To live is to be afraid

To live is to fear

I’m going to learn to sleep sitting down at stations, wake up when someone approaches, touches, breathes, looks towards me. Sleep when it is light, in a flight, work during the night under a newspaper. I will not be afraid. I will be a document of strength, of survival. Sleeping and waking up, walking and looking, sleeping under a tree, passersby gaze, maybe fear. Becoming the environment, giving up my comfortable bed, my isolated room, safety, quiet space for only me. Exposing myself to danger, disorder and death, but also harmony, beauty and life. There is a lot to live for, lot to see and experience, but is that to be experienced?

Kaupungilla

Kaupungilla höpötteli itsekseen nuori nainen, jolla ei ollut etuhampaita.
Kaupungilla lauloi itsekseen keski-ikäinen nainen, vahvassa humalassa takki auki, seilaten kadulla.
kaupungilla äiti sanoi lapselleen, ei muita saa töniä.
Kaupungilla nainen ulkoilutti undulaattiaan häkki lastenrattaissa, he menivät samaan aikaan kadun yli.
Kaupungilla tapasin bussipysäkillä miehen, joka oli ollut 26 vuotta vankilassa.
Kaupungilla vaalimainoksia.

Vaginal illness

Molluscum contagiosum Orditis
Amenorrhoea diseases
viral vaginosis
vulvodynia
noninfectious vaginatis
Bartholin Gland cyst
vaginal atrophy
vulvar cancer
vaginal dryness
vaginal discharge
vaginal odor
sexually transmitted diseases
chlamydia
genital herpes
gonorrhea
HIV/AIDS
HPV
syphilis
Trichonomomasis
genital sores
Cervicitis chancroid
Donovanosis
endocervical culture
epiditymitis

Left behind/ Experiment number 2

Taakse jätetty/Left behind, puu, maali, wood, paint, 2015

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