I wanna be a model and be seen by many. I wanna be discovered, I wanna be found, I wanna be rich.

I wanna be a model and be seen by many. I wanna be discovered, I wanna be found, I wanna be rich.

Hi, my name is, hi my name is, Hi, my name is, I would really like to be a model, I would really like to be a model, I would really like to be a model, a high fashion model, a high fashion model. I am sixteen years of age, I am fifteen, I am eighteen years of age. I come from Russia, I come from Latvia, I come from Poland. I have long blond hair and blue eyes, I weight fifty kilos and am 175 centimeters tall. I can walk and look the look. I love high heels and miniskirts and I turn the heads on the street when I walk. I have been told I could be a model, because I am beautiful and slank. That is what you want, isn’t it. Here is my picture. I also have a portfolio of poses taken by a professional photographer. To be in a magazine on front page is my dream and to be admired. True woman is feminine and takes care of her femininity.

Despair? What despair?

Freedom, it is our freedom, form of freedom defining shape.

Does travelling broaden the mind? The Monday question.
If it does not do the trick, then what is needed to make the impact in the mission of expanding the human mind?

How come your world is a square although you have travelled so much? Let me know, I’m anxious to learn more. I’m asking because square and rectangular seem to be the most used geometrical forms of expression.

2008

Tough is sadness deleted, embraced battle of will and ability, gone. Rough rough rough rough rough rough rough rough, it’s as if dog was barking for hours with no end, no change in tone, me thinking how long will it last and what does it want. Does it belong to anybody?
Rough rough rough rough, disgust, boredom,
disturbance and irritation to get used to, to feel no pain by it, to let the disturbing angst go by letting those little things not get you. You thinking the possible sadness of a dog.

Sex play

To encounter the strange and not so strange desire of someone wanting to put a dick in woman’s mouth,  mouth of a woman, enter her mouth, her body. What is a mouth other than with which we eat (no speaking?) Do you speak dirty? I have been wondering this positioning and the need for the deed, which is obviously build-in and there is no shame other than hers and the good she is at it, how good she is at it, doing the deed, sucking the inches. Although she will be rewarded afterwards, is the explanation. To make him king is one way to see the situation. The fantasy is a beautiful woman whose mouth is a living sewer from which an orgasm can be found as it is soft and moist making a sucking movement her knowing to mind the teeth. So, it is aware but under control situation. Desire of putting one’s sexual organ in mouth is fulfilment which is in every porn movie and clip there is. Interesting metaphor of shutting the woman up, hear how he moans and is to come in to her mouth. In to her mouth, in to her mouth, in to her mouth, what a repetition to toy with and what does it represent is from where and how woman is looked at. What is she doing and what is she? A fantasy woman whose worth is in the giving, giving in and lowering herself to be an open mouth who willingly performs the task of a sewer sucking a load. The load vanishes and like having been in toilet man is given a relief. Woman waiting for the reward. (I’m really trying to get into this shit, the true meaning of this train of thought.) Man cannot reveal his thoughts even though it is a moment of his, feeling of this. He acts as if he has feelings.

Why this is interesting is the positioning, banality and the one way thinking which so often goes without questioning, looking at it, facing what the need and the deed is many times over. Why would we question a pleasurable sex act, which so ruling it is rules the porn industry, imagery, fantasies and is clearly the most wanted act maybe even for women? To think this is a valuable fantasy as it is, where is the value elsewhere than in finance, in objectification, repetition and what mouth represents and can do (on a pretty face). To think what is the visual there that is so powerful for the male.

Don’t get me wrong I am not against blow jobs but I personally resent the thought of being merely for that purpose. This is where the interest lies for me to try to analyze the connection.

Noble beauty like Everest

beast

Noble beauty like Everest

I take credit for setting the world on fire. Like Everest, do you think it is charging, do you think it is changing? Greatest individual who ever did say thank you for the flames and went ahead. Saw something ahead worthwhile to walk to, to crawl to, to want to as a human. We are this want, we are want and as much as we want. Striking hitting setting stepping; to do against would be the most influencing aggression. Not to say anything, give a mental mugging and still getting up, wanting still something is happening out of mental disrupt urge, like untrue, like a dream. Scariest negative impulse to make nervous sweat. To radically push and show a point of view, state of mind state of body make fall let fall happen as far as it goes, make falling look like a normal happening resulting understanding. Is there someone to catch you? Don’t! I catch myself. Something to hit ferociously. I am there it sounds as self-loath, self-pity and hate, is put in one, is against me. To take risks of losing life and not be caught, not be found, to be hated. Contradictions of living in hype in positive, trying to be good, telling me to be good, telling how to be good, hard to reach, a noble beauty like Everest.

 

 

Clementine, dried peels on wall, 2011/ Demonstration

Demonstration

Saudi women take the bike, Saudi women take the bike, Saudi women take the bike, Saudi women take the bike, Saudi women take the bike, Saudi women take the bike, Saudi women take the bike, Saudi women take the bike. Saudi women take the bike, Saudi women take the bike, Saudi women take the bike, Saudi women take the bike, Saudi women take the bike, Saudi women take the bike, Saudi women take the bike, Saudi women take the bike. Saudi women take the bike, Saudi women take the bike, Saudi women take the bike, Saudi women take the bike, Saudi women take the bike, Saudi women take the bike, Saudi women take the bike, Saudi women take the bike. Saudi women take the bike, Saudi women take the bike, Saudi women take the bike, Saudi women take the bike, Saudi women take the bike, Saudi women take the bike, Saudi women take the bike, Saudi women take the bike.

Celebrities take your clothes off, Celebrities take your clothes off, Celebrities take your clothes off, Celebrities take your clothes off, Celebrities take your clothes off, Celebrities take your clothes off, Celebrities take your clothes off, Celebrities take your clothes off. Celebrities take your clothes off, Celebrities take your clothes off, Celebrities take your clothes off, Celebrities take your clothes off, Celebrities take your clothes off, Celebrities take your clothes off, Celebrities take your clothes off, Celebrities take your clothes off. Celebrities take your clothes off, Celebrities take your clothes off, Celebrities take your clothes off, Celebrities take your clothes off, Celebrities take your clothes off, Celebrities take your clothes off, Celebrities take your clothes off, Celebrities take your clothes off. Celebrities take your clothes off, Celebrities take your clothes off, Celebrities take your clothes off, Celebrities take your clothes off, Celebrities take your clothes off, Celebrities take your clothes off, Celebrities take your clothes off, Celebrities take your clothes off.

How rude

 

How rude
How loud
How unclean
How vulgar
How unfeminine
How impolite
How talking over
How infuriating
How stupid

Angels

Those wings are heavy every time the dinner bell rings. Dynamic energy drastic
measures of swans for girls for lasting impressions. The want to go to Paris and
walk. They want to go Paris-thin. When a girl is too thin, when she looks sick, they
need to lose weight to float still. What gives angels their glow?
What I eat in a day as a fashion model.
How I lost weight and got lean.
How to grow your butt without growing your thighs.
My full gym workout. How men react to different levels of makeup. What I eat in a day to lose weight.
Six clothing hacks every girl must know.
Victoria’s Secret angels go grocery shopping. What young hasn’t been dreaming about this?