River of no return

Gouache painting with graffiti of Marilyn and Happy Meal ad.

River of no return

How many takes?
She was very sweet. She was a comedian. She was very shy. She was fuck me. She was very uncomfortable. She was convinced, she was not very sexy and pretty. She didn’t have an aura of sexiness about her. There was some magic about her, she would play at it. She would burlesque it. She seemed like a lost child. It seemed to her like Alice in Wonderland and she could not believe it. Anybody was very serious about her. She really felt she didn’t have the inner qualifications to fulfil the image of a sex goddess. She thought that the whole thing was a lie, because it was not her. She would never feel worthy. She was very very difficult. She was vulnerable. She was weak. She was teary. She was struggling. She was falling apart. She was hurt. She was an addict. She was needy. She was difficult. She was in pain. She was adorable. She was drunk. She was nice. She was childlike. She was late. She was lovely. She was hanging on. She was calling me. She was calling everybody. She was caring. She was unprofessional. She was sexy. She was beautiful. She was funny. She was doing the thing that was wanted of her, she was not doing what she wanted.

She was drunk.


From Finland

Think about how gossiping makes you feel, powerful, right. You are observing someone’s life from above and laughing at it or having other kind of reactions. What kind of power that is to be able to know what goes on in other people’s lives and be able to discuss that? What does gossip do and what is the purpose? It has many purposes of which most aren’t positive. It is a power play of simple people who feel powerless without the possibility of being able to put someone down. This is of course a global phenomenon which one should be very careful about. It makes us careful who we trust if anyone. Gossip makes you look so intelligent, doesn’t it. Especially when you don’t know..wtf.

Gossip, word of mouth. It is to believe, that what is said, is passed forward in faith it will do harm and is somehow justified, a play of hierarchy. By saying the things you say you will cause something which may become a storm. It is used to destroy people or it is used to do something else. What other can gossip make than harm? Haters make nowadays social media phenomenons of those who are hated, there are few examples. This may turn out to be a good thing in the end as people understand at some point how useless and simple hating is as a strategy and how it tells more about those who hate and gossip than of those who are targeted. How something so hateful and negative can turn out to be a good thing? Gossip can be advertising as it travels in speed that positive things do not. There is an image of human nature there and what stands as interesting to us.

Fine art proves in so many ways how fascist its structures and practices of thought are, it keeps things  willingly as stagnant as possible. Such state is more lucrative, to keep things unchanged as to change anything takes a lot of hard work, and yes thinking. People obviously do not notice.