Clearing out by which ideologies we live, base our lives on. What does the term ideology mean in terms of changing the world and ways to live? Does ideology match the idea?

11.1 Does ideology match the idea?
11.2 Computers are easy and fun.
11.3 Not hiding my sentiments.
11.4 Scenes in real life. Atmosphere of suspicion, hurt and ill is a curious gap between people, willingly kept alive to make people struggle and fall down.

Concept of ideology is to bring death to unreason and randomness: there are clear rights and wrongs, stupidity and intellect, constant human error and imperfectness, impulsiveness, unexplainable feeling-based things, things to clarify and correct, deny and hide, bad and good, divisions and gaps, unity which must be emotional and rational at the same time, bonds to what we think are good, who we think agree with us and are like us, like us. What is the unreasonable/unreason/irrational still seems to be the very ordinary and common place thing. So is ideological battle against the natural as we seek to live modernly specifically structured exactly defined lives and the unnatural is somehow the ideal even though we like to adore nature, because it represents purity, the beginning of us and beauty? The unnatural is something outside our experience but we aspire it, natural is scary, ugly, cold and difficult to master. The knowing and expectation of what the natural is and can do for us, the good for us there, the perfection of nature in our possession is that it is in our control and out of our control, an entity of its own. Admiration of having accomplished something flawless like a well-tended garden is the human touch, an achievement of knowing what plants do, how they grow and flourish. We mastering the natural is the modern desire, a very basic human desire and need, basic survival skill and is what the post-modern should be about, a theory made reality, going forward but not forgetting what has been, something we can understand and again control? The knowing of the natural order as we tend to bind natural to the good and right, is the basis, which we think we know, and paradoxes are inescapable. We divide things into natural and unnatural, good and bad, from which and to which we randomly shuffle, grab from, which both are our material as we are material. There are laws there that we think we know and understand, that cannot be broken according to many like homosexuality is unnatural, women are naturally something as a group. Individually or collectively learned things and decided are the good things and what is bad, or is it about not understanding what natural really is and how nature functions in us, via us, motivates us and results in our lives.

Ideology is to help us move away from the natural state, this is what we have been doing progressively, but still we admire and cherish the natural as something pure and true, valuable, something to be but use abusively. What is the rational part?

It can be very strange to live by ideology knowingly aware: all what is can be against you, what you are is wrong. The needs therein that are true must be are painted black and think as corrupted, as dirty, things you can do are not valuable, an immature selection of us against those others types is stigmatizing and reminds of natural selection in conscious use. Then one must continue thinking what is the reason there in use other than competition and only value is what money and wealth create. Continuing with what is a good person, what is the human in this picture and the animal we like to think as bad, what is a good society, what is the ideology we choose to live by and why is an unreasonable act something we do not understand or value such as work of an artist? The unknown is to be mocked and killed, because it disturbs the balance of strictly framed reality, offends our understanding of the good, what is good life, how to live a life, what is a good person and the rights in a modern frame. Challenging our understanding and maybe challenging us to change drastically, which is an effort and a scare is what ideology pursues like religion, philosophy, like any guide in life but are the challenges correct? What is the reasonable in our thinking are the norms by which we are expected to live and making right choices which must be constantly figured out and based, the very basics of what we are all about are to go through over and over again, so we must challenge ourselves constantly to evolve. Question is how to challenge the norms. In all righteousness thinking one is an absolute equalizer and a teacher as we have seen in social media, everybody is right in their reasoning, routes to take obediently are very often absolute, which obedience happens so easily it puzzles me why.

What are the unreasonable things and why are they unreasonable? There is hurt and loss involved. Scare of not surviving is constant, not being accepted, being an outsider. Have we chosen reason/ideology or has it chosen us and at what point in our lives do we make realisations upon ideology we were born into? How we reason still doesn’t make reasoning right, to our reasoning influence many things that aren’t rational and right, so we choose, point a finger, group etc. to belong in the name of ideology, in fear, in not knowing, in assumption and thinking we know what is the reason/reasonable/good and right. I claim we can be very irrational in our reasoning, thinking we are rational and use our intellect, which is the individual intellect as we like to think we have. Thinking outside the box and speak against can be dangerous in this environment. When one instantly becomes an enemy for confronting and questioning the reason/unreason in use, reasoning of others, task of thinking belongs to all, what is this ideology must be taken on the table for all to see and think how progressive are we eventually. One good example is the concept of natural, what is natural, why we think our way of life is natural, what are the things we think are unnatural and therefore against us and our way of life, morals, values, against the good.

Do we succeed in being objective (which clearly is not the case) what comes to the ideology we believe in and ideologies, values, morals of others? To tolerate is an interesting issue here: what is to tolerate, what must be tolerated etc. It is a vanity and a scare issue how well are we able and willing to look upon and ponder, firstly points of views of our own and then of the others: what are the motives there to think and know, what and whom are we against. To think being absolutely right is a problem and admitting being wrong is incredibly hard. As we should be true to ideology is a demand, who is demanding? Can we hold on to purity of ideological thought and what happens to those who lack faith, put up a fight, question, argue, bring up evidence against your case of absolute truth? Clearly there are many difficulties what comes to knowing. Sticking to a belief like a promise, an illusion, is not knowing enough, can be in the way of learning of the facts. What to do about the facts is deciding what do we ignore and what do we accept as truths. Feelings possibly do not register as the most valuable signifier of what is the absolute truth if there is any. Understanding what the other is all about is as difficult and what are you yourself all about: how to figure that out? We tend to misunderstand, misinterpret, misjudge as we like generalisations, assumptions, appearances, feelings, thinking-you-know-attitude is more popular than actually knowing what is and this all functions along with ideology. When judgment is placed upon the other ideology/reasoning, how much is it about feelings and images/assumptions? To make an ideological system is to look for rational ways to construct a world view, life, values, system to function. May there be logical and sincere missions truly or only in one’s imagination. To have as rational goals as possible as we all reason, why we choose what we do and means to live by takes political ideological standing, call for justice and you thinking according to this ideology is to choose how, why and what. Thinking, reasoning, making, it all must be as clear and focused as possible for results. What kind of results do we want and for who? Instead of thinking you know, learn the facts and you will not be wrong and be aware what there is to know for you which is a lot.

First there must be a solid theoretical base to construct a belief system, believe and moreover know it is true, it makes sense and then we need true believers/sense makers/followers who think can improve their lives with this belief/knowledge, at least definitely change their lives for better and have the courage to do so. Having new methods and tactics as a mass to build something different is a constant effort mankind does and the efforts either fail or succeed which is the interesting part: where do we go wrong? A useful idea becoming ideology means progress. Do idea and ideology match? They should.

ideology (n.)

1796, “science of ideas,” originally “philosophy of the mind which derives knowledge from the senses” (as opposed to metaphysics), from French idéologie “study or science of ideas,” coined by French philosopher Destutt de Tracy (1754-1836) from idéo- “of ideas,” from Greek idea (see idea) + -logie(see -logy). With connective -o- because the elements are Greek and the Greek combining vowel is -o-for nouns of all declensions. Destutt published his Eléments d’idéologie 1801-1815.The term ideology did not become widely employed in the nineteenth century, however, and I have not found that Emerson ever used it. It was only after the appearance of Karl Marx’s long unpublished The German Ideology and Karl Mannheim’s Ideology and Utopia in the period between the world wars of the twentieth century that the term became an omnipresent one. [Lewis P. Simpson, “Mind and the American Civil War,” 1989. Meaning “systematic set of ideas, doctrines through which the world is interpreted” was in use in English by 1907, earliest in socialist and communist writing, with reference to class; from 1918 it came to be used of socialism and communism themselves (along with fascism) and later more broadly still. Ideology … is usually taken to mean, a prescriptive doctrine that is not supported by rational argument. [D.D. Raphael, “Problems of Political Philosophy,” 1970]

or maybe idea for the ideology becoming is the risk we continuously must take, are afraid of and reject. That is the new ideas that are somehow dangerous and radical to somebody, their status, interests and authority. Risk taking, going against the establishment, the machine are the first steps which radical thinkers and makers must be ready to take and thinking outside the restraint/system/box that is a cage, inescapable and blind: freedom happens via thinking without constraints but why the new freedom must be made into a new cage which oftentimes seems to happen? How to solve the question of freedom as humans and how much freedom is good for us? How much restraint must there be to limit us, to make us cross the limits made and find something new? To allow freedom which nature represents and be free in thinking, in making and being is the number one issue, what does freedom mean and how much freedom is reasonable to have?

Is ideology just a useful tool for propaganda and full of traps, a religion we need to have to look forward safely, in safety? What is the belief, in what, we need to live by rationally as individuals and as communities? Ideology is to replace belief systems which it eventually itself is, our reason is flawed continuously. We must free ourselves from something old to renew and the restraint of reason? Old that has been based on irrational grounds, unscientific explanations, imagination, superstitions, gossip, biases, gut feelings, intuition, folklore, tales, history, tradition, gender roles and therefore such nonsense have had to be abandoned, which is ultimately the mission destined to fail.

Ideologies and history of the oppressed, lost and misguided people, go hand in hand. Those who are oppressed have had to find logical ways to solving their hopeless situation and there is power in effort of finding the right path, isn’t that how it goes? We are still learning about our irrational and emotional side as humans and importance of it in making societies and finding humanity instead of being machines. We do not live well as soldiers of one truth and missionaries of one ideology, but that is what most people do. Since there are many sides to things, more than we can comprehend, education is needed. There is an idea which thrives to win, we work to succeed as we like to compete and we must. Society in the end is demanding you to, there are people who demand results from you and you are a failure when these expectations are not fulfilled. How do you fail for you? What is a result worth having and for whom? There is idea of taking over in mind when getting involved with ideology of some kind, framing, leaving, abandoning, fanatics and the most violent ones taking over. It requires concentration, focus, dedication, and depth to do wisely, knowing oneself. Finding truth should be a way to avoid hatred and bitterness, but often they, truth-seekers end up doing quite the opposite, exercising something of their very own, a possession which is an idea of the good. Ideology working like walls around one’s head, forcing to see only straight ahead and quite close by. Ideology works fundamentally as means of finding path in a thick forest. It is a guide, map, compass and a way, danger of brainwash lurking. Bear a warning, bear a lot of warnings. Ideology is talk, a performance, written and spoken, overheard, continuation, emotion, passion and attempt to understand those feelings and ideas that one has rationally. Strangely ideological seeking generally wants to abandon emotion yet ideology lives from intense passions that are more or less irrational. Enthusiasm conquering hardship. How to act intellectually for one’s benefit and is what is good for you good for someone else? How to even think we can calculate what happens to us and should happen to anybody else? It requires blind belief in human abilities to manipulate all components of making which many


ideologies wish to accomplish, manipulation of a mass of people. Life is for everybody to decide and know what to do, how to do that and who are masters deciding. That is the question of what one can do to oneself and with oneself. Not to let anyone decide for you is an ideal, so how does this match the idea of mass today: it is a mass of individuals we have? We live to survive in mutual dependency. Continuously in this moment paying attention to something you hear on TV, at school, in a song, see in the news. To be inspired, moulded or defeated by ideas, facts, disasters, feelings, realities, pieces to put together and make something out of them, inspiration as a life changing force and chain reaction. To let ideas lead, thinking dangers and power of ideas. Do we need protection from ideas? When does an idea become one’s own? If ideas of others are planted in one’s head since childhood, when does person’s self begin, when does the questioning start or knowing it is wrong to question and confront, when we begin to self-censor and allow us be directed by an authority? Learning to speak and communicate in more complex than we give it credit for, learning of manners happens fast, learning when punished happens pretty quickly. Human development to adulthood is a very slow process in comparison to other mammals. It is development of the intellect throughout one’s life. We resisting the moment when I begins, (baby resists crying as reflex of scare, cries from the very moment of his/her birth), scared of not knowing and doing only what body tells to do in that strange moment coming out of a warm place without no other choice. A moment when fetus begins to sense and make thoughts of any kind is time we do not know much about, but it is there, a person, someone. Bright light and hands welcoming and pulling gently leading the way out of womb, new life colliding in to the existing and to all those hands wearing gloves.

11.1 Does ideology match the idea?

Ideologies have crashed into each other as we like to rule and know better, disagree, that is what we do, to do what we do with ideologies, to make distinction, build and notice gaps in between is to know what is there and why, to be exact is to know what we do in our difference, in our need to set boundaries is to be safe, which of course is needed. We crash into people who limit us, who have crashed into each other with fanaticism, disbelief, knowing or not knowing the truth. Them and us running without able to believe anything else than what is right in mind of his/hers, in reality of a person grown into a culture that is given. It is my picturing of ideologies at work, which part of blinding and binding is interesting. Speculating and analyzing results of ideologies known, is there anything other than wanting to ‘intellectualize’ behaviour and the need for leading, being led? Any ideology declares change of things, to change the present state of thinking and living into anew. It is said that to grow up into civilized modern society is the largest ruling ideology there is, which we take self-evident, we grow into it, because we do not


have any other choice. Do we even notice and what do we choose eventually? Society we have offers choices within the frames of welfare and politics, freedom of speech and expression to avoid hurt and provide well-being, giving tools to deal with life, hurt or hiding hurt. We are not supposed to express our hurt feelings in public and we must feel shame is still something to look into. How well can we objectively analyze our doings and know what is wrong? How well can I see myself and how do I see myself? How much of me I see and what I do wrong or right, does it depend on how others see what is right and wrong and what there is in me? Interaction between me and them, image of me, image of them is a constant game played, to be allert about. If time and place are borders and lines to cross, how do I place myself in all this, since I do not live in a vacuum and I should be able to make progress. I live in plenty, in multitude of information and choices. Time is quantified, partitioned in order to get things done, to make progress or make one think one is going somewhere. We pursue to become efficient and good at work, in personal life. We need to measure time to do work productively. Create a day of work, time at work used tells of our meaning and purpose and to forget work in leisure time, gather energy for the next day.

Power of a person is being used to benefit and make a sellable object. People working get paid a certain amount for a specific work of their choosing. Someone estimates the value of time used and force invested, profit collected, skill put in use. Value of force and effort given in a certain time frames a life, a person. To change labour into objects and objects into wealth makes a system. Labour being one object in this process, labourer the other. It is calculation of amount and value, value of people and work is needed and also possibly removed when necessary. People have learned to bargain and claim their rights as workers or was it a granted permission to do that, that there isn’t fear to claim better pay? If in terms of work there aren’t enough sufficient labourers, what happens to work? Labourers can strike if they are not happy for what they are paid and production stops or moves elsewhere, this can happen for the employers too and they do move away or robotise production if necessary. What happens to work now is an acute question as there is a flood of cheap workers, robotics has advanced significantly, work as physical effort changes rapidly, does work as an idea change and how capable are we to change and keep up in this speed? Money earned gets consumed into basic necessities which we get more and more. Nothing is for free in capitalist society where time and place are an important issue.

Struggles of the working class have been the most powerful acts moulding societies at large. As the crowd and folk refuse or can’t work, consume or move, mass of people can change the whole society. First strikes in the west during heavy industrialization era in the 1800s were not nonviolent. Workers were attacked by state; employers and the owning upper class took violent measures against strikers without hesitation. In India first ever industrial strike took place in March in 1862. [7.] “The general strike action only became a feature of the political landscape with the onset of the Industrial Revolution. For the first time in history, large numbers of people were members of the industrial working class; they lived in cities and exchanged their labor for payment. By the 1830s, when the Chartist movement was at its’ peak, a true and widespread ‘workers consciousness’ was beginning to


awaken in England.” [8.] People who have fought for working people have been given bad name, those who are against maximum profiting and exploitation of workers: socialists, communists, union men and women, feminists, all of those have been persecuted, shamed and diminished in the name of the ruling class, profit and winnings. Impact of struggles of the working class have been massive to this day, and how much are our struggles similar to those fought or different from those going on today. Paycheck, length of the working day, working conditions, safety issues, holidays, paternity and maternity leaves, kindergartens, schooling for children of working class families, inexpensive and decent housing, democratic institutions, inexpensive healthcare, equal rights for everyone to live a good life, possibilities to study and work and moreover abolishment of child labour. Welfare that offers chances for happy and safe lives, which many immigrants today go after, is still at risk. Those who cannot take care of themselves are taken care of is the hope. It is a long list of benefits that must be taken into consideration to make a sustainable and equal welfare state. Process and progress of labour movements is still going on. Maybe we act upon when it is absolutely necessary and there is no other alternative. Asia is by population the biggest area of immediate need for labour to improve working conditions and terms of work.

11.2 Computers are easy and fun

How to phrase ideology we Westerners live now by or do we have many? Consumerism, capitalism, Christianity, democracy, neoliberalism, conservatism, environmentalism, globalism, feminism, libertarianism there are many things that make our information-filled world and many ideals and interests that confront each other. As much as economy-driven society seems corrupt and fascist in its need to purify, unify or exploit we still have multiple voices and history is good to bear in mind in terms of how those who are abused can make a change at large, but also personally.

There are reasons to do things, sense, senselessness, uselessness, uses and acts of doing something because of doing, because we feel compelled. Who makes us feel compelled but ourselves amd our condition. If there is nothing to do, who directs and gives instructions to follow, ideas to realize but yourself. There would be nothing to do if we did not invent it and find the need to get things done. Modern people have created a world of errands to keep busy or is it because there are more of us all the time, we have more to do and practice. We have more bureaucracy, institutions, tasks, complexity, piles and messes. Our equipment is marketed for us to keep us stay informed, keep track of our time, at our chores, tasks and what is there. This is what you do with your time and keep your day packed up. This is what we offer you, a world of things and it is easy.


It is made fun to possess a machine that is online, on the net, touchable, available, cool, coolness is the main thing, perkiness, stuff is mechanized in order for us to do cheap tricks. Circus tricks? The most fun part is that models change constantly and equipment evolves faster than most customers can keep up. Strategy of constant growth is to produce in nonstop flow. Competition is heavy. How to keep up and why? And why do these gadgets get so much attention in the media? Phones, computers, TVs, robots. They are fun and expensive, they invade our world and we let them entertain us. Their market and financial value are immense. Market value, what does is mean exactly? How much a company is worth, how much can it produce value, newness and make profit? Electronics industry has a large coverage on the economy at least when looked at the news. News on economy are statistics, scales, curves, plots, diagrams, photos and lists, percentages to keep our attention on wanting, holding and panicking. A new phone keeps us connected and discarding, hanging and fiddling. New electronics look like candy in bright colors, constantly changing application keep coming up to fill a void, making it easier to choose what to buy at grocery store. [1.] Stephen Elop: Analysts, meanwhile, do not think the new Lumia 1020 will set the world on fire. “Despite the quality of the device, I have some serious doubts about whether it will change Nokia’s fortunes, and it risks becoming a niche product,” says IDC’s Francisco Jeronimo. And Ian Fogg at IHS Screen Digest suggested the 1020’s camera makes it a “halo product“, something to light up the brand. Snapchat­ compatible app called Swap chat; and as for Instagram, he says, the specialist photo app Hipstamatic now comes in a Windows Phone version. Doubt whether it is going to do it or not. New device, newly born and soon too old. Welcomed with hesitation to the market. Exhausting platform, making fresh sound old, wornout, we are already bored with it. Smell something burning? Because there is a burning pile of trash there already behind the beautiful picture. Why so gloomy. Perk up. Depressive statistics of the state of world: pollutions, contamination, waste, junk, abuse of minerals, abuse of land and labour, where does it all come from? This picture and its behind. This at hand, how did it get here. Who took the picture? Why is he standing there? Corporal Santa Claus guru giving a speech of hope four times a year, quarterly giving announcements so that we know what to be excited about. The need, what do we need and to do what.

To set the world on fire. World that already is burning. World existing in flames, in heat, burn, destruction, process, warmth of the sun. What is a burning world a metaphor for than destruction? We burn energy to


keep our daily routines working, smoke and gases burn in our lungs, oxygen in bonfires. Energy which we burn running, thinking and moving, emotions expressed according to temperatures, evilness in fire or cold, love and hate, hell, the rush of blood to the head.

Energy is different things to different people, different contexts, situations, excitement, fever, lust, conflict, war, a need, something to eat. To burn is to change form of material, molecule structure, metamorphoses of materia. What does it mean when a CEO of a multinational corporation talks about the burning world, hints to it, or just to say it won’t do that when introducing a new phone model? One hint is that revolution is a fancy, sellable, fashionable and luring term, the world is on fire is exciting for the middle class? Or was it to tell it might get people exited in buying? Could it be rockish, punkish and popish when CEO wearing sneakers talks about setting the world on fire? Don’t go all the way rock and punk, you will destroy you sellable image. It would be the next new thing in presenting new gadgets to have pyrotechnics on stage or utter pure nonsense flirting with the journalists, like go fuck yourselves. Telling the consumers this is the it thing, the thing you need 41 mega pixel camera phone with a boom.

Expression I am trying to understand is and was said by Stephen Elop the Chief Executive of Nokia as he was using catchy vocabulary as the top salesman of Nokia. It is always an occasion when a phone manufacturing company presents, even many times a year, new models, itself over and over, and its plans by which Nokia going to keep its place as one of the leading manufactures of cell phones. Planning to rule the market, planning to rule the world. In that sense it really is a burning world. Analysts don’t believe, but Stephen does, or what, maybe not, maybe I’m just calculating and being cynical, yes me. Maybe nobody believes in the ever continuing growth, so what are they doing? That’s probably it, the illusion making and believing. Maybe I understood wrong. It still is a survival game. Is a CEO of Nokia realistic in selling continuously changing apparatuses? Changing for what? For better? Is that a new invention, innovative constructing of the world, progress of machinery, progress of man, globalism at best? Is it necessary? Doesn’t the enormousness of the market tell that the new phones are desired, constant newness is desired badly? The talk of the CEO is desired and waited as an event, as a show. It is a carnivalesque happening and especially working as photos in newspapers. Every detail is important. Finland is still asking when will the new Nokia appear. How dependent Finland’s economy still is on Nokia? Problem of being dependent on big corporations who do not own as a strategy anything to anybody, but only to itself and its stockholders, is substantial. In terms of wealth and how to get it, to be dependent on entities that themselves function only to fulfil selfish needs, meaning keep the company growing and winning more money, is megalomania. It is very suspicious to lean on corporative money as savior or believe companies to be magnets of wealth and fortune. On one hand they are and the other they destroy us. In a way they are the magnets, but there is more to success than finance and possessions. The way how we follow how multinational corporations evolve and keep nations’ economies thriving is manic and panicking,


if that is what they do hypnotise us, we one-sidedly are staring at what the chief executive said exactly, what did he mean and what does it mean for us. To set the world on fire by Nokia’s new phone sounds like a huge exaggeration (that is not what he meant) and somewhat a commercial burst. How trustworthy are his words? Why would he be trustworthy? Who listens to him in the end. Who believes what he says in presenting equipments and applications for us that do more? For those who like to play with electronic devises, consume them, to afford them, it is a fun spectacle. New surprises or no surprices and thrills for a moment. That is what these items mostly are, to people who do not necessarily need new artillery, but enjoy consuming and the show-off. The electronic toys for adults and kids. In some sense it is a continuous war. War of who invents the next best thing to sell. Our multibillion toy reality industry has a strange way of drawing a thick line between the poor and the rich, between worlds defined by numbers and possession, garbage and value. It is the material good that the rich can have fairly easily, which the poor bastards produce in sweatshops over and over again. It is also curious the difference between the image corporations like Nokia create for themselves and the reality within and at the production lines and after the lines.

To look at Elop’s speech of a phone with monstrous camera with 41 mega pixels, which is at the moment more than rivals have to offer, is it what buyers want, mega-mega? Guessing what buyers want. What is with the obsession for bigger, owning and producing megalomania? Is it something Western? What is the cult of owning, growing, expanding other than a capitalist plot? It is a jealous play of looks, of gazes and very human, of oh look what I have got. Show­off of power, ability, quantity and wealth, ability of putting on a show, but still never enough, an unstoppable production line. There are similarities to building world’s largest buildings, conquering worlds, countries, seducing women, protecting one’s right to exploit and abuse with corporal expanding, lookalike innovation, which a phone with 41-pixel camera is. Competitive society is rewarding those who are the greediest for success, success and talent is defined by tools one has. Measurements for success at largeness, interviews, visibility, figures and counted as how much. Everybody is nowadays a good photographer. Speeding in search for novelty is dictated by corporal quarterly financial functions followed closely and who is a billionaire. As fashion circulates from winter­, spring, summer and to fall collections, collections are tightly followed by the press and us. What to wear, where and with what, what and whom to look like. Such accessories as phones go nicely along with the burning picture of the burning world, burning human.

Visibility, appearance, living in visual world with signals coming at us, we must be seen. We giving ourselves to be looked at, we want to be looked at, need to be looked at and appreciated, estimated, evaluated both ways, to be


looked at is to live, have a life and to look good. Could it be said we are selling ourselves to be accepted? What are we supposed to look like? Supposed to look for? Or maybe the question should be how ‘we’ become to see the way we do, how thorough the influence of our environment is and of people to what we become to be and think. As it is we who do not live in a bubble, we absorb effects, influences, reactions, actions knowingly and unknowingly. We collect things and thoughts we like to own, resemble to, to imitate, to follow, and to belong to and on and on. How much do we follow unconsciously for clues to find acceptance, to find our way, do we find ourselves and others or just junk? How much am I me in this all? What is me, myself, my mind and my consciousness as we think we are individuals by concuming, the way we consume and what we like?

To look like someone, like a terrorist, businessman, artist, poet, schoolgirl, teacher, politician, Instagrammer etc. people have codes from which we recognize their and our tribe, group, social status, codes by which we understand the context in which the person maybe lives in, or more likely we assume these codes of others by how they dress as we like to place labels, boxes and categorize to make it easy for us to understand how to behave, what that other may be thinking and where do we stand. Influence is a key word nowadays. We like to assume situations and thoughts of that other, someone and of course we must up to a point. What else can we do than psychologize and analyze to form a strategy.

Interesting question today 18.7.2013 popped out on twitter: How does a terrorist look like?
One is a product of a culture soaked with imagery of wars in movies and in real life, news and in other media with heavily stereotyped press visuals in a stream of those who oppose each other. As ridiculous as it is, picture of a terrorist in my mind first is an Arab (male) with a scarf with heavy guns. There are many clear images of terrorists in the news flow of those who are blamed to be terrorists, to oppose a strong clean-looking notion of a wornout freedom fighter is the common situation. Freedom fighters as terrorists probably would call themselves and why not. Curious how labels are stamped, they stick to become a fixed truth. What comes to those giving the titles and the reasons why label anyone is politics. Since many crimes of humanity are committed by people wearing suits, labels of terrorists stay forever without much changing telling a story about our media culture, of us and the extent of manipulation. Media continues to push the same imagery over and over again, anything that has a scandal value is thought to be sellable and it is. So, it is not only media which likes the repetition of the same old same old, it is us. What comes to men wearing suits at conferences and the meetings called G with number attached to, they don’t eat the dust. They don’t show at the crime scene, they don’t carry guns. They don’t even get charged with crimes against Humanity, because war is a justified act and a sellable product, war makes profit.


It is not difficult to point to direction of those smooth guys and place the blame on clean-looking, polite and correctly behaving politicians with connections on a red-carpet waving (not carrying guns, but image of a gun is upon them, built-in their moves). The act of correctness has immense impact. A trained performance on media stage, an imitation of certain kind of hygienic clean perfection. Forming perfect sentences, speaking in tone, well-chosen, friendly, amusing, joking and funny. Funniness appeals (is that why they joke on set or is it to hide something, saying don’t hate me, I’m a good guy), verbal seduction and smelling good. Interesting is the connection between amiable smell and words said. It is part of the politeness game to create light atmosphere. Our traditions of behaving, media make-believe and biases are in an important role when focusing on and using stereotypes to make an impact. Stereotypes that got made, how they live and create our world. That is what stereotypes do strongly and strangely; create what we see, want to see and hear, and we creating stereotypes again in return, giving back the received filth ignoring truth. Prejudices being translations and rendition of the unchanged melody.

10.3 Not hiding my sentiments.

I ride the wave that’s what I do” words of a trader sitting in front of computer screens in documentary called Floored directed by James Allen Smith (2009)–H8SY334Zw. Film focusing on stock trader’s profession in Chicago. How people working in the ‘pit’ see their work, which is about making a lot of money aggressively and in a possessed way loving it. If demons are not in there, I’ll be damned. It is not just a cattle pit the place of gambling. It is a mental state of making wealth and anything else is secondary. Moneymaking is what traders concentrate on doing with their body and mind focused on timing, pattrns and the right hit. Which is their main goal, reason for working, big bucks, show­off and to perform. Most say they do it every day as a way of life. Macho image is part of the way of living as is smoking cigars and spending money like candy. It surely is a question of personality and values. It is a highly masculine field and brutality of the business is clear. Traders do not seem to be sorry about it at all. It is part of the trade to take big risks and win or get hurt and lose everything. Traders are gamblers and enjoy the risks. They enjoy the game. It is a boy’s dream come true with I fucked with the playmate of the month. In the film it is not mentioned what it is traders are trading. It does not play a role of in their thinking what businesses do as long as they are winning. It is just money. We are the money, losses are on all of us. The thought is to get money in a very egoistic manner of taking. Evaluating the right time and amount of stock to sell reading other traders’ faces and minds. Part of the film is to show homes and possessions of traders. How their houses resemble their ideology and way of life. One of the guys travels and


hunts wildlife. Trading business and stuffed animals look the same; Oh look, I shot a Rhino and got photographed in front of its dead body with a gun in my hand and cigarette in my mouth. Human condition can be ugly on high testosterone.

Hardcore sport at work and in leisure time. Enjoyment, thrill, ecstasy and adrenaline as fuel and flow to be and live in. I made much money, in repeat. I can do this and get that. Things are there to be taken. Film Floored ends at the time of 2008 crash. It is a time of the beginning of recession or should it be said the revealing of the financial decline, it breaking out and up. At the end of the film Mr. George W. Bush is giving a concerned and empathetic speech about stock market decline. He is with us, with our worries at the time of this “extraordinary state of economy“. “Some have failed, credit markets have frozen. We are at the brink of serious financial crisis.” Movements around the globe have been active and ready to fight against greed. In places financial depression has shown catastrophic consequences leaving people homeless, unemployed and without income. Devastating has been the scope of the disaster as the gambler mentality still reigns the same that caused the recession. Dichotomy between stock traders, their attitude towards making money, impact they make with their work globally and living is shocking. Shock is that there is no shock in the end. It is like the inevitable misery of millions of losers and joy of few mighty winners. It is the very logic when you look at the thinking patterns closely. It has been known how big money moves and why economy is ruled by banks, investment and insurance houses. There has not been enough democratic regulation of the money flow and the finance world tends to be a game, just as traders in the film are telling. Finance is a competitive sport where winning is the only thing that matters. Rules, taxes and laws are there to be avoided. Finance world is a world of its own sucking the most out of the living and leaving the rest to rot, game effecting everybody with its ups and downs. It does not sympathize or regret, it doesn’t matter how many times you save the banks, they won’t save you. It takes care of its own profit and goes hiding in towers. The measures are very clear, only odd thing is that the so-called democratic countries and politicians willingly support this survival of the most ruthless ideology. Media functioning as the megaphone telling loudly how things are and how afraid we should be. [2.]

Idea of good and bad is known, sensible is the way to choose between. Constant fighting giving meaning for us to structure the world and make it may be in a simpler manner, maybe better. Those two sides making us and making us create. 


People are scared to death. People are made scared. Illusions of what is good and what is not are made every day by people who think they know better. Kindness is very scarce. We are made to believe that to be kind is to be weak. There is a serious misunderstanding in what is strength, hate, what is good and how to treat other human beings. For me it feels like a world of constant misunderstandings without apologies, regrets, learning nor spiritual and mental growth. People living in believing they are good, in good, doing good, they are deserving, they do good-by doing good which is often the material good. Good people are doing for themselves. Their lives are for themselves., who else. Selfishness is part of our survival instinct. I go first. I think for all creatures it is so. It can be called the will to survive and flourish. The human in us, the nature, survival, the bad and the good. We are in an ongoing state of scare of not finding enough good for us, possessions bringing the feeling of safety, success and


bravery. Yet we are very much afraid to put ourselves at jeopardy for public good. Losing time, energy and effort for the sake of someone else is demanding. It is a curious and banal behavioural pattern of being secure and winning all the time, compulsive and manic. Knowing what is right and good, can we beat the nature, do we have to beat it in every way possible or only the part that is us in our cells and synapses and all that body and material that we are? Still we compare the good to the natural. Can we beat this conflict in order to be modern? Could we eat less and be more kind to the nature and ourselves in doing so? Could we not grow exponentially in material but grow from the inside out as people or is that naive? Could we be less individual and more communal? What is our human nature? In the light of economics it looks grim. Does human nature create us or does nature create our nature daily? How much are we actually able to change as beings? Is a mass altering of people’s behaviour possible as is the ongoing mass murder, hypnosis and lunacy? Mass change of human spirit and mind for the good to find a good life, peaceful and harmonious in a slow way as many quotes online kindly remind us. Changing the goals, aspirations, halt our eagerness to conquer and beat others down. It is a beginning of some sort all the time. An end is a beginning, ending is a change.

Ideas of the weak and strong put people in different positions, individual characterizing and differences between genders, ethnicities are used to rule and diminish. It is ever so strange, because there is no stop to it. The evidence and necessity to manifest the difference, strength and weakness and how they are defined. We know boundaries exist, we make them. It is a reason for the constant fights and discrimination. Based on traditions, superstitions, habits, and imagining inner qualities by looking at the outer qualities. What qualifies? If a woman wants to pose strong (I call it posing) she has to be like a man, speak manly words, use gestures, choose topics, tones of voice. Examining the other instead of oneself is the main issue. Examining happens by the eye. When I read magazines for women it is all about being under a magnifying glass and how to impress, how to be, and growth is what, finding true happiness via norms still? People do not know how to be. They need instructions. Magazines are offering survival instructions for women, how-to-kits, measuring, give yourself time, spoil yourself, calculative manipulation of self-image based on torture and self loath. Quasi­ well­-being for the wealthy, it can be bought, of course, everything is for sale. Articles are ads, radiant examples of decay and cheating. You deserve it. It is the fear of death that is targeting us to consume, fear of not living, fear of being left out, misplaced, abandoned, fear of sickness and loneliness. What defines happiness which is presumably our goal to be happy, carefree and enthusiastic, is it the emotional side to which we are stuck? Our emotions guiding us doesn’t sound rational. It is not reasonable to argue and cause disturbance, unhappiness. Happy people do not need to find anything since they are


in a perfect state. Happiness is the state when one is most eager to go searching for more? Is it an emotional moment to be fulfilled with little, less can be more than most of us understand? Don’t stuff happiness with too much cream. To learn to understand momentary body of happiness is essential in finding happiness. But what is little then, what is enough, adequate, sufficient? How much of happiness is given and which part we create ourselves? [3.][4.][5.] What is being said and the ways to say are essential. Which topics stay hidden and which lay bare in making collective empowering atmosphere or not. Collective togetherness, native and foreign making things happen for all of us. Bear in mind who are you talking to, who to address and who have power to elect, give advice, lead, direct, who takes/ is given place in front. The emphasis is on beauty, complexity, simplicity, easiness, efforlessness, understandable seriousness, strength, stresslessness, joy and a mass of individuals. A mass, thousands of individuals stopping and beginning kindness, a new religion please now. Kindness towards oneself and others. We live in a sadist world that eats us and itself by wanting people to look like clones in the pictures, pose, eat the same food, wear the same clothing as the rich, do the same things as them in pictures, live like the rich. It could be called trying to find stability by moulding the crowd with mass media, making the mass believe what is good for them, what is good to think, have, be like and know. Mass hysteria, mass manipulation, mass delusion, mass destruction is happening without you being able to help it, so live it.

Modern times finding sickness in the other, there must be someone to blame. That is not modern, that is human finding his ego. Whether it is witchcraft, feminism or socialism, it is about those others who dare to object and they make bad things happen. And what is health anyway and how to avoid feeling ill, because I feel like throwing up. What is the ultimate bad we must avoid? Should they, bad, be isolated, the guilty. Make them wear orange, humiliate them. Some unfit people who do not know how to live in this civilized world. What is healthy in a diseased society? Health industry booms, it flourishes, avoid fat, eat that. We want to feel good all the time. Spoil ourselves. Are we finding the other by placing the blame, what is the other than low? There is constant suspicion against anything different. Is that fear I smell. Other is different from oneself. To like someone, we tend to look for similarities, compare. Forever ongoing problem of how to understand what the other conscious being is feeling and thinking or even be interested in those things someone has. The manners of communication of trying to be understood, to make myself clear, to claim my place as a thinking and worthy individual, capable


member of society, it is to make oneself known, explain myself, express myself, say and be seen. Without that ability is there an I? Can I be in a state of unable to express and still be a worthy being? In that case I am at the mercy of others who do not have mercy for those who are thought to be weak? Ability and possibility of expressing my thoughts is vital in terms of growth, in terms of becoming part of but aware. To reflect myself and get responses, get rejection or approval. I need both. I need feedback so I would not feel that I am living in a vacuum among zombies ready to be eaten. Anything, a response, still it can be a desperate attempt if no one is interested.

Weakness. How is it defined nowadays? I am curious because my gender is again and again declared weak. Well, I do feel weak under all this guilt. Physically and bound to inventing a plan continuously, inventing new ways of being and doing. To be an alien in one’s own country sounds like someone who has committed a crime. Alienation is seen as solitary existance, someone who cannot get in touch with the rest of the world in an easy way. Does not want or is not able to? Then one can think is alienation the real problem here, in this picture? Is it just a symptom the problem of the alienated? Should they be told to perk up? That is what placing the blame does cause loss of focus. To someone who is left outside to survive for whatever reason blame is probably not the right thing. And why are they alienated? By choice of their own or others? Bullying, depression, alienation, loneliness go hand in hand. This society is in big trouble with mental health issues pretty soon if not already. Those who are bullied are not the only ones having mental health issues. Very often the bully has more severe symptoms which stay untreated. Mental health is just as important to maintain as physical health, maybe even more important. It would be about a time for the stigma around mental health illnesses to fade. What has this got to do with class, gender or work in general? With my experience of jobs in Finland a lot. For example, it is common to be bullied at work, one can say bullying was a joke, one should understand humour, even cruel. One must also understand not to tell your superiors about bullying. It is common to let believe that personnel cope such problems on their own, since it is not kindergarten. Funnily many people behave like they were mentally very young so yes, work can be like kindergarten. Examples are many, they all sound familiar and repetitious. It has led me wondering what happens at work. People get alienated, alienate each other, make suicides, get depressed and it is happening in a massive force. According to WHO report on worldwide depression 2012 350 million people have been ill with depression. Call that an epidemic. How odd.


Why is it a taboo? WHO statistics also tell that one Million people commit suicide every year. [6.] To be alienated is of course a strange state of things, maybe coincidence, maybe unavoidable, sad and extreme. What does it mean to a person? Why there is alienation and is it more common than ever? Is the society emphasizing too much on individual success and coping heroically on your own? The whole phenomenon of alienation is linked to concept of normal, normal behavior, mass of the similar us, how things should look like and what we are supposed to be and do with our lives. Person who is alienated in society’s eyes may not feel alienation as a bad thing or harmful. Alienation can be a refuge. Safe haven for a misfit. Some of it could be called What kills enthusiasm at work and Why can’t everybody get what they want for Christ’s sake. For how many people work is a compulsory burden, everyday chore with no enjoyment of doing? Remembering tired looking people in the morning in a bus five o’clock, same faces every morning. Are we doing it for the money? Is money good? And if it is not then why do it? We have to eat and live. What if there is no money for your work and you love your work despite does it pay. Few may value what you do and future is always an open book, canyon, abyss, jail of whatever, ecstasy, heaven, thrill or freedom to do whatever you like and call it what you want. What is class anymore other than a heritage and a memory and what does alienation got to do with this? Class is an epoch description in movies and stories. How things have been done, how things will be done by set standards. It is about doing and making and having position. Making money, making a living. Expenses rising continuously, paychecks are not keeping up in the progress. Middle class growing close to the working class or class identity will eventually fade altogether. Almost anyone who is lucky enough to have a job is working-class nowadays. How does that notion change our perspectives on society and identity? It begins to be too respected to have a job at all, despite what it is. The unemployed, immigrants, the poor become more or less ‘alienated’, unfortunate people who do not find their place, difficulty of finding


meaningful things to do without money is a problem. We like to see alienation as a personal and social problem. It has become a curse, shame and person’s own fault like living with your mother. Scapegoats to any economic turmoil there might be, burdens to society are those who do not match the given methods of play and survival. It is them who suffer the most of the scams that happen in financial world and rules of making it. There is a certain apathy and indifference there socially, lack of interest from which alienation springs out. It is a very strange phrase to hear from a fifteen-year-old youngster who does not want to do anything, go anywhere. Alienation means one does not have a job, intern job, school to go to, friends to be with, hobby to activate or home etc. It is a complicated and complete passive state a living person can have, helplessness. It can sound the spoiled ones are not able to activate themselves. It is something they have not learned to do, make it. They are not able to use capacity of theirs, some say. One side to the picture what comes to change and alienation. Things we cannot change seems to be ourselves, to accept that fact is hard. What is life but pure chance and random events, change nailed into it all over. How to make our burden lighter in this picture is the basic question. How to become less selfish, less self-absorbed and more open to the world? If you can lighten the burden of yours why not lighten somebody else’s burden as well.

Alienation comes in different forms and there are all kinds of ways to see it. For one, one is master of his own life, what happens to him, he earned his situation. Which is a very cruel way to see life as pure competition and luck. Since we have different kinds of ways to manage and do things, learn methods, it is rather insensitive to place blame on those less fortunate and those who have made bad choices, or there has been someone else who has made bad choices for them. Some choose to gamble (but isn’t that what people have to do since we do not know the right answers, what future holds. We have to take our chances?), some are screwed and conned, robbed and killed. How to gamble in life? Gambling is a sport says dictionary. Risky game, life’s essence, risks and how well we are able to learn to either avoid, predict and adjust our lives to risks. Always at risk and fearing for life is what welfare state is to help with, still to find life enjoyable we love to play games. Some place stakes higher. Wanna bet? Vocabulary used associates with money directly and someone’s life can end in a bullet. Is life money like time is, since it can be gambled or does life produce monetary possessions, is that what life does? What is life? Someone’s life is a possession of that person. It varies in different countries and by gender how person’s life is weight. Winning in this random game gives power and status of the winner. If one can repeat winning over and over one becomes a champion, unbeatable and people ask how did you do it. What is your


secret? How to gamble in life is a silly question, the risk and nature of life itself is a game. To learn how to play and who dictates the rules. As we are playing, we make it all quite confusing, to think meaning of playing and why am I on this particular set and what is my part, who is we. To talk about social change is to talk about kindness towards others, people and animals. How to practice kindness in everyday life? Is there time, are people capable of random acts of kindness, how would such acts be accepted and randomness if that is the nature of help? What do I do mostly is pass by, walk on? I do not stop to talk. Society has constant demand on us, we must demand much of ourselves. It is difficult to avoid feeling of losing when so much is lost. The feeling it brings trying to change things but nothing changes. That is the new normal, a superhero, achiever one must be otherwise you are plain. It is not difficult to guess how such a person got made. Where do we get our delusional image of what life should be, where to place our goals? It is too much to ask to be someone who looks good on TV, yes, I think it is. If that is our normal, I don’t want it. It is true we live in a competitive cinematic society. Competition on any level and age, with anything. It is tiring and often futile. To compete at work, at school, in social media, with strange ways of playing. Who makes it to be an interesting person and what kind of person qualifies in that category? I really don’t know anymore. I’m not sure if I give a fuck.

Is there change emerging and what is it? If there is a change it is very slow although we are speeding. What is sickness now? How an illness gets a status of an illness? It has a cure, it is a condition out of ordinary? Homosexuality was considered sickness till the beginning of 80s in Finland. Since the eighties concern and treatment for mental illnesses have been improved fairly well. Attitudes towards sexual minorities are slowly changing as well. It is almost ok to talk openly about psychotherapy one has had and almost ok to be lesbian. How about suicide one’s family member has committed? How emotional illnesses can be measured? They are emotional states in which it is difficult to live, that make you behave strangely, out of the ordinary, see things that do not exist. It is the symptoms you describe to your doctor and what your doctor thinks about them. How long has this been going on? Do you have suicidal thoughts? How would you do it, suicide? Why is there shame on mental illness is obvious, the danger and breaking of


social codes become visible, a disturbance to the normal which statistically seen is normal. How does that change human worth when you get sick? Why is it scary? You lose control of yourself and your life, you become something to hide, you can’t afford to be sick. Illness of mind makes you do unexpected things, behave irrationally and maybe, just maybe be a danger to your environment and yourself. Then in this light there are lunatics going freely around most everywhere.

Stay alert.

11.4 Scenes in real life. Atmosphere of suspicion, hurt and ill is a curious gap between people willingly kept alive to make people fall down.

A plastic surgeon has in his office pictures of his clients who had posed in Playboy or in other men’s magazines. He is very proud of his work and was pointing out that he likes it that women want to look beautiful and correct bodily flaws they may have and usually do. Perfection is a difficult idea to approach a body, a person. It is bound to taste, ideals, desires, upbringing and other influences, personality and learnings in life, needs and goals. Other matter connected in finding perfection is to define the flaws. Some bodily features may be justified to correct. Not so sure if correcting a vagina for boyfriend’s thrill would be on my list. Taste has tendency to change and it is going to the unnatural. The more we imitate what others have, the more infantile our desires are, this is my view. To seek acceptance by appearance and imitation what does that tell about people other than of their desperate need for love and be seen. Appearance and creating seemingly a personal style is theatre and a message. This is what I am like, this is what I like. It is also a common subject of talk. Look what she is wearing. To carry my clothes, to carry myself, is to carry a person. How do we carry ourselves is Habitus, bearing. One has to focus on that, concentrate on how do I do when I speak and express like this, I look like this. It is important how you face people, it is also polite to dress to a certain occasion in a certain way. It is manners, courtesy, traditions, impressions and expectations. It has led me thinking how much I am my clothes, my Habitus, visuals I create? My clothes are part of me even though they would not interest me that much as parts of my self-­ expression. They are part of my daily life to protect me. Some clothes are me and very many are not. I have chosen to wear few comfortable ones. I let others to see me in them. I am viewed wearing them as parts of me. So, it feels justified, a little to be judged by what I am wearing and oh so stupid. My clothes tell a story and they represent me. I should consider it heavily as appearance is the number one issue by which I am viewed and become for others. Should I hide something. Is there a reason for changing my outfit other than it is worn-out, uncomfortable or doesn’t suit the weather? To wear something


hideous, out of fashion and obviously secondhand is a statement and it tells I don’t have much money to spend on clothes or I care on certain issues. What comes to clothing is essential part of consumerism, grouping and pleasing. The younger you are the more important grouping is. Change in terms of growing up is to become to accept who you are, to be self-­ aware. How consciously do we construct our ego and id or is ego a dictator? Kids know from quite early on what they like, what they want to wear and they compare and reflect. Liking and not liking, are there shades to that? Liking a bit more. With liking there is the sense of good and bad in terms of behavior, which gets moulded by pressure and guidance.

Our minds are under influence and surveillance. We get addicted to interactive social media as well as to sensation hungry instant contents in any media. We are guided, in other words manipulated to follow contents that are asking to be followed. It is one scheme of fitting in the social norms nowadays. Fun is luring. Entertainment is to stay glued to equipment that make chatting about Justin Bieber and BB­-house on Twitter possible. Laughter is to connect, laughter at others and make situations easy-going, effortless and simple. It also makes life more livable bringing relaxed and unstressed feelings removing tension. Entertainment is also to change controlling monitoring straitjacket of stress and efficiency, and entertainment creates the straitjacket of effortlessness, dreams and fun.

Conventions can bring feeling of security and stability. They can prevent from seeing other perspectives to finding new ways of doing and thinking. One convention is to fully trust corporations who provide easy entertainment, stream of content for us to consume and reflect to. Entertainment business is an image creator. Images for us to desire to be desired. Entertainment is influencer like no other what comes to body image, placing importance on status, social appreciation, a clear lifestyle moulder. It keeps us with fast changing stream of images and influences, fashions and trends. We absorb everything we get emotionally attached to and it keeps us alert for what is coming next. Change is difficult to measure in this kind of world where almost nothing stays still, but still what is changing exactly? It is almost absurd to try measure what changes, how and when. Change itself is a way to live when you think about it and when you don’t think. That is a sure thing and nature of life. So why puzzle myself with this is to understand the decision to change, need to change, will to change, demand to and where does the individual desire, need, will make a change begin and how. What needs to happen to make a desired social change, a reform, realize itself. I say so because it is partly uncontrollable when social change concerning many people happens. Reasons to be puzzled by


questions about change are because even though it is nothing but self-­ evident, we are struck by it. Changes can be overwhelming, hard to bear. Tsunami wipes away 250 000 people just like that in couple of minutes. misfortune and death is all over. Is there something else one can do but accept them? Call them punishments from God? It is us that have done something wrong and made God angry. We can try to calm God down by worshipping and living as He has told us to live in holy books, be his image? We can try to explain what happens to us and why. As our lives despite all preparations are at chance, coincidence, random and accidental.

1., 20.8.2013
Floored, documentary on Chicago stock exchange, 2009 “electronic trading brings stability, it is a very efficient market place”. 21.8.2013
“Should the west intervene in Syria? Whatever it does, it will do so in the shadow of the war in Iraq. Tony Blair, the prime minister who led the UK into that war, has come out in support of action.” Financial times article by Chris Cook, 27.8.2013
Bad Reputation,The Folly of Going to War for “Credibility”, Foreign Affairs, Jonathan Mercer, 28.8.2013
5., The Guardian, The death of the middle class will undermine our democracy, Suzanne Moore, 28.8.2013
6., WHO, depression, 29.8.2013 7., 15.2.2014 History of labor rights and working class movement in India, “We are striving to reestablish Mumbai’s identity as a fortress of working class movement”
8. 15.2.2014





This is war. Essay.


series of drones on watercolour, Observation point, 2016-17

5.1 Emotional mapping and finding the ways of existing: war against nature and what is human nature. An effort trying to understand human nature in relationship to nature and growing from the natural.
5.2 Who is saving what? What is there left to be saved? What is worth saving? The constant worry of survival and for the future.
5.3 Mass destruction: warring and whoring. What is it all about?
5.4 Face of war


5.1 Emotional mapping and finding ways of existing: what is human nature? An effort trying to understand humans in relationship to others, us and nature and growing from the natural, evolving and superficial.

THE KILLER ELITE and Many of the men who disappeared, fingerprints of the men. They never saw them again. It was as if the men had vanished.

Bullet riddled body, his family searched for
his body to no avail
demolished the orchard’s walls with explosives; the trigger wire for the bomb that had exploded earlier in the day in a place like Nerkh, the shooting of a child is unremarkable for everyone but the family.

he would recite verses from the Quran and think of his children.
the Americans had arrested him, they sent a delegation of elders to the police chief venomously anti-American

poem after article  by Matthieu Aikins November 6th 2013 in detail story what has been going on in Afghanistan after US attack and war 2001.

(Of course, they knew what was happening in repeat.) [10.]

Why does it, what we do, what happens in the world by us, depend on how we see ourselves? It is how we see ourselves is what we are? Our perception is vital for us, we are trapped by visuals. We are the centres, shells, attention seekers and we have a need to be seen and recognised. We must see with our own eyes to witness and believe (does seeing mean understanding? We understand individually from our own perspectives, how correct any perspective is and how blurry and mixed with assumptions and bias.). I ask knowing our perception and comprehension are distorted and guided, also how we see ourselves is and what we demand for and of ourselves. Our perception of the world is made through our senses and understanding of what our senses and experiences tell us, also by what we are being told. Many look but do not see; we do not have the time, we are not interested, we search for something special without finding it etc. How perception of ourselves is made in the end is a lot of factors, as is what we should be. We like looking at ourselves, but do we see the person how layered we are, we want to be and others to see, want to see in us value, what we are is what we should be or not at all usually. What do we understand and don’t is a matter of understanding that we are flawed and our perception is filtered, as this concerns everything we do and how we evolve as persons and build up, it is important to acknowledge weaknesses in our vision, perception, understanding, knowing, learning.

Being easily guided or being a person of your own have a lot to do with what do we dare to think, say and do. How we see and observe ourselves and others is curious in terms of understanding and learning, thinking we know what is possible to make happen and what happens in the world by us and others, what happens in relation to the learned, known, new and old. We act and behave the way we understand we can, should and/or must, ourselves being what is true to us. Of course this can be falsely said as many are not true to themselves, do not know themselves, which as weird as it sounds happens to larger extent than we like to admit. We are a mass and very preferably stay in the safety of that crowd. The world is therefore now our image and object, a lie or plain factual reality, the truth. Our psyches, fears, emotions and expectations reflected and put in practice, understanding being our quest as individuals, a community in a place trembling. Bodies and desires lay out in the open to those who can read such signs, in display for us to do something about and use, abuse, construct anew, go after, if we wish (what do we wish other than safety?), but being incapable and somehow lost at the same time. This incapability is what strikes out as important, what is it we cannot do and learn?

Dystopia for the future is waiting to happen since we are abusing and destroying the earth, ourselves and other beings over and over again until nothing else is left but dirt and wrecks of people trying to survive. Image is cinematic and somehow constantly present (not so far-in-the-future science-fiction?). Tortured minds, sand, machinery and mutilated bodies, death and drought but innovations of men, a constant state of battle and survival in brutally new circumstances (I don’t think it is the good-looking people in LA who will survive or is it so they have all the money?) Although we are aware of doing differently now might have a beneficial impact, many choose not to. It is our decision and path to not profit all; throw-away culture is a party. It is always the next thing that is interesting, still be safe and feel good, know yourself. Risking these might make you lose. So we will perish by our own doing at large-scale and cleaning up is not something many consider a good job. It is again something out of sight. It is conscious decision-making and choosing, knowing our destiny which is our destruction, to be destroyed en-masse which can happen because of war, poor economic choices, illnesses, running out of food and clean drinking water: safety will be gone or very pricey. To profit from this is what evil men do, right? Expensive medical costs, privatisation of water supplies and housing, polluting natural resources etc. Happens all the time. To think further is to see what is there for us, for us is what always is there to be considered primarily. We act upon what is our interest. Who is this us? We become from having, we need a lot and we like to form groups in terms of wealth and benefits. It is our worth how much we have and we are measured by this trait. Who are successful and greedy for it are seen as winners. We make from what we have got and also from what we do not have. Such division does not end at ground school, but do we have different dreams? Of course. To be able to profit the most is a skill seen valuable and clever. To live is to win, know what is there to win and feel powerful about, who can be powerful and how power functions, power being practiced by becoming the what we value the most, how we structure societies is about power, markets and whom they serve. It can be said it is our nature to be violent, selfish and via that be powerful. When looking at the evidence, the history of man, capabilities of fists, schemes and innovations, taking over by force is what we do well, invading. Evidence is there, we know what comes of being violent, but how does it influence decision-making today? Wise on the most part, strict, calculating, manipulating, knowing of the results when making decisions and options which multiply as we make complexity although we love simplicity and easiness obviously? Thinking for yourself is a drag and takes a muscle.

Using the known the somehow understood power position is to share power, but how sharing happens and what does it contribute to: how do we want to benefit from sharing or not sharing power and how monitor the power usage and its effects? One can radiate power (one can be a sunny smiling dictator), it is curious how a person takes up one’s personal power, understands it and uses it, how it happens the power of one. To absorb power, used and learned, feel the power that there is around, make it, maintain and keep it. Power is violence and it is care. To think it as energy that needs to be controlled, preserved and which is a necessity. How to share power to preserve and multiply its potential?

To be violent, disciplined and orthodox is to know how, what can and must be demanded in order to show wanted results for organising society to work long in to the future. It is a very direct and straightforward close-up needed in order to be militant, precise and the whole society to function as an army, morally weight choice to erase originality and creativity can make a mass a power house. To bring light to the darkest corners is to appreciate power as an equalizer. Those who object can be put to danger or opposition can bring the wanted push for progress spreading empowerment across the society in the name of freedom of speech. So, why does brutality repeat although we know the wrong and the right, I assume we do. It is a decision of whether the one person is granted his or her right to choose a life, life which originates from individuality or do all people serve the nation and live for the nation. Because we are liking the violent nature of ours and the results of this part we see in the world or is it the wrong kind of people who seek power and the power they use is the most effective kind, we tend to live for the system because it is an easy choice? Human nature and mind is glorious, godly, innovative, dark and violent, to suppress this makes us more human?

Human mind is many things, uncontrollable, when people feel free to choose and use their power, for many dangers lie just there, the power is what people individually choose. We enjoy it so much, the results of shared power, that there are decisions made for us for our protection, that we like too much of this comfort. God’s part in using violence sounds ancient in this world, God which we should fear is far away. Watching dying and death feels bad, we feel guilty of not doing enough to stop the killing in the world, powerless in front of death, suffering of others and being afraid of it, of ourselves for not doing anything about it. It is a luxury to be able to do and think freely, it is divine. To see the world in need of saving and of course it is in need, we are being ourselves, in need, and we create by living freely the need for nature and human nature to be healed: we end up going in circles very much all the time. It is a pattern of going under and rising up emotionally. Be left alone and uncivilised, marginalised, is to be saved and destroyed at the same time. It may be the inevitable outcome, strangest progress in radicalization, turning process of balance to imbalance, there is that we possibly become more aware of the consequences of our actions, or we should be and we learn when we must. Knowing makes destruction more effective, but also possible reconstruction. Maybe we are understanding progress wrong at the moment and the future is more and more in the dark which causes fears.

Question is what do we see worth saving, worth our effort, how do we define the valuable, worth knowing and learning about, worth leaving untouched and unspoiled as we calculate what is worthless we like leaving behind, defining what is garbage, what is worth our attention and learning about. We must be having things that are of value and that is our worth, to know and have, this is what I have understood. How long can we abstain from loving the feeling of owning and what is the worthless we discard? Why there is desire to use all there is to use and rush to another place and do the same? Everything and all what one can grab is part of human nature or is it the nature in us for us to find balance via hierarchy, spreading like cancer to the extent of intolerable and unjust and collapsing? Is it a basic need, greed of man, fulfilling what we are and lacking instantly, fulfilling instantly giving pleasure, a rush of being able to have and be somebody, taking all the chances and space there possibly is? Who stand accused of and in line, because we like to practice violence towards every living thing and call it justified because we can? Traditions and needs of becoming a success story show on images online: posing in front of killed wildlife like a noble man, posing like a true beauty lies in a hunt and being able to shoot, manifesting happiness and luck, wealth, adventurous character and mind. That lifestyle is for the rich. The poor kill to survive. To bring honor is to become rich in experiences and be admired as such keep us as species thriving on one way lane, as posers. The world is here to be saved, owned, had and ruined by us for us and there is heroism there. State of the world is the state of ours, to save ourselves from ourselves may be impossible. To save or ruin and a possession of ours to use as we wish, life, to have a life and live it. We doing what we wish with it when all we want is freedom, livelihood and opportunities. Idea of a free man is to be a conqueror, an emperor. Native tribes originally thought/think the earth does not belong to humans, but we grow from it as parts of nature as natural and profoundly insignificant, which to the first world humans can be and is an intolerable thought. As natural as we can be and is what we should understand what it means in everyday life, we defy this, but desire the natural as strength and vitality which we have lost and found again and again. What is taken from the earth must be returned, but is not. We may lose sight of what we take as it is ours in our minds, we do not know nature anymore and what can be returned is not natural anymore but toxic, inorganic and harmful and this progress is difficult to change, still we talk about and demand change. It happens all the time. It happens when forced for the good, when faced the destruction. Earth has balance of its own which we


should follow and respect, that is the wisdom. Is protecting the environment and human rights hindering our freedom to explore, profit and innovate? Yes, regulations and laws are supposed to bring obstacles that bring corporations to think how ethical business can be profitable, how sustainable products sell. Who has time to be wise these days, who is the guru of the today’s world? Wisdom is slow, progress/change/evolution today in part is fast and also partial. Business world has taken up position of the gurus, wisdom in life and the quotes, narratives, success stories, miracles. Surely wisdom and the market are not opposite to each other, we seek wisdom via products, we find salvation through this religion we have found. What we can understand as valuable progress must be visible for the consumers to understand it as progress and get excited about it to buy it. What happens to progress of man-made structures that keep societies moving, growing and living, what is that progress all about that is quite short-sighted?

Nature takes care of us, we should take care of it, the nature, the ultimate power, is the wisdom we constantly leave behind, forget and ignore. There is beautiful complexity in the organic world. Nature and tragedy of abuse is we cannot repeat complexity of nature, of ours and do not understand complexity to appreciate the infinity of nature, layered human mind. Truth in traditions of aboriginals and natives remind us, we are small parts of the whole, dangerous, but nature is more dangerous when we don’t know it. To learn to trust, respect and read nature, live with it and learn from it, is something we begin to forget since we do not hunt our food and do not spend most of our days looking for something to eat and place stay at. Just because we don’t live in nature, from it directly and we do not have the time, but yet we are dependent on it. Why has western civilization come to think easiness is the best thing and travelling to Mars is a brilliant idea? Again looking somewhere else, the further the better. To think everything is for sale, a trip is something to have, to have it all where we should aim at and see running forward full speed admirable? By inventing money-making tactics, mathematics and trade, methods of conquering and creating of the unstoppable machine which is us, civilizations have become booming and crashing; we go up fast and come down as fast, or faster, the easier exploitation and lying is the more difficult changing the whole society for better is. We wish to expand and grow, search for opportunities, which is good, that makes us opportunists. It is somehow a naturalist way of living, kill or be killed, win or lose, taking risks keeps us alive mentally and physically. So in a way we are practicing our nature. If you do not move ahead and win in this game, someone else will. Today what does it means to act out (as we are performers) in civilized manner in civilized world, in a world of excessive need to produce new, cultivate the culture of easiness and seemingly high performance: exploit, mal use, discard to get a new one, because we can and are unable to repair, unable to make another one for ourselves, can make our world malfunctioning at one point. Something about the easiness and effortlessness we like and complexity we do not control is where we stumble. To observe the day now, nature is outside of us as hostile and dirty. We like naturalness as a copy, to wear and something made for us, shaped for us, but we are disgusted and fearsome when nature comes too close in form of insects, menstruation, nipples and weather. As we ‘evolve’, nature becomes unfamiliar to us, it attacks us with force. Is nature at war with us since we have been warring against nature all along as it seems or is it just a natural state of being, a cycle where destruction is inevitable to renewing?

We need to stay healthy, living in clean environment is a right and nature is in this sense a friend of ours as it is the healer, calming our minds, busy bodies and repairing itself after us (just like in Chernobyl). In nature and with help of nature we can find ourselves and become whole again is the mantra. Nature is the sellable product we must find, from where we find the cure, which we come close to like a product to smell and apply on skin. We are scared of the beast, the amount of abuse is we see it our right  to harness the dragon, don’t see it as abuse and we fail to understand how far we can go and what is this trip about. We miss what it is to go far as we call life a journey, spiritual travelling, a trophy of having a life in luxury, a deed of travelling to clear ocean. Oneself can be too far from oneself, it scares to be close.

It is a very emotional issue to think about nature since it brings us joy, memories, emotions, pleasure, honor, food, spirituality, experiences and winnings: our winnings are all from nature. We want it badly as a possession, it brings us pride, is our extension. We don’t want it to be what it really is and be close to us naturally on skin because we may not know what it does. It is beauty, incredible work of creation and the opposite of control and strict purity we like. Nature is surprising to the extent it is too much of excitement. What we want to see in nature is what it represents to us and gives us, cuteness and waterfalls, what we constantly find in nature is a mystery and awe. Awe I feel while watching the ‘uncivilized’ nature, full-blown without human set limits, the uncontrolled infinite one making itself over and over again with and without people. As much as we know of our planet, it is divine and a mystery, sacred and unknown. To be lost there and here is the horror image, disaster movie in a dark wet forest.

Despair, the negative, leading to finding paths, solutions. Emotions to be avoided like being lost and being totally alone, something felt strongly of wanting, a hand is not reaching far enough. Like admitting failure is to be desperate, of not being good enough, not fulfilling expectations. We are controlled by feelings more than is good for us, we have emotional necessities and constraints. We are in our believed wit and reason firstly emotional and chemical beings, which is reason enough to know and believe nature’s work in us. Instincts, intuition, sensing and feeling, chemistry of our hormones make us what we are, part of nature. What makes us humans is this complexity which we like to simplify as it is too much to take and tolerate. A blocking dead-end feeling of no other choice but to accept our ‘animal’, the nature within our human frame. To deal with it, the ways are and have been many, matters of life and death, who is human enough. There are constant surprises and they are the normal or should be. The tragedy of norms is we must fit into them. We make and invent


solutions and means somewhat hopeful but narrow, because we must (that is the human nature restrained into proper), when there is no other choice than do what one feels, practice civil disobedience, trust the power of one’s own, the power within, the better judgment of one’s own and knowledge of one’s own possibilities and options there are for anyone to go against.

5.2 Who is saving what? What is there left to be saved? What is worth saving? The constant worry of survival and for the future.

Despair, the extremely negative emotion, unbearable hopelessness, emerges when a nation starts a war. When attacked and when going after against another nation, defending something or for whatever reasons, conquering a piece of land, having the right to revenge there, defend what one has. Moving ahead as world police saying God is on our side and approving of war for this reason and we are mighty because of God’s approval, empowered by the divine. Desperate sounding as there is little left to hope for those under attack or for those who hesitate to the part of God in warring. An attack against is the only option to preserve national pride at cost of lives and mayhem. We must do something risking everything we have for our future and for what we believe in, that is what we are and stand for as People. Despair of people who seek for the better life, who are not satisfied for what they have got, where they are to or what they have become may be a war-like situation, such as in many countries ravaged by gangs and drug lords. Despair of people who seek for empowerment, safety and success no matter what. Despair of those who try to put the world on a right track to save it and us. Despair of the selfish, and despair of the selfless under circumstances and coincidences and as a basic feeling motivating us, contradicting. To save the world for a flourishing paradise, for it to remain a paradise, which it still is without fear of death and misery which could be a lot for many. Despair being the leading emotion mixed with anger, hate, envy, greed and rage in doing, at the moment, at least when one follows the news, emotions are at display and used to describe situations of people, justifying actions for the viewer to feel for those who suffer and we pay attention to feelings of others, what they make us feel. Are their feelings justified or their actions? Sounding so cynical, but what else can we do?

I’m not sure if people recognize their emotions, why wouldn’t they is the first thought. How much hate dictates people, disgust is used as a shield and a divider. How people have the inside to feel, give and contemplate why they feel they do, how irrational it is; what is this feeling for and what to do with it. It is an absurd thought why wouldn’t we know what we feel, but often true. But it is one cornerstone of psychotherapy to learn to articulate and address especially to oneself how one feels, why and what do feelings mean, what triggered the feelings and thoughts and what these do to oneself, feelings arising because of what happens, how one has felt because of how someone spoke, why one feels the way one did when someone ignored one and how one feels about people and oneself now about what has happened, what one has experienced in life by people, by oneself and how does one perceive one’s part, a victim or a violator, a bystander, an average consumer, a rightful citizen, an underdog. How could one know someone else if one does not know oneself? That is many times why despair and fear take place when we do not know what is going to happen to us, everything is lost in a moment and why bad things happen to good people. Knowing too much can be a desperate and agonising place as is not knowing, knowing emotions and how they rule us is useful in terms of living healthy balanced lives and what we pass of ourselves forward. What there is to know, what is good to know and how to place these pieces rationally in everyday life is wisdom.

Fright won’t do when one needs to get something done properly, move ahead and in a new way. One can either succeed beautifully or lose miserably, but you tried, promised by Satan lurking. Risks we take and have taken have shaped our world. Try again. We are active by nature which we tend to forget. Our moods depend on activating the body. We are doers, makers, achievers, masterminds and ancestors of those who have taken steps, moved around and taken leaps looking ahead not knowing what might happen. Without something we see worthwhile doing and have a burning interest, without desire to evolve, without curiosity, our investigating nature, we would not be where we are now. To learn to use curiosity for our benefit not just to find out but become. Saving dignity, preserving a legacy, achieving those is to be heroic, staying put is for those who are satisfied with what they have got. Something indestructible and sacred like a blessing is still within the explorer and conqueror. It is to say I want to do good, be good in the eyes of others as well as in mine and doing good makes me feel good about myself. I want my life to be part of doing good for humanity. Find norms of doing good is probably the common path to choose from. Good is a


human thing to do most might say. What is bad then? Is it animal behaviour as we like to think? Animal instincts make us do cruel things? How does punishment fall upon us, fear of being punished and abandoned for immorality? To keep us in place is to wage fear and shame. It is easy to find and know what the good things are, worth preserving and use of propaganda is to create division and illusions of good and bad. Still those good things aren’t self-­evidently saved and prized. Rescuing is a well-meaning term and act of a kind heart as is to save a life a heroic deed. With heroism we can go on thinking wholehearted patriotism of the good people, who have chosen to do good and be good, call themselves good because they stand on the good side. They have it and easily continue warring against bad people, against something truly evil. Is it a very Christian thing to do? Pride or hurt happens to patriots and religious people so easily, defence and attack are there as tools, opposites fighting to win who is the most. Opposites disliking each other as they are in each other’s eyes the evil-doers and spreading ill. Do we ultimately save bodies when we save lives or do we save souls and persons, to whom these tasks of saving fall on in the end? Do we save and preserve because it is a good thing, socially acknowledged, because we are bound to take care of each other or because role of a savior brings glory or all of those things? Am I again being cynical here or are social media and double standards having the best of me? What does human life consist of is a complex web of sides of having life and living. Preserving life, the organic, bloody and then facing death evidently. To be given life, be thankful for it and which no one should take away or end. We act for the good of all by saving someone from suffering. To do good may help that other to continue do good.

Emotional in the news by the news made dramatic watched by, responded only when disaster hits close. The viewers to either respond or ignore, have rapports as background noise: they are all the same. We are spectators and documentators of what happens, of disasters we cannot do anything about, but feel guilty about, we must know of them and think how fragile life is, how horrible things people can do. What a viewer feels while watching the news, what is the stand of a spectator or a documenting bystander? How important it is to know how feelings dictate us, witnessing the massive hit against a mass of people, how are we manipulated by the media and what are respectable feelings before the commercial break. Why does it look like it is very often irrationality and cynicism manifesting itself, presenting itself perfectly as the rational? How something very rational as Western modern straight monoculture can turn into being irrational and disastrous, or has it been like that all along all the time. Something we have been afraid to acknowledge and see, the lunacy of ours in disguise. Modern mixed with Christianity tightly like the Middle Ages mixed with superstition and living along with cyber space technology makes progress look shallow. Denying our mental illness-like faith in God’s word, which illness is something out from demons that normal good people do like to worship? Mental illness is something to be hidden as dangerous, normally, something to be hushed and killed away, saying that we all are a bit crazy in a funny way, which on other hand means something liberating.

Crusades ongoing today in our world appear crazy on any scale, crazy being a word in normal use just as OMG. There are quite a number of people who have a very good and high opinion of themselves, but they do hateful acts in repeat just by talking and consuming. Rightfully in their eyes for some reason they fail to see hate in their actions or see hate as justifiable because they have been wronged or hating feels good: I love to hate.


We as humans are in a situation where we have no other choice than to discard ways that are corrupting, destroying the earth and ourselves. That is not a little tiny thing to do, because admit doing wrong is extremely difficult firstly. And to do this globally, understanding the importance of acknowledging, engaging in collectively without wanting something out of it financially. Meaning and happening of change globally will be the biggest event in history of mankind and how to change when we talk about it constantly is the big question mark. Who wants to change, what is to change and what kind of change are we making all the time? I say this because there is not much time. In fact, we do not have time, but we love to be in a hurry, don’t we? To be in a hurry is a luxury and a marker of status. You are needed and important, you are making something, you are visible. Western way of living has come to an end of one kind. It sounds sad in a way and  it is very, because it will be extremely difficult to change our habits, strategies, beliefs, desires and ways of thinking. Way of thinking of knowing the absolute right has come to an end, ways of closed circles that cannot be entered. Change is think anew what we need. If you are not able and willing to rethink you are doomed. We are at that end which is a train. What saving operations am I talking about and which ones will count?

Why would I help anyone and how do I help myself are some key questions in today’s world. Western consuming and living in luxury is an ideal, has been and still is seen as something to reach out for and dream about. We do not have much hope unless we do radical altering in thinking of value, worth and price, price of living, value of life and culture of aiding, sharing and gaining. This is my realistic view to it and it demands a drastic amount of work because in our interest is what do we benefit from doing anything. Our contribution now being an endless production of human waste filling earth and we must invent ways of what to do with it. The shit we make and why we make it, what is it with excess that is so alluring. This goes for everyone, this I hope, weighing in the options and how we want to look like in other people’s eyes. There is continuing false thinking that one person does not count or matter, what do my doings make in a big world. Him and her do matter, everyone. To change what we practice now, overproduction of junk does not mean just recycling and cycling. It means stopping altogether of overusing. Halting under growth demands and never stopping comparison to each other is impossible. What does it take to change an intolerable way of living and thinking? Probably a disaster.

First it takes seeing what are the things that are in mass use doing the most harm. Then we observe how many willingly would give up for example eating meat, which is a major question in food production what comes to people’s health and preserving the environment. Meat production’s need for energy, water and field space to produce food for us, food we don’t need, is intolerable. Meat is a very expensive source of protein and nutrition. Meat production is in many ways wasting of resources, not to mention cruelty done towards animals, which are often treated as emotionless objects without consciousness. Objects to fulfill our needs for leather and steaks. The amount of feed given to animals would feed a substantial amount of hungry people. Again, it is a question of habits and traditions. What we eat and how we eat, as is where do we eat. Is it a treat to go to McDonald’s and is it seen as fun luxury to be part of a culture that is for maximum fun and consuming? How valuable do


we perceive meat to vegetables and what does meat-eater think of him/herself. Accommodation and food production are the most important necessities we need to keep up to keep on living. To not have those every day is a personal disaster. For millions not having those every day is a disaster that is not done enough to. There are several reasons leading to not having these basic needs fulfilled. Mostly due to unemployment, homelessness, war, corruption, poor social structures, indifference and inadequate health care. The United States is an interesting example what comes to poverty, food supply, traditions, habits, wasting resources, making war and global politics combined with religious and patriotic beliefs. The US has a tremendous impact on all of the world politically, entertainment industry included (I see it as politic making machine and part of the national propaganda machinery of the US). So far, the nation has been a leading force and molder of finance markets as any other markets there are globally. If there is talk people not liking Americans, there probably is a good reason. American policies have been (mildly put) arrogant and totalitarian despite hegemony of loving democracy and freedom. American way of life is alluring and tempting for many as it seems what it says to be: free. The American Dream on screens and images is everywhere. how do we find freedom there? According to statistics American Dream is out of reach for millions of Americans themselves. On Feeding America website there are stats showing one face of America, which is devastating to read. Under the Supplemental Poverty Measure, there are 49.7 million people living in poverty. 3.1 million more than is represented by the official poverty measure (46.6 million) 2011 [1.] Figures are enormous even in a country of 300 million people. How well do these people living in poverty find their way out of their situation depends on how they find work, place to study and live, how bad is their situation to begin with and what kind of networks do they have to help them cope. If every diploma has a substantial price tag, poverty continues to flourish as ever. There are different states of poverty which vary around the globe and for which reasons are harsh. There is a definition of absolute poverty or destitution, which refers to deprivation of basic human needs. Lack of clean water, lack of food, shelter, health care and sanitation. Relative poverty is defined contextually as economic inequality in society. Societies led by the few wealthy and with corporal dictatorship economic inequality tends to be substantial. Poverty can be profitable and serve interests of the wealthy. [2.] Absolute poverty is a problem which seems to stay in the certain areas of the world. This is basic knowledge to most people, problem areas have continuous problems growing worse, knowledge of where poverty exists and why and who should feel guilty of the situation, what could and should be done, how much aid is helpful, what is the help needed and when people should learn to help themselves. Major question is why nonstop problems keep on existing and growing to the extent and devastation they do? Why people stay poor, hungry and desperate and what is the role of bad leadership in this. It is huge. Lack of education, gender inequality, corruption, lack of democratic politic making, extreme weather conditions, poor health care, poor housing and no work are signs of dead-end places. All in all, lack of future prospects, opportunities and


sustainable welfare keep on existing.

A girl born in brothel in India or in Bangladesh will most likely become a prostitute. In documentary Whores’ glory (2011) directed by Michael Glawogger a brothel owner (woman) states this as a clear future prospect, also to a child of hers and there is nothing to it, there aren’t any other choices. Prostitution is likely to be a future profession of many boys and girls born in extreme poverty without chances getting out of being poor. Without care, education, functioning inexpensive health care and support from the government situation remains. Charity is not enough and it is not lasting or a constructive method to remove poverty. How a nation deals with social issues and looks after its people plays a big role in dealing with poverty and other problems following. Support can mean a community that helps every individual in that community on their feet and is open to people wanting to join that community. A functioning community is open to learning, facts, opinions, ideas, change and difference.

Community of a brothel is based on caring of women of whom nobody cares for. An equal and evolving nation does not resist change on any level, does not abandon anyone, works together for everyone’s well­being, also it does not lean on brothels to take care of people in their basic needs. In poor countries there may be a thriving middle ­class and advanced technology in use, but wealth achieved does not trickle down to all parts of the society. In this way middle ­class abuses poor by neglecting the mass of ‘hopeless cases’ who are miserably left aside and felt disgusted by. Stigmatizing the poor, the working poor, is an everyday practice and creating a level of look-alike glory and class is a way of using power where just anybody does not enter. One way of doing this is to keep power in the hands of the rich only telling it is justified and right and they earned their place. People having parliamentary office are often the rich pushing causes of their own and their ‘friends’. In this picture politics sucks big time and corruption flourishes. If corruption is seen as a good way to move ahead why change the situation. To seek equality and peaceful action between people and nature could be the best way, but it seems to be the most difficult and less lucrative. There are some radical contradictions in the picture to salvation and glory. First what is salvation, how we pursue it, how we select which ones are worthy of rescuing and how we place grounds for saving. In order to be saved something has to be gone wrong. Our inhabiting the world the ways we do being one major threat and a violent act against nature, against ourselves. What is what and being rightfully ours should be argued. Us is against us, we are against other beings, it is a constant battle. Genius is the most cunning one. It is a place of excellence to put oneself above, to the place of righteousness, of knowing and having force and might over. People who have placed themselves on pedestals to have leadership have fought for it, have wanted it badly. It is one way of evolving and building cultures, to follow something, someone who knows where to go and how to do it fast. How long does the master last on that mastering spot?


Our animal instincts show best in a life-threatening situation, us panicking, nurturing our babies, wanting to survive, fighting. Our bodies and minds function accordingly with what we have learned. There is the thought that being led by emotions is animal-like behavior. Oddly according to the idea of world owned by man, animal-like instincts are the ones that keep us alive. We live in a world of separation, world which is divided into the first and the third world. Stages, progress and order of white man, order of privileges and most of all order of power and wealth. The privileged people and the unfortunate ones living in an impossible world where injustice is more a rule and we think we are very human in our reasoning, winning, beating and conquering. Which ones of us are the first in line of needing to be saved and being rescued and from what? How do we save ourselves from ourselves?

We are obligated to help to a certain extent. We offer what we have and do what we can. What else there is to life than assistance since we live with each other and are dependent on. Decisions to make how to aid, what is necessary and a human responsibility to give aid when you can are constantly figured out. How much do we let our pride dictate our capabilities to aid, how our self-worth and position is in comparison to others and how much there is division between people in helping and caring? Can you help someone who is at the bottom of a gutter or are you disgusted? How much do you think it is your duty to help? Where does the limit go and at what point it does not concern you? In welfare the state has a role of a saver of those who are unable to save themselves. It also is problematic in the sense that the role of helping is tossed to the state so much so that people begin to think helping others does not concern me. To think that there have been more or less desperate attempts in the name of saving the world is again image from movies. We are swamped with problems and pleas for help, all under constant threat. Amount of issues that have gone horribly wrong is immense.

It is one of the strengths of biblical message that God and good is and lives in every one of us and by saving one you save the sacred. Attempting to help someone in need is saving the holy. Interesting question is how much religion has got to do with our savior position and need for salvation and glorifying ourselves. How much Holiness and idea of the sacred direct us to do things for others. What comes to religion it is a collective binding thing and bringing people together, on the other hand religions have torn the world apart. Separation and bringing people together the non believers, believers of different religious faiths has bloody history. In the name of God, God is on our side, by right of God, God saves, God justifies killing, God above, in God we trust. These are phrases used to let us bear in mind reasons to do things, how they should be done, why


do anything, they justify our existence and makings. We have God’s word and blessings on our side. Still in use in most of the world, in the US as well as in the Muslim world the sword of God, justice and judgment of God. True believers like to build barriers between different kinds of people of faith, abolish difference, which is a threat to the community and what is acceptable, barriers against those without faith and so on.

West is driven by interests of finance, to prosper in the eyes of God, God of war, vengeful God, our God is a jealous God, he is on our side whatever we do as long as it is his will. Word of God is a powerful tool in the process of justifying deeds of the chosen people.

It is clear people acknowledge we need saving because life is problematic as it is, due to human psyche and needs and whatever circumstances we might have. Randomness of life can be unacceptable. We need to continue living, struggle is for learning, becoming and be forgiven hopefully. I can’t help of being cynical when thinking about good promises of saving the word and the act of giving. We, humans are the ones who need constant saving because we are sinners. We are forgiven by God, so what is hell for? We are desperate for being saved, being told we are good as we are and blessed. It is hardcore rescuing of souls and minds needed to mend our bad doings, to save something that is good and figure out what the good is. The world and its saving operation as it is in us and outside us, becomes sensible, possible and actually realistic in religious context. It is sorrowful, desperate and in the same time joyful situation to witness hopeful collective understanding arise which has got to do with faith and mystery of life. But does religion change ethics, attitudes and perspective of man when in the end man wants to save himself only hanging by and on to that faith in God and the good of his?

5.3 Mass destruction (warring and whoring. What is it all about?).

We are warriors. Soldiers, fighters, people battling, having daily combats: who is the victim here if not the one who fights constantly? How do we victimize ourselves and do we since it is a cultural norm not to place oneself on stage as weak and show one’s hurt? We must suffer alone. Hurt is to be hidden and be the burden for oneself only. By victimizing ourselves we put us in the position of needing help, here comes psychotherapy again in aid for us which we clearly are in need of. Maybe we are victimized by the war of existence, burned and marked, owned by our pain. We are victims, knowingly, but not showing. Sacrificed and slaughtered at the altar of war daily, the daily battle of existence in pictures and anywhere. We must


in order to feel empathy towards anyone first allow ourselves be empathetic towards ourselves. With this thought admitting hurt is healing. It requires a permission to be a victim to feel empathy. Allowing ourselves to be vulnerable and weak in need of help. It does not mean a constant going in circles and crying out loud, ending wounded and nowhere, nor weeping about misfortunes of life, because misfortunes are there. What else would it mean? No one avoids those pitiful moments of self loath, hate and feeling sorry for oneself. To be merciful towards oneself would be the key to finding happiness everyone longs for, that it is in the moment and achievement. Release of guilt and sadness in a way of letting one feel every emotion there is, emotions as they are, can be helpful. To tolerate and recognize the emotional self is about accepting emotions as they are and learning them, what they do to you and make you do. What control has to do with our emotions, is a lot and what kind of control is needed, the meaning of self-discipline and order in life.

5.4 Face of war

War has multiple faces which turn into one twisted one in horror. Heads roll, many fronts are build and fall down, ways of realizing oneself in relation to wars happening in the world is that one cannot be shutting it all out, the images, refugees, suffering, a war with no end is a feeling of not being able to breathe. War is manifestation, propaganda and a statement, but I always wonder of what exactly. We manifest and propagate by making war and fight, manifest after a manifest our points of view and force, right of being absolutely right. For some it is a right to have and make. A manifest of power, of existence, rightfulness, of being right on the right side, of having right to judgment and punishment, wipe wrong from face of earth.

At war there is a constant threat of being killed, seeing, smelling and hearing death. Meaning of war is to kill or get killed. To win at war is an illusion. War is performative audio­visual act of violence in which there are only victims and losers. Winner is the arms dealer whose winnings go beyond comprehension, for whom war is a jackpot. Killer is a victim as is the killed. Situation where there is no alternative is victimizing, when there is an obligation to go to war when young. Before the act of killing the killing has already happened. Who feel obligated, is obligation born out of patriotism, which rose to new high after 2001 attacks in New York. The victims in rich countries are displayed truly vulnerable and hurting like no one else. Victim of war propaganda, victim of brainwash, of being on the side of something against something, of circumstances of politics and circumstances of reality made by businessmen, journalism and politicians. Victim of political games and schemes, where very often the biggest criminals deciding for wars go free and prosperously retire. At war people are forced to make murder, which is not considered normal behavior for a person with morals, dignity and appreciation for human life. Defending values and ways of life by killing is a way to make the world. In this light we can ask for whom is this world made? Operations to save face, to preserve honor, of way of life are operations of manically selfish lovers of power, glory, position and wealth. Some calling such attempts justified rational acts of politics, righteous and that something had to be


done to find those weapons of mass destruction. Much that I have followed politics, since the eighties, to make war is seen a global necessity to act, to make a point, to show off as world police, gain power and to have a say over. The amount of warfare and man­made catastrophes is appalling. It is startling to think that during the 1900s there have been four wars on Finnish soil only.

In the aftermath of the First World War and Russia falling apart for it to become Soviet Union, civil war broke loose in Finland in January 27th 1918 continuing bloody to end in May 15th 1918. In November 30th 1939 Soviet Union attacked Finland determined to invade the country in couple of weeks, which attempt failed and war ended in March 13th at eleven o’clock 1940. It is important to notice the imbalance of forces between the two countries in this war. Finland had only 32 tanks in use. Soviet Union started the war with 2514 tanks and had at the end of the war 6541 tanks in use. It really was a miraculous survival battle by Finns. A war when Russia did not invade the country felt victorious for Finns. [5.] Continuation War raged during 1941-­44 after Finland started claiming parts of land it had lost in Winter war to Russia. The fourth and so far, final war was the Lapland War 1944-­45 between Finland and Nazi Germany. Looking further than that in history the list is long of battles in the area of Finland. These four closest wars fought are still vivid in our minds. Memory is kept alive to feed our national pride and our deep respect and oath to those who fought in these wars with their wits. Seventy years are not far away, there are people who are alive and remember the time. Soviet Union/Russia is a one nation that has made serious contribution in making war also elsewhere all the time. Since it is one of the largest countries by area in the world it has probably felt warring is its contribution and right to master. Somehow it seems it does not know any other way of ruling than by violence and invading. Russia battled on several fronts simultaneously which it did for example fighting the Winter War and the World War 2. Macho culture and aims to keep a large nation together take a toll. Russia still is far from being a democracy and as a huge nation impact of its doings is major to its neighbours. Russia tends to be partner with other dictatorships and in this way of thinking it is stopping equality and peace from evolving globally. It does not want equality, freedom of speech nor democracy.

Soviet Union and now again Russia both have been invading areas, putting down rebellions and stopping attempts of different parts of the country to gain sovereignty. Some uprisings succeeded in gaining independence like Estonia which declared independence 1991 after it turning into battle of course. Russian despot ruling has had horrible consequences to ordinary people. Latest in my mind are the wars in Chechnya where


Russia has had two wars during 1994-­2000. To take a closer look at war history makes it clearer how ruthless and merciless its politic making has been and continues to be. One reason over any other is money and image. Financial interests of power nations like Russia, who conquer by size and because of their size it is like a rule to rule violently. Sizeable nations the US, China and Russia have a lot to say on political field. They have large economical influence and created dependence of energy and goods for Europe. China also acts as a waste manager for many western countries which depend on China’s willingness to dispose recycled garbage. They all have strong ideological background to persecute dissidents, which dictates their politic making even today and radiates around the globe. There is tradition and cult of violence in macho cultures, which makes it hard to learn to act and think otherwise, that it would be wrong. Machoism is an ‘easy’ way for a boy to become a man and become a ruler or at least respected member of society. Initiation rites which make boys men are actively in use especially in gang cultures which flourish in South America and Russia. Rite can be to kill someone, beat or be beaten up. To rule with fear is an efficient way to keep power and learn to control with fear. To keep people in belief that those in power do good for people, because of having gained power position. Wanting to run for office is proof itself of good will. Do good because they are good men and have gained position for being, doing and looking good.

To have a look at the political map globally during one hundred years the result is that every political plot and game end up to the US or Russia and those schemes don’t stand the light of day and come little by little to public knowledge. The US likes to pull the strings and stir the soup well, once a friend can become an enemy. Sharing the good in soup made not too well as messy as the world politically looks today. Soup in question and made is poured all over in bad. (How generous of you.) Is it tasty for the rest of us? During one hundred years there has been nothing but political plotting to get the most profit in to the hands of the few in continuum, the exploitation done during centuries makes it normal. There have been extremely lucky people, well-connected who have ended up filthy rich, who have decided it is their time to do politics to get even richer, which continues even more so. How much the politics of the US is actually made by corporations and owners of the super rich enterprises running and lobbying, one can only guess. It appears the most of the world is owned by corporations and politicians merely have the position to execute wishes of the money men and often enough politicians themselves are very rich money men. Warring requires equipment, preparing, planning, strategy, focus, patriotism, loyalty, money and it makes good profit for those who manufacture arms, astronomical. The US still has an agreement with Egypt for example according to which US grants Egypt financial aid to buy American arms. The amount of money is substantial which goes straight to arms manufactures in the US. Money flow does not leave the country. ”Despite the highly secretive military budget, which the law protects from scrutiny, there are a few cases in which the public can glimpse the vast economic power contained by


the Egyptian military. One such case is the economic military agreement between the United States and Egypt. Between 1948 and 2011, the United States has provided Egypt with 71.6 billion received approximately 1.3 dollars annually in military aid from the United States. The Obama Administration requested another 1.3 billion dollars for the 2012 fiscal year.” [6.]

Morals seem to be strict where there is no moral. Interests of nations and people are usually more financial and economics is the ruling force of all in the world. Wars that were fought show on every graveyard in Finland. On every Independence Day we are shown the movie The Unknown Soldier on TV. We watch it or not. Knowing reasons leading to wars I still am puzzled by the extent of them. Knowing what triggers warring it is not comprehensible nor justified on any scale to reason and make war anymore as we should be wiser than before. How could a macho culture be changed which warring clearly reflect and be altered to be less hostile? Number of ongoing wars and wars fought is scary and mind-blowing in lack of a better word. The amount of money spent to kill seems to be secondary issue. For warring the money is found, billions of it. Effects of battles to those who have battled and to those who live in battle fields are no doubt crucial, devastating and long-lasting. It probably can be said no one leaves a war zone unhurt. Those effects last decades and do not remain within one generation. In the US scars of the World War 2 and Vietnam War are still in the process of healing. Many veterans of war have ended homeless being unable to work and support themselves. Side effects like alcoholism, depression, suicides, post­traumatic stress disorder do not heal themselves in time or never. Symptoms affect not only the individual but the whole community and families especially. War does not end to declaration of peace. It continues in the minds of people, in movies, stories, cities, landscapes and in history books. Desperate acts and useless in every way, not to mention far from peaceful life on Earth.

Ways of facing problems, problems which make politics seem messy and criminal. Benefiting from politics to make war and profit, dynamics of everyday life, diplomacy, hierarchy and protocol, means how to build an equal society are always beyond sufficient and quick to be done. There are always ways to do things better. Then we have to choose by whose better we want to live, for whom we live and work. Who would want to compromise, who decides peace is a better option? Who should are the leaders. Wrong doings and hurting to solve something have taken larger than life proportions and scale in a way that has done quite the opposite than solved anything. Latest atrocities would be wars in Afghanistan and Iraq both of which have gone bonkers, lamely put, and measured by


any scale and seen on any graph and dimension. Both wars have been horrible disasters for both Afghanistan and Iraq, but also for the US. What are the worldwide effects of such large-scale attacks? Despair is raising its head in front of these never-ending situations all over the world. The war crimes done for which no one is charged with. War crimes firstly the US having attacked an independent country to find terrorists and weapons, which were not found and evidence that allegedly was, wasn’t there. The biggest terrorist so far and by far is the United States of America itself. Especially during the last decades of the twentieth century and beginning of this twenty-first. Bill fallen on the lap of citizens of America is estimated to rise up till 6 trillion dollars and lives lost hundreds of thousands mostly civilians (this number includes casualties also in Pakistan). [7.]

Conclusion of everybody is that warring against terrorists in this way has not been worth it. War to avenge dead Americans is an act of pride. Sadly those situations are ongoing even though the US is not bombing anymore but trying to preserve livable circumstances for civilians as they have also been saving lives of citizens of other nations in their own opinion. All this because the US was attack 2001 in New York. Quest for weapons of mass destruction failed. Two bad guys Osama bin Laden and Saddam Hussein were caught and executed. One of them was not even put to trial, which making democratic justice happen would be demanded. That much for democracy and peacemaking. Revenge, brutality and paranoia being leading political agendas and ideologies. How to even calculate losses of these wars or make Afghanistan and Iraq peaceful societies again. Losses go over any estimations. Cost of war is always far-reaching; emotional and mental hurt is difficult to cure. Not to mention need to avenge, bitterness and hate which remain. War is not a cure.

Who becomes a victim? Is there pattern in dynamics of behavior and what is qualified as weakness? People kill and slaughter each other at war repeatedly.

It is bold to say a killer is a victim, but this is the case. Bullies and killers are the most hurt people, power and aggression working as shields replacing empathy lacking. Driven by their hurt, trauma, history and lack. Mostly lack of love and caring (this my theory). Desires which drive for warring. When facing people who have done bad things to other people, how these people are faced and what is bad enough? How does one look at someone who has killed? Have they done something you would not do? Who judges the bad and wrong? Do we pretend we are not affected by hurt, hurt against us and others? Do we laugh at hurt? To harden ourselves to manage as it seems many do, is a survival shield. It is humiliating to admit hurt and pain, but when you do


does it open up a new person, a freed one, relieved? If I say we are all victims of mass manipulation of what is right and wrong by what is taught to us, told to us repeatedly, I’m not hugely mistaken. Gender is manipulation, power is manipulation and truth should be found, truths, lies and multiple realities. It can be difficult to walk one’s own path. Group pressure is a strong manipulator and guide of people. It is not easy to dare to do differently and follow truth of one’s own. Responses can be immediate and very often negative. In society where I have grown memory of war has always been there and I was to fight like a soldier to survive which has a lot to do with my sex. [8.][9.][10.]

1. 18.11.2013
2. 18.11.2013 3. interview by Alf Gunwald Nielsen with Gurminder K. Bhambra “There was a concerted attempt to begin to demarcate Europe from the rest of the world.” What Bhambra has in mind is the emergence at this point in time of a way of writing history, in which Europe was posited as superior to the rest of the world.”
Guardian Nov 1st 2013 by Vandana Shiva “An obsession with growth has eclipsed our concern for sustainability, justice and human dignity. But people are not disposable – the value of life lies outside economic development”

5. 19.11.2013 6.­moral­ambiguity­of­united­states­aid­to­egypt  by Frida Alim dynamics and schemes of the US and Egypt dealing with arms deals and contracts, concerns and debate over development of democracy in light of unjust spending on arms by military and US meddling internal affairs in Egypt. 29.11.2013
7.­afghanistan­pakistan.html­ Moral ambiguity of United States aid to Egypt by Frida Alim Sept 9th 2013, 29.11.2013 8. Reuters, BaghdadThursday, 24 October 2013, 29.11.2013
by David Floyd  Oct 24th 2013, 29.11.2013
10.  by Matthieu Aikins November 6th 2013 story telling in detail what goes on in Afghanistan after US attack and war, 29.11.2013

Hi guys, how about that social change guys? You are doing it so well guys, a lot is happening out there isn’t it. We need some social change guys. We need it pretty quick guys.

Go social changing, I’m waiting. Kind of slow, don’t you think. Lot of obstacles on your way there guys? Social change is like sex change, you need a surgeon to do it.

To think why society exists, state has citizens and society is for them

If art is seen as mechanical part of society with duty to fill, money to make with, interior to decorate, glory to have by there will be those who will oppose it, artists who will challenge such system of good and bad, winners and losers, rich and poor, laborers and profit makers. An artist as someone who has to make art to fit the system is selling cheap, to fill in requirements given to make art suitable there will be something left out, unseen and forgotten. Why people do art, why there is need for art, what kind of art do we want to make and to what kind of need does it answer, who defines what is art and who is the artist. These questions will be asked over and over again as there is a system that makes it compulsory to find the grande artist, value art as possession, as there is system that makes profit via art often without the artist. Sometimes it seems art is valued but artists are not as people who also need to be paid for their work. In capitalism we do not live to make charity, to make other people rich, give value to institutions, cities and countries.

Among many things that are fucked up homelessness is the one that is on the list of immediate to deal with and abolish.

It has been something that I feel very strongly about. Everybody has a right to have a home. It is a human right and therefore an acute issue for governments to take action over since it is a serious human right violation and a kind of bottom from where it is difficult to get up on one’s own. It is a duty of nations to provide affordable housing for their citizens. It is the least you can and must do. To comprehend why this is not happening is extremely difficult, but I try. Why do we have nations? What are nations for other than making profit for the rich, for corporation, to provide cheap labor, infrastructure and tax money to exploit? Since it is Christmas time and according to latest statistics in Great Britain alone there are thousands of homeless people, we are obligated to act upon it, to help. Those who are the lucky ones and have roofs over their heads, who have means to do something, what can you do?

What would be the most helpful thing is to radically lower prices of rents, to regulate how much is the limit above which prices do not go. Housing is an area of business in which people ruthlessly exploit lives and livelihoods. When paycheck is not enough to pay the rent government is not doing its job. Extortion and rip off that is what is going on and is outrageous, wrong and unjust. “Nobody should be in the streets; that is the problem with this whole thing,” said Sandy Perry, a minister and outreach worker with the Affordable Housing Network who has been at the Jungle daily trying to help. While he agrees that the Jungle, with its piles of garbage, buckets of human waste and now rising creek waters, “is not a nice place to live,” Mr. Perry said the city ought to have a better plan for homeless people in general.

More than a few of the encampment residents said they were victims of rent increases. Yvonne Vabiseo grew up in San Jose and had a job and an apartment until recently. “I worked at Dollar Tree,” she said. “I had a car and my own place.” She lost her job just as her rent was raised, prodding her into homelessness.”

Moral outrage? What is your moral obligation if you have one or any?

How does it burst is that there happens something that breaks the back of an imaginary camel. How horrible, we must do something. The thing is that stages of emergency are out there all the time, but which ones break the media to put it out so we well off far away can hear about it. Luckily our current social media extravaganza provides solutions to make a show that makes it possible to create huge life saving projects which may possibly do something and possibly not. We have our morals which we like to praise and we pose as good people who defend the weak and stand up against injustice. We must do something. What is it we actually do is we entertain. There are so many people who stand against the lunacy of evil of people who it should be a world without violence and bad deeds, shouldn’t it. But it is getting worse. Violence is incredibly blown out of any proportion long ago, but we like to smile for media to make it and pose. I hope we make it. Question is what can we do other than post photographs with written messages to the world? They are not enough nor morally acceptable way of dealing anything. BringBackOurGirls?

Change is coming and there is no other way!

Feminist movement Femen is fighting on the streets facing fascists, ordinary street men, politicians as well as the police, who continually arrest bare breasted women shouting Fuck your morals, God is a woman, Ukraine is not a brothel, in gay we trust, Nudity is freedom! Strength of such fearless action and devotion to the cause is impressive, appreciated and joyfully effective. Feminism should be exactly that and in there, on the streets, in demonstrations, during world cups which lure prostitution to flourish, in places where world leaders meet to make people in suits face anger, attacking fashion shows to let them who exploit hear out those who really have an important message: Listen to those whom you abuse! We are many and we force you to listen. Feminism is activism, sextremism, distraction, interruption, disturbance of status quo and destruction of seemingly comfortable balance breaking that clean surface. It is an unforgiven demand in itself and notion that women have to take their place to be heard, fearlessly speak out standing tall. Feminism is demanding abolishment of sex trade, acknowledgement of the problems which women globally face, abolishment of sexism and punishment for it, concrete separation of church and state, legalization for access to free and safe abortion, women to have decision over their bodies, punishments for rapists to be heavier than they are. It is demand for respect and dignity. Feminism is demanding human rights and lasting social change to all human beings, environment and animals. It is one of the most important global movements at the moment and the importance of change shows in the way Feminists are treated. Importance of attitude change is immediate. Importance of finding conformity a repulsive tool of oppression and fascism. Importance of learning how fascism works today and manifests itself daily in ways of monitoring, dictating, suppressing and manipulating. Place of women is displayed by showing hate against women, against Feminism, stigmatizing those who dare to speak up and act against oppression. It is one of the most important issues globally to make concrete change to better lives and rights of women, minorities and children. Situation is angering and change is slow. Hierarchy, power and position of church is immense dictating places of genders, how people should live, what is right and wrong. Religions and dictators are obstructing development of human rights for people to achieve better quality of life, better treatment and appreciation of women and children as individuals and people. I see divisions very clearly anywhere, personally and generally and I refuse to be what I should be by my gender traditionally, ordered by someone who is to be above me. I can do nothing but go against. Change is coming and there is no other way.



There are rules to be broken. That almost is a rule for creativeness to find its explosiveness. There are ideas and ideologies to be shocked and thinking patterns to be changed.

Tradition is natural, to work is natural, because it and it has been going on so long, so it must be the right thing to do. Logic is naive and defensive. Working class and middle class values can be aggressive and tiring. Values of owning and working make who you are. Both classes have somewhat similar desires, to be well-off, safe and prosperous. Such values have been mocked in several occasions by artists as the way artists are mocked by people who happen to have the so-called real jobs. It is a mockery and on and on battlefield of people who do not want to understand each other’s ways. What is an installation and do you still do art, still are the usual questions I get to hear. I guess it is your thing. My thing? Doubt and suspicion are obviously your thing.

Equipment is secondary. In terms of revolutionizing society, making society work for all of its members freedom of expression is vital. To take it, because very often it is not given on a plate, the possibility, appreciated or even legal. It also seems to me creativity must be opposed for us to find its power.

How to change society for more tolerant? Could that be your thing?

Stimulated,simulated, negotiated, forced, inflicted, given, numbed, self-inflicted, felt, lived through, avoided, how much pain is necessary, can one take, because without so-called suffering we don’t live. How do we call our pain? Do we exaggerate, complain, overexaggerate, do we compare ourselves to others and to their pain. Do we see it, effort, agony, lack of effort? To see an effort to gain, to learn, to work, to get something done. How much do our feelings guide our lives, our pain?

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I therefore am connected through pictures to people who got hurt, someone killed, people being enraged because of unjust deaths, demanding blood for blood is still not a good answer.

We as people have hearts. That is what connects us, our anatomy and mental abilities, compassion and ability to empathise. Feel for someone, feel what that other is feeling. To possess on organ creating consciousness and state of mind (brain meaning heart) that can relate to other living organisms. Isn’t it seen as intellectual to suspend emotions, stay correct, cool politeness at a cocktail party, in an interview, panel discussion, at school etc.. Intellectual achievement like solving a problem, but staying distant. Political correctness, politically said, politically proper, no cakes on anyone’s faces. No screaming feminists. To think of someone else’s place, experiences, to think of someone else than yourself, altruistic approach, what can you do to others instead of thinking what can you gain from them or how do you look.

Intellect is an interesting topic to dive into in terms of revolution and social change. Who has intellect since it is a possession more and more abstract and what is intellect. It is so easy to be fooled. Living in conceptualized world, as our world becomes technologically instructed, constructed, led by unknown money, invisible power hands, lived with machinery, intellectually immaterial and visually stunning information cacophony, but stay correct and calm, since you are selling you, constantly. Intellect seen as heritage is a class society gift. People wrapped up and ready on levels of their breed, economy level, education level, society dividing us still within traditional, imagined, sexed capabilities – what can you do, what can you learn, how can you unlearn the notion that one cannot do something, thinking men can, women can’t. Divisions, classes, social ruling by

those who do not allow. That is intolerable! Emotions as world molding force. Huge. Is the counter pool nonexistent or is it emotionless machine-like humanity? Curious..