Don’t you have to be rich to be fuckable? Sure, and easily discarded. LMFAO. Say tits.

ART OF SELFIE. 2015-2021

Get as close as you can to c. 2016

In art sex has got a big role, bigger than anyone likes to admit. Maybe in sex art also has a role. one can hope, maybe artsy angles and plots, not leaving anything to imagination though, no. Look deep into the holes and how big any body part is, otherwise we don’t see and seeing is believing. Sex the act and sex of anyone, sex the biggest issue we have, is also the mess, we can’t get enough of. Which has led me think, do they, art and the children of the revolution, understand feminism (leftism really already is a lost cause and far away from its original purpose) at all, or is it just something to grab and use as a shield to look and sound better? Well they can’t all be feminists. Freedom doesn’t mean you can do whatever or does it? Freedom in art somehow ends up being a mess or is it the tight control of artists and the system that is destroying something very essential? I have always hated being monitored and controlled. The need for controlling art and artists is there. Art the beacon for feminism and leftism today, what a laugh, feminism and leftism, the beacons for art, I wish. Hope you are getting paid. Why are these things on the surface only? Feminism the sellable object is thrown around like it was something handy and making the user absolutely a good person, better than most- sticker on you.

Beginner’s guide to feminism for people who don’t know anything about feminism might come useful and this seems to be the case today more and more. Clearly many people think it is fine to destroy in the name of feminism mostly women, their careers and bodies, and feminism itself, but to sexism nothing has happened and checking anybody out is normal behavior, part of the curve and curves who has them, I mean, what and who is interesting and how anyway? Nude images are to humiliate and not art? Could be. Be it one is humiliating oneself only, isn’t it part of doing art, you make yourself vulnerable and put yourself out there…Depending on the person’s intentions and who it is, is nude. Nipplegate awaits forever. We just want to take a look. The very very frightening female nipples pointing at you. People who have grown into culture infested with porn are the ones who humiliate the most? Who knew? And men group together just as always to watch and laugh. I don’t like to explain, but c’mon, you are not this daft? Must be biological as it is obvious and repetitious.

To understand the nude is tricky, maybe a deep dive into art history could open up the difference between men and women in art. Why still so slow, I wonder. You talk about change, but you do not change, but you do change, don’t you, you must know what, when and how? You do want change, don’t you? What is the change we are experiencing, could you answer, because it looks weird? I would like to hear an analysis. Not going downhill, are we? Become rich and famous? How art. Sure there is #metoo (did I write it correctly?), but is the impact in the headlines of who is the biggest crook and social media visibility being who got violated the worst? Actress got treated terribly while alone in a hotel room with this big shot who has been doing the same thing for decades (we just heard whispers about it) and they really do not learn anything, because the powerful don’t have to. Action of changing the industry of arts is far more difficult, because putting yourself on the line is extremely dangerous, but is it impossible and how afraid are these people? Sex is this big thing and female is the wrong sex, that is why she can have an impact since naked female body is causing shame, what this slut anyway and did what, I mean, dear Lord. Shaming women is very normal in very conservative communities, men can do whatever and they will and want. It is accepted, but feminism is interesting, isn’t it, or the feminist perspective in a work of art, oh and ah. You have a good camera. Yes, we support, as long as it remains on the surface and in talks. Heavy lifting can and will damage careers. But what can you do? Are you talking about abilities or options? Abilities of a woman possibly, because men can’t be feminists? Well, excluding women comes so easily, it is almost funny.

One can still be puzzled by, as the rituals and talks stay the same, the effort, what is the impact really, if there is any in this noise and aggression? Headlines of successes and what did J.K. Rowling say? Ending up changing nothing since for people in power sex is a way to use power. But maybe sex change (gender reassignment surgery) is a good idea, since being female means you get fucked and you get to look good, ultra feminine and being a slut is accepted? It is all about power and why power is important in art, is that it is the primitive, a primal desire and someone has to decide what: the need for power and sex is absolute and destroy and corrupt absolutely? What kind of power does female body have as her power has to be taken away and denied? Not minuscule obviously.

Media pays just as much attention to women’s looks as ever, it is how articles about women begin. Being bossy is cool? So, it is a compliment, you validate worth and capital and how women get ahead in life? It could be sexism has increased because of looks is massively important in the contemporary world, misogyny, a new word for many is accepted against those who think differently. It defines you and what you are able to do, how interesting you are and how you are interesting. Interest lies in everyday in fuckability and how power is used. I have been wondering the term fuckable ever since I heard it behind my back, literally over and over again and I am not looking. It has a flavor of easy to use, bragg about and forget just like any other thing that/who has a wrapping. So why talk about art, fucking is much more interesting like sports, over and over again, look at her ass. There is nothing much else she has (very possibly the source of my sadness). Why even be bothered by this, everyone uses sex to get something, right? But why in art and whoring is ok when you are an ultra feminine minority? So many wannabes and so few roles. I was hoping independent thinking and making of art would have progressed by now and become mainstream. One can hope and get disappointed sorely, like what happened to universities?

PS. When the head of an art institution got fired in Sweden for analysing fuckability of women, I felt like I’d like to see a porno opera. Naked people singing arias and fucking maybe for hours in bright lights audience sitting on wooden benches asses in agony without intermission drinking wine. It is time for drunk fornication, the time of fornication in public doing and enjoying art, because what else is there. Get another one and on and on. Porno opera would be so successful, tickets flying and prices getting affordable. No getting rich in porn. Checking abilities and stuff. Cameras!

Some torture, pencil on paper, 2015-

Exploring art and women: What does female artist look like? Is there a stereotype? One asks because of the question: What is a woman and its consequences, which are quite much to handle like do I really have to think this again and again? How difficult a thing it is and to whom? It is a nonstop process regardless the idiocy and wannabes.

Art of Selfie, obsessed with looks? The obsession fascinates me, not the images that much, also the mass of them, production. Images for instance on Instagram seem very alike are composition, content and how poseing is done. It’s almost funny how little there is to tell in the end. What are images supposed to tell as they are curated? What is the motive? What are we to think about and what kind of judgments to place based on what can be seen? The prettiest angle found, points of views there to not aging, especially eating and clothes, perspectives to humanity, being artificial still and the unending love for self?

For a woman expectations are pretty fixed and even little deviation is seen as weird and easily rejected, doubted, under suspicion. Suspicion is you fake it constantly and lie. That is one burden on women, we are not to be trusted. This is also among women who do follow rules of how to be a woman the right way, act like a woman, look like a woman, get things like a woman, recognizable. What are the feminine things, the more ultra-feminine femininity is created via makeup, pushup and moving like a woman, one wonders who qualifies and how to fit in, how to exploit all of these to be admired and make a buck, men entering the woman-sphere and all, one must think these things. Is it a competition like on TV? Reality? But you begin to look weird, when you stretch your face too much, do too much plastic surgery and picture yourself only, what is that? I think that is weird. In search of perfect? But to me the question, what is a woman, in this day and age, is still numbing. What kind of purpose does it serve and what is it meant to create instead?

How artist presents herself/himself in the business of art, is an interesting loaded mix of expectations burdened with stereotypes, desires and needs hungry for fame. Image manipulation, destruction of self or megalomaniac sense of self, selling of self, creation of a monster or a good-doer is art in itself: constant recreation and exploring the new, trying to have it all and be seen. What does politics got to do with art? Artists are very political nowadays and there is a right path and a wrong one, but all think art is on the left. How that happened? Who do I have to impress is people who pay attention to appearances, if I am interested in impressing such people.. Who is I wonder?

Image manipulation by gadgets gives us options to enhance self-image, look sellable, be the artwork and maybe interesting or just to fit in, be accepted. Usually it is good for to look successful or smell like money and celebrity with future. Scandal is a good way to make news and it can be art as everything when said so. Celebrity culture as pop culture suck Fine Art in as the art is an investment, nice attachment to your persona and interior, an organism which is you, fitting in the ecosystem to look the look and being an interesting artist is heavily sought after status. What happens to quality of art and the thought of art in this process of manufacturing artists through yellow page media, visibility in social media, selling NFTs as art? Is all just digital mush or have a profound cultural importance, importance of quick transactions and constant newness, as faces get boring too? Do we get depth and innovation or glam surfaces, lack of technical skills or just technical skills, lack of insight and hyped nonsense, fast art, which is only over-priced bulk, jpegs? Bubbles to burst, numbers.

Success is measured in money also in art, is the grander the better, how much a name costs? It is what interests media, how much anything sells and what anything looks like, fit the mold, what is the mold? Looks like an hourglass. If bulk sells, it doesn’t really matter, what we call it, because sales is good? How long that lasts? In art also matters who sees it and why and where. It is almost an artform itself, sales of art and the artist as a person. For women appearance is a significant issue to think about when and always you will come by people who check you out, which is why I constantly ponder the issue of looks, it is so big a thing that I can’t really comprehend the magnitude nor significance of appearance in art, but it is the dandy, bohemian, rocker, dangerous in some way, floppy and fun representing the fast life, fleeting existence and creativity, the buzzword. How and what appearance tells what kind of art anyone makes and can it be seen on the artist herself/himself? I have been told this is the case. We are very visually curious, we are built to be. So it is biological too, of course, and meant to raise interest. Women do have harder time convincing credibility and ability, stamina even more so if you think different from the accepted narrative people in art like keeping alive. Appearances matter to this degree, keeping it quiet is easier and more profitable.

Looks has significant meaning as sex does in art, very poignant if wanted so and thrown at you. Many artists exploit this scare of looking extreme, enjoy the stir and being noticed. How do artists get noticed other than naked, by whom and what are the things that interest? They (the establishment) say, they want radical art to align with the assumed leftist-feminist leanings of theirs and the assumed in Fine Art is the facade. Do you really believe in the radical in Fine Art, really? I don’t. Radical challenges too much, for instance lofty positions and the assumptions you stand on are somewhat thin, so you may find yourselves in a weird place, out with the unknown and the unexpected which for curators must be hell. In music it is more celebrated than in Fine Art to do and look totally punk for instance. What’s punk behavior? Fine Art still remains slow and is going more and more conservative, reserved and narrow-minded in the meaning of what is accepted style-wise and experimentally etc. if experimentation is allowed at all. Trends matter. Social justice is a trend. Everything getting more expensive has its toll, everything is measured in money and ruled by the thought of what can be made in the future with the asset. Self-interest is very visible. Is that the spirit of art? And what are they scared of the most is being left outside out of work without security of the system. Outside of what, outside of art sounds like against art or art not found? The grace of celebrity in the white cube is art, it is the tactics of institutions to follow the money and the camera and is art itself? Oh dear, art doesn’t exist anywhere else and especially, if it isn’t noticed by the right people. Art is more like be chic in a magazine simulating punk but don’t step over the lines. Such is the impact of managerial class, the business world, social media and bureaucracy, which flourish in Fine Art. I assume the boxing of artists into wanted and unwanted is more clear process today.

Obscurity, the unknown, the class issue and in which city are you, comes handily visible and it is almost difficult to define with any other words than waiting for the counterculture to emerge like when the fuck and where is it. We need the location and who done it. People who say they love art like to use power in art. Do you love money more? What comes to style and looks, thinking of what is the so-called art of presenting oneself and how does the art made sync with the portrayal and creating of the image of an artist, must it and what is quality in all of this in the end, because it seems just frames and highly designed locations to match? Isn’t it again bulk and template? Easy to manufacture like an artist off the shelf with a name to collect? They do check you from head to toe because the artist is always a liability not the other way round. The element of the unknown has been the essence of Fine Art, discovery not the theater around the object. Do you want to feel secure and see art that fits the narrative of success and how it is defined today through financial winnings in the capitals of the art world? One question is the age of an artist, which all in all is fast: what do we think about aging artists and is art a game for the young and emerging like in a factory? Age is emphasized, youth and for women it always is a question. Or do you see much images of old people in art? Maybe the older women get a better chance, since youth for women is the time for not being taken seriously, but the time when women are enjoyed. Who takes this scene seriously, I wonder? When money is serious, always.

This happens to women more and more, evaluation by appearance and aging. Evaluation based on looks and finances somehow resonate with the ability to do art, think and renew oneself as an artist, am I wrong? Womanly art, womanly colors? How credibility is seen differs for men and women as men do bond naturally together, women can be seen as futile competition, but competition nevertheless. Do your thing honey, if you dare. What, to break anything? Competition of course is harsh. How many times can they say, you can’t? When there is silence, it is a sign of realizing to say anything else is impossible and so hard. How sad. I gather you do not have much to say to begin with, so I am better off.

Fucked, pencil on paper, 2020 (series of young women passed out online)

Stereotypical image and lure in art is the muse and hero, light look on life and its pleasures and women are there for pleasure, to be looked at and made into art or used and discarded, also very lightly. How well women fit into the man-centred world and the thought, what is an artist, who is an artist essentially? The class issue is very much there as well. Many women have pictured themselves in their art as art (how are you art again?), fashion being part of their work, women’s work, which should also be asked what is women’s work as woman is not known anymore (woman is the unknown?), duties and the lot of women, so very often doing the work, which goes unnoticed but is vital for all society. She, the female artist and any woman, processes the female experience in the world, continuously. It is that heavy, also repetitious, recognizable, slowly changing with society. What is that change, who is the vulnerable again? Weak men online shouting they are women? The humiliation and doubting of her, how she is treated can be seen in her work. But yet, how important it is to make a difference between male and female artists anymore? Difference is because women are menstruators and cervix-havers? Men are penis-holders, shoulders, beard-havers, muscular door-openers? Nowadays even feminism serves men, the difference is there and it comes to play continuously organically and via organs we have. We carry organs and assume, even though it is rude towards the minorities. What kind of weight is given to the female voices, organs and what are women allowed to say and do they (the establishment) even see a problem? Flying around the globe to see art at art fairs and provide art to biennales is not knowing that flying is part of the problem contributing to climate change. The countering and questioning female voices remain silenced. There is a familiar ring to it. You do acknowledge sexism, harassment, silencing and misogyny in art? I do acknowledge there are people who really do not see themselves despite how much there are selfies. Do you even recognize what is what, when you don’t know what a woman is? How can we trust such people in places of power? What are you going to do about the stagnant state of Fine Art that serves money and constant consumption? That is what feminism is for? Buying stuff and having the look of feminism? Museum not paying a living wage for cleaning ladies is a wonderful example of art crap.

2020

To see the day when womanhood is questioned to the degree of lunacy, who is a woman. I think I feel it in my bones.

What she deserves?

What she deserves?
It is true, I have a condition and it is called Fuck you. Dye yourself blonde, dye your hair blonde, change yourself completely is the message. It equals beauty. Be skinny and fit, it equals to what? Torture? What is it? Essentials to being beautiful is to be less and not aggressive, agreeable to a point you can’t say anything back, be nice so that you do not disturb and it is what it means to be a woman and behaving like one. How to be pleasant wearing Crazy Love the fragrance is a tightrope and you are under looking glass. The flaw is in you.

Beauty is subjective. It is when you are able to do what you want and be free? To stick penis into her mouth and make her choke, make her throw up as she should, die as she should, killed by penis in her mouth, mouth like a sewer. Beauty is in the image and you are not it. That is discussed, being disgusted by her feeling empowered by herself and taking that feeling away it is the right thing to do, she does not deserve to feel powerful.

oil pastel on paper, 2017

Self, 2013,2018

Heart condition

Conditions of heart, conditions of human heart, conditions of animal heart, nature which is conflicted in humans, beats in different volume and speed depending on body weight. Breathing and beating of heart are connected. A bird’s heart can beat. A bird’s heart can beat in a way as it flies through life fast and drops dead. Once you have held a scared bird, the bird is the heart. Secrets of the heart, of a heart, from my heart, the bottom of my heart, kindness of heart, you have a beautiful heart, to see someone’s heart, to replace a heart with another heart, black heart, ripped off a heart, heart surgeon doing her job, playing with my heart, out of a good heart, bless your heart, big heart big big big.

Do people suffer more than animals? Is heart a symbol of not suffering or suffering in a way it makes you grow as a person? A burning heart, a passionate organ metaphorically, there is strange connection between feeling and a muscle, blood and boiling, the pounding one, pumping, beating orderly, kicking on its own. I don’t have to think about it unless it gets sick. Conditions like not having one, having heart selectively, heart symbolizing warmth. Heart of glass, heart of gold, heart of steel, no heart, heart of a dog, her heart is strong, heart is in the right place. Heart of flame, to break a heart, a heart to break, heart attack, heart failure, heartache.

Heart condition

HOW MANY TRIANGLES CAN YOU SEE?

Blue skies take you to the land of the Pharaohs. She didn’t know. How many? I ask again. What am I looking at, she asked. A man, number threes, a passport, obsession, dependency, I need you to pattern. Who do you need? Who is that you need?  To need somebody. We all need somebody. To take care. Triangle, is that the pattern it creates? I’m in love with you. I have never been so much in love. What’s the molecule structure of that emotion? It must have one, because we are in the end patterns entwined.

Wanna hear something funny? I paint porcelain as a hobby. After being finished I trash the items and throw them to the garbage and start all over again.

Anyone ever wondered what kind of an influence one’s sex, origin and looks have in life in general and in the arts?

I claim they have more significance than anyone cares to admit. Vanity industries do pay attention to the surface much more than I and I am shocked when what I wear is paid more attention to than what kind of art I do or my looks tell what I am capable of (with which I like to play with). How much is it in the interests of the arts to keep stereotypes alive or whose interests are in question all in all, because they are not mine? One can wonder and it is truly weird one has to keep up appearance and act upon one’s appearance. I make this assumption, I should act according to my sex, sex and gender are always an issue, and appearance, because such is my strongest asset? What is the appearance of an artist today, a businessman who functions like a machine, is efficient and more importantly is male? Clichés are so much alive, I wonder the speed of progress. (What progress?) Things that instantly come to your mind when you see someone, what do they tell of you?

BTW, any modelling agency hire 45yrs old? That would be a career change, lol. Oh no, I should lose weight.