Joensuu 2000

Why is body damaging? Or should the question be rather what kind of mind does not tolerate body?

Questions to be answered hopefully of what gets damaged by body, who damages what in the process of living with bodies, what is there to be protected? Something similar could be asked by why we allow the self-evident damage to be done by excessive mechanized sexualization in visual universe we inhabit? Something needs to be sold and it is going cheap. Constant intrusion of purity is an attack done by entertainment industry. When art does the same there is a scandal. What other is it about than hypocrisy, living in a new world with old virtues and vices. Where is empowerment and who has it?

Thought of the obscene body, body parts, impropriety, bodily obscenity which is linked to build and controlled civilization, concepts of shame, honor, purity, denial, evil, temptation and sin. Corpus that is indecent all the time even clothed must be punished also all the time to prove goodness and strength of mind, ability to control oneself and capability to decency. Our sexuality which is inappropriate, difficult to the very core is on display everywhere for consuming purposes and is still denied, humiliated and put to shame. Advertising and entertainment is according to creators of business talk empowering and broadening horizons, opening minds to human sexual exploration. Obscenity is in contradiction to nature and to nature in us. The more we put nature to shame and sweep it under the carpet the more problematic the issue gets. To be damaged by act of intercourse, seeing nudity, being nude, having to deal with sexuality and complexity it brings is at large a mighty part of nature within us and part of all. The difficulty to understanding this practical everyday part of life seems to be very common and around we see a very sexualized world.

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As there is thought to be a bond between art and exploring human sexuality, art and the dangerous animal in us, it is strange how forcefully sex is banned in art. Such prohibitions, raising eyebrows in embarrassment tell of artists not having much power within art that public opinion and public image play an important role what kind of art can be displayed and seen in art context. There is a strong stereotype of sexually liberal artist, female and male caricature almost which has been made via art history by telling stories. Liberal, someone who is disregarding social norms, such stereotype which is an image from a dusty book than real life. Strangely I have encountered this stereotype of an artist and it is dusty. Sex and drugs and rock and roll.

Why is female body obscene?

One could expect an obvious answer: we are used to thinking it is. We are used to thinking sex is obscene, shameful, unmentionable erected and wet, awkward and personal. We expect the obvious, a normal and we seem to know the answer for what is normal. As I ask what is obscene, in general it is nudity, sexual act, showing of genitalia, to show interest in sex and porn. I think it is not that clear at all, because I resent the normal point of view, obvious answers and see porn everywhere, pornographication and critique of this phenomenon, it makes me wonder why the fuzz and closing of eyes. It is too beautiful to be proud of one’s porno-body in front of people, it is too much to take because of the consequences, looks, talk, ideas, dirtiness, it is the most secretive of all and to be revealed only in private, something of your own and still not. Nudity is not public, is restricted as common rule from viewing. To stand in front of someone and be judged by one’s nakedness, one’s body and what it looks like. Naked body is meaningful and society has a need to make it meaningless? Or society is scared of looking at bodies and what they hold, what they do and make, what comes where, what is what, who likes what, who gets to judge and make value out of bodies that feel and need. Well body is not meaningless in a society where it is strictly prohibited from existing. It has plenty of meaning in such culture. Where there is freedom of body, body has different kind of existence and purpose for culture. People who are not afraid of sexuality, to look at images of sexual bodies see themselves differently than those who are scared of that content, of that truth revealed. The more one hides the more there is to reveal? How to reveal and why what one hides? What is the scare?

When we look at pornographic pictures it is for pleasure. It is mostly not anatomical examination. It is not to see how muscles behave in certain position, what kinds of positions do the actors take as they fuck and what kinds of angles do the cinematographers choose when they picture the scene. Clichés, clichés, stereotypes after a while they are too clear and make one yawn. Obscene fades after exposing oneself for the so-called filth. Numbness is the one disturbing one’s mind, how oblivious and indifferent one gets. It is human body and what we do with it which make our culture, act of body, what we are meant to do with it and can do, what it is for. What can I make of it other than explore it as I explore myself, since I am seen as sexual and that point of view is heavily planed on me. So I take it and make it my own.

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What does it say, shorts on the floor

 

Converge diverge converge diverge No not like that, let me show you. Is there a right way to do this?

First you shred a picture in a shredder, pictures, as many as you have, maybe all of them. You can do it by hand, tear a picture into little pieces. Then you put the pieces back together and look at the picture. Crunch it, it starts to look like the picture experienced something. Experiences of a picture. There is never a good time, there is never a decent time, there is never enough time, so you can do it now. Hopefully you have a shredder. As long as parts get together in order, they get what they need in form of see-through tape, see through tape, togetherness of pieces, end of loneliness of shreds, glue in hands, glued.

People who put their all in a shredder for whatever reason and end up putting things shredded back together again hoping things would be better, the same or at least become something whole, some kind of result and an event of making an effort. Like true love, whatever that is other than hard work, maybe it is more true, when broken and put back together again, light and revelation, fixing something broken. It must be the kind of love between mother and child in an equation, that the mother loves her child and does not put her child in to pieces.

How to keep your child whole, unbroken but not like an image or why should you keep your child from harm? Over-protection can do an awful lot of damage. How closely can you adjust the pieces that belong next to each other? Something has to be broken. Do we have to get something missing also? To have a reason to look ahead.

To agitate and wage hate against someone: Bite me.

To my great surprise I have ended up moving from one hateful group to another. I have long stopped thinking it is my fault. I follow my interests and they are many. People have their reasons for hating and they do not need much for finding reasons. Hating for sake of hating is obviously good enough. As it happens many don’t recognize their behavior as hateful because it is common, normal and accepted, which is as such truly surprising that thinking you know is a valid way of grounding opinions and ways of interacting that do not alter. People can have a very twisted outlook on the world and to other people without much truth in their points of views. It is always the other to blame when something is not right.

If gossiping and stabbing in the back is not hateful I don’t know what is. If you promote yourself hating someone and think it is justified maybe you should seek help because that is fucked up. There are plenty of people who put people down talking bad things about those others and that scheme somehow lifts those bad talkers up. Very strange pattern of thought that through violence you could be lifted, elevated as better than. That is not accepted in schools, in art, in science nor at work, it is not accepted from parents.

Feelings. Nothing but feelings.

I am tempted to write about the most important human feature that guide us whether we like it or not. Emotions turn us do things, make us crave, want, desire, act in a way that makes difference in the world that it cannot be ignored. Doesn’t advertising, movies, music, food, our existence in the world make an emotion, make us emotional or indifferent. How does the indifference happen must be some kind of overload of glitter having made an impact and stuff that has been keeping pouring over us in a speed that makes us reject. Still there is no end to what glitters is gold ideology. It is as if we exist to feel and want not to think and consider, at least if one follows entertainment and how it builds meanings as layers and behind those shells there may not be a pretty picture nor a happy story (but we all know this, we just like to kid ourselves and like to see someone fall) images that the viewer might want to attach to oneself also to be somehow better than what one is. Togetherness, similarity, attachment and belonging, our need to be accepted and wanted is exploited as any human weakness and we somehow like it because we are weak in our constant yearning. Why else would the industry be there to greet us with bright colors and something to buy so much so that we choke. How much our decision-making is due to emotions to me seems to be quite a lot. We think we know when we don’t know but we must act like we know because a connoisseur is respected especially if one can present a bag of shit well and sell it. We trust the first impression and the sight in front of us telling the whole story which is not the way to get to know anything as any grown-up knows deep inside but what can we do when we like quick answers and trust salesmen and our true buddies.

tell me what is corrupt here, Red riding Hard-on