She looked like she had been treated like so badly all her life and that made her disturbed and disturbing./ Strange dream.

Killer, pencil on paper, acrylic on canvas, 2022

Slutness is a blame and label that has always been there, waiting to be revealed. She becomes a whore when you keep calling her that since little girl. You can beat the monster alive.

Strange dream

Strange dream
I have been trying to understand the concept living to the fullest (since I began to read women’s magazines.) First, I looked for paper dolls to cut out functioning with feeling of lack. I Had a dream in which I was in a place I had been in a dream before. It was remembering a dream in a dream. I wanted to find a paint that would paint a room in similar blue to simulate a deep ocean. Such paint was hugely expensive and demanded a lot of pigment. I visited a paint store that sold (the only one) that particular paint and wanted to see this valuable stuff, though I could not afford it. The store was also painted in blue. There was nothing else, but the paint mixer in the middle of that blue room, two saleswomen smiling and they asked if I wanted to buy something. I just came to ask for the price of the miraculous substance.

There was also a large garden, that I had only seen flying low over, garden with naturally round trees, lilac flowers. I was in awe. Plane made an oldish propeller sound. Strange visiting places in dreams where you have only visited before in dreams that only exist in dreams.

Killer: I will hurt you as bad as I can.

Killer (I will hurt you as bad as I can), pencil on paper, acrylic on canvas, 2022

Collective hating is an interesting phenomenon nowadays. Proportions are somewhat huge and long-lasting. People start hating whoever says the wrong thing. Someone who is an easy target and that tells of the attackers, it is a raging mob against one. They have heard about you, they have never spoken to you, never met you, they have heard about you. This is a system of mutual understanding where speaking against is a big crime. In China they already have social credit system that halts people from saying things and existing. Many clearly want to live in similar kind of system. It is a system of greed posing benevolent Power is intoxicating. Power of having more and more stuff and influence, power over others, what they can say, do, wear, whether they can work, study, move ahead and whatever. I think we are already in that system of credit where you can’t be a dissident without facing a heavy beating. Hurting others is a sport, not unfamiliar to humans at all. It is very human, so much so that many don’t like to look at that part in themselves and like to point the finger. Hurting is done also in the name of social justice by people who do not understand justice nor social. Antisocial behavior is rampant and to be social is not about having like-minded around blocking the unwanted out from all walks of life harassing, bullying and defaming. Nor it is to talk too much and all the time about oneself and one’s feelings. Decent social behavior gives room for other people and is about listening, taking into consideration, giving opportunities and room for others too be seen and heard. Social justice should understand many things which it doesn’t at the moment. This growing pain is hurting a lot of people unnecessarily, but yet again it is very human to hurt unnecessarily, willingly, intentionally and in aims to hurt and make vanish as much as possible. And don’t compare humans to animals, we are far more evil and malicious.


Vapaata riistaa: naiset ja alkoholi. Miksi naiset juovat?/ Fair game: Women and alcohol. Why women drink?

Drunk passed out, Why women drink? (because it is fun), oil pastel and watercolor on paper, acrylic on canvas, 2015-

Based on images online and the reality how females are and become exploitable goods when intoxicated and how that reputation continues with no end. To my experience too when a woman is drunk attitudes change towards her, become negative or maybe they already were and now it is ok to show them and to hear I’ll be glad to abuse you, is a normal. In a group when this happens and nobody defends you, you can end up in a pretty bad place. Topic of talk changes immediately to sex when you are incoherent. Exploitation and abuse are so normal, people clearly see them as justified and she deserves what she gets. She did this to herself.

Politics of exploitation: When you are against exploitation as leftism originally is, you probably should understand what it is and means, like leftists today, do you even know what you are talking about? In art it looks they don’t. To have a glow of leftism makes you more desirable I understand. So next time you see a woman wasted, don’t treat her as garbage, it makes you garbage as well and it isn’t what decent people do, not even leftists. Someone got drunk, so what? That man got drunk but it is ok for him, it’s fun. Make sure drunkards don’t choke on vomit because choking on art is an option. Imagine it is still 2007 in many people’s minds.

What she deserves?
It is true, I have a condition and it is called Fuck you. Dye yourself blonde, dye your hair blonde, change yourself completely is the message. It equals beauty. Be skinny and fit, it equals to what? Torture? What is it? Essentials to being beautiful is to be less and not aggressive, agreeable to a point you can’t say anything back, be nice so that you do not disturb and it is what it means to be a woman and behaving like one. How to be pleasant wearing Crazy Love the fragrance is a tightrope and you are under looking glass. The flaw is in you.

Beauty is subjective. It is when you are able to do what you want and be free? To stick penis into her mouth and make her choke, make her throw up as she should, die as she should, killed by penis in her mouth, mouth like a sewer. Beauty is in the image and you are not it. That is discussed, being disgusted by her feeling empowered by herself and taking that feeling away it is the right thing to do, she does not deserve to feel powerful.

She deserves it

Do what you want and be your authentic self.

Killer, acrylic on canvas, pencil on paper, 2022

Just don’t hurt anybody, right? How much hurt there is and by whom, is what we constantly need to listen to and go through, since people hurt each other like mad and punishing for it is like a right, punishing for being hurt and hurting. Who gets hurt the most is like a competition, a drama of life. What kind of hurt do we register and pay attention to is interesting as many are hurt and discomfort even is giving anxiety, is making us feel worse. On level of feelings, things have gone berserk. Who can be hurt and how as many people do face constant harassing and bullying and to what extent do we care and should care about discomfort and pain? What does discomfort cause, what kind of discomfort are we talking about and how much can we handle, must be asked, because for example homelessness is an extreme discomfort. Are we more fragile now? Most of us, live comfortable lives materially. Threat is another matter, but we are under constant threats. Do we create our own discomfort by thinking about it, not caring about other people’s comfort and hurt and how much our own garbage can we pour on other people as constant hurt of life surfaces like an illness? There are people who we are allowed to hurt, who think against ideals. How much consideration is needed, because it is obvious, consideration isn’t the strongest feature of many. And yet, we have evolved because of discomfort.