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Kukka, neilikka, pioni, anemonie, bryllishuokaus.

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Kukka, neilikka, pioni, anemonie, bryllishuokaus.
Kukka ilman tuoksua.
Mutta kuinka?
Se on ollut viileässä, sangossa jossa on ollut vettä. Kylmäkaapissa lattialla. Miksi kukaan haluaisi tuoksuttoman kukan?
Nainen on kukka ja naisen sukuelin on kukka.
Naisen käsi on kukka.
Mikä nainen?
Mitä nainen voi tehdä?
Tyydyttää itsensä.
Olla itsensä ja jokaisen naisen velvollisuus on tulla mahdollisimman täydeksi.

Naisen velvollisuudet, lasten hoitaminen, kotitalous, imurointi, laittautuminen, kaunistautuminen, kaunistaminen, lasten pukeminen, estetisointi, estetiikka, hoitaminen, pyyhkiminen, rätti, kaapit. Naisen tehtävät, nainen on näin, näin naisen annetaan olla, luonnollinen naiseus. Antaa olla. Mistä naiseus alkaa? Kun synnyt, kun sinut puetaan, kun sinua katsotaan, jonakin, kuukautisista, rinnoista, vaginasta, kuiskauksista, hiuksista, joissa puhutaan, joista, joita kommentoidaan, asioista joita ei saa sanoa, taas kuuluvaan ääneen, joista supistaan, joita katsotaan. Tarpeettomasta häveliäisyydestä. Tarpeettomasta. Hyödyttömästä. Hyödyttömyydestä. Pornokuvista, jalat levällään, odottaen miestä? Odottaen miestä, penistä, työntöä, orgasmia, halua, ottamista, panoa, kääntymistä sängyssä, että on siinä. Olla halun kohde, haluttava, saada. Lehdistä. Naistenlehdistä, miestenlehdistä, erilaisista kuvakulmista, ajelluista karvoista, treenatuista reisistä, täydellisestä ihosta, asennoista, tukasta, iättömyydestä, treenistä. Ajatellessani länsimaisen naisen ihannekuvaa, millainen haluamme hänen, naisen, ihannenaisen olevan. Hän on haavekuva, jota lopulta koko maailma jäljittelee, kaihtamatta keinoja tai kuluja. Naiseus maksaa, saat maksaa. Onko tuo kuva se, millainen hän haluaa olla? Kuka on länsimainen jokanainen? Lopulta hän on ei-kukaan, olematon ja silti kaikki, mutta kuinka tulla häneksi, hän on kaunis. Kauneus on jotakin tiettyä, määriteltyä. Haluta kauneuteen, katsottavaksi, ihailtavaksi pois rumuudesta. Kuinka olemme synnyttäneet tällaisen kauneuden, kauheuden, julmuuden omaa kehoamme ja henkeämme kohtaan, joka ei olekaan kauneudessa, kauneudesta, ei ytimessä vaan pinnassa. Ei saa olla, on pitkä lista. Kauneus on silti kirous. Pelkkä naiseus ei riitä. Se on kauheus ja vaara. Mikä pelkkä, miten niin vain, miten vähän? Mikä nainen on? Riippuu keneltä kysytään. Jos kysyy naiselta itseltään, mitä hän vastaisi?

Suomi mitäonmitä onmitäon.

Mitä on synnyttää hymyilevä lapsi lumiselle tielle ostoskeskuksen lähelle, päällä valkoinen yöpaita kuin teltta, pipo ja punainen huppari.
Harmaa päivä, tuntuva, märkä, hyinen, kuten usein siihen aikaan.
Voiko toivoa löytyä savusta? Mikä on toivon olemus? Se ei lopu. Se ei ole mahdollista, vaikka mitä tapahtuisi.

Kasvoni kertovat jotakin.
Ja kuinka häntä katson. Mitä sanon hänelle, jota en tunne?
Sanonko mitään, ehkä kysyn miksi, ja saan vastauksen, niin mitä, miksi, tai

katson taivasta ja sanon, kauniita pilviä.
Varon olemasta kovin arkipäiväinen, mutta olen silti.

Pilvet ovat aina kauniita.
Lempipilveni?
Maisemassa toisella puolella järveä.

What is sexy?

How to get a sexy ass? What is a sexy ass?

2008

Kun ei saa enää sanoa mitä ei saa sanoa.

On breathing

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On breathing

Holding breath. Inhaling as deeply as I can. Holding breath. Exhaling through my nose as I think how I breathe. As I think I know how to breath and where breath goes what does it do, what is in breath. The quantity of air near me, the quality of air pulled and pushed moved circulated, fresh used in air that I must have in me and it is not just Oxygen but Carbon dioxide, Nitrogen, Argan, water, Neon, Methane plus pollution. I don’t know. Have to know the technique of breathing but can I develop better at breathing and can I think what it is to pull it in my lungs, in my cells, in my blood, the air. How the what I have been breathing becomes me, how it can be measured and calculated and what it can tell about me as an organism, an individual and human? How many times I breath when I do not think about it? How long can I hold my breath? How long can I run without losing breath? Things that breathe as people and animals having breath. Breath entails, it hides. Breath that smells, breath that has speed, reveals us, keeps us living as parts of this world, breathing particles of the atmosphere, vapor of breath in cold weather, heavy breath. I have to puffer and blow to make a visible steamy mark in the air, something I like doing.

The world is under breath, we are under breath, us breathing, under a breathing monster with big vicious looking mouth that we fear, many monsters with mouths channeling air and lungs breathing the same gas. To end up in a mouth of a monster is like being connected and disconnected repeatedly. The contradiction as we think of the hugeness of a monster when it is in the little particles in the air. The thought that there is a monster, where is it and what is it like?

There is no danger, no hurry in breathing, there is this relaxed moment of having unconscious moment of lungs, me, observing my body doing its thing, keeping me alive, realizing its nature, my nature. The many times I breathe per minute and how short a time it is that I lose my consciousness if I cannot have a breath.

 

Noble beauty like Everest

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Noble beauty like Everest

I take credit for setting the world on fire. Like Everest, do you think it is charging, do you think it is changing? Greatest individual who ever did say thank you for the flames and went ahead. Saw something ahead worthwhile to walk to, to crawl to, to want to as a human. We are this want, we are want and as much as we want. Striking hitting setting stepping; to do against would be the most influencing aggression. Not to say anything, give a mental mugging and still getting up, wanting still something is happening out of mental disrupt urge, like untrue, like a dream. Scariest negative impulse to make nervous sweat. To radically push and show a point of view, state of mind state of body make fall let fall happen as far as it goes, make falling look like a normal happening resulting understanding. Is there someone to catch you? Don’t! I catch myself. Something to hit ferociously. I am there it sounds as self-loath, self-pity and hate, is put in one, is against me. To take risks of losing life and not be caught, not be found, to be hated. Contradictions of living in hype in positive, trying to be good, telling me to be good, telling how to be good, hard to reach, a noble beauty like Everest.

 

 

Clementine, dried peels on wall, 2011/ Demonstration

Demonstration

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