biggest errors of mankind since now we know we all have both female and male qualities in us, therefore Feminism is about all people. It is to benefit all. That a man can walk like a woman, talk like a woman and I can weld if I like and still be feminine.