My cock, my realness, touch my realness

porn-2015029

It is interesting to draw pictures of women focusing the lens on what has changed in couple of hundred years and how rights and position of women globally has progressed.

Other than stay horrified one must act, still. What are we up against is colossal force of misogyny, dusty moralist conservatives, true men and women of faith and righteousness, religious fools who find their right more right than any others’. In Finland parliament voted against gay marriage this spring. I wonder what would they vote for in case of legalizing prostitution or brothels. They can hardly speak of it. Thought of paid sex is an abomination in Finland. Worldwide abomination against sex leading our behavior. We must take care of our morals don’t we. Right now morals is in the gutter, in deep hole of righteousness as ever and blaming circles go round in media and in minds who has done what. Who threw the bombs first, who has done what, who has not done much. Quit your apathy, ignorance, denial and break out of that cell of your mind.

Can you tell me what is the meaning of meaning.
How do negative attitudes towards sexuality get made? Or what is right thing to do.
http://www.independent.co.uk/news/people/joan-rivers-palestinians-deserve-to-be-dead-9656554.html
http://www.ft.com/intl/cms/s/2/812694ae-1db7-11e4-b927-00144feabdc0.html#axzz3A1IqGlAs
http://www.westerndailypress.co.uk/New-exhibition-Portrait-Lady-Bath-examines/story-22282590-detail/story.html
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cleavage_(breasts)
porr

Sorry Joan your face is so tight it probably is not safe for you to speak at all.

The happiest country equals happiest people, because people equal the nation?

Measurements used: structures of society and how they function, structures of thinking and whose thoughts are listened to and accounted for, structures of how people manage at work, in everyday life, with each other and themselves. Position of women and children. How willing people are to help each other and how they react to strangers, the poor, their elders, the ill, ethnic groups, any kind of difference there may be. Is difference appreciated or shut out? How tolerant the whole of society is and is it willing to blend, mix and contribute to welfare of all its people. How equality is seen, equality of whom and compared to what. Is it just lovely talk or reality? What kind of possibilities people are given or do they have to struggle enormously from day-to-day to survive. How afraid people are?
Feeling of security and stability, ability of a nation to maintain security and stability economically, socially, environmentally, mentally. State of fear people have to live in. What are the things people are afraid of?

Happiness is something that tends to pass us by after briefly having met. It would be odd if something was not wrong. Perfection is thought to be equal to happiness. We tend to talk about happiness, look for it, pursue it, compare and prize. Is my happiness same as yours? It is momentary as we are bound to our emotions and guided by them. It is therefore a bit misguiding to search for ultimate happiness for example through wealth and possession, because it is a state of mind which can be got closer to by learning to know first oneself and then others. Knowledge of what is purpose and meaning of life brings happiness, sure. Knowledge of meaningless and purposelessness brings despair. Everything has its purpose we must think. We have difficulty in accepting insignificance, smallness and fragility of ours. In human perspective the scale is important. How well my meaning is appreciated by others and is my meaning meaningful for other people. Do I matter? One is always in relation to others. For me happiness is my relation to myself first, my relation to my insignificance.

Insignificance is an interesting term. Insignificant how and what is the insignificant? It has to do with meaning of an individual, purpose of that individual, individual in relation to other individuals, insignificant ones in mass of insignificance. According to this theory life has no meaning other than what one makes of it. Idea of nothingness which is all. It is senseless and has no logic.

Heart of a feminist likes to pour more gasoline into flames. Keep on roaring.

It is always thrilling when conversations about prostitution break loose, every year people like to speak their minds. Talk is constantly more or less active for or against and idea of legalizing prostitution brings more fuel into it. Spitting rage against the industry is clear and loud and I heart the rage, partly, partly I am tired of it. Study tells Swedish model does not function. Nothing functions 100%. There is always a flaw, always unhappy people, hurt people, dead ones, misery and filth. How to make people more content with their lives? It appears prostitution moves places and countries, ways of dealing and doing while laws change affecting the industry positively or negatively.
Mostly I am pro-legalization kind of feminist, so a bad one,,,but my concern are the women and men who do sell themselves. The filth, violence and dirt are there, women are selling their bodies for men to use. Do you think it, prostitution, will be removed as it is a disgusting phenomenon and degrading to women? Poverty and lack of prospects in life is degrading. Some do prostitution voluntarily and why shouldn’t they. Some like the work. Fine. Curious is why hate against prostitution seems to be more on the wall and out there than hate against the actual reasons why many women end up in the industry, reasons which are poverty, lack of education and sufficient welfare.
To make women feel safer? Dream on. Admitting that you are just disgusted by it is ok. I would like to know what is it you are disgusted by. The act of sex with strangers, market of living meat, mortal sin, whoring and pure evil of unrefined behavior, degrading abuse, exploitation of women etc. Yes I am disgusted by hypocrites. It is a world of porn and sex.

http://www.equalitynow.org/sites/default/files/Nordic_Model_EN.pdf
http://aroomofourown.org/ghosts-of-prostitution-debates-past-by-samantha-berg/
http://time.com/3005687/what-the-swedish-model-gets-wrong-about-prostitution/

Bench Heart

cut-out from a leather jacket

To become familiar with one’s fears is to face them, everybody knows. To be afraid is to give power over oneself to someone else.

What kind of things shock you? How do you react to shock? Do I shock you, do I really shock you? I would be glad if I did. It is a defense mechanism to seem unapproachable and I rather like it.
To be attacked is a common fear among women. We have to be prepared for it mentally and know how to hit back. Know where to hit as we are physically weaker than men and it is men who mostly attack, physically. Women attack other ways. They use their knowledge over what hurts most, which is to be left outside. Clicking and grouping against the one who is a threat. It is pretty sad. The most afraid people hang on to other people and their opinion about them. It tells something about women.

State of unawareness of what happens brings us irritating feeling of bottomless prospects, looking into an abyss like death, vanishing and fading me. Well it is what artist has to deal with and more and more in an very unbalanced world everybody else as well do not feel secure financially, emotionally nor socially. It is a world of threats, not only aggression-wise, but finding balance, if that is what one seeks, is harder and harder. We are exploited through our fears, through what we have to lose. What we are afraid to lose. Fear is born out of having something to lose, something precious, to which we hold on to, because it keeps us safe.
Is there a shock over something seen or experienced or are you in constant shock all the time, born scared. Do you think it is possible, because I think it is the most definite and primal emotion guiding our lives. Looking over one’s shoulder, hesitating every decision, every step, not jumping, no. Bodily reactions vary in different kinds of shocking experiences, and it is mostly our bodies reacting to instincts, previous experiences, emotions, thoughts – ready to escape. It is not very rational to be afraid. Ready to be appalled, because public opinion may be such that it forces to join the mass hysteria, panic over whatever. It is so we feel safe in a crowd, with those whom we can think the same, agree with. It is appealing to agree. I disagree. I feel compelled to do the counteract.
I do not disagree because it is fun or appealing just because it is difficult to agree with most people. And I thought I was the most scared person, because it truly is the feeling on top of me. I am not standing on it. I try to beat it by analyzing it. The most feared things, could I become unafraid if I just decided so?  Yes.

Who said

Sometimes I think is demonizing the very essence of being human and why is it a popular way of making negative awareness and relations. Making nullification and false information prevail. Do we seek sides in others that are not even there just to be safe and safer, better and the best. It is a right to have when one can speak against and point a finger, separating begins, defending one’s interests. After having faced those turned backs too many times I already know it is not me with a fault, it is I with quite a deal.

Demonizing women is nothing new, it is a way of dealing with issues one cannot deal with, accept and handle. Fear of feminine outlook on life, fear of life itself, fear of love, fear of truth, fear of losing. If women are those who seduce men and therefore have to be veiled from head to toe and hide from being seen, what does it tell about men? To me they seem quite weak if body is the thing making them do hasty and dirty deeds. Their bodies decide what they do. Woman for many is a body to be used and hidden when not needed. The one who obviously is seducing is an evil person. Evilness is in the sex which must not be seen, imagined, known or learned about. The thing that is seen can be damaging. Extremes such as religious veiling are interesting in their simplicity. Strict rules which without exceptions must be obeyed or punishments will be severe. Dear Lord, this is so depressing news.

Which one is more damaging war images or pornography? Can they be compared? I ask because social media, especially Twitter is at the moment buzzing with pictures of deceased victims of wars and I’m thinking it is the worst kind of adult content. And it is real.

 

How one deals with traumas is the tricky part. Meaning lives with them.