Can you imagine the pain? The situation of cutting little girls for modesty and respectability without anesthesia? It freaks me out to think about it and I intuitively cross my legs and hope there will be sense enough to stop this madness. The amount of bleeding and pain must be enough to cause shock and death. Wound is also very likely to infect. Cut heals slowly not to mention mental trauma caused by the act of violence and brutal force by people that should be trustworthy. Can we imagine the pain and will we imagine it? I think we must. It is invasion where trust dies and failure which women must feel they are because they are not allowed to feel pleasure but pain. To be a woman is a sin, so women are shrunken into beings that cannot do much but accept this rule. Women are not allowed to live as fully as men and boys. They will reveal their sinful nature if they are not punished in advance. Paranoia over women’s bad influence on society, that women corrupt men if they are not tied down, is ancient holding on strongly today.

I am told I am not critical enough. Does it mean I am not analytical enough or analytical in a right way, meaning my point is too light not as heavyweight as it could be? Is there an edge missing that I as a woman, artist and a thinker do not have? It is always wrong. Has my edge been cut out or is it denied from me or do I not have it in the first place because of my gender? I should be careful but I won’t be.

To be a woman is a constant unsafe situation. There is my edge, in pain and hurt. Who hurts most, who are the most vulnerable of all people. Not being safe anywhere ever and making this state of things visible.

Mutilation is a scare, a reminder and the pathway girls must go to be honorable. It is silencing. I feel women are cut in to smaller pieces to be easier to handle, everybody knows, for everything to stay unchanged and women in their place not making demands but serving others. There is the order of things which demands of women to be quiet and scared, many are because there is too much to lose. In that same process women are cut out from having freedom of expression and humanity, processed to be human only in part. The only serious issue for women seems to be protecting honor and a loud resistant woman is not honorable anywhere.