feminism

A dead bird, a large her on cock

| Henna Timanttimetsä

What is a delicious blowjob? What is the eatable enjoyment a moment to fill in so much so that it is the only idea there is to do with me and be done. Is it human? He thinks his penis tastes good? Or is the deliciousness in his mouth in his body the feeling the sensation looking at me sucking.

It is when one suddenly is faced with the fact that one is one mouth, one asshole which can be endlessly fucked, one cunt, one tongue. One gratifying sight into which a man can melt. There is a desire to shove a large hard-on cock, a large hard-on dick, a large hard-on penis, a large hard-on prick, shove it as deep as it goes. It will be the only thing there is, to see me sucking, and shove even further when it does not fit and see my face. Pain is necessary to bring pleasure for the one who causes it. For some to serve is pleasurable. It is a service to open one’s mouth for one purpose only and be seen as slave, a whore.

When act comes to an end I am to swallow, the dream is to swallow a dream, to give head, get down on him, be on one’s knees, let one’s head to be torn apart and be an asshole. It is an act of penetrating a mind which is also a body. Something where mind has stopped to be autonomous and all meat begins, is what is left of her, of me. Mind is in the dirt as it is in leash, the open mouth with which one cannot speak is full of moving penis, full and as open as a mouth can be. Breathing through one’s nostrils is harder till one is not able anymore but suck and lick and take it back. Little death is too little when fulfillment is for the man only. It has to be big one. The more obedient one is the better. Disgust must not show, that you are disgusted for being used like that, that you hate the look on his face. You just take it all in your mouth, the action, movement, size of his, everything. Everything is the demand. Everything is what he wants. Organ you are sucking, the man you are sucking, him you are fulfilling. Do you do what he asks you to because you want to be loved? Do you do it till you gag and almost throw up because he wants to? Are you so eager to please and afraid that this is the all of love there is? To understand the thrill of torture, subjugation which he doesn’t admit is torture because he enjoys it so much. He enjoys to think he knows what he is doing and he is doing what he wants.

Why so open? What is this all about? Why be like a bird to be fed taken by the neck and be used like that? That there will be a reward and love there in the end. I have been a good cat, good bird, good girl, the good in it. Seduction with feathers and a counterpart to fit ending to be his moment.

How much of ourselves do we reveal?

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What is necessary and what is not, but we keep hidden and treasure. Hidden personal info which is necessary to keep hidden. Rational, calculating, manipulative and maybe a human thing it is to be seen by other people, need to be seen but not seen through hopefully, place oneself to be seen, looked at, at least that is how people like to think of themselves that they are looked at not inspected. To have secrets is one basic ingredient. Looks is therefore one secret to be solved. We are analyzed all the time, everything is a sign. People like to think they are not open books but mostly they are nothing but. You just have to know what to look for, there are strings to pull. How cynical is that. How do I know what someone is thinking? I’m not a psychic but what people think of other people and what people want is something always relevant and there always is something to want and take. It is a basic human interest, self-interest and suspicion, danger one way or another. There is no trust but I’ll have what you have and call it mine. Person is present in the conversation even if nothing much is said, all is in the how things are said, what is said, why people do things and what are they getting from doing the things. Bias can be and is something one can rely on. It exists in a way that you can never avoid facing bias. To know what the other is thinking know the bias against you and assumptions about your kind. It is not of course 100%, nothing usually is but it is a very strong guiding light to acknowledge that we like think we know more than we do. To know oneself is hard enough and to be secretive can be an advantage, respectable.
Still to guess what people do and think about is quite easy. Why? To me it has appeared that community molds people very strongly, how for example young girls from certain background, upbringing, education and culture behave and what they want, what they think of themselves, their possibilities, other people, what life can offer them can be frighteningly similar and bound to that particular group. As is many people do not know what they reveal of themselves merely by facial and bodily expressions, how they stand, what they are wearing, how they look at other people, what do they say or do they speak only for those who they think they can speak to, they feel safe with, do they team up with people and what kind, how they respond to strange people and how they take their space. It is amazing how quickly we catch up with in a strange environment with strange people just by looking and observing.

Boy on a bus

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To place feminist critique upon feminism itself is very appropriate and needed. How to do it is another matter.

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The bashing of contemporary feminism gets nowadays an unchangeable tone or should I say what else is new. It is desperate yet in its despair forceful as it is surreal. For many feminism today is useless. Its points of views illogical, old-fashioned and untrue. It is to tear down institution of family, which as it is now, is a true comfort zone (see the sarcasm). Who would not want children, lawn and. According to men’s rights activists and fascists, to mention just a few, feminists hate men and boys, yes feminists are true haters, they disregard welfare of men and boys considering themselves only, feminism has no base in reality, their goals are unrealistic and disastrous and it, feminism, is an invention of hateful bitches who think they are better than, just to mention few juicy topics and ideas about feminism on Finnish social media.

When feminists start to speak they prove to all how useless and stupid the whole ideology is, they are irrational. What are these women talking about equality, rights and emancipation. All is well, or was before. Women who work for equality and for sexual rights again destroy something meaningful, solid and effort to change this godly state of ours is ruining the perfect welfare state, a nation and heritage, order of things as well as unity in our country. What unity? Country is getting more and more divided, of course, feminists are to blame. Noteworthy is how there must be a group of people to blame for all corruption and decline which would not exist and happen if there were not feminists and the left, women should stay quiet and at home. Let men do what men do without interruptions. What do men do? They are a pretty active lot. All blame falls upon those terrible feminists who destroy the good there is in tradition based patriarchal society, which can solve issues there may be in its own way, which issues are those? Immigrants, intellectuals, critics? We don’t have any issues other than unwanted people. Everything is fine, or was until feminists came. Men’s rights activists can talk about difficult psychological  problems like alcoholism, depression, mental abuse and physical violence, bullying, loneliness, unemployment without women’s rights activists meddling in. Feminism causes disturbance and brokenness. Men truly dislike being underdogs, till the end the fight is against the left. Anybody who is against male dominance is a communist which is bad. It is bad to be a communist. (Yes this is a very rational argument.)

There is a lot of nerve to blame feminists for doing the dissolving of values our country builds on when women’s rights movement has played a huge part in building this country as it is now. Home, religion and Fatherland stay solid, how else, and for some they should stay unchanged and we rooted to them no matter what. It is men who have done all the building. There must be some pussy to bang though.

To tell you that home, religion and Fatherland so far have not been all about equality, creating well-being and prosperity for all and those holy units will change whether you like it or not, they already have. I can say I come from a very sexist culture where men set the boundaries, where femininity is weakness, women aren’t rational but emotional, where gay is a swear word, men are more often listened to over everybody else, they get promoted, their authority and expertise is relied on no matter how poor it is. I have been told how I should dress, have my hair, when to get pregnant, that it is men’s world where I as a woman enter, that I will never make it as an artist, I should choose the easy way, I should not say what I think, I should not object my given role as a woman, my place, I should not think for myself, be critical and I should smile more, my body is constantly under scrutiny, so is my clothing, what I do for a living and will I make a living, to be loud is very unfeminine, so is swearing, still there are jobs that are for men only, odd is to draw porn, my intellect, professional knowledge and abilities are always suspected and undervalued, the ones I must constantly prove and still since I am so difficult and almost non-existent I must be stupid. I am a body without a mind, any demand is whining and complaining, all the wrong I do is many times bigger than when man does the same, men can do whatever because they are men, I must do many times better if I should overcome a man and show I actually can do something well. Culture that does not evolve is a dead culture.

Feminists do this and feminists say that, mostly arguments are based on assumptions, hearsay, bias and worn out repetition which seems to be the old record people are afraid to discard and through away. Need a thumb to suck? To see feminists in bad light is a default deeply rooted in misogyny which hateful look on women pushes aside issues that are important for women. Things that are important to feminists like equal opportunity to healthcare, education, possibilities to use one’s abilities and be good at what one wants, human rights, abolition of child labor, justice, right to seek justice and defend oneself, freedom of speech, possibility to live free and in peace without threat. Constant sexism is a threat, constant suspicion and ridicule are threats and deny dignity and human worth.

Feminists make everything difficult when it could be so easy. It is too easy to kill, bully and torture. What about men then? Do feminists advocate men’s rights, is feminism doing anything for men? What a question one has to answer all the time. Men have been boys. Having been able to attend day care, school, to have balanced life at home, see that mother is well and able to take care of children as well as go to work has been the very result of women’s movement and feminism. Yes women can work elsewhere than at home and aspire careers. People, women and men, have ambitions, talents, dreams, future that hopefully is full of challenging and inspiring work. Especially children, boys and girls, benefit from feminism a great deal. It gives hope that to pursue one’s goals is possible. Well-being of mothers results well-being of children. Can men’s rights movement say having done the same? It is time for a deep sigh on a good day and on a bad one to shoot every one who puts feminism to dirt just because they don’t like it. Yes it opposes to machismo attitude which has caused trauma and damage to men, women and children, which is almost impossible to escape. Macho is to lock in and keep in captive, incapable to show vulnerability. Still to like feminism sounds like liking a dog, a good dog that wags its tail when you tap its head. Criticism is welcome, for most part it just is not very constructive. To play nice is not how it works or how results have been accomplished. To dislike feminism because of multiple reasons you have invented and believe are true is kind of childish and thinking hitting is what makes it all go away, because feminism and women’s rights movement just is unpleasant, unnecessary and annoying. To hate feminists is to hate progress and human rights. Feminism is raising strong opposition and the threatening atmosphere builds up quite easily between leagues and camps. There is no unison in sight.

 

morning light, fucking pigs

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About how we could face and see difficulties disabled face is to try out life disabled live.

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How to deal with offense? What kind of things offend the most? Hurt against disabled is very every day. It is often situation of constant hurting and comparing to those who are not visibly disabled. Disabled stick out of the crowd, need special care, special planning for every detail in everyday life we take for granted, are in many cases denied dignity and control over their lives, do not have access to decent health care or have to fight constantly to find it, fight over aid and possibilities to influence their constantly disregarded and undervalued situation. Who wants to offend disabled? No one, but many do just by staring, being inconsiderate, calling names, talking about disabled without knowledge over their lives, feelings, thoughts or much reason because many disabled can speak for themselves. The thing is who listens to them, the kind of second class who are at our mercy, we who can do whatever we please, almost.
To talk about disabled as an abled person is awkward, it feels like I am stepping on toes. Situation of how to speak of those others whose experiences are more or less unknown is present and quite demanding. To speak about anyone whom you wish to be able to help but possibly do nothing but create empty talk of good-hearted naivety, everything may and will go wrong anyway because the experience is too distant and alien. You haven’t sat in their chairs, haven’t been looking at the stairs which you are not able to climb, haven’t been at the level of someone who sits all the time. Therefore I welcome all art that juggles this dilemma of finding the level and connection where we can truly understand obstacles and walls someone faces, identifying with complex hurt we carry abled and disabled, because we do not easily meet, learning to respect thoughts and feelings of others especially when realities of other people can be so completely unknown and far away even we physically stand close.

Designers design aid and mobility tools for disabled, but as I have come across many times, there is not much understanding of the every day problematic, which could be very simple things like how to keep your wheelchair clean, how much space one needs to turn and what kinds of doorsteps truly one has to go over at one’s house or how to reach out.

Kylie Jenner Wheelchair Photoshoot Offends People For This Reason

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Indecency all over

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Interest in pornography lies in its forbidden nature. Porn is in the crotch. All one has got to do is to look at it, put one’s hand in there, taste it. What we are not to do, touch or see is interesting. Why the ban, what’s the harm? To forbid any thought of sex, casual sex, contraception, protection is telling of society who is not able to talk about sex, cannot face that people have sex without desire to have children, that people like fucking and find the ways. Society which denies sexuality denies a large part of being human. A sexual act and nudity we hide in privacy, which hiding or revealing is part of the attraction, seduction and curiosity in needing to be wanted. Positions we are not supposed to experiment or like. Will we be ruined? Will our minds be damaged? Something gets damaged in pornography and we like to ruin, hurt, destroy and see what can be build out of that ruin. Reputation and respectability have been those to be protected. Double life can be exciting at the same time being ashamed but doing it. There are things people don’t know about you, they think you are something else than what you give the impression of being. Why be truthful when you can lie. To avoid rumors, fame of distrust, disgusting sleaziness of being out in the open for what you are, an imbalanced character liking hazy business, strange company who is in search for the marginal finding methods of hiding away from judgmental eye. Marginal indeed. Respectability, likability, honor and obedience to follow the narrow path given where anything scandalously sexual is criminal, scandal is caused easily, honor is lost forever. What kind of honor is in lying? In sex there is no honor which is part of the attraction, only honor is to bring pleasure to the partner too. Sexuality is dishonorable as is being bankrupt. Gay sex, transgender people and any diversity there is, is slashed as unnatural. Unnatural is the act of anal sex which could not be more natural. Men being feminine, dressing and talking like women. There is nothing unnatural in sex and having sex, being a feminine male or masculine female. Sex is to create not only to recreate. Liking porn makes one instantly closer to being weird, liking being weird, not normal which is boring as is being appalled by sexuality. Liking sex makes a woman slutty. In light of statistics it is very normal to watch porn, for women and men. Interest in sex begins from early on: what are these things between our legs for. Shame, denial, incompleteness and indecency manifest in mere nakedness. Awkward desires we are not to have, ask about or show, body parts without names can be hard to look at, to know about, not to speak of touching and talking about how, why and what. What can we desire and what can we have sexually? Sexually all is to be able to fulfill any desire there is. To have all is quite a lot.

Fear of exposure in environment of shame and shame when being exposed can be deadly experience. Why not be happy and proud of what one is, one can end up dead. Are you a pervert, do you think about sex often, what kind of sex do you like, how do you find partners and do you find the ones that like the same things you do? Line between perversion, what is seen acceptable and normal is considerably low. Masturbation is perverted, watching someone masturbate. You are not to do it alone, you are not to dream about it. When you talk about sex it is with laughter. It is a joke. How much fun can sex be and who is having fun? To whom is pornography fun? Fun is when you see something you do not normally see, excitement, thrill, experience of new, can you do that.

When I draw porn it is enjoyable as research, as looking at something forbidden again and again. I am not supposed to draw porn, I like the thought of evil and bad about it and to share this naughtiness in social media is part of my fun. In porn people are to show they enjoy exhibiting their bodies and act of having sex in public. My interest in porn is professional partly that I enjoy the diversity and how pornography evolves, how society absorbs porn almost quietly, how this absorbing tells of that many like what they see in porn. It is expression, a show, how could it be banned when people like it. It is an unstoppable object moving. Logic of banning porn is it is damaging to those who make it and to those who watch, to all of society. Image of an ideal female body has gotten to a point it gets its inspiration from images of porn and what men like. Body is in a process of being molded into very specific desirable woman doll to be used, who is in use all the time, usable in sex and also discarded. Women molding bodies of theirs to fit the image of porn to please the eye, image is slick, made up, unnatural, shaven, without any asymmetry. Is there harmony when there is symmetry, any hint of reality of a woman who is not a retouched image? There is harmony in body not being symmetrical naturally, how we get to be the likes we pay attention to, to get attention, we manipulate. We do not like to be copies but we copy, as we compare to images of porn actresses and want to be wanted. Body can seem ugly, clitoris being the kind which does not please the eye of contemporary aesthetics where all is in control and symmetrical, synthetic and artificial. Anything sticking out does not belong, it is modified. One can go pretty far in fixing oneself. Natural is seen unaesthetic, imperfect, undesirable. Still we talk about the most natural thing, sex, even watching porn is natural. Seeing sex turns on and makes one want having sex. The corrupting aspect here is in how women are seen and treated, how porn is produced, how pleasure is sold and from where it is found. When we can’t escape our sexuality we can enjoy it. Who is allowed to?

Reality hits those who like to cherish illusions.

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Reality of another person can be extremely hard to grasp and see, even though it is right in front of you. It is the impossibility of understanding feelings of the other, seeing the position where one may be and how one got there. Value of the other, feelings of the other can be denied, belittled and despised just because you can. Reality of someone who is despised as such. Christians like to repeat we are born equal, somehow it does not resonate in true life. Christianity, the religion, is an excuse to put people down since God is on side of those who have the right god. Even though people don’t practice faith they are born in to culture which 100% has roots to some religion and practices of religious ideas, stories, beliefs and traditions. We are as cultural beings bound to religion, faith, mysticism, rules, which tell us how to live and how we see our place in the world and among other people.
What are realities now that religious people see in society which is more open to difference but still is very violent towards many people. Society is sexually more open, at least in theory, in entertainment and in advertising, demanding equality, equal treatment of the sexes, open discussion is available demanding tolerance and freedom of expression and speech. Religions are not the most tolerant. Religious entities are not demanding end of violence quite the contrary. Religions make war possible. Hypocrisy flourishes. How easy it is to not look. When religion demands hiding of our nature, hiding of beauty because it is seen evil and corrupt, how divine and godly that religion actually is. In societies where sexual intercourse is a sin, a taboo which makes all sexual topics shameful, all which is banned happens in hiding. We are punished for our sins which usually are of sexual nature. We are punished for wanting, desiring, lusting, having dirty ideas and doing filthy acts. Touching can become illegal and scary. Touching is too much to take, not to speak of kissing.
As an artist I am used to seeing nudity and I think it is the most natural thing as is sex. Just to depict and see nakedness is not porn, female and male sexual organs as such are not pornography to me, sexual yes but anything can be sexual. Asshole is holy as Allen Ginsberg stated in his poem Howl. What a scandal that became, all what he wrote was against the comfort and mediocre American society held dear. Dear hypocrisy, dear silence, dear oblivion, dear order which cannot be broken because it is not proper. Violence is more tolerated than sex. Violence is normal, so normal people don’t necessarily see when they are being violent and accept bullying when someone is to be put in order, be punished for what one is, dares to be in public. Order which cannot be torn apart because it is too frightening, too much to handle.