Let’s talk more my Bunny.

pencil on paper, 2015

Let’s talk more my bunny!
March 6, 2013

Hello! My name is Tanya.  I am lonely Russian woman from Ulyanovsk. I hope you will interested in my letter or in my structure in agency. I have decided to write to you really liked to me. Some more about me…. I am 25, I have finished medical university in our city and now I work as the children’s doctor. My free time I spend on a hippodrome, as I 7 years am engaged in equestrian sport. I think more about my appearance will tell you my photos. If you want to learn more about me you may write me to Zvyereva68@yandex.ru Also if you want to ask me some questoins (if interested in me), please write me and I promise answer you and also I will send you more of my photos. Bye for now.

I hope it’s letter will not without your reply. ?  

(SUCK THE BONES.)

When is revolution, Irrational right and wrong, essays and poems, 2014

Blue­-haired Grand petite called Salvador Nebula. I don’t know who he is. 

Blueberry whistle

Blue­-haired Grand petite called Salvador Nebula. I don’t know who he is. 

Horses fucking on a yard. They steam. Bear bare le jardin.
I will be back as soon as I can. I can’t stand to watch. Mischievous,
ambiguous and nefarious dissent that is who he is, someone
yelled on the phone, delusional

Foobikkojen aika

Bodies online, pencil on paper, 2015

Voisimmeko ajatella, että olemme paljon peloissamme nykyaikana, enemmän kuin ennen? On paljon uhkia, joista luemme ja joihin olemme osin syyllisiä. On aika parantaa tapamme jne. olla hyviä ihmisiä, tarkoittaa hyvää ja tehdä parempi maailma.

Islamofobia ja transfobia toistuvat sanoina usein ja olen kokenut fobia-sanan vilisevän monesti syytelistalla. Fobioita, joita meillä monella ilmeisesti on ja tautiluokituksessa fobia on vakava pelko, joka estää elämästä, viimeisimpänä itselleni vastaan tuli fatphobia. Olen perplexed ja olen terveysintoilijana läskipelkoinen. Tarvitsenko turvahuoneen ja safe spacen? Ei en, minä en sitä tarvitse, vaan se ylipainoinen, jolle ei saa sanoa ylipainosta, tosin en ole kenellekään sanonut, koska minua ei kenenkään toisen läskit niin paljon häiritse kuin omani. Juu, toki turvaa tarvitaan, minua myös stalkataan, joka on ilmeisesti oikeutettua, koska olen niin paha, muttei se tee minusta enemmän foobista, vaikka ilmeisesti on tarkoitus. Ajaisiko stalkkaus pahuuteni pois, kuin manaus?

Kriittisiä ihmisiä kohtaan hyökätään joukolla somessa ja mielipiteeni todellakin ovat omiani. Itse ajattelu on aina vaarallista. Turvallista tilaa kaipaavat juuri ne, jotka puhuvat fobioista ja foobikoista eli joku on turvan tarpeessa, mutta kuka, miksi ja keneltä? Kriittinen ihminen on uhka hauraan ihmisen turvallisuuden tunteelle ja yleinen veneen keinuttaminen on vain niin epämiellyttävää. Miksi näin haurasta ihmistä, joka tarvitsee turvatilan, täytyy mielipiteiltä suojella? Eikö olisi parempi hankkia paksumpi nahka, lukemalla vaikka Shakespearea ja kohtaamalla ihmisen mieli historiamme kautta. Kuka on suojelun tarpeessa, oikeutettu suojeluun ja miten tämä oikeus syntyy? Yliopistossa ajatuksilta ja mielipiteiltä suojaaminen on ongelmallista, koska yliopisto on vartavasten ajattelun testausalusta eli kriittinen vastaansanomisen paikka ja on omituista, että yliopistossa jopa työskentelee ihmisiä, jotka eivät kestä kritiikkiä ja pyrkivät luomaan yliopistoista lastentarhoja, joista siis tulee uusia asiantuntijoita, jotka eivät kestä vastaansanomista. Se, että koulussa ei pyritä ylisuojeluun, yliopisto on koulu, opiskelijat saavat opintotukea, on suojelua itsessään, koska maailma ulkona on kova ja siellä tarvitaan monenlaisia taitoja ja kestokykyä koetellaan, etenkin taiteessa, vai ajatteletteko, että taiteilijalle kaikki on vain kivaa ja tipahtaa helposti syliin? No joillekin käy niin, toisille ei. Yksi taiteilijan ja taiteen tehtävistä on kyseenalaistaa ja se ei onnistu silloin, kun täytyy pelätä työnsä puolesta eli olla ‘foobinen’.

Omaan ajatukseeni, mitä taide on, pelko ei istu eikä käy, vaikka taiteilijoita selkeästi pidetään pelossa yhä enemmän ja taiteilija laitetaan seinää vasten hyvin herkästi ja odotetaan (itse)sensurointia. Joten turvallisuuden tarpeen ja kaipuun tunnistan, mutten siihen voi tarttua, koska silloin lähtee taiteesta jotakin oleellista pois. Se on vanhemmalla iällä ehkä sitä mukavuuden tarvetta, joka tulee hetkellisesti, mutta on este luovuudelle ja tekemiselle, jos koko ajan täytyy varoa. Kun jatkuvasti on varottava, mitä voi sanoa ja tehdä, ettei satuta jonkun tunteita, millaisessa lasitalossa elämme ja pyrimme elämään, onko se katalogielämää, josta annetaan palikat, että rakennapa tuosta ja imitointia, jota sanotaan omaksi kuvaksi, aidoksi itseksi, itseksi tulemiseksi, itsensä hyväksymiseksi sellaisenaan? Kovin ristiriitaista, jos palikat annetaan you know.. Oma tekemiseni on aina ollut poispäin sievistelystä, valmiina annetusta ja elefantit huoneessa on käsiteltävä, joka yleensä sattuu, muuttaa asioita ja ihmissuhteita, ehkä parempaa ehkä huonompaan. Seksuaalisuus, taide ja uskonto ovat ihmisten heikkoja kohtia juuri tässä, mitä voi paljastaa, sanoa, ajatella, olla, mikä on luvallista, turvallista jne. Yhtäkään profeettaa en ole halventanut, joten ehkä sitä fatwaa ei ole ehkä tulossa, mutta on ilmeistä, ettei taide kestä katsoa itseään peiliin sekä transaktivisteilla on kova tarve päästä esille ja sen voi tehdä feminismin nimissä kuten puolustaa islamia ja islamisteja, ihan sama mitä naisille käy tässä taistossa, joten mikä se feministinen osuus transaktivismissa ja islamin puolustamisessa on? Transaktivismin kautta on tullut myös selväksi, ettei mies voi olla feministi, koska naiset ajetaan pois naisten ryhmistä ja hiljennetään, mikä taas kuulostaa kovin tutulta.

Ongelmana on hauraus, joka ei kestä vastaan sanomista, vaikeiden asioiden kohtaamista ja kompleksisuuden myöntämistä, ei edes väärässä olemisen myöntämistä. Kun esimerkiksi alaikäisten puperteettiin ja kehitykseen täytyy voida kajota avun nimissä, vaikka ei ole tietoa, mitä hormonitasapainoon kajoaminen tekee lapselle muuta kuin aiheuttaa enemmän ongelmia, kuten hedelmättömyyttä, olemme jokseenkin oudossa tilanteessa: ketä uskoa ja mikä on totta. Yksikin nuori, jonka sukupuoli on ‘korjattu’ ja hän katuu leikkausta, on liikaa. Sukupuolta ei tarvitse eikä voi ihminen korjata, kirurgi ei korjaa sairasta mieltä. On kyllä kirurgeja, jotka mielellään hyötyvät tästä trendistä, jota moni vaikutusvaltainen ihminen tukee. Kutsun sitä hyvesignaloinniksi ja hyväksikäytöksi. Tilanne on hysteerinen ja moni menee trendin mukana, moni tyttö tuntee olevansa poika enenevässä määrin. Onko tyttönä vaikea olla? Ja tämä ongelma ratkeaa kirurgin avulla? On outoa kuinka sukupuoli voidaan todeta tunnetasolla ja kaikkien pitäisi se vain uskoa. Tällaisen asian takia ollaan valmiita toisinajattelijat ja heidän elämänsä tuhoamaan. Kerätään blokkilistoja, tuhotaan ihmisten työmahdollisuudet jne. Se kertoo jotakin mielenvikaisuudenasteesta ja pakkomielteestä, mikä liittyy myös plastiikkakirurgiaan tällä hetkellä, siihenkin voi jäädä koukkuun ja todellakin olemme menneet liian pitkälle.

Ohje tyttärelle

Corporeal signals, corporal punishments, missions in mincer.

Corporeal signals, corporal punishments, missions in mincer.

Corporeal signals, corporal punishments, missions in mincer
June 22nd, 2013 

It is rude. It is vividly bestial, ferocious, human. Checked the dictionary, cruel has many synonyms.
There are numerous ways of manifesting nuances, tones, bones, parts to play. 

Sacred terror like hiding as a game,
front sweet hereafter, door in your children, door to your children, it is open.
Of course you can see the holy untouchables, mountains they clime. Soft sugar and his name that sat on him was dead, 

hell followed him. Orange afterglow, how to, to know
stupid concepts of correctness, accuracy, just and just that
feel the hate creating a human god. 

Ekpyrosis. Beautiful word. 

Synonyms for clime from Merriam_Webster

Synonyms https://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/clime#synonyms

(in this poem I have used the word clime as a verb and interestingly it is pronounced the same way as climb. Maybe it is ok, maybe it is weird, the better.)

2008/Factory Mercedes Starbus, express A HUMAN WOE/2013.

Factory Mercedes Starbus, express A HUMAN WOE

transmogrifying the night, transmo,
gry,
what was the word
can’t wait to get home, to hear sylph, SYLPH! lok, open

Lolita and gaze
listen to know
the very presentation of a day, a drawing of this day of hers, adorable with crayons on whatever paper with tea on it., thinking about why there is a feeling of pathetia and sorrow in it, feeling of senescence, feeling of it not being allowed, the togetherness, all, eternal my skin, eternal my faith, my effort to stay here
saying, moving your lips in the night the inner psalm, hymn read tirelessly believing in my mind, the passing light of a train and the sounds. Pass the word to it, how I felt the words. Pass.
glut of occurrences happen. Plethora of cuisine, cleansing by publicity, we as a collective, collectives, groups, dynamics between them, us, what is there in between as there always are the betweens that
clash into invertebrate monolith of press, oftener than with short descriptions of what had happened, the medium of books, the medium of clashing, medium of touching and didn’t I say anyrrrh and pyrrhh
pass the word,
tell that She went nuts.

a week-old ventriloquist, week-old presentation, pseudocommunal image, or cross section or slanting and does his dummt take off, dumm, take off, can’t take it, don’t get it

dateline flood line –
they whispered, hi friend floating on a fallen tree in a river,
fast, in a rapid stream, joyously, with incredible approximation inundating hippos, and us.

Unfinished business with civil rights strategy for America’s instant humans and Volstead Prohibition Act.

Procedures of brainwashing quantities of information, enjoyed reading MAD when the lady typist arrived on the business cuspidor was doomed. “SENSasian lunches combine (in bed) best flavorvof of China”. Synesthesia of embryonic groth doomed by str sterility, celebrity warhead, missa, missile, tit resentment. Can’t wait, can’t see, but can imagine if that counts

a day which passed by
like eyes on one’s back
in this order by me, Mercedes Starbus.

Anyone ever wondered what kind of an influence one’s sex, origin and looks have in life in general and in the arts?

I claim they have more significance than anyone cares to admit. Vanity industries do pay attention to the surface much more than I and I am shocked when what I wear is paid more attention to than what kind of art I do or my looks tell what I am capable of (with which I like to play with). How much is it in the interests of the arts to keep stereotypes alive or whose interests are in question all in all, because they are not mine? One can wonder and it is truly weird one has to keep up appearance and act upon one’s appearance. I make this assumption, I should act according to my sex, sex and gender are always an issue, and appearance, because such is my strongest asset? What is the appearance of an artist today, a businessman who functions like a machine, is efficient and more importantly is male? Clichés are so much alive, I wonder the speed of progress. (What progress?) Things that instantly come to your mind when you see someone, what do they tell of you?

BTW, any modelling agency hire 45yrs old? That would be a career change, lol. Oh no, I should lose weight.

Clearing out by which ideologies we live, base our lives on. What does the term ideology mean in terms of changing the world and ways to live? Does ideology match the idea?

11.1 Does ideology match the idea?
11.2 Computers are easy and fun.
11.3 Not hiding my sentiments.
11.4 Scenes in real life. Atmosphere of suspicion, hurt and ill is a curious gap between people, willingly kept alive to make people struggle and fall down.

Introduction:
Concept of ideology is to bring death to unreason and randomness: there are clear rights and wrongs, stupidity and intellect, constant human error and imperfectness, impulsiveness, unexplainable feeling-based things, things to clarify and correct, deny and hide, bad and good, divisions and gaps, unity which must be emotional and rational at the same time, bonds to what we think are good, who we think agree with us and are like us, like us. What is the unreasonable/unreason/irrational still seems to be the very ordinary and commonplace thing. So is ideological battle against the natural as we seek to live modernly specifically structured exactly defined lives and the unnatural is somehow the ideal even though we like to adore nature, because it represents purity, the beginning of us and beauty? The unnatural is something outside our experience but we aspire it, natural is scary, ugly, cold and difficult to master. The knowing and expectation of what the natural is and can do for us, the good for us there, the perfection of nature in our possession is that it is in our control and out of our control, an entity of its own. Admiration of having accomplished something flawless like a well-tended garden is the human touch, an achievement of knowing what plants do, how they grow and flourish. We mastering the natural is the modern desire, a very basic human desire and need, basic survival skill and is what the postmodern should be about, a theory made reality, going forward but not forgetting what has been, something we can understand and again control? The knowing of the natural order as we tend to bind natural to the good and right, is the basis, which we think we know, and paradoxes are inescapable. We divide things into natural and unnatural, good and bad, from which and to which we randomly shuffle, grab from, which both are our material as we are material. There are laws there that we think we know and understand, that cannot be broken according to many like homosexuality is unnatural, women are naturally something as a group. Individually or collectively learned things and decided are the good things and what is bad, or is it about not understanding what natural really is and how nature functions in us, via us, motivates us and results in our lives.

Ideology is to help us move away from the natural state, this is what we have been doing progressively, but still we admire and cherish the natural as something pure and true, valuable, something to be but use abusively. What is the rational part?

It can be very strange to live by ideology knowingly aware: all what is can be against you, what you are is wrong. The needs therein that are true must be are painted black and think as corrupted, as dirty, things you can do are not valuable, an immature selection of us against those others types is stigmatizing and reminds of natural selection in conscious use. Then one must continue thinking what is the reason there in use other than competition and only value is what money and wealth create. Continuing with what is a good person, what is the human in this picture and the animal we like to think as bad, what is a good society, what is the ideology we choose to live by and why is an unreasonable act something we do not understand or value such as work of an artist? The unknown is to be mocked and killed, because it disturbs the balance of strictly framed reality, offends our understanding of the good, what is good life, how to live a life, what is a good person and the rights in a modern frame. Challenging our understanding and maybe challenging us to change drastically, which is an effort and a scare is what ideology pursues like religion, philosophy, like any guide in life but are the challenges correct? What is the reasonable in our thinking are the norms by which we are expected to live and making right choices which must be constantly figured out and based, the very basics of what we are all about are to go through over and over again, so we must challenge ourselves constantly to evolve. Question is how to challenge the norms. In all righteousness thinking one is an absolute equalizer and a teacher as we have seen in social media, everybody is right in their reasoning, routes to take obediently are very often absolute, which obedience happens so easily it puzzles me why.

What are the unreasonable things and why are they unreasonable? There is hurt and loss involved. Scare of not surviving is constant, not being accepted, being an outsider. Have we chosen reason/ideology or has it chosen us and at what point in our lives do we make realisations upon ideology we were born into? How we reason still doesn’t make reasoning right, to our reasoning influence many things that aren’t rational and right, so we choose, point a finger, group etc. to belong in the name of ideology, in fear, in not knowing, in assumption and thinking we know what is the reason/reasonable/good and right. I claim we can be very irrational in our reasoning, thinking we are rational and use our intellect, which is the individual intellect as we like to think we have. Thinking outside the box and speak against can be dangerous in this environment. When one instantly becomes an enemy for confronting and questioning the reason/unreason in use, reasoning of others, task of thinking belongs to all, what is this ideology must be taken on the table for all to see and think how progressive are we eventually. One good example is the concept of natural, what is natural, why we think our way of life is natural, what are the things we think are unnatural and therefore against us and our way of life, morals, values, against the good.

Do we succeed in being objective (which clearly is not the case) what comes to the ideology we believe in and ideologies, values, morals of others? To tolerate is an interesting issue here: what is to tolerate, what must be tolerated etc. It is a vanity and a scare issue how well are we able and willing to look upon and ponder, firstly points of views of our own and then of the others: what are the motives there to think and know, what and whom are we against. To think being absolutely right is a problem and admitting being wrong is incredibly hard. As we should be true to ideology is a demand, who is demanding? Can we hold on to purity of ideological thought and what happens to those who lack faith, put up a fight, question, argue, bring up evidence against your case of absolute truth? Clearly there are many difficulties what comes to knowing. Sticking to a belief like a promise, an illusion, is not knowing enough, can be in the way of learning of the facts. What to do about the facts is deciding what do we ignore and what do we accept as truths. Feelings possibly do not register as the most valuable signifier of what is the absolute truth if there is any. Understanding what the other is all about is as difficult and what are you yourself all about: how to figure that out? We tend to misunderstand, misinterpret, misjudge as we like generalisations, assumptions, appearances, feelings, thinking-you-know-attitude is more popular than actually knowing what is and this all functions along with ideology. When judgment is placed upon the other ideology/reasoning, how much is it about feelings and images/assumptions? To make an ideological system is to look for rational ways to construct a world view, life, values, system to function. May there be logical and sincere missions truly or only in one’s imagination. To have as rational goals as possible as we all reason, why we choose what we do and means to live by takes political ideological standing, call for justice and you thinking according to this ideology is to choose how, why and what. Thinking, reasoning, making, it all must be as clear and focused as possible for results. What kind of results do we want and for who? Instead of thinking you know, learn the facts and you will not be wrong and be aware what there is to know for you which is a lot.

First there must be a solid theoretical base to construct a belief system, believe and moreover know it is true, it makes sense and then we need true believers/sense makers/followers who think can improve their lives with this belief/knowledge, at least definitely change their lives for better and have the courage to do so. Having new methods and tactics as a mass to build something different is a constant effort mankind does and the efforts either fail or succeed which is the interesting part: where do we go wrong? A useful idea becoming ideology means progress. Do idea and ideology match? They should. 

https://www.etymonline.com/word/ideology

ideology (n.)

1796, “science of ideas,” originally “philosophy of the mind which derives knowledge from the senses” (as opposed to metaphysics), from French idéologie “study or science of ideas,” coined by French philosopher Destutt de Tracy (1754-1836) from idéo- “of ideas,” from Greek idea (see idea) + -logie(see -logy). With connective -o- because the elements are Greek and the Greek combining vowel is -o-for nouns of all declensions. Destutt published his Eléments d’idéologie 1801-1815.The term ideology did not become widely employed in the nineteenth century, however, and I have not found that Emerson ever used it. It was only after the appearance of Karl Marx’s long unpublished The German Ideology and Karl Mannheim’s Ideology and Utopia in the period between the world wars of the twentieth century that the term became an omnipresent one. [Lewis P. Simpson, “Mind and the American Civil War,” 1989. Meaning “systematic set of ideas, doctrines through which the world is interpreted” was in use in English by 1907, earliest in socialist and communist writing, with reference to class; from 1918 it came to be used of socialism and communism themselves (along with fascism) and later more broadly still. Ideology … is usually taken to mean, a prescriptive doctrine that is not supported by rational argument. [D.D. Raphael, “Problems of Political Philosophy,” 1970]

 

or maybe idea for the ideology becoming is the risk we continuously must take, are afraid of and reject. That is the new ideas that are somehow dangerous and radical to somebody, their status, interests and authority. Risk taking, going against the establishment, the machine are the first steps which radical thinkers and makers must be ready to take and thinking outside the restraint/system/box that is a cage, inescapable and blind: freedom happens via thinking without constraints but why the new freedom must be made into a new cage which oftentimes seems to happen? How to solve the question of freedom as humans and how much freedom is good for us? How much restraint must there be to limit us, to make us cross the limits made and find something new? To allow freedom which nature represents and be free in thinking, in making and being is the number one issue, what does freedom mean and how much freedom is reasonable to have?

Is ideology just a useful tool for propaganda and full of traps, a religion we need to have to look forward safely, in safety? What is the belief, in what, we need to live by rationally as individuals and as communities? Ideology is to replace belief systems which it eventually itself is, our reason is flawed continuously. We must free ourselves from something old to renew and the restraint of reason? Old that has been based on irrational grounds, unscientific explanations, imagination, superstitions, gossip, biases, gut feelings, intuition, folklore, tales, history, tradition, gender roles and therefore such nonsense have had to be abandoned, which is ultimately the mission destined to fail.

Ideologies and history of the oppressed, lost and misguided people, go hand in hand. Those who are oppressed have had to find logical ways to solving their hopeless situation and there is power in effort of finding the right path, isn’t that how it goes? We are still learning about our irrational and emotional side as humans and importance of it in making societies and finding humanity instead of being machines. We do not live well as soldiers of one truth and missionaries of one ideology, but that is what most people do. Since there are many sides to things, more than we can comprehend, education is needed. There is an idea which thrives to win, we work to succeed as we like to compete and we must. Society in the end is demanding you to, there are people who demand results from you and you are a failure when these expectations are not fulfilled. How do you fail for you? What is a result worth having and for whom? There is idea of taking over in mind when getting involved with ideology of some kind, framing, leaving, abandoning, fanatics and the most violent ones taking over. It requires concentration, focus, dedication, and depth to do wisely, knowing oneself. Finding truth should be a way to avoid hatred and bitterness, but often they, truth-seekers end up doing quite the opposite, exercising something of their very own, a possession which is an idea of the good. Ideology working like walls around one’s head, forcing to see only straight ahead and quite close by. Ideology works fundamentally as means of finding path in a thick forest. It is a guide, map, compass and a way, danger of brainwash lurking. Bear a warning, bear a lot of warnings. Ideology is talk, a performance, written and spoken, overheard, continuation, emotion, passion and attempt to understand those feelings and ideas that one has rationally. Strangely ideological seeking generally wants to abandon emotion yet ideology lives from intense passions that are more or less irrational. Enthusiasm conquering hardship. How to act intellectually for one’s benefit and is what is good for you good for someone else? How to even think we can calculate what happens to us and should happen to anybody else? It requires blind belief in human abilities to manipulate all components of making which many

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ideologies wish to accomplish, manipulation of a mass of people. Life is for everybody to decide and know what to do, how to do that and who are masters deciding. That is the question of what one can do to oneself and with oneself. Not to let anyone decide for you is an ideal, so how does this match the idea of mass today: it is a mass of individuals we have? We live to survive in mutual dependency. Continuously in this moment paying attention to something you hear on TV, at school, in a song, see in the news. To be inspired, moulded or defeated by ideas, facts, disasters, feelings, realities, pieces to put together and make something out of them, inspiration as a life changing force and chain reaction. To let ideas lead, thinking dangers and power of ideas. Do we need protection from ideas? When does an idea become one’s own? If ideas of others are planted in one’s head since childhood, when does person’s self begin, when does the questioning start or knowing it is wrong to question and confront, when we begin to self-censor and allow us be directed by an authority? Learning to speak and communicate in more complex than we give it credit for, learning of manners happens fast, learning when punished happens pretty quickly. Human development to adulthood is a very slow process in comparison to other mammals. It is development of the intellect throughout one’s life. We resisting the moment when I begins, (baby resists crying as reflex of scare, cries from the very moment of his/her birth), scared of not knowing and doing only what body tells to do in that strange moment coming out of a warm place without no other choice. A moment when fetus begins to sense and make thoughts of any kind is time we do not know much about, but it is there, a person, someone. Bright light and hands welcoming and pulling gently leading the way out of womb, new life colliding in to the existing and to all those hands wearing gloves.

11.1 Does ideology match the idea?

Ideologies have crashed into each other as we like to rule and know better, disagree, that is what we do, to do what we do with ideologies, to make distinction, build and notice gaps in between is to know what is there and why, to be exact is to know what we do in our difference, in our need to set boundaries is to be safe, which of course is needed. We crash into people who limit us, who have crashed into each other with fanaticism, disbelief, knowing or not knowing the truth. Them and us running without able to believe anything else than what is right in mind of his/hers, in reality of a person grown into a culture that is given. It is my picturing of ideologies at work, which part of blinding and binding is interesting. Speculating and analyzing results of ideologies known, is there anything other than wanting to ‘intellectualize’ behaviour and the need for leading, being led? Any ideology declares change of things, to change the present state of thinking and living into anew. It is said that to grow up into civilized modern society is the largest ruling ideology there is, which we take self-evident, we grow into it, because we do not

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have any other choice. Do we even notice and what do we choose eventually? Society we have offers choices within the frames of welfare and politics, freedom of speech and expression to avoid hurt and provide well-being, giving tools to deal with life, hurt or hiding hurt. We are not supposed to express our hurt feelings in public and we must feel shame is still something to look into. How well can we objectively analyze our doings and know what is wrong? How well can I see myself and how do I see myself? How much of me I see and what I do wrong or right, does it depend on how others see what is right and wrong and what there is in me? Interaction between me and them, image of me, image of them is a constant game played, to be alert about. If time and place are borders and lines to cross, how do I place myself in all this, since I do not live in a vacuum and I should be able to make progress. I live in plenty, in multitude of information and choices. Time is quantified, partitioned in order to get things done, to make progress or make one think one is going somewhere. We pursue to become efficient and good at work, in personal life. We need to measure time to do work productively. Create a day of work, time at work used tells of our meaning and purpose and to forget work in leisure time, gather energy for the next day.

Power of a person is being used to benefit and make a sellable object. People working get paid a certain amount for a specific work of their choosing. Someone estimates the value of time used and force invested, profit collected, skill put in use. Value of force and effort given in a certain time frames a life, a person. To change labour into objects and objects into wealth makes a system. Labour being one object in this process, labourer the other. It is calculation of amount and value, value of people and work is needed and also possibly removed when necessary. People have learned to bargain and claim their rights as workers or was it a granted permission to do that, that there isn’t fear to claim better pay? If in terms of work there aren’t enough sufficient labourers, what happens to work? Labourers can strike if they are not happy for what they are paid and production stops or moves elsewhere, this can happen for the employers too and they do move away or robotise production if necessary. What happens to work now is an acute question as there is a flood of cheap workers, robotics has advanced significantly, work as physical effort changes rapidly, does work as an idea change and how capable are we to change and keep up in this speed? Money earned gets consumed into basic necessities which we get more and more. Nothing is for free in capitalist society where time and place are an important issue.

Struggles of the working class have been the most powerful acts moulding societies at large. As the crowd and folk refuse or can’t work, consume or move, mass of people can change the whole society. First strikes in the west during heavy industrialization era in the 1800s were not nonviolent. Workers were attacked by state; employers and the owning upper class took violent measures against strikers without hesitation. In India first ever industrial strike took place in March in 1862. [7.] “The general strike action only became a feature of the political landscape with the onset of the Industrial Revolution. For the first time in history, large numbers of people were members of the industrial working class; they lived in cities and exchanged their labor for payment. By the 1830s, when the Chartist movement was at its’ peak, a true and widespread ‘workers consciousness’ was beginning to

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awaken in England.” [8.] People who have fought for working people have been given bad name, those who are against maximum profiting and exploitation of workers: socialists, communists, union men and women, feminists, all of those have been persecuted, shamed and diminished in the name of the ruling class, profit and winnings. Impact of struggles of the working class have been massive to this day, and how much are our struggles similar to those fought or different from those going on today. Paycheck, length of the working day, working conditions, safety issues, holidays, paternity and maternity leaves, kindergartens, schooling for children of working class families, inexpensive and decent housing, democratic institutions, inexpensive healthcare, equal rights for everyone to live a good life, possibilities to study and work and moreover abolishment of child labour. Welfare that offers chances for happy and safe lives, which many immigrants today go after, is still at risk. Those who cannot take care of themselves are taken care of is the hope. It is a long list of benefits that must be taken into consideration to make a sustainable and equal welfare state. Process and progress of labour movements is still going on. Maybe we act upon when it is absolutely necessary and there is no other alternative. Asia is by population the biggest area of immediate need for labour to improve working conditions and terms of work.

11.2 Computers are easy and fun

How to phrase ideology we Westerners live now by or do we have many? Consumerism, capitalism, Christianity, democracy, neoliberalism, conservatism, environmentalism, globalism, feminism, libertarianism there are many things that make our information-filled world and many ideals and interests that confront each other. As much as economy-driven society seems corrupt and fascist in its need to purify, unify or exploit we still have multiple voices and history is good to bear in mind in terms of how those who are abused can make a change at large, but also personally.

There are reasons to do things, sense, senselessness, uselessness, uses and acts of doing something because of doing, because we feel compelled. Who makes us feel compelled but ourselves amd our condition. If there is nothing to do, who directs and gives instructions to follow, ideas to realize but yourself. There would be nothing to do if we did not invent it and find the need to get things done. Modern people have created a world of errands to keep busy or is it because there are more of us all the time, we have more to do and practice. We have more bureaucracy, institutions, tasks, complexity, piles and messes. Our equipment is marketed for us to keep us stay informed, keep track of our time, at our chores, tasks and what is there. This is what you do with your time and keep your day packed up. This is what we offer you, a world of things and it is easy.

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It is made fun to possess a machine that is online, on the net, touchable, available, cool, coolness is the main thing, perkiness, stuff is mechanized in order for us to do cheap tricks. Circus tricks? The most fun part is that models change constantly and equipment evolves faster than most customers can keep up. Strategy of constant growth is to produce in nonstop flow. Competition is heavy. How to keep up and why? And why do these gadgets get so much attention in the media? Phones, computers, TVs, robots. They are fun and expensive, they invade our world and we let them entertain us. Their market and financial value are immense. Market value, what does is mean exactly? How much a company is worth, how much can it produce value, newness and make profit? Electronics industry has a large coverage on the economy at least when looked at the news. News on economy are statistics, scales, curves, plots, diagrams, photos and lists, percentages to keep our attention on wanting, holding and panicking. A new phone keeps us connected and discarding, hanging and fiddling. New electronics look like candy in bright colors, constantly changing application keep coming up to fill a void, making it easier to choose what to buy at grocery store. [1.] Stephen Elop: Analysts, meanwhile, do not think the new Lumia 1020 will set the world on fire. “Despite the quality of the device, I have some serious doubts about whether it will change Nokia’s fortunes, and it risks becoming a niche product,” says IDC’s Francisco Jeronimo. And Ian Fogg at IHS Screen Digest suggested the 1020’s camera makes it a “halo product“, something to light up the brand. Snapchat­ compatible app called Swap chat; and as for Instagram, he says, the specialist photo app Hipstamatic now comes in a Windows Phone version. Doubt whether it is going to do it or not. New device, newly born and soon too old. Welcomed with hesitation to the market. Exhausting platform, making fresh sound old, wornout, we are already bored with it. Smell something burning? Because there is a burning pile of trash there already behind the beautiful picture. Why so gloomy. Perk up. Depressive statistics of the state of world: pollutions, contamination, waste, junk, abuse of minerals, abuse of land and labour, where does it all come from? This picture and its behind. This at hand, how did it get here. Who took the picture? Why is he standing there? Corporal Santa Claus guru giving a speech of hope four times a year, quarterly giving announcements so that we know what to be excited about. The need, what do we need and to do what.

To set the world on fire. World that already is burning. World existing in flames, in heat, burn, destruction, process, warmth of the sun. What is a burning world a metaphor for than destruction? We burn energy to

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keep our daily routines working, smoke and gases burn in our lungs, oxygen in bonfires. Energy which we burn running, thinking and moving, emotions expressed according to temperatures, evilness in fire or cold, love and hate, hell, the rush of blood to the head.

Energy is different things to different people, different contexts, situations, excitement, fever, lust, conflict, war, a need, something to eat. To burn is to change form of material, molecule structure, metamorphoses of materia. What does it mean when a CEO of a multinational corporation talks about the burning world, hints to it, or just to say it won’t do that when introducing a new phone model? One hint is that revolution is a fancy, sellable, fashionable and luring term, the world is on fire is exciting for the middle class? Or was it to tell it might get people excited in buying? Could it be rockish, punkish and popish when CEO wearing sneakers talks about setting the world on fire? Don’t go all the way rock and punk, you will destroy you sellable image. It would be the next new thing in presenting new gadgets to have pyrotechnics on stage or utter pure nonsense flirting with the journalists, like go fuck yourselves. Telling the consumers this is the it thing, the thing you need 41 mega pixel camera phone with a boom.

Expression I am trying to understand is and was said by Stephen Elop the Chief Executive of Nokia as he was using catchy vocabulary as the top salesman of Nokia. It is always an occasion when a phone manufacturing company presents, even many times a year, new models, itself over and over, and its plans by which Nokia going to keep its place as one of the leading manufacturers of cell phones. Planning to rule the market, planning to rule the world. In that sense it really is a burning world. Analysts don’t believe, but Stephen does, or what, maybe not, maybe I’m just calculating and being cynical, yes me. Maybe nobody believes in the ever continuing growth, so what are they doing? That’s probably it, the illusion making and believing. Maybe I understood wrong. It still is a survival game. Is a CEO of Nokia realistic in selling continuously changing apparatuses? Changing for what? For better? Is that a new invention, innovative constructing of the world, progress of machinery, progress of man, globalism at best? Is it necessary? Doesn’t the enormousness of the market tell that the new phones are desired, constant newness is desired badly? The talk of the CEO is desired and waited as an event, as a show. It is a carnivalesque happening and especially working as photos in newspapers. Every detail is important. Finland is still asking when will the new Nokia appear. How dependent Finland’s economy still is on Nokia? Problem of being dependent on big corporations who do not own as a strategy anything to anybody, but only to itself and its stockholders, is substantial. In terms of wealth and how to get it, to be dependent on entities that themselves function only to fulfil selfish needs, meaning keep the company growing and winning more money, is megalomania. It is very suspicious to lean on corporative money as savior or believe companies to be magnets of wealth and fortune. On one hand they are and the other they destroy us. In a way they are the magnets, but there is more to success than finance and possessions. The way how we follow how multinational corporations evolve and keep nations’ economies thriving is manic and panicking,

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if that is what they do hypnotise us, we one-sidedly are staring at what the chief executive said exactly, what did he mean and what does it mean for us. To set the world on fire by Nokia’s new phone sounds like a huge exaggeration (that is not what he meant) and somewhat a commercial burst. How trustworthy are his words? Why would he be trustworthy? Who listens to him in the end. Who believes what he says in presenting equipments and applications for us that do more? For those who like to play with electronic devises, consume them, to afford them, it is a fun spectacle. New surprises or no surprices and thrills for a moment. That is what these items mostly are, to people who do not necessarily need new artillery, but enjoy consuming and the show-off. The electronic toys for adults and kids. In some sense it is a continuous war. War of who invents the next best thing to sell. Our multibillion toy reality industry has a strange way of drawing a thick line between the poor and the rich, between worlds defined by numbers and possession, garbage and value. It is the material good that the rich can have fairly easily, which the poor bastards produce in sweatshops over and over again. It is also curious the difference between the image corporations like Nokia create for themselves and the reality within and at the production lines and after the lines.

To look at Elop’s speech of a phone with monstrous camera with 41 megapixels, which is at the moment more than rivals have to offer, is it what buyers want, mega-mega? Guessing what buyers want. What is with the obsession for bigger, owning and producing megalomania? Is it something Western? What is the cult of owning, growing, expanding other than a capitalist plot? It is a jealous play of looks, of gazes and very human, of oh look what I have got. Show­off of power, ability, quantity and wealth, ability of putting on a show, but still never enough, an unstoppable production line. There are similarities to building world’s largest buildings, conquering worlds, countries, seducing women, protecting one’s right to exploit and abuse with corporal expanding, lookalike innovation, which a phone with 41-pixel camera is. Competitive society is rewarding those who are the greediest for success, success and talent is defined by tools one has. Measurements for success at largeness, interviews, visibility, figures and counted as how much. Everybody is nowadays a good photographer. Speeding in search for novelty is dictated by corporal quarterly financial functions followed closely and who is a billionaire. As fashion circulates from winter­, spring, summer and to fall collections, collections are tightly followed by the press and us. What to wear, where and with what, what and whom to look like. Such accessories as phones go nicely along with the burning picture of the burning world, burning human.

Visibility, appearance, living in visual world with signals coming at us, we must be seen. We giving ourselves to be looked at, we want to be looked at, need to be looked at and appreciated, estimated, evaluated both ways, to be

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looked at is to live, have a life and to look good. Could it be said we are selling ourselves to be accepted? What are we supposed to look like? Supposed to look for? Or maybe the question should be how ‘we’ become to see the way we do, how thorough the influence of our environment is and of people to what we become to be and think. As it is we who do not live in a bubble, we absorb effects, influences, reactions, actions knowingly and unknowingly. We collect things and thoughts we like to own, resemble to, to imitate, to follow, and to belong to and on and on. How much do we follow unconsciously for clues to find acceptance, to find our way, do we find ourselves and others or just junk? How much am I me in this all? What is me, myself, my mind and my consciousness as we think we are individuals by consuming, the way we consume and what we like?

To look like someone, like a terrorist, businessman, artist, poet, schoolgirl, teacher, politician, Instagrammer etc. people have codes from which we recognize their and our tribe, group, social status, codes by which we understand the context in which the person maybe lives in, or more likely we assume these codes of others by how they dress as we like to place labels, boxes and categorize to make it easy for us to understand how to behave, what that other may be thinking and where do we stand. Influence is a key word nowadays. We like to assume situations and thoughts of that other, someone and of course we must up to a point. What else can we do than psychologize and analyze to form a strategy.

Interesting question today 18.7.2013 popped out on twitter: How does a terrorist look like?
One is a product of a culture soaked with imagery of wars in movies and in real life, news and in other media with heavily stereotyped press visuals in a stream of those who oppose each other. As ridiculous as it is, picture of a terrorist in my mind first is an Arab (male) with a scarf with heavy guns. There are many clear images of terrorists in the news flow of those who are blamed to be terrorists, to oppose a strong clean-looking notion of a worn out freedom fighter is the common situation. Freedom fighters as terrorists probably would call themselves and why not. Curious how labels are stamped, they stick to become a fixed truth. What comes to those giving the titles and the reasons why label anyone is politics. Since many crimes of humanity are committed by people wearing suits, labels of terrorists stay forever without much changing telling a story about our media culture, of us and the extent of manipulation. Media continues to push the same imagery over and over again, anything that has a scandal value is thought to be sellable and it is. So, it is not only media which likes the repetition of the same old same old, it is us. What comes to men wearing suits at conferences and the meetings called G with number attached to, they don’t eat the dust. They don’t show at the crime scene, they don’t carry guns. They don’t even get charged with crimes against Humanity, because war is a justified act and a sellable product, war makes profit.

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It is not difficult to point to direction of those smooth guys and place the blame on clean-looking, polite and correctly behaving politicians with connections on a red-carpet waving (not carrying guns, but image of a gun is upon them, built-in their moves). The act of correctness has immense impact. A trained performance on media stage, an imitation of certain kind of hygienic clean perfection. Forming perfect sentences, speaking in tone, well-chosen, friendly, amusing, joking and funny. Funniness appeals (is that why they joke on set or is it to hide something, saying don’t hate me, I’m a good guy), verbal seduction and smelling good. Interesting is the connection between amiable smell and words said. It is part of the politeness game to create light atmosphere. Our traditions of behaving, media make-believe and biases are in an important role when focusing on and using stereotypes to make an impact. Stereotypes that got made, how they live and create our world. That is what stereotypes do strongly and strangely; create what we see, want to see and hear, and we creating stereotypes again in return, giving back the received filth ignoring truth. Prejudices being translations and rendition of the unchanged melody.

10.3 Not hiding my sentiments.

I ride the wave that’s what I do” words of a trader sitting in front of computer screens in documentary called Floored directed by James Allen Smith (2009) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=–H8SY334Zw. Film focusing on stock trader’s profession in Chicago. How people working in the ‘pit’ see their work, which is about making a lot of money aggressively and in a possessed way loving it. If demons are not in there, I’ll be damned. It is not just a cattle pit the place of gambling. It is a mental state of making wealth and anything else is secondary. Moneymaking is what traders concentrate on doing with their body and mind focused on timing, patterns and the right hit. Which is their main goal, reason for working, big bucks, showoff and to perform. Most say they do it every day as a way of life. Macho image is part of the way of living as is smoking cigars and spending money like candy. It surely is a question of personality and values. It is a highly masculine field and brutality of the business is clear. Traders do not seem to be sorry about it at all. It is part of the trade to take big risks and win or get hurt and lose everything. Traders are gamblers and enjoy the risks. They enjoy the game. It is a boy’s dream come true with I fucked with the playmate of the month. In the film it is not mentioned what it is traders are trading. It does not play a role of in their thinking what businesses do as long as they are winning. It is just money. We are the money, losses are on all of us. The thought is to get money in a very egoistic manner of taking. Evaluating the right time and amount of stock to sell reading other traders’ faces and minds. Part of the film is to show homes and possessions of traders. How their houses resemble their ideology and way of life. One of the guys travels and

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hunts wildlife. Trading business and stuffed animals look the same; Oh look, I shot a Rhino and got photographed in front of its dead body with a gun in my hand and cigarette in my mouth. Human condition can be ugly on high testosterone.

Hardcore sport at work and in leisure time. Enjoyment, thrill, ecstasy and adrenaline as fuel and flow to be and live in. I made much money, in repeat. I can do this and get that. Things are there to be taken. Film Floored ends at the time of 2008 crash. It is a time of the beginning of recession or should it be said the revealing of the financial decline, it breaking out and up. At the end of the film Mr. George W. Bush is giving a concerned and empathetic speech about stock market decline. He is with us, with our worries at the time of this “extraordinary state of economy“. “Some have failed, credit markets have frozen. We are at the brink of serious financial crisis.” Movements around the globe have been active and ready to fight against greed. In places financial depression has shown catastrophic consequences leaving people homeless, unemployed and without income. Devastating has been the scope of the disaster as the gambler mentality still reigns the same that caused the recession. Dichotomy between stock traders, their attitude towards making money, impact they make with their work globally and living is shocking. Shock is that there is no shock in the end. It is like the inevitable misery of millions of losers and joy of few mighty winners. It is the very logic when you look at the thinking patterns closely. It has been known how big money moves and why economy is ruled by banks, investment and insurance houses. There has not been enough democratic regulation of the money flow and the finance world tends to be a game, just as traders in the film are telling. Finance is a competitive sport where winning is the only thing that matters. Rules, taxes and laws are there to be avoided. Finance world is a world of its own sucking the most out of the living and leaving the rest to rot, game effecting everybody with its ups and downs. It does not sympathize or regret, it doesn’t matter how many times you save the banks, they won’t save you. It takes care of its own profit and goes hiding in towers. The measures are very clear, only odd thing is that the so-called democratic countries and politicians willingly support this survival of the most ruthless ideology. Media functioning as the megaphone telling loudly how things are and how afraid we should be. [2.]

Idea of good and bad is known, sensible is the way to choose between. Constant fighting giving meaning for us to structure the world and make it may be in a simpler manner, maybe better. Those two sides making us and making us create. 

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People are scared to death. People are made scared. Illusions of what is good and what is not are made every day by people who think they know better. Kindness is very scarce. We are made to believe that to be kind is to be weak. There is a serious misunderstanding in what is strength, hate, what is good and how to treat other human beings. For me it feels like a world of constant misunderstandings without apologies, regrets, learning nor spiritual and mental growth. People living in believing they are good, in good, doing good, they are deserving, they do good-by doing good which is often the material good. Good people are doing for themselves. Their lives are for themselves., who else. Selfishness is part of our survival instinct. I go first. I think for all creatures it is so. It can be called the will to survive and flourish. The human in us, the nature, survival, the bad and the good. We are in an ongoing state of scare of not finding enough good for us, possessions bringing the feeling of safety, success and

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bravery. Yet we are very much afraid to put ourselves at jeopardy for public good. Losing time, energy and effort for the sake of someone else is demanding. It is a curious and banal behavioural pattern of being secure and winning all the time, compulsive and manic. Knowing what is right and good, can we beat the nature, do we have to beat it in every way possible or only the part that is us in our cells and synapses and all that body and material that we are? Still we compare the good to the natural. Can we beat this conflict in order to be modern? Could we eat less and be more kind to the nature and ourselves in doing so? Could we not grow exponentially in material but grow from the inside out as people or is that naive? Could we be less individual and more communal? What is our human nature? In the light of economics it looks grim. Does human nature create us or does nature create our nature daily? How much are we actually able to change as beings? Is a mass altering of people’s behaviour possible as is the ongoing mass murder, hypnosis and lunacy? Mass change of human spirit and mind for the good to find a good life, peaceful and harmonious in a slow way as many quotes online kindly remind us. Changing the goals, aspirations, halt our eagerness to conquer and beat others down. It is a beginning of some sort all the time. An end is a beginning, ending is a change.

Ideas of the weak and strong put people in different positions, individual characterizing and differences between genders, ethnicities are used to rule and diminish. It is ever so strange, because there is no stop to it. The evidence and necessity to manifest the difference, strength and weakness and how they are defined. We know boundaries exist, we make them. It is a reason for the constant fights and discrimination. Based on traditions, superstitions, habits, and imagining inner qualities by looking at the outer qualities. What qualifies? If a woman wants to pose strong (I call it posing) she has to be like a man, speak manly words, use gestures, choose topics, tones of voice. Examining the other instead of oneself is the main issue. Examining happens by the eye. When I read magazines for women it is all about being under a magnifying glass and how to impress, how to be, and growth is what, finding true happiness via norms still? People do not know how to be. They need instructions. Magazines are offering survival instructions for women, how-to-kits, measuring, give yourself time, spoil yourself, calculative manipulation of self-image based on torture and self loath. Quasi­ well­-being for the wealthy, it can be bought, of course, everything is for sale. Articles are ads, radiant examples of decay and cheating. You deserve it. It is the fear of death that is targeting us to consume, fear of not living, fear of being left out, misplaced, abandoned, fear of sickness and loneliness. What defines happiness which is presumably our goal to be happy, carefree and enthusiastic, is it the emotional side to which we are stuck? Our emotions guiding us doesn’t sound rational. It is not reasonable to argue and cause disturbance, unhappiness. Happy people do not need to find anything since they are

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in a perfect state. Happiness is the state when one is most eager to go searching for more? Is it an emotional moment to be fulfilled with little, less can be more than most of us understand? Don’t stuff happiness with too much cream. To learn to understand momentary body of happiness is essential in finding happiness. But what is little then, what is enough, adequate, sufficient? How much of happiness is given and which part we create ourselves? [3.][4.][5.] What is being said and the ways to say are essential. Which topics stay hidden and which lay bare in making collective empowering atmosphere or not. Collective togetherness, native and foreign making things happen for all of us. Bear in mind who are you talking to, who to address and who have power to elect, give advice, lead, direct, who takes/ is given place in front. The emphasis is on beauty, complexity, simplicity, easiness, effortlessness, understandable seriousness, strength, stresslessness, joy and a mass of individuals. A mass, thousands of individuals stopping and beginning kindness, a new religion please now. Kindness towards oneself and others. We live in a sadist world that eats us and itself by wanting people to look like clones in the pictures, pose, eat the same food, wear the same clothing as the rich, do the same things as them in pictures, live like the rich. It could be called trying to find stability by moulding the crowd with mass media, making the mass believe what is good for them, what is good to think, have, be like and know. Mass hysteria, mass manipulation, mass delusion, mass destruction is happening without you being able to help it, so live it.

Modern times finding sickness in the other, there must be someone to blame. That is not modern, that is human finding his ego. Whether it is witchcraft, feminism or socialism, it is about those others who dare to object and they make bad things happen. And what is health anyway and how to avoid feeling ill, because I feel like throwing up. What is the ultimate bad we must avoid? Should they, bad, be isolated, the guilty. Make them wear orange, humiliate them. Some unfit people who do not know how to live in this civilized world. What is healthy in a diseased society? Health industry booms, it flourishes, avoid fat, eat that. We want to feel good all the time. Spoil ourselves. Are we finding the other by placing the blame, what is the other than low? There is constant suspicion against anything different. Is that fear I smell. Other is different from oneself. To like someone, we tend to look for similarities, compare. Forever ongoing problem of how to understand what the other conscious being is feeling and thinking or even be interested in those things someone has. The manners of communication of trying to be understood, to make myself clear, to claim my place as a thinking and worthy individual, capable

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member of society, it is to make oneself known, explain myself, express myself, say and be seen. Without that ability is there an I? Can I be in a state of unable to express and still be a worthy being? In that case I am at the mercy of others who do not have mercy for those who are thought to be weak? Ability and possibility of expressing my thoughts is vital in terms of growth, in terms of becoming part of but aware. To reflect myself and get responses, get rejection or approval. I need both. I need feedback so I would not feel that I am living in a vacuum among zombies ready to be eaten. Anything, a response, still it can be a desperate attempt if no one is interested.

Weakness. How is it defined nowadays? I am curious because my gender is again and again declared weak. Well, I do feel weak under all this guilt. Physically and bound to inventing a plan continuously, inventing new ways of being and doing. To be an alien in one’s own country sounds like someone who has committed a crime. Alienation is seen as solitary existence, someone who cannot get in touch with the rest of the world in an easy way. Does not want or is not able to? Then one can think is alienation the real problem here, in this picture? Is it just a symptom the problem of the alienated? Should they be told to perk up? That is what placing the blame does cause loss of focus. To someone who is left outside to survive for whatever reason blame is probably not the right thing. And why are they alienated? By choice of their own or others? Bullying, depression, alienation, loneliness go hand in hand. This society is in big trouble with mental health issues pretty soon if not already. Those who are bullied are not the only ones having mental health issues. Very often the bully has more severe symptoms which stay untreated. Mental health is just as important to maintain as physical health, maybe even more important. It would be about a time for the stigma around mental health illnesses to fade. What has this got to do with class, gender or work in general? With my experience of jobs in Finland a lot. For example, it is common to be bullied at work, one can say bullying was a joke, one should understand humour, even cruel. One must also understand not to tell your superiors about bullying. It is common to let believe that personnel cope such problems on their own, since it is not kindergarten. Funnily many people behave like they were mentally very young so yes, work can be like kindergarten. Examples are many, they all sound familiar and repetitious. It has led me wondering what happens at work. People get alienated, alienate each other, make suicides, get depressed and it is happening in a massive force. According to WHO report on worldwide depression 2012 350 million people have been ill with depression. Call that an epidemic. How odd.

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Why is it a taboo? WHO statistics also tell that one Million people commit suicide every year. [6.] To be alienated is of course a strange state of things, maybe coincidence, maybe unavoidable, sad and extreme. What does it mean to a person? Why there is alienation and is it more common than ever? Is the society emphasizing too much on individual success and coping heroically on your own? The whole phenomenon of alienation is linked to concept of normal, normal behavior, mass of the similar us, how things should look like and what we are supposed to be and do with our lives. Person who is alienated in society’s eyes may not feel alienation as a bad thing or harmful. Alienation can be a refuge. Safe haven for a misfit. Some of it could be called What kills enthusiasm at work and Why can’t everybody get what they want for Christ’s sake. For how many people work is a compulsory burden, everyday chore with no enjoyment of doing? Remembering tired looking people in the morning in a bus five o’clock, same faces every morning. Are we doing it for the money? Is money good? And if it is not then why do it? We have to eat and live. What if there is no money for your work and you love your work despite does it pay. Few may value what you do and future is always an open book, canyon, abyss, jail of whatever, ecstasy, heaven, thrill or freedom to do whatever you like and call it what you want. What is class anymore other than a heritage and a memory and what does alienation got to do with this? Class is an epoch description in movies and stories. How things have been done, how things will be done by set standards. It is about doing and making and having position. Making money, making a living. Expenses rising continuously, paychecks are not keeping up in the progress. Middle class growing close to the working class or class identity will eventually fade altogether. Almost anyone who is lucky enough to have a job is working-class nowadays. How does that notion change our perspectives on society and identity? It begins to be too respected to have a job at all, despite what it is. The unemployed, immigrants, the poor become more or less ‘alienated’, unfortunate people who do not find their place, difficulty of finding

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meaningful things to do without money is a problem. We like to see alienation as a personal and social problem. It has become a curse, shame and person’s own fault like living with your mother. Scapegoats to any economic turmoil there might be, burdens to society are those who do not match the given methods of play and survival. It is them who suffer the most of the scams that happen in financial world and rules of making it. There is a certain apathy and indifference there socially, lack of interest from which alienation springs out. It is a very strange phrase to hear from a fifteen-year-old youngster who does not want to do anything, go anywhere. Alienation means one does not have a job, intern job, school to go to, friends to be with, hobby to activate or home etc. It is a complicated and complete passive state a living person can have, helplessness. It can sound the spoiled ones are not able to activate themselves. It is something they have not learned to do, make it. They are not able to use capacity of theirs, some say. One side to the picture what comes to change and alienation. Things we cannot change seems to be ourselves, to accept that fact is hard. What is life but pure chance and random events, change nailed into it all over. How to make our burden lighter in this picture is the basic question. How to become less selfish, less self-absorbed and more open to the world? If you can lighten the burden of yours why not lighten somebody else’s burden as well.

Alienation comes in different forms and there are all kinds of ways to see it. For one, one is master of his own life, what happens to him, he earned his situation. Which is a very cruel way to see life as pure competition and luck. Since we have different kinds of ways to manage and do things, learn methods, it is rather insensitive to place blame on those less fortunate and those who have made bad choices, or there has been someone else who has made bad choices for them. Some choose to gamble (but isn’t that what people have to do since we do not know the right answers, what future holds. We have to take our chances?), some are screwed and conned, robbed and killed. How to gamble in life? Gambling is a sport says dictionary. Risky game, life’s essence, risks and how well we are able to learn to either avoid, predict and adjust our lives to risks. Always at risk and fearing for life is what welfare state is to help with, still to find life enjoyable we love to play games. Some place stakes higher. Wanna bet? Vocabulary used associates with money directly and someone’s life can end in a bullet. Is life money like time is, since it can be gambled or does life produce monetary possessions, is that what life does? What is life? Someone’s life is a possession of that person. It varies in different countries and by gender how person’s life is weight. Winning in this random game gives power and status of the winner. If one can repeat winning over and over one becomes a champion, unbeatable and people ask how did you do it. What is your

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secret? How to gamble in life is a silly question, the risk and nature of life itself is a game. To learn how to play and who dictates the rules. As we are playing, we make it all quite confusing, to think meaning of playing and why am I on this particular set and what is my part, who is we. To talk about social change is to talk about kindness towards others, people and animals. How to practice kindness in everyday life? Is there time, are people capable of random acts of kindness, how would such acts be accepted and randomness if that is the nature of help? What do I do mostly is pass by, walk on? I do not stop to talk. Society has constant demand on us, we must demand much of ourselves. It is difficult to avoid feeling of losing when so much is lost. The feeling it brings trying to change things but nothing changes. That is the new normal, a superhero, achiever one must be otherwise you are plain. It is not difficult to guess how such a person got made. Where do we get our delusional image of what life should be, where to place our goals? It is too much to ask to be someone who looks good on TV, yes, I think it is. If that is our normal, I don’t want it. It is true we live in a competitive cinematic society. Competition on any level and age, with anything. It is tiring and often futile. To compete at work, at school, in social media, with strange ways of playing. Who makes it to be an interesting person and what kind of person qualifies in that category? I really don’t know anymore. I’m not sure if I give a fuck.

Is there change emerging and what is it? If there is a change it is very slow although we are speeding. What is sickness now? How an illness gets a status of an illness? It has a cure, it is a condition out of ordinary? Homosexuality was considered sickness till the beginning of 80s in Finland. Since the eighties concern and treatment for mental illnesses have been improved fairly well. Attitudes towards sexual minorities are slowly changing as well. It is almost ok to talk openly about psychotherapy one has had and almost ok to be lesbian. How about suicide one’s family member has committed? How emotional illnesses can be measured? They are emotional states in which it is difficult to live, that make you behave strangely, out of the ordinary, see things that do not exist. It is the symptoms you describe to your doctor and what your doctor thinks about them. How long has this been going on? Do you have suicidal thoughts? How would you do it, suicide? Why is there shame on mental illness is obvious, the danger and breaking of

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social codes become visible, a disturbance to the normal which statistically seen is normal. How does that change human worth when you get sick? Why is it scary? You lose control of yourself and your life, you become something to hide, you can’t afford to be sick. Illness of mind makes you do unexpected things, behave irrationally and maybe, just maybe be a danger to your environment and yourself. Then in this light there are lunatics going freely around most everywhere.

Stay alert.

11.4 Scenes in real life. Atmosphere of suspicion, hurt and ill is a curious gap between people willingly kept alive to make people fall down.

A plastic surgeon has in his office pictures of his clients who had posed in Playboy or in other men’s magazines. He is very proud of his work and was pointing out that he likes it that women want to look beautiful and correct bodily flaws they may have and usually do. Perfection is a difficult idea to approach a body, a person. It is bound to taste, ideals, desires, upbringing and other influences, personality and learnings in life, needs and goals. Other matter connected in finding perfection is to define the flaws. Some bodily features may be justified to correct. Not so sure if correcting a vagina for boyfriend’s thrill would be on my list. Taste has tendency to change and it is going to the unnatural. The more we imitate what others have, the more infantile our desires are, this is my view. To seek acceptance by appearance and imitation what does that tell about people other than of their desperate need for love and be seen. Appearance and creating seemingly a personal style is theatre and a message. This is what I am like, this is what I like. It is also a common subject of talk. Look what she is wearing. To carry my clothes, to carry myself, is to carry a person. How do we carry ourselves is Habitus, bearing. One has to focus on that, concentrate on how do I do when I speak and express like this, I look like this. It is important how you face people, it is also polite to dress to a certain occasion in a certain way. It is manners, courtesy, traditions, impressions and expectations. It has led me thinking how much I am my clothes, my Habitus, visuals I create? My clothes are part of me even though they would not interest me that much as parts of my self-­ expression. They are part of my daily life to protect me. Some clothes are me and very many are not. I have chosen to wear few comfortable ones. I let others to see me in them. I am viewed wearing them as parts of me. So, it feels justified, a little to be judged by what I am wearing and oh so stupid. My clothes tell a story and they represent me. I should consider it heavily as appearance is the number one issue by which I am viewed and become for others. Should I hide something. Is there a reason for changing my outfit other than it is worn-out, uncomfortable or doesn’t suit the weather? To wear something

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hideous, out of fashion and obviously secondhand is a statement and it tells I don’t have much money to spend on clothes or I care on certain issues. What comes to clothing is essential part of consumerism, grouping and pleasing. The younger you are the more important grouping is. Change in terms of growing up is to become to accept who you are, to be self-­ aware. How consciously do we construct our ego and id or is ego a dictator? Kids know from quite early on what they like, what they want to wear and they compare and reflect. Liking and not liking, are there shades to that? Liking a bit more. With liking there is the sense of good and bad in terms of behavior, which gets moulded by pressure and guidance.

Our minds are under influence and surveillance. We get addicted to interactive social media as well as to sensation hungry instant contents in any media. We are guided, in other words manipulated to follow contents that are asking to be followed. It is one scheme of fitting in the social norms nowadays. Fun is luring. Entertainment is to stay glued to equipment that make chatting about Justin Bieber and BB­-house on Twitter possible. Laughter is to connect, laughter at others and make situations easy-going, effortless and simple. It also makes life more livable bringing relaxed and unstressed feelings removing tension. Entertainment is also to change controlling monitoring straitjacket of stress and efficiency, and entertainment creates the straitjacket of effortlessness, dreams and fun.

Conventions can bring feeling of security and stability. They can prevent from seeing other perspectives to finding new ways of doing and thinking. One convention is to fully trust corporations who provide easy entertainment, stream of content for us to consume and reflect to. Entertainment business is an image creator. Images for us to desire to be desired. Entertainment is influencer like no other what comes to body image, placing importance on status, social appreciation, a clear lifestyle moulder. It keeps us with fast changing stream of images and influences, fashions and trends. We absorb everything we get emotionally attached to and it keeps us alert for what is coming next. Change is difficult to measure in this kind of world where almost nothing stays still, but still what is changing exactly? It is almost absurd to try measure what changes, how and when. Change itself is a way to live when you think about it and when you don’t think. That is a sure thing and nature of life. So why puzzle myself with this is to understand the decision to change, need to change, will to change, demand to and where does the individual desire, need, will make a change begin and how. What needs to happen to make a desired social change, a reform, realize itself. I say so because it is partly uncontrollable when social change concerning many people happens. Reasons to be puzzled by

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questions about change are because even though it is nothing but self-­ evident, we are struck by it. Changes can be overwhelming, hard to bear. Tsunami wipes away 250 000 people just like that in couple of minutes. misfortune and death is all over. Is there something else one can do but accept them? Call them punishments from God? It is us that have done something wrong and made God angry. We can try to calm God down by worshipping and living as He has told us to live in holy books, be his image? We can try to explain what happens to us and why. As our lives despite all preparations are at chance, coincidence, random and accidental.

1.https://www.is.fi/taloussanomat/art-2000001789652.html, 20.8.2013
2.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Njoq3HDYwj0
Floored, documentary on Chicago stock exchange, 2009 “electronic trading brings stability, it is a very efficient market place”. 21.8.2013
3.https://www.ft.com/content/bfe80c04-c5f5-3516-bd9b-dd30ae74178f
“Should the west intervene in Syria? Whatever it does, it will do so in the shadow of the war in Iraq. Tony Blair, the prime minister who led the UK into that war, has come out in support of action.” Financial times article by Chris Cook, 27.8.2013
4.https://www.foreignaffairs.com/articles/syria/2013-08-28/bad-reputation
Bad Reputation,The Folly of Going to War for “Credibility”, Foreign Affairs, Jonathan Mercer, 28.8.2013
5.https://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2013/aug/28/death-middle-class-undermine-democracy, The Guardian, The death of the middle class will undermine our democracy, Suzanne Moore, 28.8.2013
6.http://www.who.int/mediacentre/factsheets/fs369/en/, WHO, depression, 29.8.2013 7.http://archive.cpiml.org/liberation/year_2008/april/interview_u_bhatt.html, 15.2.2014 History of labor rights and working class movement in India, “We are striving to reestablish Mumbai’s identity as a fortress of working class movement”
8.https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/General_strike 15.2.2014

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Riot, insanity, anger, revolution, essay on change: How does one make it? All the time.

9.1  A Howl
9.2 Another Howl
9.3  Heat
9.4 “I am not a number, I am a free man.” (someone laughing) Ahahahahahahaha!!
9.5 Disaster, failure, shame, consequences, fears and petty concerns, commonality and racing thoughts on natural.
9.6 Sacrifice.
9.7 Earth revolving the Sun, heliocentric extravaganza.

Introduction 
What is the needed change when everything is change and the chant for change is constant and the thought of change is it is a positive thing, it equals something better and positive which we can contribute to? What is changing then? Is it us, for the better I hope? Who has the ability to make change, change themselves and their communities, what does and would it mean? Change is the only absolute, it happens without anyone doing anything, as Žižek says nature does not exist, so what happens, does change exist?

In this essay my attempt is for one personally comprehend components of the individual in today’s world, structure and idea of the individual, how do we become visible, reliable, meaningful and potential, agents? The society, the mass of people and the individual working together and separately, our functions within and outside the systems we have and the system we are. Our place, the play of being a human in the modern, using it, understanding it or not as it seems we are lost. How feelings are structuring, breaking and rearranging what we start, end, complete, make, create and how well are we able to see where our systems/system begin, change, do they do what we want or just suddenly collapse, like oops. Why we think the way we do and what is good are in constant need of evaluation. What are the possibilities of one person to start mass movements, make change in good and bad, which could be a social reform in good and bad and in which phase evaluation is in order. My effort is to comprehend choices and results of actions via for example scientific achievements in Physics which have solved problems concerning machines, heat, nature’s laws and work leading to industrial revolutions and the phenomenon of the modern, development of the modern mind in the process is interesting: what is that, entwined with popular culture, images, the visual influencing, influences, mass consumption, mass of people and the struggle of one among many.

9.1.A Howl
The feeling of helplessness, thinking one is without means when one has no wealth, left out of decision-making (if that is possible) or a card table, without acceptance and opportunity. People who make politics seem to be out of reach in this kind of situation, are not as interested in as they are supposed to be interested in lives of the citizens. Improving people’s lives is more and more up to the people themselves, which for people who are used to being pampered and have been trusting that the system will work for their benefit no matter what happens can be harrowing. This new situation where you are at your own devices can be overwhelmingly difficult and devastating. It is a test. It is up to a point self-evident that people have the power which brings up the question of how much dependent should, could and are we to be and how much fighting does it take to survive and succeed in life? What is earning, what should be earned and who earns the most?What kind of factors tell and matter for us, what kind of fight? Where goes the limit of support and what kind of support society, the nation, must provide for its people as nations stand for all of its citizens? This should be again a self-evident question and answering an easy task, but it is not. A very basic issue at the moment for the welfare state to solve is what does welfare and state mean and who are the weak that must be helped and how?

When the politician/administrator is someone who cannot be addressed, questioned, confronted and critiqued easily and justly by just anyone or at all, system is not functioning as it should be for its citizens. Bureaucracy, status, hierarchy, pride, biases, dysfunctional communication and disinformation are making everyday life difficult increasingly as we are not sure what and whom to believe and know why is it so difficult to get justice. The feelings of despair, distrust and difficulty seemingly anguish many, are hard to deal with and to go without chemical aid takes character. When bureaucrats/administrators become shielded, unable puppets saying it is the system, and positions overprotected trophies, whose motives and interests are primal? What kind of interests lead thinking, making of a nation and evidently affecting people’s lives? How much business interests lead a welfare state as without a functioning economy welfare gets weak and weaker? When  politics is made personal gain in mind, when politics is a business, a show and a game played with images, within which it is almost impossible to make democratic and all benefitting ruling, the most vulnerable are played out, as in entertainment the rules are harsh.

Public servants who have interests of their own to protect and a lot to gain as seems to be in academia and in arts as anywhere, is unfortunately a common enough case and a very disturbing phenomenon at large. Corruptive force within public institutions such as schools, the personal ambitions and grouping play a role: who are the ones who get to benefit, what kind of causes get green light, what is interesting and important to teach, does schooling evolve, educate enough, minimise, make progress at all or does it only look like it does? Having a status of serving the public, doing good, students, patients, workers, being on the side of the fellow citizens without much actual effort of doing so, is an interesting disguise. Smiling makes you look so good… The will of doing altruistic work, an act of calling, for the general good is an open mouth, that is what voluntary work is about (but who does work for free?? artists? students? interns?) where power and money do not play other roles than getting the work done that is needed for common good. I’m sure such idea has been a starting point to begin with. In politics there is a stark conflict between the will to do the work and do good. We struggle with trust issues. Having power and access to money which bring in the element of who can be trusted, what kind of people we place our trust upon and how this trust gets build and remains. Fulfilling a purpose, the importance of one’s career with issues one holds dear, which cannot be discarded as we must have a certain amount of selfish interests to keep our lives interesting, sustaining self-worth and how much politics can be played with on the stage of fulfilling those selfish goals, it must be carefully thought through, what is the game. It is a question of how we see politics, what is politics and what is the stage all about, what is common good, what is my good. Such work can offer routes and is a stage of performance, an act and a place of play which we follow, read and interpret.

Common problems and sentiment about politics and in arts, the distrust, a progress and what it truly is and means, the suspicion on why people go to politics and how politics functions on different levels of society also strongly in arts and with arts. Issue for people who aim at positions of power anywhere is to solve the issue of their ambitions, perspectives, motives and purpose. To have power over people’s lives, the distrust here and there already exists against public servants. A constant failure of our system which our society today performs which makes headlines and scandals, again and again, the case of the battle against the system is never-ending. Helplessness revealing itself in front of threats that there are in the future and is massive. The constant confronting of problems which are there and difficult to solve, us having to deal with the shields and the lies bureaucrats tell as they must behave accordingly. Us against the administrators is a fight of us against them. In this kind of picture the ones who succeed are the ones who manipulate the best. The demanded political correctness is an interesting case of play. To disagree or not is an issue of being against or on side of someone, having enemies and friends in right places. We must choose what and who are the good ones, what is the bad as it never is oneself. Going to conferences, international meetings at where being photographed in convincing situations and having been there seems to be the main issues and the meeting of important people and the handshakes show proof of something having been done for the common good. Publicly solving issues is a case of talk, promises, choosing sides, shaking hands. Knowing and understanding problems is part of solving them. Problems that concern the whole planet this power show is making one wonder what happens there and what is the effect in the end: we do know what, but do we know how, or other way around. Treaties, contracts, files, pacts, deals are reported to the public in a way that is always somehow scandalous and ominous, a sign of the better ahead and yet not. It all is just grand and the best word in use is growth.

9.2 Another Howl
Ways that reveal helplessness, feelings of tied hands and mouths shut and what causes such paralysis’ and fears. There is clear inability to speak the truth or the same language as the ‘common’ people on many levels. Communication systems we have should make all clear and loud and we have many systems which are easy to use, right? Clear sentences scream demands on bankrolls and the shouting crowds walk in demonstrations all over, demands are visible but are they enough, the walks, are they desperate attempts of nonviolence or shows of inability and again helplessness? To begin, to start, kick off, institute embark, dissatisfaction takes form of violence which will not go unnoticed, causes of harm making headlines and constant talk. The thrill and the hurting there are on both sides which want political correctness or trolling to solve all, which it most certainly will not, we are unsolvable

When to begin and how? Do I begin now or only continue? When am I to make a move for change, with new year’s resolutions? To be, to have a clear idea of living in a moment and make an event for difference. It is I in question, question of what I do in my life for the common good. For whom do I do, what and why. What are my priorities in life? Life is full of beginnings, of making decisions and choosing, complaining, frustration thinking nothing ever changes. Whom do I let interfere my decision-making and what can I do? Progress in one person wanting something, adding more to the idea of self and a person, a citizen. Wanting progress, noticing that it is inevitable, constant cultural and personal evolution and how it is dependent on human will and circumstances. To what extent and what do we want it to be, citizenship and personhood, individuality, we as many individuals, wanting the common good or just personal gain?

9.3 Heat
Heat is a result of motion stated 1824 by a French scientist Nicholas Léonard Sadi Carnot (1796-­1832). Mechanical theory of heat was first proposed by Robert Boyle 1675, but it took its time to become interest of science and utilized. Carnot’s analyses and studies on heat laid the cornerstone of what we know as thermodynamics literally the heat movement, movement of heat. As Philip Ball states: discipline of thermodynamics is the

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science of change and without change there is nothing to be said [12], meaning for example engines invented doing and helping us in our work, us understanding our place via tools, changing work methods, tasks, systems and purpose of ours in the circle of nature and ours, us placing ourselves in the universe, us observing what is the change that has happened, is happening and why and thinking what happens to us, what is warmth, how to be warm. The Industrial Revolutions have been making our productivity rise and lives change dramatically as there has been many influential ones after another. Constant change through innovations, inventions, cultural, social, scientific, technical, practical, ethical and ideological for us to work with, think, live better and longer, maybe more humanely, less violently and more safely, more productively and independently. Idea of working becoming a different world entirely for women, children and men opening up new dimensions and opportunities. Innovations changed the ways and meaning of hard labour, work as physical and mental, time-consuming all energy eating way of life, now more effective, faster, giving more products and quality with less effort and inexpensively. Nowadays without machines we would be badly disabled, somewhat helpless and paralyzed: what can we do with our hands, what can we repair, build ourselves, how to survive without garbage disposal, electricity and running water? Question is how capable are we in the end, facing the tragedies there may be as there will be, always has been. They will be grand as well, the tragedies?

Mechanics is addictive and beautiful and is a matter of knowing. Variations and options of what you can do with engines and motors are limited only to access, intellect, curiosity and imagination. Why am I writing about Physics of which I don’t know much about is the fascination on dependency and how we utilise the information there is freely in use. It is out of the comfort zone of mine as is mathematics but I find them both hugely acute, interesting and beautiful as STEM-subjects remain gendered and for many out of reach, they have begun to intrigue me. What is the gender aspect here I wonder, still remaining? The essential areas of expertise that have influenced all, we now take for granted. Important to seek through as I am trying to catch the point where are we now and how have we gotten here as technical advancement are the key to problem-solving and advancement of ours, solving basic needs of humanity at the moment and always has been and how well these technological things are available for all. Hard sciences have had the most definite impact on what we do, how we think and how we do, all this and interestingly technology is still very male. Still those who haven’t studied hard sciences which tell us where we stand, must know what to do with this found and given knowledge, are women. Is it fear? We can and are quite unaware and incapable when scared, especially of how things fundamentally work, how we work and how to repair anything as to buy a new one is more easy now than ever before. We are living in a world that has more information revealed than ever, at least that is said. What do we do about it is astonishing, many choose to ignore it and let other people know for them. Do we want to know what is going on or is ignorance bliss? Learning is hard work, we clearly want easy, lazy, cozy and fun.

Continuing with thermodynamics which has three laws and according to Philip Ball, two of those should be engraved in the minds of everyone who want to know anything about science. “Energy is never destroyed but only transformed and there are processes that go only one way, which are irreversible.” Laws to make way to understand what causes movement, how does matter/materia behave, what makes it behave/unweave the way it does. How does form/shape get made and the sense in any of this called the material world. I let Ball continue: it is a complex matter, difficult to understand. “Mathematical theory of change and irreversibility: entropy. Crudely speaking measure of the amount of disorder in a system”. We could use these laws to measure humans and their behaviour. Language of Physics drills into the exact, exactness is a key, the beginning and the end of all, how it moves. All is beautiful in its definition, the constant search and doubt, circles, the infinite, that there is always a possibility to be wrong in exactness, the absolute is tempting. What is there, another door, another mystery to be puzzled by and be solved? Physics is a good starting point to human body and psyche, you never know all of it, we still don’t. It is a thrill to have curiosity to explore. Will curiosity be our end? Brain will not stop working, humans will not stop searching for answers. Interesting is eventually for what kind of questions we need answers to. To process, information sensed and analysed, impulses, stimulations, sensations, images, smells, feelings, messages, formulas, information given, information hidden. It is fantastic, chaotic and yet systematic and complex that it can drive you insane to think about the complexity of a person within complexity of matter, complexity of a mass, complexity of an event, reaction, aftermath and what is that energy we use and have. I am what was before, future looks thrillingly open in the now. Not closed, dark or dim. Disorder, measure and system, atomic motion, average

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behaviour, swarm of bees, laws to make sense of, probability, singular direction, something done that cannot be undone, so how to choose what. Machines and information, production of goods rule the market which is us, who has got the machines, means of productions and why, how intelligent can machines get or us, how much is enough? What kind of freedom is it to be dependent on goods, on machines or know close to nothing about the machines we use?

9.4 “I am not a number, I am a free man.” (someone laughing) Ahahahahahahaha!!

Number six is a central character in the 1960s TV show Prisoner. “[the Prisoner] hasn’t got [his freedom]” and he escapes, as Number Two brainwashes him into preferring Russian cigarettes as a means of undermining his identity. Prisoner Number Six also made known by Iron Maiden in their song The Prisoner from their album The number of the beast from 1982. The whole idea of the series was to find out why Number Six left his job. He is escaping something which is the menace; his ultimate fate is not revealed. What job did he have? [1.] “What do you want? Prisoner asks from his captor. We want information, information. Who is new number two? Whose side are you on? That would be telling. You won’t get it. Who are you?” “I, I, I,” repeats a voice, “Sir on behalf of us, all we thank you”. Sci-Fi is taking over as is quite the nonsense, where we don’t know what is going on, we just go on.

Making a fable, myth and a legend, what would happen if the man of secret service would retire. Refusing of excepting his fate: I will not be pushed, told what and when I don’t know who. Spies that knew too much, what their theory is and was is unclear. There are sides but no one understands which side to be on but on one’s own, what other sides are there, very strange. When do you plan to escape, all the time? Surreal is close and still based on reality of spy life. I didn’t walk out, I resigned, he said. “Subject shows great enthusiasm for his work.” Man reads the file of Number Six in a ball chair. -“Why did you walk out?” Why is it interesting that he resigned, emphasis is on resignation. He will not be let go, walk out. He is haunted, chased, seen on having will of his own. Work as holding information is telling we are also the information and we have information that is valuable. We are targets, subjects, possessions telling what we want by what we watch, read, listen and buy. We are being followed so our needs can be fulfilled. Is that what they want me to think?

Driving a Lotus or Lexus, holding my Samsung, typing my Apple, doing and making with devices, going somewhere, being pro with something elegant in hand, in use. It was about brainwashing before, it is about brainwash now, it is brainwash since birth and not to rebel against. The prisoner is interestingly cool and flashy, weird and little psychedelic dedicated to the escape of one man, resignation of one man, heroic maybe, desperate yes, disturbance created by this man, torture of this man, intense questioning and now being answered somehow. It is dangerous to question the machine and do what you want and we are all alone. Cruel idea of a place called Village that cannot be escaped is an idea of the caged modern human. Doesn’t it sound like the lone rider, someone who is up against the evil ‘master mind’, the system, the society. How many are up for it, actually, to be against the system that uses us to profit from us, information which we are and information that is held from us? What is the situation of escape and the place to escape from and where to go, how bad will it all have to go? To be against the wall is the fear, have everything personal taken away, unwillingness to obey can be costly. How much sadism do we take and

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how sadistic can we be? How sadistic do we want to be and why sadism would be a means to take on? To die rather than stay inside a world of a ruling dictator, realisation of being dictated and abused or take a risk is one turning point. Importance of one man and his necessity to decide for himself play a big role. What was his job that he was numbered and captured to do? Who is his boss, why is he chasing this lone hero and what is the danger, what is freedom here? Number Six is knowing something that makes him hunted or is it his free will that makes him dangerous? He says: I am not a number, I am a free man. I can do what I want, to which Number One replies with laughter: weakness embodied in front of absolute power.

Dystopia of the future where one man manages to escape from where nobody escapes, a job, a cage and running from it just anywhere, tragedy which resembles the world of today where laughter plays an important role, we live the science fiction, true tragedy and a comedy emerges when tragedy is so severe there aren’t other refuge than laughter. Do we live in this fiction realised? To be hunted like an animal is part of the frightening picture, to be owned by a force that does not let go of you no matter what you do, because the force owns us all. Living in acute fear as we are monitored, dictated, ruled over and we are information to be owned and known. Horror film repeatedly becoming reality what we have already faced, what we obviously want to happen is be caged, to witness our caging, the sadism of every day and still think we are free and safe. Those who dare to step away from the daily routines, duties and chores of ours are a threat, liability, outcasts, despicable. A threat because of acting out, stepping out, giving up, taking stand, speaking against those in power, daring to do it, because to that person there is no other way than stop the madness he encounters and does not understand. Trust no one. Human tragedy here is clear, we are trapped. Contempt, isolation, inequality, hate, anger, anguish, anxiety, what is the escape for many are drugs, alcohol, partying, playing video games; to face someone who holds power over you can be too much, is it the parent-child relationship, teacher-student, curator-artist, boss-worker, citizen-politician? How to react to that dichotomy, difficulty of status, impossibility of having power? How does that relationship evolve or get destroyed? Master mastering what and how you do, think, eat, work, evolve, make progress, live and sleep. Aren’t we already in that kind of situation, us against them? Are we mastered and how does it happen in other ways than with fear? Or have we always been this way?

There is a social order that pushes us to act in and out our social frame. It is called necessity, independence/dependence, living in an exploitative system is a necessity as we are told, nurture here exploitation there. System, the word, a structure, is descriptive of this function and the meaning that there is an end, a product to enjoy and continuity. Manufacturing, manipulating, producing and keeping up a livable functioning platform. Masters of today, hated for their mastery and distance, invincible invisible ones. Arrogance there, cruelty getting worse and wealth getting into fewer hands bind us together as rebels. To know what and who we fight against and for is of the essence. Slavery has not ended, it is expanding and increasing and escape is almost impossible.

Storytelling in movies and in TV-series function as tools in predicting the future. As a warning and making us see what might be a futuristic possible reality to happen. Entertaining us with not so distant views into adventurous, dangerous and heroic action, daring for the one. Our lives seem small, far from being capable of saving anything. Watching who lives and who dies in movies make us relate? In real life the only desire is to survive which dictates how. Always on some multitude, on some level, for it is one most important desire, the will to live, stay alive and flourish, but as we do not live alone, we need others to flourish with as well for us to flourish. Flourish as being able to feed, clothe, socialize, dance, talk, write, give birth, make love, sleep, work, work out or workout, it takes a lot to be a content human being and make a livable platform. To avoid the lack of important aspects in living, to find security, balance and satisfaction, feeling of being a whole person, appreciated as a person and a maker which may seem to be often a lot to ask. To ask for it or take it as it comes, should we be taking liberties as worthy people? As nobody is telling us how to do in the end although there are a lot of instructions which show us ways to be accepted and valued. How to make progress demand authenticity and personal learning, you have to decide quite a lot for yourself. To find happiness and satisfaction, perfection is something we struggle with

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as is with finding a place, mood, work, body and mind, a happiness with more and more is a tough one to handle. The difficulty in being one, in understanding oneself, others in relation to oneself and not is a constant if progress is what is the search. One doing with the wanting, needs, is a constant battle with illusion, perfecting being visual. Is it about/because of chemistry, hormones, our biology, our nature, getting old, sick, living before dying being something we must accomplish. Feeling of the speed, fastness, fulfilment, like the thrill of racing cars, of dreaming of someone else’s life, life as perfection and wanting that same thing, grabbing it when seeing the picture someone by the pool, perfection in warm climate drink in hand, in swimsuit with a desirable  body, sunglasses, beautiful landscape, endless and pure health and youth, also a lively nightlife must be at reach for all. Luxury of living is an ad, lust is within your reach, the same ideal of a real life dream glimmers on Instagram. Whose dream is it? Who is dreaming this? Dreams becoming pictures and vice versa, consumable luxury items, extensions of egos, the self in a picture, the question of what is self and what does it want all the time, why is it lonely and lacking? Aspirations, learnings, jobs, dead ends, visual escapes do tempt.

When I open my eyes is there something I do not want to see? There is despair in the air, in the news, panic of losing, youthful looks to gain and have like possessions sold as any thing. But why be bothered by these sights of contemporary disaster? There is nothing more disgusting. I can complain about all, does it change this pain shown that is so obvious. Misery is not vanishing, it stays the same whatever happens, it possibly multiplies as mankind expands and has more than is necessary. Pain is there to tell us something. Pain has a meaning itself, it is a sign which not tolerated one bit.

Pain tells us direction, when to stop, how to react and what to do, feel, to feel better would be nice. We can adjust to tolerating pain, learn not to fear hurting, because it is an everyday issue, learn to live with certain amount of pain when we have to, when there is no other alternative than to adjust. An unpleasant feeling caused by intense damaging stimuli, such as stubbing a toe, burning a finger, putting alcohol on a cut, bumping the “funny bone”. “Pain is an unpleasant sensory and emotional experience associated with actual or potential tissue damage or described in terms of such damage.” Pain motivates the individual to withdraw from damaging situations, to protect a damaged body part while it heals, and to avoid similar experiences in the future. Most pain resolves promptly once the painful stimulus is removed and the body has healed, but sometimes pain persists despite removal of the stimulus and apparent healing of the body; and sometimes pain arises in the absence of any detectable stimulus, damage or disease. Pain is the most common reason for physician consultation in the United States. It is a major symptom in many medical conditions and can significantly interfere with a person’s quality of life and general functioning.[2.] Psychological factors such as social support, hypnotic suggestion, excitement or distraction can significantly modulate pain’s intensity or unpleasantness. This suggest

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we hurt constantly and pain, mental and physical, is unavoidable essential part of life, still a sudden attack to be feared. Fundamental idea of feelings guiding life and actions of ours is mind-blowing as we consider ourselves rational. Feelings affecting, sentiments and nuances, relationships, constant emotional variations during a day, letting feelings decide the good, the bad, that there is good in bad such as drugs. Rules made by people for what is good to do in order to live a so-called good life. Machinery of man-made rules make pictures that are produced to continue the story of desirabilities, desirables, lust, hunger for something extra, search for perfection and feel-good, that can never be found and we keep on living with our imperfect world as imperfect desiring to become perfect, balancing the good and the bad trying to understand why we are the things in pictures. 

Maybe talk about revolution is senseless since there is no clear starting point and surely aim for equality is not going to be accomplished in near future or maybe that is the senseless part since we are not equal in capabilities and to put all in the same line is stupid waste of resources. But to talk about revolution is important, it is essential still as it is a mystery. The word has captivating strength, meaning of struggle for good is meaning of life and progress. To end misery is maybe an illusion but to go on with the never-ending battle for human rights is still worth fighting for.

To give birth is a bloody act stating our belonging to nature, stating our dependency on each other. What is proven to be true there is human weakness. Confrontation continues as it is well-serving for some, traditional power structures and issues held dear thrive: family, steady job, home. Life lived and seen through traditions would mean we’d be staying in the Stone Age without the defying counteraction, necessity to do things differently, risk-taking and the need to change the ways of thinking, still there is wisdom and sense in the old-fashioned or family-based lifestyle. It is important to notice that something that was good roughly 1500 years ago may not be accurate to follow today, which comment goes for the values that regulate people’s lives in the strictest of ways. Talking about pain and judgment by Sharia law is one ancient example executed in Islamist dictatorships today like in Saudi Arabia. Wikipedia tells it is a legislation, moral code and a law of Islam. In the strictest definition it is the infallible law of God. It deals with many topics addressed by secular law like economics, politics and crime as well as sexual intercourse, hygiene, diet, prayer and fasting. So it gives Muslims everyday regulations for good, God-loving and -fearing obedient life. The reintroduction of Sharia is a longstanding goal for fundamental Islamists globally. “The concept of justice embodied in Sharia is different from that of secular Western law. Muslims believe the Sharia law has been revealed by God. In Islam, the laws that govern human affairs are just one facet of a universal set of laws governing nature itself. Violations of Islamic law are offences against God and nature, including one’s own human nature. Crime in Islam is a sin. Interesting are the viewpoints of dictating

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what is criminal and how crimes are punished. Whatever crime is committed, whatever punishment is prescribed for that crime in this world, one must ultimately answer to God on the Day of Judgment [3.][4.][5.]

Revolution needing violence for revolution to happen is an issue that raises mixed feelings but revolution faces fundamentalists, bigots, religious system which does not believe in man-made laws. It is a glorifying ideal and evil combined, of getting killed in fighting for justice. In Marx’s words ghosts of the old revolutions are circulating. ”The nation feels like the mad Englishman in Bedlam who thinks he is living in the time of the old Pharaohs and daily bewail the hard labor he must perform in the Ethiopian gold mines, immured in this subterranean prison, a pale lamp fastened to his head, the overseer of the slaves behind him with a long whip, and at the exits a confused welter of barbarian war slaves who understand neither the forced laborers nor each other, since they speak no common language. “And all this,” sighs the mad Englishman, “is expected of me, a freeborn Briton, in order to make gold for the Pharaohs.” “In order to pay the debts of the Bonaparte family,” sighs the French nation. The Englishman, so long as he was not in his right mind, could not get rid of his fixed idea of mining gold. The French, so long as they were engaged in revolution, could not get rid of the memory of Napoleon.” [6.][7.]

9.5 Disaster, failure, shame, consequences, fears and petty concerns, commonality and racing thoughts on natural.

To see an execution just like it was done before, a beheading, and feel the side of good in action? It is difficult. In some countries there are (public or secret) whippings, beheadings, shootings, hangings and stoning’s. Public corpse, death by sword or axe, head falling is a horrifying sight, headless bodies in line up a fence. To see blood, corpses, stay safe ourselves witnessing a massacre online and it is a place of our anger on someone unknown, distant, someone of whom there is talk, who has done something that has broken a moral code and must be punished this way. Is it humane, isn’t it and we don’t know how the horrible can be true? Something to have an opinion about, “How awful!” and “I would not have dared to watch”. Death penalty is problematic and you probably could watch it happen. Possibility of making the wrong judgement there is, not to mention the brutality of the punishment, which is a clear indicator of humanity (and we like to think it is the animal). It is to answer violence with violence, violently ending violence, make a sign. To be against Humanity one may think is to have death penalty like this, what is lawful there, godly, justified? What is an unforgivable act and how to take a life? What is sacred anymore? To scare and be scary is to show who has the ultimate power.

Death is a direct way to solve problems, solve the mess of people and keep effectively a system intact. What does death penalty solve other than the human problem. Ignorance is holding on to traditions and lack of empathy is clear but still people do terrible acts of crime against each other. For some the other does not matter and human life is cheap. It is the same problem with economics, political, environmental and ideological distances and differences which we face today, how we struggle to understand ways of others or the question of human rights. They are somewhere there, rights, duties, problems, trash, losers, mess, though it is clear we are all connected and fundamentally troubled and unequal. The calculated effects of punishments on

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crowds and individuals spraying, committing crimes, spying, punishing, threatening. How people react on a public joke on someone unknown to them or constant visible cruelty online? Papers’ normal scoop is to trash someone in continuum.

9.6 Sacrifice.

What would natural be for us but birth, intercourse, illnesses, secretions, smells, getting old and dying. There is unlikable, inconvenient and bestial awkwardness in decay. For a modern human natural is something avoidable but there, it is shut out and again scary. Much of these natural functions that belong to our existence have been seen as ugly, impure and perverse. To preserve our dignity, to avoid the strangeness of falling apart, to protect the modern in the face of eternal youth and strength. To let us forget or remember how completely part of nature we are, have been and will be since we all have been conceived, have been born and are going to die. We don’t want to touch the slime or smell the shit of an any person. It is a distant and frightening picture of future, isolation and contempt from and against anything unknown. Decay is unfamiliar to our youthful healthy bodies. It happens to someone else now but me when? Death. Cruel and inevitable, distant. We don’t even know how animals get slaughtered for us to eat. We don’t know what it is we put into our mouths. The sight of slaughtering animals disgusts us. The blood and terror. Then there are the questionnaires of what will you probably regret of not having done before you die. Eternity and preserving the illusion of having a piece of godlike spirit, having lived.

Sounding like something is jailed, chained. We are not forced to escape anything, but it is what we do. Living in compost of comfort and paying our bills. Grounds for naturality, our obvious belonging to nature, our beastly character is connected to nature. We want to place ourselves into the frame of the natural, we sell products with cherished idea of the pure naturality and beauty, purity and divinity of nature, as we are part of the natural continuity which we control and still are apart from it. Will of God is in the nature which is in use of ours. What happens to us is His will, by his hand, Him, man the director who does His work through us. God having hands as we are His image, we want to see His image in us, to understand Him better, but how we understand ourselves seems hard. Nature is at the brink of catastrophe not only by us but because it is the way it works. Constantly managing from falling into chaos and destruction according to chaos theory. It is what happens despite us, we are at mercy of nature which is merciless. It is ‘will’ of an entity to worship and obey. God, Goddess, millions of goddesses, godly, lord, oh my God, the one that I worship somehow. Those who have died by nature were meant to die. Nature is the god and we are little particles in it. To

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acknowledge this may lighten the grief caused by the merciless god, lighten suffering and pain of loss as we will be lost and be born again. Believing there is a better place like Heaven where there is no pain, helps us keep on living. Reasoning, answers to why and hope to continue living. Earthquakes and Tsunamis happening like punishments, what have we done to deserve this? Answers must be found either scientific or religious (to be more obedient servant is to avoid disasters).

Iranian movie director Abbas Kiarostami filmed a road movie And life goes on (1992) of a man and his son and their car ride looking for the road to Koker after a devastating earthquake. Trip was to find the boy who acted in Kiarostami’s movie. Idea for the movie became after Kiarostami had heard the boy who had acted in one of his films had died in earthquake which hit Iran 1990 and killed approximately 50 000 people. Film about a lost boy who is not to be found. Man driving the car showing a poster with image of the boy to passersby, survivors of the earthquake. Striking is the humbleness and kindness towards the two strangers who wander around in ruined villages. People walking carrying their few belongings left. Accepting God’s work, the quake that swept away whole families and villages in one moment, a night. Natural horror, amazement and wonder on man’s face when he hears that there is still a football tournament held, despite the circumstances and deaths that have hit the most of everybody. Wishing well and good fortune although all sixteen of someone’s family members and home have vanished. (Talking through car window with an old lady crying and telling this story). There is nothing else to be done than go on and hope for the best for everyone.

9.7 Earth revolving the Sun, heliocentric extravaganza.

How a thing called tree reveals itself to us and is itself. A living organism without a conscious mind, unlike us mindless humans although with minds and brains minding our own businesses unaware of our consciousness, unable to appreciate the subconscious. What one is taught to see becomes what one looks at, stares at, wants to see and do. What do you observe, how do you observe and how much our upbringing guides our noticing what happens around and what we appreciate? Finding out that the earth is not the centre of the universe meant that human, the man, is not the centre of all existence. Finding existing worlds is a matter of our adventurous minds and yearnings, curiosity, imagination. It has been one of the most profound ideas revealed to us, infinity and other worlds, other kind of realities. One revolution was finding out space, order in the universe and the Earth going around, revolving the Sun. What are we then? Looking for our purpose and is there any purpose. Questioning everything is a basic

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rule for any scholar in finding the truth. Amazing is the strength of belief in major religions that have millions and millions of followers often denying the scientific truths. Religions which are more or less fiction, old and tradition bound together cannoning our world. To have faith in the invisible energy or light may give hope. In front of scientific research and evidence there is a mass of true believers.

Animals being part of the modern society as exploited parts like we as well are treated as objects and tools in use. We may not be aware of the all abusive ways of capitalists scheming of ripping off maximum profit and giving guidance like a liberal light it falsely likes to show us. To have a breakthrough in destroying constant demands of growth in winnings, we have to abandon corporation ally led hoax democracy society. How to do that since we live among leaches whose only task is to suck the consuming population dry and their grasp is pulling. How to lessen the dependency on products, productivity and need for efficiency? Dependency being thorough meaning every daily function we do. How to be satisfied with less? Since needs are what are being created with visual heavens. How could we have only what we need to live and decide what is it that we actually need?

Combination of words that all anticipate action, the unexpected. There is something strongly personal in all of the words mentioned above. They have meaning as something that has been unsatisfying, something gone wrong, disturbances of peace, seek for balance, continuity and finding what is lacking. Releasing of ugly emotional turmoil, mess, chaotic destructive behaviour and scare. Threats to security and health are in the happening, thinking about the real event of actual riot, insanity, anger, revolution, the scheme to ruin it all, maybe us. Concepts needed for creating and drawing together the reality we live in, or realities, as everybody has their own and something to aspire. To know what someone else is feeling in the middle of struggle, surviving, you thoroughly won’t know what. Our inability to completely understand the other. In many cases people don’t even understand themselves but they have faith. We have to have a common understanding of common needs, realities, common consciousness, spiritual union, that there is something called subconsciousness, human depth and intuition. Psychologizing and psychologisized modern rules of ours, our culture, civilization and its structures, living under observation in information society can feel safe and well-structured. Occurring incidents that dictate a so-called fate of man, everyday life and which details make our spaces of experiences happen. Since our lives are lines of some sort, trees, plants as metaphors for our lives, lines of experiences experienced lines, crossing, not accepting something ready and given is to be suspicious. Difficulty as an individual to make a move and change situations of one’s life also in a way that is affecting lives of many.

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Understanding the effects of your choices to lives of others as well as to your own. Making decisions thinking how to act, how you wish your children to act, how far to go in the means of acting and actions, action causing reaction, causality, disturbance, violation, violence and harm. How to be less violent. How far do we have to analyze violence, is it physical, mental, against others or oneself and how much to avoid it? Are we doing our best? What is believed to be right, we as an entity and how are we doing as beings. Is that what everybody is doing coping and analysing? Or are most of the people settling to the comforting state of good enough and why bother to reach and react since it is difficult, painful, forcing one to sacrifice one’s convenience and ease can be lot to ask. How are we our minds in this mixed up world? It is a question of almost knowing, but never knowing enough, still asking, how are we? How, our minds are us? How am I me? As I have an identity which is built of several layers. What is being build when a person’s identity is in question. Are the things I do part of my identity, meaning I am building my identity all the time, stating it, realizing me, revealing and hiding me. Identity revealing itself to me and I make it happen. How much identity can prevent individuals from seeking social change, stop from making reform? How much are we stuck to our images of good and our roots? Is my consciousness part of me or all of me, physical parts of me working as helping that consciousness? I have become to think, to express; without ability to create new, new ways of saying, ways of living, of doing I would not be me. Creation of mind, creating consciousness constantly organically. Getting inspired is what makes me every day. It has a lot to do with emotions, an attitude towards me as myself and life as it happens and what is there to be done. Responsibility and love, could we learn what it is to love, there are questions about interests, self-­ interests, how to create social benefit for as many people as possible instead of few. What is social benefit: It is a working welfare for everybody. The most important benefits state can offer to all of its citizens are education, housing and healthcare. When these are in poor condition the whole state is at its core in poor condition. Reason to revolt, reasons why riots happen, corruption and concentrated wealth. Citizens feel continuously abandoned by the state, officials and politicians. When government does not serve the people, it is legitimate to ask who does it serve, who do we serve and what is the state for?

What is the mind? Anatomical details, extension of to from where it is born, not to be only one but many. Does that make any sense, how is to make sense? Sense of now, sense of a place and space. Our minds are a space in us, among us, within. Mind, knowing, consciousness, comprehension, understanding and puzzle, imagining and seeing more than what our eyes tell there is. How a mind becomes self-sufficient and will it ever? To what extent do we operate as someone else’s minds like having 

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a visitor functioning through us (is that an ill idea or contemporary)? I’m curious of our dependency on others and how much are we manipulated. How much do we let us to be manipulated? We meaning not only humans, but animals that can feel, sense, reason and therefore I conclude have consciousness, to have some kind of an idea of self, capability to reflect self to the other and idea of self as an individual in this world.

Treated as an object, you will get hurt if you do that, since you are female or a child, you belong to me, things may happen to you if you are not careful, you are like an animal, strange unknown. Somebody will hurt you, there is nobody to protect you, you are fragile in terms of your sex and class, in the dark and small, insignificant. To disturb, to put at unease, to break, destroy, willingly cause harm verbally, physically, mentally. Reasons for harassment for one is of not getting what one wants revenging childish need to not having been fulfilled, deliberately endanger someone’s health for fun, to bring atmosphere of fear, anxiety and hate, bring distress, loneliness, hurt, ill, hopelessness and shame. Does harassment change anything? Yes, it destroys people’s lives. Why is revenge important? The bullying society has its significance to bullies, to keep members the somehow unwanted of the competitive society in their places, scared. Competition is a large part of capitalism operating with hurt, harm, testing and winning, putting people into different positions, levels of worth, competence and mentally violating. Competence is curiously a shallow surface and often decided by outer features and self-assurances, to qualify to fool. In this sense people are cattle, a herd led by how things look than what they really are. The best liar wins. Competition society has lords and subservient just as there has been in any society considered more violent than ours today. Fact, injury, a kill. It is a curious mixture of emotions to look into, objectively and subjectively digging in, despair as an object put into pieces, observe yours. Reasons leading to feelings of anxiety, distress making people behave in desperate way. Desperate acts, desperados go with violent deeds and thoughts.

There is a romantic version of a desperado, a legend, male, lonesome wanderer. Mad Max fighting to survive at the end of the world. It is frightening to step into the unknown and we do it when we have to. Desperation becomes rage in front of injustice. Who admits being desperate, we rarely admit even rage of ours. But I think human race is at the moment in a very desperate situation and we still halt the ultimate rage because it is a civilized thing to do. Here comes a chance and importance of written and spoken word in making revolution, in making rage visible in a constructive way and one question is what and when is the point civilized measures do not function anymore. People as power, mass, energy, as organic constructed beings, chemistry, physics, biology, anthropology, religion, art, history and still any definition for humans is too little or sounds like wordily praise of a hypocrite making a facade. To

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have it in better and worse any possible ways, people, definitions, ways of doing and thinking.

1.https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Number_Six_(The_Prisoner), 11.9.2013
2.http://www.iasp-pain.org, International Association for the study of pain
3.https://www.theguardian.com/news/datablog/2011/mar/29/death-penalty-countries-world 9.12.2014 by Simon Rogers & Mona Chalabi 4.https://www.theguardian.com/world/datablog/2014/mar/27/death-penalty-statistics-2013-by-country  http://www.europarl.europa.eu/sides/getDoc.do?type=TA&reference=P7-TA-2010-0351&language=EN 9.12.2014 position of EU is against death penalty, Resolution (EP) No P7_TA(2010)0351 of 07/10/2010 on the occasion of the World Day Against the Death Penalty,
5.http://www.tacticalmediafiles.net/articles/3448/Wikileaks-and-Freedom_-Autonomy-and-Sovereignty-in-the-cloud;jsessionid=D3C6C11FD045B1A1B87A6B10F9842EE3,

BODÓ BALÁZS

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economist, piracy researcher at the Institute for Information Law (IViR) at the University of Amsterdam. 8.1.2014

6.https://www.marxists.org/archive/marx/works/1852/18th-brumaire/ch01.htm “The tradition of all dead generations weighs like a nightmare on the brains of the living. And just as they seem to be occupied with revolutionizing themselves and things, creating something that did not exist before, precisely in such epochs of revolutionary crisis they anxiously conjure up the spirits of the past to their service, borrowing from them names, battle slogans, and costumes in order to present this new scene in world history in time-honored disguise and borrowed language. Thus Luther put on the mask of the Apostle Paul, the Revolution of 1789-1814 draped itself alternately in the guise of the Roman Republic and the Roman Empire, and the Revolution of 1848 knew nothing better to do than to parody, now 1789, now the revolutionary tradition of 1793-95″. 9.1.2014 The Eighteenth Brumaire of Louis Bonaparte. Karl Marx, 1852.

7.http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sharia 11.9.2013

8.http://www.metamute.org/editorial/articles/divine-violence-and-liberated-territories-soft-targets-talks-slavoj-zizek, https://takku.net/article.php/2012010822255227, (2011) 8.12.2014 Divine Violence and Liberated Territories: SOFT TARGETS talks with Slavoj Žižek

9.http://www.ghananewsagency.org/print/60825, 7.7.2013 by Ghana News Agency

10.http://www.tlaxcala-int.org/imp.asp?lg=&reference=9968 28.6.2013 by London review of books, Zizeks views on revolution, on global protest

11.http://www.marxist.com/egypt-a-pharaohs-nemesis.htm 9.1.2014 by Lal Khan in defense of Marxism , “one of the salient features of revolution is that the masses conquer the fear of the state and repression.”

12. in addition an inspirational and information-filled book, Ball, Philip, Critical Mass, How One Thing leads to Another, (page 36 and pages 37-39, Laws of Thermodynamics, implications of laws of motion,  industrial revolution), New York, Farrar, Straus & Giroux, 2004

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Feminism an ideology and movement, a striving force and necessity in making global revolution of equality (or it used to be, what is it now?). My philosophical, ethical and ideological ground. Perspectives into making wise revolution: what does it mean.

2.1 Introduction
2.2 Division, separation, segregation, mutilation, denial, hate, abundance, abandonment.
2.3 Movement, theory and action.
2.4 Unity what could it be?

2.1 Introduction
We, fundamentally biological beings (I’m trying not to be hugely banal about the characterisation of us and biology, us as a species, genders etc., characteristics of what comes to being human as biologically determined form and shape, organic and changing. As we know it, us and nature, which we know, is what often happens, we think we now), are dictated by random events that happen (welfare state is to make the impact of randomness of life less hurtful and cruel, right? Nations are for humans to survive and thrive, not the opposite.) Our lives are up to a point very random still, not to mention the environment and hormones (funny combination but essential); our chemistry and what it makes us feel and do, is a big part of us and our world as is our anatomy, our biological functions, thoughts and needs etc. There are lots of things that dictate us, we just don’t like to admit it as we are not in control, we can be prepared to that hard fact. We like it to look like we are in control and build the structure of control, to control others and have control, things organised, having things done and having made it, give us the power feeling. We know what we are doing. I’m interested in how much power is an illusion and what is power in terms of self-discovery, living and doing in relation to others. Denying biology is the ‘new’ way of empowerment and it is the you can be what you want-ideology, which is a wild thought, thought that we have the ultimate control or want to have control on every aspect there is to being human because we so desire. This issue has come up with transgenderism and in bringing up children, sculpting one’s body to match the inner feelings and desires completely or images seen: this is what I want for me. How it seems to me is this, where we are headed to, towards the utopia of complete control of our bodies and our destiny especially thinking what makes one happy and what we are in the eyes of those who look at us. Feminism has a lot to say about this, lot to say about competition, competing and how opportunities stay open for all that we can make an effort to make it.

Meaning of biology for us is the inseparable and something to dive into constantly which has interested me as an artist: as it does not end, how much part of nature are we and dependable of it, as bodies and minds, to speak of this sounds naive, how come? Without nature there is no us but we like to move away from nature like we were standing on it, as we have no control over it we make shields. Nature is far away as it is the unknown eventful place, in part and for many for most parts we like to be unconnected to this beast we profit from. Nature does not connect with us in suitable, comfortable manner but affects and looks like as a disaster area with which we are ill-prepared to cope which always is a big mistake as we do not know what is ahead of us. Some survive, some don’t. Biology is the unacceptable as it does not do what we want, it eats us. Does this mean we are being alienated from nature completely because it is the easy solution to staying young and good-looking forever and that is what we should want to be powerful? In the making of us there is something I have been wondering what is it all about, what is the making. The very foundation of feminism is that we are equal and we should have equal opportunities as humans but what this means in action and every day is the interesting part and how feminism puts the case of equality forward today in terms of class, ethnicity, origin, looks, wealth, status, work, occupation, education, opinions, in terms of all things that make us different form each other and what does equal mean as we all want and desire to make something of ourselves which brings in the power relation aspect. Equality is a massive task, how it is implemented and understood, it sounds good. Equality, just to say the word is a weird thing and many think as such it is a naive one. What kind of relationship we have with this biology we are born in to, how does biology shape our chances equality-wise is a major issue and can it be altered is the hard question. How we accept ourselves and others, what is the route to acceptance and what we must accept and what not.

Nature has made it we differ much from each other, but we bleed when we hurt. What is equality required and possible in our differences? Living beings share vivid emotional and sensual world which lead us to thinking what separates and unites us. Gender and sex do not dictate intellect, abilities, character nor worth is the feminist idea and good human sense; what do they dictate? Feminism the ideology is to benefit all on grass root level and having choices not to be dictated, monitored and policed. We are more or less feminine, we all have a mother, we all have a relationship to femininity through bodily features still the feminine is under constant attack. Women are the foundation of any society. When women are well taken care of all society is likely to do the same, be and do well. When it is acceptable for a man to walk like a woman, talk like a woman and wear a dress without it being strange we have come closer to gender equality. When a woman can define her femininity, rule her body, sexuality, decide for her life, we are closer to justice and truth. Feminism is diminished down by many men and women as not needed and dead old-­fashioned movement, laughable and unnecessary. If women are not able to have a say over how society should work, as is the case in many countries, then society is not working for all of its members. If women are laughed at because of their sex and because it is seen weak, if they have to be ashamed of their sexuality, if they have to be afraid because they are women, it is a sorry world. If men have to be afraid of female qualities in them we live by macho dream not what is true. What is feminism now is the first and acute question. Who can be and is a feminist? What are the results of feminism and how can it accomplish needed social and cultural changes? Impact of feminism is already all over and pretty fundamental but not yet enough. It is important in this issue at hand to know whether to take a side or not, and on which one side violent gender division exists and is held tightly upon us. Decisions on what to think, how to react, how to judge and whether to judge at all. Gender is by rule problematic, always current and touchy topic where assumptions and given orders apply like an ancient legislation. Society where anything differing from mainstream is an oddity that should be covered up, silenced and removed as indecent and infernal is not living

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the 21st century nor being on the nerve of things nor wanting equality at all. Sex, gender and sexuality are the most used tools of control. Identity and division are structured and ordered by our traditions. We seek to be accepted, desirable, wake attention, maybe make provocation to make ourselves and be seen. Sexuality is denied as damaging, corrupt, perverted, animal, uncontrollable, destructive force which women hold and use to destroy men, society and themselves. There are tight rules how to be a sexual human being and how to be a good human being. Sex is a taboo to be dealt with not out in the open although it is all over and nothing like ordinary. Still when one glances ads anywhere, music videos and movies anything entertainment industry produces for us to hear and see sexuality is there in the main role and in the very much learned way. It is a way to look, make statement, do business hypnotizing us and our thinking. It is way of selling using our basic needs, fears and prohibitions. We live with sex industry (like it or not) and by which rules business provides guessing what it is people desire and want and it is simple. What do we dream about in high-tech information society consuming, being entertained, sexuality making life a psychological sadistic game at worst. Disapproval and talk make controversy, breaking moral codes make headlines. What is it now, nipples, butt crack breaking the internet, look at the size of it, oh tits. The more we disapprove morals of someone the more controversial the issue gets the more fuel there is to be poured, bigger and bigger when nothing is enough. Press disapproving a racy pop artist’s performance giving her performance lots of space and media coverage, good for her and her manager. Is it disapproving or advertising and also good for the media company? What happens to journalism or us? Middle-­aged women disapproving how young girls walk and dress. Is it regret or concern? What are we concerned about, what do we regret and what do we make of the idea of a young girl and her sexuality, is it a possession and an asset for that girl?

What is behind disapproval is a moral behavior code, gender assumptions, traditions, what is good to do in life and why and who gets to decide. Intolerance, ignorance, religion, narrow­mindedness, worry over corruption of morals, desire to hinder change, fear what one is and showing it and plain fear for the unknown. For many sexuality is the great fright and truly an unknown island. It also makes me wonder why continuously so? Why the big mystery, fear, ridicule, shame and hiding? We desire to be sexually interesting. Most everybody thinks about sex and hopefully has sex. The most controlled sexual being is woman, her pleasure is dangerous. She cannot have it, because it is sinful, impure and evil.

2.2 Division, separation, segregation, mutilation, denial, hate, abundance, abandonment.

World as a whole is very much divided into ideological camps and bunkers which fight each other. People do not either wish to comprehend each other or simply don’t comprehend due to many often irrational reasons dividing us. How that other is thinking and feeling can

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be a huge task to take into consideration and have interest over. There has to be a strong ideology and movement to defend those who are repeatedly beaten down. Something to call mine because it is personal, political and repetitious. Behavior and patterns which are not stopping until they are stopped. It is a demand and fight for human rights to happen for women, children and men, for indigenous people and other beings. Those who are persecuted because of their gender, ethnicity, background, religion, sexual orientation, disability, difference of any kind and to defend those who cannot defend themselves. In this regard feminism is not a cause for women only ideology and movement with strong barriers around although it is accused of this, rightly so. Camps fighting within feminism is the norm. Women contribute much in welfare in all society starting from home and neighborhoods. Feminism is a necessity and vital opposition against tyranny of corporations and traditions which are creating illusions of perfection and what is right. Feminism is opposition to tyranny of man, tyranny of people as products, against objectification, against one-sided views on color, size, ideologies, values, against tyranny and castles of finance and irrational despotic decision-­making. Women are and have been enslaved to the illusion of perfection, an image in our brain of what woman is, is manipulative, created to eliminate difference, clone personalities, pleasure giving machines and thinking security is found through being desirable. In addition to that women are caretakers, providers, producers of new people biologically, socially, culturally and traditionally. In this sense manipulation is harsh practice, cruel and unjust. Educating girls in to their roles as females, girls, future women, persons and people begin from very young age. We are taught to know, what is our part via our sex. Somebody else knowing what anybody’s place is and meaning in this life is the root of inequality and injustice.

A practice of likable personality is a kind of survivalist plan within patriarchal society. Practices of girliness, manhood and womanhood are to set roles, find security, a heterosexual practice of servitude, obedience and slavery. Woman is foremost a sexual being whose sexuality must be controlled, whose body is a possession and is either holy or cursed, disrespected and impure. Holy only when she does what is expected of her, is agreeable and nice. Situation is such for millions and millions of women. The way out is a hard struggle. Women who do not have a choice but to breed, feed and protect their honor which is also honor of man and family. There are tasks in society given to women on grounds of natural and on grounds of how things have been done before. How women should look like, what are feminine features and things to do. The whole gender issue should be addressed in technological language as women are much seen as objects and machines who are less than. Place of woman falls on her systematically and orderly without much questioning and without many wanting to change that pattern as it is suitable. This is how a factory functions, orderly producing brainwashed products where workers do not have a say. Case in many countries is that women have the part of reproduction and serving, which is fine if it is voluntarily chosen path in someone’s

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life. Why such control over women is still possible? How the kind of social factory has place anymore? Why woman needs to be put into a position of a dog and why women stay in that given place and when situation changes new problems emerge as men don’t keep up with women? Choices provided by society play a big part in how women manage to solve their lives. Fear of violence, death and abandonment are reasons enough to settle to what other people want. Women who want to decide for themselves to provide for themselves can end up alone. For an uneducated woman it can be a challenge and scary situation to find oneself struggling in a dead-­end. What options are there, how strong are we in this kind of situation or prepared? Religions are dictating position and tasks of women and do not give women power in their lives and let them have bodies of theirs. Women cannot have themselves, especially not themselves. What is the soul of women? By denial and placing fear of punishment religions acknowledge female power within her proving of being afraid of her power. Keeping women uneducated and unaware of their power is a way to rule, but it is also way to keep society from evolving and stopping all people from finding what they could do and express. What she can do with her body and mind is too much to handle. Question is who is not able to control oneself? Maybe chaos and disorder will follow, maybe something no one else hasn’t thought and done before. Interesting is how the feminine and feminine desire realize themselves in this negative, because they are there. Prohibition of expression, suppressed individuality and contempt for the natural sex, incontrollable. Human life and body molded by God’s word, God’s word put in praxis, God’s judgment put in action by people. Dividing good and bad, holy and evil, placing burdens on people because of which sex they happen to be born. Deciding what is what, maybe not knowing the truth but thinking one knows being scared of change. Diminishing and minimising something that is very complex makes complexity even stronger. There are such contradictions in what is said, what happens and what is believed to be true it is no wonder there are conflicts. Contradictions via interpretation, to comprehend and put in order life and the representation of humans, we continue fighting in everyday life because we have free will, visibly. Paradoxes which are difficult to manage, to change and unjust to live by. An overall religious view is to see body and bodily functions as impure especially female ones and the world as such where spirit and soul matter and wander in search of perfection and harmony. It could be as if life is somewhere else all the time, is for someone else, in some other time and we in despair.

2.3 Movement, theory and action.

The word Feminism originates from French Utopian Socialist and Philosopher Charles Fourier 1837, the year of his death. [1.] Words Feminism and Feminist first appeared in public in France and the Netherlands 1872. Claims for women’s rights started to happen at large in action at the end of 19th century and beginning of the 20th century by Suffrage movement in Britain, New Zealand, Australia and in the
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United States claiming women’s right to vote and stand for parliamentary office. It is still knowing how religions dictate place of women difficult to understand the opposition feminists have faced and face today. The amount of bitter hate and disdain against feminists, women claiming their citizenship and human rights that for some are less than that of men which is God’s punishment and judgment for all women. Feminists have been treated as lunatics and criminals lacking decency. Feminism as something that will pass. Those unattractive misfits, bald angry lesbians who hate men and behave like prostitutes, unattractively angry. Those who fear say anything to put shame on dissidents. Women who don’t and did not fit nor accept the society’s mold of proper, place of woman, continuity of males as kings nor rules of hypocrisy have been self-evidently painted malaise, harmful, insane, ridiculous, hysterical, marginal and difficult. Women who didn’t accept their part as underdogs began a feisty battle which became violent towards feminists. They began peacefully demanding their rights which did not work and they began to break windows. Feminism is first a movement, demonstration and fierce action demanding and fighting for equal rights and opportunities for all. It is a fight for possibilities to choose how to live as an individual with will and mind of one’s own and as a capable decision-making thinking person. Prejudice and historical echoes have made it so that feminism is not mainstream ideology even we are bound to it as a thoroughly society changing and questioning political ideology. It is not all that common to be working class feminist even labor movement is very much women’s and children’s rights movement. Common is to hear celebrities say of not being feminists but. Desire of theirs is to pose as strong women of the business and live as sellable products earning money that being an illusion of having control over their image and being strong is a facade. Powerful yes but how? How scared can one be and how manipulation is strength? It is too common to hear the denial and keeping distance to that odd and hateful religion­-like ideology that want women to be ugly, hating men or something. Ignorance is once again biggest prejudice creator around. Woman is desired as a body that brings joy for someone else but her and to concentrate on staying pretty and desirable as long as you can is one kind of power but is it strength?

After having put action out with positive results groundbreaking feminist theory started to develop and wonder position of women in society thoroughly. Feminist theory is a complex set of ideas on how genders function, are supposed to function, genders and sexes as social and cultural beings and constructions. Feminist theory is much as any academic work working and looking from the middle­ class points of view but is seen as radical movement still. Working class and middle ­class stay separately still and suspicious of each other; can they mix and work together without suspicion and prejudices and why the division is there in the first place, what is the class divide all about? What happens to equality in this picture? It is a vital issue for feminism how classes function and change, how work is seen and defined, paid and appreciated. Which classes will perish, shall there be new ones, what is the meaning of discourse over the class question all together, whom does class system serve and

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what would world do without distinct separations. Colossal structures of research, work and education are there to be shaken. Working class (which still exists) is too scared to get radical, at least in Finland. Every society has working class of its own kind. Curious is how do they appreciate themselves, are appreciated and what kind of groups get made within. Education and work cultures reflect directly to position of women and rights of labor concern all of women. Feminist theory tends to float inside an academic bubble, thick walls round academies which may scare the common man. Feminist research does not address everyone as doesn’t science as a whole even though it is the meaning of science to be for everyone, serve welfare and the evolving of every man. Elitist academic towers can be isolating and again gaining position can be luring power element in academic competition. Academic position is much respected place to have. To talk only to certain kind of people about social change is an intriguing subject itself, matters of writing and talking but it is not enough to make that change happen at grass root level and be understood that the struggle is the same. Question is how and what message of change is put out, by whom and why? And how a change could be pursued if groups of people do not communicate with each other? It is clear change required does not happen within middle­class, in academies nor in theory. Question is what kind of groups of people globally are the ones who are oppressed enough and tired enough to act? Who don’t want empty promises, unemployment, dead-end future prospects, poor welfare and poor quality of education? Middle ­class and working class do not respect each other enough, know each other, speak the same language or desire to understand each other. There is mutual contempt there which stops multilevel interaction, compassion, understanding and collaboration. How could there be found mutual language and patterns for action which lack oppressive and biased hierarchical structures?

2.4 Unity what could it be?

Communist Manifesto published in 1848 demanded abolishing of child labor, education for all workers including women and children. The demand list of the Manifesto was modern, fresh and ahead of its time demanding equality, dignity and human rights for all. Importantly Manifesto stated abolishment of bourgeois individualism, changes to inherited position in society and right to property, which meant abolishment of slavery and exploitation of people, need to stop abuse of workers’ effort and time. It demanded progressively everyone’s right to work without fear, more time to schooling oneself and one’s family. Free development for each is the condition of development for all. [2.] [3.] [4.] Developed way of looking society and its people on idea level which was to be reality and revolutionary vision to be made come true, a utopia of a better world
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within reach to applying all hopefully bringing welfare, well­being and prosperity. Demand for abolishment of bourgeois family could have meant a beginning for women to stand on their own and have multiple paths to choose from than only having one or two. Michel Foucault states in Foucault Reader, Rabinow, 1984 that bourgeois society before Freud’s inventions repressed sexuality and especially infantile sexuality to a point where society refused to speak of it or acknowledge existence of sexuality in children and women. Crusade against masturbation is a typical example of this as is giving diagnoses for women who in any way acted differently than what was the general ‘better’ judgment. Crusade is to the point essential word to use in contexts of bourgeois society and its determination concerning use of power over women and children and in general anyone who stands on the ‘weak’ side. Weaknesses strictly categorized, the weak labeled and stigmatized. Infantilizing women in terms of sex was the norm, female sexuality was beauty in statues, very fragile but obviously too powerful to let roam free.

As Communism firstly concentrates on abolishment of the bourgeois way of life and class and gaining global labor rights, feminism concentrates on ending sexism and slavery of women, standing for girls’ rights for education and rights of those in the marginal and  under threat because of their gender and sexual orientation. Feminism is against persecution, against mental and physical torture. Questions about difference and what is the difference between and why should it be pointed out are the core issues. [4.] Both ideologies, Feminism and Communism have interesting similarities in being hated, bigotedly stigmatized and activists persecuted for demanding basic human rights and equality. Focus and determination of ending dictatorship is admirable, needed and springs out from harsh reality and experience. It is good to bear in mind that slavery was ended by law 1723 in Russia where poverty has been more of a rule to this day for the large part of the population. Position of women is questionable in a macho culture self-evidently. [3.] [4.] Worldwide slavery has not ended nor extreme poverty and injustice nor exploitation of work nor abuse of women and children nor of those who do not fit in tight gender boxes. Strong political global movement and revolution is much required not as a local act but as global aggressive action (aggression here does not mean physical and violent warfare and question remains how to address anger that is boiling). People are more globally active and maybe even more aware than ever therefore it is appalling problems as extreme poverty and crimes against humanity such as human trafficking and slavery of maids exist. It is intolerable there is resistance against the demand for human rights. [5.] Feminism is at the moment making strong, new and active movement especially in Europe. Taking stand nonviolently and loud as hell.

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Feminist movement Femen is fighting on the streets facing fascists, ordinary street men, politicians as well as the police, who continually arrest bare breasted women shouting Fuck your morals, God is a woman, Ukraine is not a brothel, in gay we trust, Nudity is freedom! Strength and visibility of such fearless action and devotion to the important cause is impressive, appreciated and joyfully effective. Feminism should be exactly that and in there, on the streets, in demonstrations, during world cups which lure prostitution to flourish, in places where world leaders meet to make people in suits face anger, attacking fashion shows to let them who exploit hear out those who really have an important message: Listen to those whom you abuse and manipulate! We are many and we force you to listen. Feminism is activism, sextremism, distraction, interruption, disturbance of status quo and destruction of seemingly comfortable balance breaking that clean surface. It is an unforgiving demand in itself and notion that women have to take their place to be heard, fearlessly speak out standing tall. Feminism is demanding abolishment of sex trade, acknowledgement of the problems which women globally face, abolishment of sexism and punishment for it, concrete demand for separation of the church and state, legalization for access to free and safe abortion, women to have decision over their bodies and work, punishments for rapists to be heavier than they are. It is demand for respect, justice and dignity. Feminism is demanding human rights and lasting social change to all human beings, environment and animals. It is one of the most important global movements at the moment and the importance of change shows in the way Feminists are treated. Importance of attitude change is immediate. Importance of finding conformity a repulsive tool of oppression and fascism. Importance of learning how fascism works today and manifests itself daily in ways of monitoring, dictating, suppressing and manipulating. Place of women is displayed by showing hate against women, against Feminism, stigmatizing those who dare to speak up and act against oppression. It is one of the most important issues globally to make concrete change to better lives and rights of women, minorities and children. [6.] Situation is angering and change is slow. Hierarchy, power and position of church is immense dictating places of genders, how people should live, what is right and wrong. Religions and dictators are obstructing development of human rights for people to achieve better quality of life, better treatment and appreciation of women and children as individuals and people. [7.] I see divisions very clearly anywhere, personally and generally and I refuse to be what I should be by my sex and gender traditionally, ordered by someone who is to be above me because he or she can. I can do nothing but go against. Change is coming and there is no other way.

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Links to the books read and which are to be read over and over again. Communist Manifesto is a recommended reading for those to whom the word communist is a curse word, to whom everyone who is on the left is a communist and communism equals to mass murder and oppression. People use philosophies and ideologies to force their personal interests forward in the world, this has been true before and is true today. It is not necessarily fault of the philosophers and dissidents.

https://www.globalgreyebooks.com/communist-manifesto-ebook/

https://monoskop.org/images/f/f6/Rabinow_Paul_ed_The_Foucault_Reader_1984.pdf

Chomsky answers by returning to other dimensions of universal human nature and reason. In his opinion, there is a universal human need for creative work and free inquiry. The possibility of satisfying this need is stifled in our society. Given modern technology and science, Chomsky argues, the means are currently available to overcome the alienation and drudgery of labor. If this has not been accomplished, the fault lies not in science but in the social and political organization of our society.”

1. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Charles_Fourier
www.wikipedia.org/Feminism 18.12.2013
2. http://www.marx-seura.kaapeli.fi  uusi linkki 12.8.2018
3. https://www.skp.fi/asiakirjagalleria/kommunistisen-puolueen-manifesti 18.12.2013, 30.10.2013 Kommunistisen puolueen manifesti pdf.
4. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Slavery_in_Russia 30.10.2013
5.http://www.tulva.fi/blogi2.php?aid=116088 by Lauri Punamäki ja Emmi Vähäpassi 22.11.2013 Naisunionin pohdintaa miksi miesten pitäisi sallia liittyä feministiseen järjestöön 6.https://www.facebook.com/FEMEN.International 18.12.2013 Feminist organization fighting for human rights worldwide! Their breasts are their weapons. Originating from Ukraine making fierce action against patriarchy rule and exploitation of women.
7. https://www.bitchmedia.org/post/on-our-radar-feminist-news-roundup-82 21.11.2013News post by Arielle Yarwood fight is far from over, fight for women to have right to their bodies, right for abortion
8. https://womanstats.wordpress.com/?s=state+feminism 21.11.2013 woman stats project, Feminist blog/ column about state feminism in political use during Cultural Revolution in China
9.https://www.salon.com/2013/05/07/how_to_fold_a_thong_a_straight_man_working_at_victorias_secret/21.11.2013 article by Christopher Pilny for Salon
10. https://www.theatlantic.com/international/archive/2013/05/topless-jihad-why-femen-is-right/275471/20.12.2013 by Jeffrey Taylor article of Femen demonstration in Belarus, demonstrators were kidnapped, tortured by secret police. 11.http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Third­wave_feminism 14.3.2014