2008

Co-worker 2002

Modernit työtilat ja mielenkiintoinen työympäristö. Täällä haisee kasvava pilvi.

Sielunhoidonvalmentaja
lapiomies
yleislääkäri, videovastaanotto, mysteerikko
kasvokkainmarkkinoija
siivooja korjaamokohteeseen Peltolammille, eristäjä,
kaivinkoneenkuljettaja mittamies dementiakodin
johtaja työnjohtaja eläinlääkäri hieroja audionomi
legojenrakentelija kurottajankuljettaja, pidetty hevosnainen häränsilmänhalkeamat, lasten aapisesta puuttuu pissata ja paskantaa. Tiedetään, mikä on keskivertokansalainen ja mitä hän haluaa, mitä hänen tulee osata ja tehdä.
Hemmottelua kaipaava lässyn lässyn. Ihminen joka kieltäytyy ymmärtämästä, sulkee ulkopuolelleen kaiken, mitä ei halua ymmärtää. Ihminen joka haluaa tiettyjä asioita, jotka ovat kaikkien tiedossa ja joita monet muutkin haluavat. Tietää mitä haluaa ja saada se, saa sen.

Elämäni eläimet: kisulin näkö, suurikokoinen liero, hajuaisti on niin tarkka että haistaa lieron paksunkin maakerroksen läpi. Naistentauti, tanssivat What is love-biisin käsilaukkukasan ympärillä, tahtiin. T-paita-idea: luodinreikiä. Ei kovin uusi.

 

 

2008

Tough is sadness deleted, embraced battle of will and ability, gone. Rough rough rough rough rough rough rough rough, it’s as if dog was barking for hours with no end, no change in tone, me thinking how long will it last and what does it want. Does it belong to anybody?
Rough rough rough rough, disgust, boredom,
disturbance and irritation to get used to, to feel no pain by it, to let the disturbing angst go by letting those little things not get you. You thinking the possible sadness of a dog.

2001: Age of innocence

Sex play

Sex play
To encounter the strange and not so strange desire of someone wanting to put a dick in woman’s mouth, mouth of a woman, enter her mouth her body. What is a mouth other than with which we eat (no speaking?) Do you speak dirty? I have been wondering this positioning and the need for the deed which is obviously built in and there is no shame other than hers and the good she is at it, how good she is at it, doing the deed, sucking the inches. Although she will be rewarded afterwards, is the explanation. To make him king is one way to see the situation. The fantasy is a beautiful woman whose mouth is a living sewer from which an orgasm can be found as it is soft and moist making a sucking movement her knowing to mind the teeth. So it is aware but under control situation. Desire of putting one’s sexual organ in mouth is fulfilment which is in every porn movie and clip there is. Interesting metaphor of shutting the woman up, hear how he moans and is to come in to her mouth. In to her mouth, in to her mouth, in to her mouth, what a repetition to toy with and what does it represent is from where and how woman is looked at. What is she doing and what is she? A fantasy woman whose worth is in the giving, giving in and lowering herself to be an open mouth who willingly performs the task of a sewer sucking a load. The load vanishes and like having been in toilet man is given a relief. Woman waiting for the reward. (I’m really trying to get into this shit, the true meaning of this train of thought.) Man cannot reveal his thoughts even though it is a moment of his, feeling of (this) his. He acts as if he has feelings.

Why this is interesting is the positioning, banality and the one way thinking which so often goes without questioning, looking at it, facing what the need and the deed is many times over. Why would we question a pleasurable sex act which so ruling it is rules the porn industry, imagery, fantasies and is clearly the most wanted act maybe even for women? To think this is a valuable fantasy as it is, where is the value elsewhere than in finance, in objectification, repetition and what mouth represents and can do (on a pretty face). To think what is the visual there that is so powerful for the male.

Don’t get me wrong I am not against blowjobs. I personally resent the thought of being merely for that purpose. This is where the interest lies for me to try to analyze the connection between looks, femininity, sexual act as a favor or label, woman as a prostitute, cheap and available. But yeah, hell this is the official blowjob investigation on abstract level. Inquiries concerning random sex acts will be analyzed publicly. That is fun for me, to analyze the feminine and objectification since this is also the place I am put in.

To encounter the strange and not so strange desire of someone wanting to put a dick in woman’s mouth,  mouth of a woman, enter her mouth, her body. What is a mouth other than with which we eat (no speaking?) Do you speak dirty? I have been wondering this positioning and the need for the deed, which is obviously built in and there is no shame other than hers and the good she is at it, how good she is at it, doing the deed, sucking the inches. Although she will be rewarded afterwards, is the explanation. To make him king is one way to see the situation. The fantasy is a beautiful woman whose mouth is a living sewer from which an orgasm can be found as it is soft and moist making a sucking movement her knowing to mind the teeth. So, it is aware but under control situation. Desire of putting one’s sexual organ in mouth is fulfilment which is in every porn movie and clip there is. Interesting metaphor of shutting the woman up, hear how he moans and is to come in to her mouth. In to her mouth, in to her mouth, in to her mouth, what a repetition to toy with and what does it represent is from where and how woman is looked at. What is she doing and what is she? A fantasy woman whose worth is in the giving, giving in and lowering herself to be an open mouth who willingly performs the task of a sewer sucking a load. The load vanishes and like having been in toilet man is given a relief. Woman waiting for the reward. (I’m really trying to get into this shit, the true meaning of this train of thought.) Man cannot reveal his thoughts even though it is a moment of his, feeling of this. He acts as if he has feelings.

Why this is interesting is the positioning, banality and the one way thinking which so often goes without questioning, looking at it, facing what the need and the deed is many times over. Why would we question a pleasurable sex act, which so ruling it is, rules the porn industry, imagery, fantasies and is clearly the most wanted act maybe even for women? To think this is a valuable fantasy as it is, where is the value elsewhere than in finance, in objectification, repetition and what mouth represents and can do (on a pretty face). To think what is the visual there that is so powerful for the male.

Don’t get me wrong I am not against blowjobs but I personally resent the thought of being merely for that purpose. This is where the interest lies for me to try to analyze the connection. Don’t get me wrong I am not against blowjobs. I personally resent the thought of being merely for that purpose. This is where the interest lies for me to try to analyze the connection between looks, femininity, sexual act as a favor or label, woman as a prostitute, cheap and available. But yeah, hell this is the official blowjob investigation on abstract level. Inquiries concerning random sex acts will be analyzed publicly. That is fun for me, to analyze the feminine and objectification since this is also the place I am put in.

2008

First you shred a picture in a shredder, pictures, as many as you have, maybe all of them. You can do it by hand, tear a picture into little pieces. Then you put the pieces back together and look at the picture. Crunch it, it starts to look like the picture experienced something. Experiences of a picture. There is never a good time, there is never a decent time, there is never enough time, so you can do it now. Hopefully you have a shredder. As long as parts get together in order, they get what they need in form of see-through tape, see through tape, togetherness of pieces, end of loneliness of shreds, glue in hands, glued.

People who put their all in a shredder for whatever reason and end up putting things shredded back together again hoping things would be better, the same or at least become something whole, some kind of result and an event of making an effort. Like true love, whatever that is other than hard work, maybe it is more true when broken and put back together again, light and revelation, fixing something broken. It must be the kind of love between mother and child in an equation, that the mother loves her child and does not put her child in to pieces.

How to keep your child whole, unbroken but not like an image or why should you keep your child from harm? Over-protection can do an awful lot of damage. How closely can you adjust the pieces that belong next to each other? Something has to be broken. Do we have to get something missing also? To have a reason to look ahead.

oodi (kreik.) = lennokas, usein nopearytminen, innostusta ilmaiseva runo

(idea, idealismi) Mikä on pysyvää? Periaate. Asialle omistautuminen. Mitä jää? Kaikkien aikojen salajuoni. Yksi ihminen haaveili tasa-arvosta, ystävyydestä, vallankumouksesta joka parantaisi maailman sorrosta. Punainen parta, tähti ja saarnastuoli, Leninin suljetut silmät, nyrkkiin puristetut kädet.

Co-worker 2002

Sarjassamme Emotionaalisia hölmöjä, keskitymme tänään minuun tai hölmöistä olen ehkä hölmöin.
Emootio, darling, Darjeeling, chip chip kling kling, mustatee, vihellys.
Hän on ehkä söpöin pikku koiruus, mitä rotua lienee. Älä huuda.
En usko lupauksiin. Epätasapainoinen. Ever fucked up. Kuinka litteä voin olla?