How rude


How rude
How loud
How unclean
How vulgar
How unfeminine
How impolite
How talking over
How infuriating
How stupid


Those wings are heavy every time the dinner bell rings. Dynamic energy drastic
measures of swans for girls for lasting impressions. The want to go to Paris and
walk. They want to go Paris-thin. When a girl is too thin, when she looks sick, they
need to lose weight to float still. What gives angels their glow?
What I eat in a day as a fashion model.
How I lost weight and got lean.
How to grow your butt without growing your thighs.
My full gym workout. How men react to different levels of makeup. What I eat in a day to lose weight.
Six clothing hacks every girl must know.
Victoria’s Secret angels go grocery shopping. What young hasn’t been dreaming about this?


Body of contempt

Patterns and ideas of how feminine is let to reveal and live itself can be and are hugely regulated and calculated, and seen as the self-evident part of modern society. Body is weak and needs to be fed. Women are weak therefore they must be taught to obtain strength via obedience and observing their behavior closely. Strength via the feminine role of fragile, acceptance of one’s fragility and humble place of evil weak sex as written and eternal truth. We are compelled to control bodies with looks, with upbringing, with clothes, with comparison, with contempt and degrading. Patterns of making it to be successful within rules of the game in which we are meat and food for those who are hungry is a weird masochistic necessity. Feminine is as is the act of sex and idea of gender manipulated as too dangerous to be anything else than the few good things they are for. Made for, designed for. Too wild for them to be as they might become to be, dangerous for such obscene to be let loose, too dangerous to acknowledge aloud.
Damaging sexuality, sexuality as damaged is as a rotten idea.  A rotten view into humanity and the angles in use now are prohibiting us to be as we are. For sexuality to be manifested as the most important part of humanity is precarious and laughable, shameful and hideous. Knowing the danger is acknowledging the importance. Exploitation of body, especially young attractive body is seen as a right as we do it via images. How do we know exploitation from everyday usage. Can they be separated. Isn’t accepted exploitation everyday practice. There are degrees of severe and we are beyond severe to understand where the limits go. There are degrees of right and wrong, which we must know and act upon. To give body to be exploited is seen as a heroic act, and that there will always be a new body to replace that worn out one is to show and use the constant hunger and demand. Delivery and supply exist because hunger exists. As a circle of inevitable, that there is nothing we can do about it, because there is a continuous desire, misery and lust for body, which cannot be helped. An eye that wants to watch.

Body, to be a being, someone with mind who knows what to do.

All the time changing, all the time under magnifying glass. Other people’s bodies, body of one’s own in comparison as we look at ourselves and those other bodies everywhere. What does it look like,  my body, what does it do, how is it among bodies. There is always a flaw, a peculiarity, difference and lack. The wholeness of a body is taken for granted as is wholeness of mind, meaning something that should be, an ideal we must have and be. The idea of wholeness of keeping it, the ideal, them, our bodies the body and mind together working fluently. A product of modern society is one kind of package of wholeness, keep it together tightly. An absurdity and megalomaniac dream is to set an ideal which idolizes surface. It is to bring hectic stress, a dream which is intensely plastic and to the core science fiction. To reach a perfection for which standards are set by entertainment industry is a peculiar way to live life. Standards for body, living, exercising, clothing, moving, saying, making, for communication, for homes, things to have, what to be like in order to create a perfected image of modern success. Success is the things. Success of things.
Why do we accept such ongoing grandiose and an obvious road of self-destruction is the puzzling question in the matter of building life, making it and making oneself. Why do we knowingly choose the path of fast forward marathon desiring to go further and further, discarding and consuming nonstop, finding pleasure in simultaneous short term impulses giving feeling of rush. Rush and hurry seem to be the ones we need to feel our existence is real. We need those elements to let others know it as well that there is a hype and speed stating our importance. It does not look like self-destruction. It looks like fun.
This body that does things as it was a machine made to create magnificent life. Human body is magnificent itself, but not all mighty.