It takes one click.

Get down on your fucking knees! The claim that the world is changing incredibly fast. What is the speed a bullet has? You won’t feel it once it hits your head. World of agony is too much to take. Don’t speak it out just hear the bang. That is what we do not tolerate, truth about ourselves. Our deeds, our need to enslave, to humiliate, things we do not take if they are not for granted. Preserving prejudice and privilege as something innocent playing as contrast to our cruelty as a value to sell and be covered by. It is the truth we should like but we kill it, because it is not enough. We don’t get ahead fast enough honestly. It even sounds too little, too bold to be alive. The one who speaks the truth and is not believed because it is too much to take.

Get down on your fucking knees! This command is about power used, power liked and loved, power of ruining innocence of someone, ruining possibilities of someone for a life. This gun is an accusation and it is pointed at you. It is my emotional response for you questioning me, for you to obey me. It is my belief my religion my faith and reassuring my righteousness. Me holding my truth, my path in my hand: Get down on your fucking knees! Now! Bow your head, feel my weapon on you, how cold it is against your skin, against your fear, against your life. Where are you when you are there afraid, in the dirt, below me breathing. Me above you looking at you with anger, looking at you like you were nothing, not even a human. Me with possibility and desire of pulling the trigger, click. It takes one click.

It takes one click.

Absolute conviction: to find something to believe in.

It can be quite hard to find such faith in anything. Despair and hopelessness are hard to beat when they are the landscape around. We may be unable to find things to believe in when good things disappear. Most people possibly have love for their country and family and are ready to defend those entities, protect something of one’s own. Love has something to do with this, what we love we will protect. For what kinds of things we have conviction other than to those that we love and are close to? Do we have to have a personal experience of belonging and connection to feel loyalty and trust to value something and have absolute conviction? The most precious things we hold dear and important we must protect as they are fragile, they are in need of protection. To some it is a nation, a king to serve, religion and god, ideology to follow and practice. Interesting is the mechanism of making need to serve a cause. Cause makes reason, patterns to understand why something happens and why we do what we do. We may have causes but no reason and still have conviction which is impossible to change as it is so completely overcoming. To rule with a cause even though it is wrong is to be able to speak it so it makes sense even it is senseless.