Mikä minä olen?

19 kesäkuun, 201918 kesäkuun, 2019 | Henna Timanttimetsä

Sinä olet laihtunut, sinä olet kasvanut, sinä olet tehnyt jotain tukallesi, sinulla on uusi takki, sinulla on eripari sukat jalassa, sinun kasvosi ovat erinäköiset kuin ennen, sinä teet jotakin toisin kuin ennen, sinä teet kaiken toisin kuin ennen, sinä olet muuttunut, sinä et syö tarpeeksi, sinä et syö oikein, sinulla ei ole autoa, sinä asut yksin, sinulla on kissa, sinä kävelet omituisesti, sinä juot olutta, sinä käyt osa-aikatöissä, oletko suorassa vai vinossa, missä sinä olet, mitä sinulle on tapahtunut? Selvittää tapahtumien ketjua eikä tiedä miksi.

Impenetrable secret, what a lie.

18 kesäkuun, 201918 kesäkuun, 2019 | Henna Timanttimetsä

Please remain seated, please remain silent. Please button up the black dress, a respectable quiet nod. Requested in my emotional every moment, so little is revealed. I cannot. His face of answers and accusations, warnings between every hair of his dark beard. Destroy the evidence in the past. Broke a barrier, I thought had dissolved itself. Lightly given generally optimistic bulletin. His echo repeated the same. His absolute cannot be disturbed. The effort of rising a demanding bank has worn me out and I am not half way the pile of corpses. The ones who really do not speak are those who are alive.

Shutting down, shutting up, shutting off, shutting in, shutting closing. Indecent openness must be heard, a threat to reveal us all, the root of ours. So, it does not exist as we do not say it?

Disbelief towards such fate. Unapproved, unsolved, unwanted, cannot be done. I refuse.

How rude

17 kesäkuun, 201915 lokakuun, 2019 | Henna Timanttimetsä

Maisema, (Pää jäässä, muna pystyssä.)/Landscape, (head frozen, dick upright.), watercolour, 1999

How rude
How loud
How unclean
How vulgar
How unfeminine
How impolite
How talking over
How infuriating
How stupid

Angels

Those wings are heavy every time the dinner bell rings. Dynamic energy drastic
measures of swans for girls for lasting impressions. The want to go to Paris and
walk. They want to go Paris-thin. When a girl is too thin, when she looks sick, they
need to lose weight to float still. What gives angels their glow?
What I eat in a day as a fashion model.
How I lost weight and got lean.
How to grow your butt without growing your thighs.
My full gym workout. How men react to different levels of makeup. What I eat in a day to lose weight.
Six clothing hacks every girl must know.
Victoria’s Secret angels go grocery shopping. What young hasn’t been dreaming about this?

Moving

16 kesäkuun, 201915 kesäkuun, 2019 | Henna Timanttimetsä

Moving

What kind of travelling is worthwhile? Is that the right question? How to travel and where to go?

This is a journey, this is a journey, this is a journey, this is a journey, this is a journey, this is a journey, this is a journey, this is a journey. When this is not a journey, journey is a cliché. I’m not moving much, but I am making progress. The desire has left me to physically travel. Do we look for an end or a new beginning on our way and how to make progress? Do we choose a new way or the same way over and over again? When I repeat this small, many times used sentence, this is a journey, I get a grasp of what this voyage, we are trying to do, is. We need to have a destination and repetition, a pattern to repeat. We need to know how to get there while we are going. What is there, that there is something for us, that we are safe. We are not doing our journeys for nothing. It is about moving, making something worthwhile. Having been somewhere and returned. If we don’t move we are stuck, is the contemporary ideology.

1998 R

16 kesäkuun, 201915 kesäkuun, 2019 | Henna Timanttimetsä

R
Demonizing: a structure of contempt. It turns out to be the law of the R. She created a life for me in her mind. Her fingers pressed against her cheeks. El Moaur the bottomless, the terrible, a compulsive need to fill to be filled. How about movement? What became of the abandoned one? She has to be punished because she wants it all. What happens if you give all freedom to female sexuality?