I have an idea of normal, but it is not me. It is outside of me. I’m not sure I understand me sometimes. Am I irrational? There are things that are normal for me to do daily like brushing my teeth twice a day, I go to bed and sleep the night, dream it. 

but then when I go on I step out of the mainstream. I probably don’t want to continue thinking what is mainstream, but I assume it is the main thing.