Burning sheets

AUKILE/FONTANELLE, Sateenvarjon osat, umbrella parts, 2006

Burning sheets

The burning sheets, pink, naivety of a dreamcatcher on a concrete balcony glass shades on the first floor. Disliked the kitsch and the thought of a horror b-movie in YouTube in ten parts.

Pleasing stuffing, filled but not full, exhausted, drained, sucked, emptied, done. Wanting to fill it because of the lack of content and the feeling of fulfilment all the time that is compulsory. Drank in between the bitches in cool calm despite the sign of a mall in bright. There, and the dirty double-trailer truck on the side of the road, two words, a pulp factory, which has been closed for some time. It is dark, drinking in the dark the blue, yellow and red, drinking a wish and the thought of full, drinking the landscape, drinking the melancholy and the night, drinking the time, drinking the passing cars, drinking the dirty snow, drinking the shoes, drinking the hands. Not who drank but why. The problem is what you are. That is why.

Men’s fears towards femininity that breathes outside regulated cocooned womanhood. What is a woman?/Painting women online.

She left her panties and other underwear on the floor without thinking much who would see them as she does with all her clothes, dropping them off liking to watch them herself as constellations of random and a day; cotton, lace and strings, used, changed, private creatures which a minute ago were pressed against her body and let loose. Memory of a cloth has parts of her form. What is so disgusting about it she does not understand, but tries, maybe that is what she likes, because she has to be pure and clean to be liked. She does not leave her clothes on the floor to stay there for weeks, but just for a moment, she is not that disturbed.. It is a moment of absent-mindedness, carelessness and something of herself she likes to examine, her relationship to all. It is that she does not behave like she should behave well-mannered especially when she is alone. There are windows, anybody can see in. She malfunctions and is dislocated in places like armchairs, in places that are sterile, quiet and in perfect order and under control that nothing breathes there, like finding perfection in death, which demonstrates a moment by oneself thinking.

Demand for sterile body is against life’s natural flow, decay and against nature in her, her dirtiness, her will and her femininity that smells. Why are you so horrified but you still want to barge in, invade her and her privacy to watch her wrongness to blame her and accuse her for her being wrong not being like a norm of the civilised. Do you lack something when you do that or is it just power you like over her? Do you notice what you lack? Act of curious and wish to speak about what an abomination she is. What did she do? Fears of men have become fears of women fulfilling stripped and solid perfection to be admired. We are raised to think superiority is sterile environment just as a superior race would be.

It is the shame of it. Shame of what did she do. Shame that is experienced because of her, for her and what she is. 

Men’s fears towards femininity that breathes outside regulated cocooned womanhood. What is a woman?

acrylic on canvas, 2019

Angel baby

Angel baby

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Aesthetics of a Water Bottle.

What is there in a water bottle tossed on the side of a road? What kind of story does it hold? Where to begin, when approaching such seemingly insignificant object, and what lies in the insignificance? A plain water bottle is an object, which requires to be studied more closely as a unique culturally bound phenomenon, a kind of necessity and luxury item. Bottle of water, and other containers of beverages we carry with us, are products of commercial commodity culture. Objects, meaningful in more ways than just as helpful containers of drinkable liquid. Plastic bottle is a design object, which is meant to be used once and disposed. Still, in order to be sold, a bottle has to be aesthetically desirable package of everyday with desirable contents and message. It is at best, pleasure for the eyes and a way of presenting one’s way of life. Within the field of industrial package design there are trends and phases, fashions circulating and directing what we drink, how we drink, where to drink and why. Culture, which is also directed by nutritionists and other experts in media.

We like to think it is us, who have the control. In some ways we do. We are the ones using money and choosing. We are taught to think we deserve to be spoiled and are worthy of little daily treats. To a certain point, we use power and control over the market, which in the end is us. On the other hand, we have no control whatsoever, especially what comes to wanting to be seen, spoiled, fulfilling desires and being worthy of sweet luxuries. We like to state our worthiness with expensive goods and services. In that sense, our commercial culture is very immature and predictable. We follow our primal emotions. Holding drinks and packages is similar to holding a phone, which act and item represent accessibility, capability, visibility, fun, enjoyment, having wealth, illusion of business and continuity.

Interesting part is, what comes to making visual world for consumers. How tiny particles as bottles and packages largely make the luring culture. Products of unsustainable, emotionally oriented culture, visible surfaces, which are used for mass consumption purposes to be delivered, placed to be seen, offered to be wanted and sold in never-ending speed. It is our take-away culture to carry food, walk with food and drinks while working, doing and making; meaning having an active life. Do we drink water to stay slim, have a good skin, or just because we are thirsty? Plastic bottles can be recycled, but still they are waste and made of nonrenewable material. Such small, ‘practical’ choices, which pile up may be easy, and we do need to drink fresh water daily. Still the cost is quite dear, when one measures up the material discarded in the long run. According to survey by Food and Water Watch in the US in 2009, consumers purchased 8.45 billion gallons of bottled water [1.]. Luckily for the environment, figures declined from 2008 2,5 percent due to recession, as people cut down unnecessary expenses. Something good comes out of having financial low, which also proves our constant need for consuming more than is necessary when it is financially possible. As it goes, the small percentage of world’s population uses the most resources environmentally and economically.

1.https://www.foodandwaterwatch.org/water/bottled/bottled-water-bad-for-people-and-the-environment/ 8.4.2014 Food and Water Watch is a nonprofit organization, which advocates for common sense policies that will result in healthy, safe food and access to safe affordable drinking water.