Do you have a position in your organization for my wife too? Sure, don’t see why not.
It is interesting to talk about sub-being, sub-human, since it is clear despite the beautiful talks and speeches the inequality is kept alive because it is serving and pleasing, nourishing vanity and desire to be powerful in relation to others. But the groundbreaking changes always tend to begin from the ground, within below point, in despair and a kind of dead-end. The more people drop on to the ground to be spat at and left behind as unnecessary the more anger and need for change there will be. Those who refuse the role of only to-survive-you-need-to-do-this, to whom it is not good enough to be instructed how to live in a world that is based on extortion and lies, will grow bigger as mass to threaten stability of the ruling few. The more there will be ultra-rich the more there are those who wonder why such enormous wealth concentrates in so few hands. How is it possible and who allows it?
Within the world of making money and making it, being a woman is out of ordinary. It is wondered how she did it. The disbelief is unbelievable. How is it possible to have a mind of one’s own, is this what is the question? When woman is a threat to male clubs, male rule and dominance it is a wonder how women make it. Another wonder is why the difficulty and threat? From whom is it away to see women succeed?
Beauty of being female is to experience femininity, to learn to know it as your own. Is it undisturbed and protected? Hardly. Even the most strict attempts to preserve femininity unharmed is harmful. What would there be to protect, what is the harm and against who? For some reason femininity is the disturbed, harassed, mistreated, undervalued, feared and therefore powerful. How to experience femininity can be a challenge for it is under pressure to imitate male existence to hold and obtain power to equal male authority. Subtle and fragile nature of female is what is expected of the other sex, the receiver waiting to be loved, taken as bride, accepted and wanted as obedient and kind, loving and caring. Strength of female is to question her status, to be able to either blend in denying herself and wishes of hers or be complete as a woman and stand against, say against the norms. Her strength is that she can choose. She is allowed to choose. Complete woman is a complete person who does what she expects her to do not what others expect of her. Religion, politics, people, society, only what she expects of her to be and want. That as such can be also her weakness. The all that there is to want.
To experience femininity is to be prepared to be looked at, stared at, talked about, where is the exact place of femininity, calculated, is a strange thought because it is everywhere, on level of hormones and cells, biology, undeniable there to be faced and looked at. Why does femininity have a place of particular and a set like theater, like something ready and determined from above without this plan to have a chance to be altered and turned over? Why is gender something stiff, to be scared of, panicked over screaming in need of help, childlike, unaware, difficult and therefore controlled?
That one ain’t worth a thing, what could it be? We know what it should be, but it ain’t that. We don’t know what it is. As we are guessing what it is we better give it the worst for it to know who we are for it to respect us and know our superiority through violence.
I have sometimes wished it because it has been so difficult to be me. It has been difficult to notice how above average is not hoped for, wanted, because it is seen as below the average, as something bad and wrong. To find excellent and to know it yourself, to be excellent is what one should work for always. Demand it for yourself. To know what is excellent and good one has to understand it and believe it. In search for excellence and unique people settle for what they get thinking that is the best there is for them or that other has the best and we should want the same or beat that other when one there is to beat is themselves. Logic is often lost and people wish to seek the comfort of a crowd to blend in, still and want what other people have. No wonder it is demanding to be an artist, a feminist and a dissident, all those things scare people because of the radical nature of those, of those labels, stigmas, ways to see life, forces of nature, because nature is scary and to be under control. It is scary when we don’t know it, when we don’t respect it and protect it and it is in us for us to find. It. The best you can be.
Personal confession, personal experience as a woman. Bias and suspicion, the most average shit there is.