Skin the biggest worry.

It is the thing we scrub and put lotions on daily looking for ways to make us look better and better like there is no limit. Skin reveals all and so does our culture. How we eat, spend time, a little bit where we come from, tiny bit our age and wealth. The biggest organ is a nonverbal communicator. Looks like the best views get concentrated on best skin hacks? One thing is to remember sunlotion.

How far staring at skin has gone gets worrying when kids do anti-age routines. On Instagram I get recommended shorts that show what to put on skin and how to work skin endlessly. Instagram and YouTube have mastered the art of what our eyes should see and brain receive. They are 98% women who do this influencing on beauty, at least those I see, since I am a woman. The colors, ingredients, prices, how fabulously something covers all irregularities. Swaps really turn me on. Look at the shimmer. Mezmerizing.

One begins to wonder importance of skin and where are we at when someone declares on newspaper not reading literature by white men and having extended the ban on white women too https://www.hs.fi/kulttuuri/art-2000011365909.html. That will be the day one stops reading anything by wrinkled old people. I think 40 could be the limit when no one writes anything interesting anymore. The brain just withers away. Who writes anything interesting and what skin has got to do with it? Do black people write about their struggles only? They only struggle because white people cause them to struggle still and one likes to tell black vs. white relationship issues on white media in continuum because that is what black people do? How boring.

What we see is the most important influencer and manipulating the viewed things is going unbelievably out of control as is the grudge against white people. Anything done by white people getting banned could be an interesting test or media stop doing activism, you are out of date.

Skin

Portraits, pencil, 2015-

The problem and issue about skin. What is race and what do I think about it.

Kids, pencil on paper, 2015

There is a problem and it is about skin. It is about those features that are called racial. The ones that divide us in some ways very artificially and mostly naturally make a visual difference we pay attention to. We make our judgment via eyesight and learn how we should look and what looking like something means. We notice our differences in appearance immediately, but why we do not take difference for granted as a gift but a threat. It is the one thing we pay attention to, we understand to be born with difference is what we are, but to accept difference as worthy in reality is challenging. Children do not discriminate in the ways adults do. They learn to discriminate and bully and create value systems.

Skin has been an interest of mine ever since I started studying art. It is the one thing that is very hard to depict and picture regardless of skin color. My sculpting teacher was determinate to teach portraiture and it was the one most important thing after posture how skin appeals (appears on a work of art) and comes to life in sculpting, and hair, the other matter. It is interesting when you use clay, stone, plaster, wood or whatever material to make it look alive and interesting to the eye. Is it a question of symmetry and asymmetry, harmony and disharmony how we see or what we want to see, because disharmony and chaos for eyes is what we reject, but is constant before us. To blend in is safe (Zebras prove this), but do I want to blend in as an artist? Is that what artist should do?

On the matter of race, I trust science, which has not been able to find evidence of its existence, so I speak of peoples and ethnicities. I also keep race and religion separate and all religions must be critiqued. Religious feelings aren’t something to protect. In art there also is confusion about race and that white people don’t face racism. I find it disturbing and not understanding where race theories come from and have been all about, which black and white against each other tell and black victimhood as a constant narrative: slavery is all humankind concerning issue still today. Skin color is signifying difference, but race theories do stretch much further. Your black skin doesn’t justify racism against white people and I don’t have to think anything of skin, on basis of skin and current discussions have made me notice skin color and actively think of different groups of people via their supposed victim status. Stereotypes of ethnicities do live on despite the color of skin and they have a strong racist undertone. For an artist color is a very basic tool, what colors mean and do in the world other than sell things.

Slap, 2013 (white saviour feeling quilty?)

What comes to stalking and bullying, won’t be changing my opinions. White working class background probably has impacted my worldview. I don’t despise work, poverty nor judge by appearance, looking from grassroot up is eye-opening and the class aspect in art is strong. Biases against working class in art do play a role which doesn’t make the art world look good. Just saying..

Drama cat

Portrait (leaving it sketchy)

Kukka, neilikka, pioni, anemonie, bryllishuokaus.

Miten nainen isketään? – Suomi24 enkä vihaa sitä vitun hunajaa

Kukka, neilikka, pioni, anemonie, bryllishuokaus.
Kukka ilman tuoksua.
Mutta kuinka?
Se on ollut viileässä, sangossa jossa on ollut vettä. Kylmäkaapissa lattialla. Miksi kukaan haluaisi tuoksuttoman kukan?
Nainen on kukka ja naisen sukuelin on kukka.
Naisen käsi on kukka.
Mikä nainen?
Mitä nainen voi tehdä?
Tyydyttää itsensä.
Olla itsensä ja jokaisen naisen velvollisuus on tulla mahdollisimman täydeksi.

Naisen velvollisuudet, lasten hoitaminen, kotitalous, imurointi, laittautuminen, kaunistautuminen, kaunistaminen, lasten pukeminen, estetisointi, estetiikka, hoitaminen, pyyhkiminen, rätti, kaapit. Naisen tehtävät, nainen on näin, näin naisen annetaan olla, luonnollinen naiseus. Antaa olla. Mistä naiseus alkaa? Kun synnyt, kun sinut puetaan, kun sinua katsotaan, jonakin, kuukautisista, rinnoista, vaginasta, kuiskauksista, hiuksista, joissa puhutaan, joista, joita kommentoidaan, asioista joita ei saa sanoa, taas kuuluvaan ääneen, joista supistaan, joita katsotaan. Tarpeettomasta häveliäisyydestä. Tarpeettomasta. Hyödyttömästä. Hyödyttömyydestä. Pornokuvista, jalat levällään, odottaen miestä? Odottaen miestä, penistä, työntöä, orgasmia, halua, ottamista, panoa, kääntymistä sängyssä, että on siinä. Olla halun kohde, haluttava, saada. Lehdistä. Naistenlehdistä, miestenlehdistä, erilaisista kuvakulmista, ajelluista karvoista, treenatuista reisistä, täydellisestä ihosta, asennoista, tukasta, iättömyydestä, treenistä. Ajatellessani länsimaisen naisen ihannekuvaa, millainen haluamme hänen, naisen, ihannenaisen olevan. Hän on haavekuva, jota lopulta koko maailma jäljittelee, kaihtamatta keinoja tai kuluja. Naiseus maksaa, saat maksaa. Onko tuo kuva se, millainen hän haluaa olla? Kuka on länsimainen jokanainen? Lopulta hän on ei-kukaan, olematon ja silti kaikki, mutta kuinka tulla häneksi, hän on kaunis. Kauneus on jotakin tiettyä, määriteltyä. Haluta kauneuteen, katsottavaksi, ihailtavaksi pois rumuudesta. Kuinka olemme synnyttäneet tällaisen kauneuden, kauheuden, julmuuden omaa kehoamme ja henkeämme kohtaan, joka ei olekaan kauneudessa, kauneudesta, ei ytimessä vaan pinnassa. Ei saa olla, on pitkä lista. Kauneus on silti kirous. Pelkkä naiseus ei riitä. Se on kauheus ja vaara. Mikä pelkkä, miten niin vain, miten vähän? Mikä nainen on? Riippuu keneltä kysytään. Jos kysyy naiselta itseltään, mitä hän vastaisi?

Red okra splash 1998

SuoMen-performance group, Punamultapläjäys, Juuka, 1998. Natural pigment used traditionally to paint houses applied on skin.

Wearing my garbage

How to draw skin?

There is a problem and it is about skin. It is about those features that are called racial. The ones that divide us in some ways which are very artificial but naturally make a visual difference we pay attention to. We make our judgment via eyesight and learn how we should look. We notice our differences in appearance immediately but why we do not take difference for granted as a gift but a threat? It is the one thing we pay attention to, we understand to be born with difference is what we are but to accept difference as worthy in reality is challenging. Children do not discriminate in the ways adults do. They learn to discriminate and bully.

Skin has been an interest for me ever since I started studying art. It is the one thing that is very hard to depict and picture. My sculpting teacher was determinate to teach portraiture and it was the one most important after posture how skin appeals and comes to life in sculpting, on hair, the other matter. It is interesting when you use clay, stone, plaster, wood or whatever material to make it look alive. Is it a question about symmetry, harmony, how we see, or what we want to see, because disharmony and a kind of chaos for eyes is what we reject but is constant before us?