Girls on net: in search of a porno monster.

Drawings 2015-2017, pencil on paper from images online.  On some of them there is a website address which is not meant for advertising purposes in this case. It is part of the visual world of erotic internet and I have let the writing be part of the art. Visuals which are very attacking look-at-me, you-want-me, this-is-to-want, bright but kind of plain, repetitious and straightforwardly recognisable aesthetics of porn that does not need explaining, at least that is what I think at first glance. The easiness and little effort that is required makes the whole thing approachable which is the meaning of fun. Fast culture to consume, enjoy and produce, quick pleasure getting straight to the point and issue at hand which is satisfying urges of watching, thinking, touching and fucking, which are always there, urgent, instantly, daily. Images in professional and amateur porn are framed so that limbs, hands and legs, may be only partially visible. The point are the holes, flesh, skin, expressions, poses, her wanting this badly, to be like a thing out of order, out of control and her parts to be penetrated as the main course.

Display of genitalia, proportions, body mass in the right places, spreading open showing it, the vulgarity of it is the unexpected but still banal and dirty setting people on immediate reaction, may it be rejection, thrill, repulsion or something else that varies from laughter to numbness, but it is a personally felt position that carries out our moral views, inhibitions, curiosity, strong feelings and desires to be let loose or stay unchanged. Having something to do with fears, taboo breaking, daring, being bad? Secrets online in plain view is an interesting concept that contradicts with the restricting, fearful and intolerant atmosphere towards sex, sexuality and nudity globally and online. Question there is what is the voluntary part of women here, what are they doing exactly and why? Some kind of ancient image of sexuality being part of religious rituals and beliefs comes to mind. Is this sexuality what is wanted of women, self-expression, something honest, feminine or just a sexually loaded product which keeps women as something to look at in a certain way and be just this image and pose, wanted as an image? When is it good or bad enough, this frame, as it is banal, fast, cheap and available and the platform is free as is expression? To express oneself in pornographic way is it giving everything away as a person or is it just acting, art as such? What was the secret again which is revealed in porn, for viewer to know, secret being there no longer but still hush-hush, a happening in between the viewer and the performer and does porn remove shame, intolerance, misogyny, ignorance towards sex and liberate us?

Drawing does not take the explicit nature away, but is nudity and sex more approachable as art?

Can you tell what is the meaning of sex? The core meaning for our existence?

Is it an instant gratification to show one’s penis to strange women? It is seen today as something else than hundred years ago. It is a bit difficult still to capture the whole meaning of the theatre of image, all of them and difficult to see the mind behind nude photos which are an empowerment culture for free sex and do what you want. Dirty and naughty that is done maybe for laughs, maybe for other reasons which surely are many. Image of a penis is not enough to turn on no matter how pretty the organ is, well-shaped, large or what direction it is pointing at.

I really want this, should probably be the answer, which makes me ask why is it so that women are perceived differently here than men. Is it the question where goes the line of acceptable and prohibited and this line must be crossed to make an effect. An unstoppable need to know one is being wanted and seen in an openly sexist way, see this, all the things done with this thing shown and more to come if you are willing. I’ll be good to you. Portrait of a one way street. What is the moment when we look at genitals and what do we see in them? If you have seen enough, it is naive to think sex is what we live for, what keeps us alive maybe or definitely. To cross lines works up till it doesn’t anymore. Maybe it, sexism and harassment, is important when we need to breed and that is why visibility matters, I don’t know. It must have other meaning than having power and direct effect, a success.

Sexually implied harassment is an every day event. To be seen and desired as a sexual being who is aggressive in thinking and having sex, it is the most fun to people or you can have it and that hunting and showing off one’s sexual drive plus ability bring the high in life even unfilled, that act of playing and poking the ice, breaking the ice with all that heat from your sexy body and attitude radiating via electric cords and the way you walk and talk, is justified and ok. What kind of culture makes people think all want the same things and should like this.

The most of you being your penis is not much and it is not a turn on but off. Reason for me to inquire is that the need to bring the subject forward, act of sexism fucking a mind, fucking in mind disregarding consequences, harassment and display are on the wall and unbelievably rampant. It is like no other part of culture, sex. I have come to think it is the energy we live from, even those who deny sex being important or are ashamed of it, such vulgarity is what is a kind of nonstop pain but tolerated because it is the fun, fun for me kind of self-centred self-pleasuring. Is it a thrill to go to a stranger and make an advance just like that, flash. That there are no ties, no other pressure than the harassment done by a person to another person who is supposed to give response of some sort. Someone who wishes to be openly sexual in predatory fashion, make verbal and visual comments thinking this is the best shit there is and play with people in hopes to end up having an act of fucking for fun. Who says yes and agrees to being used?

It must be something to people who prey online. They do not see it themselves like being wrong because the behaviour is normal, the search for fun and amusement happens in a flash of a moment, it is something made for them and theirs. It is their game which all should understand. When you turn it upside down and do it reverse, response is an utter surprise and silence, ummm. Then it is not normal anymore. There is a point when repetition mode will get tiring. It is when the majority of messages are the sort where intercourse is the main reason to contact and interact with women. To say someone is interesting and suggest anal sex and any casual meeting for you to get your release is the lamest shit, lazy, boring and unacceptable. Sure it makes me laugh out loud, still I wonder what the fuck goes on in people’s heads. “There are these rather weird sexual connotations attached. The idea that women are closer to nature, which is of course out of birth, is absurd. Nobody is more or less natural than anybody else. This gets played out in a number of interesting ways.”