Lipstick and blood, it is important where the blood comes, obviously. When she bleeds, she bleeds well.

images 2014-2016, Nudity is not shocking to me, violence is. Sex is not wrong, killing is. So people can tolerate blood that comes from other places than vagina and for whatever other reason than bodily function.

Some torture

Do I kill myself, do I destroy myself? What is art for me other than constant rebirth.

Is it like going through my birthing without recollection of it, only with the sense of force of how it happened. How it might have happened and am I become always different. Force of birth became me, which lit me up and it puzzles me, force of new in me, of comfort, uncomfortable and the never present fulfilment. The moment, the happening, faces, noises, appearing and thoughts of my birth, my red face in a photograph. Me coming onto this earth, unexpectedly. I was allowed to be born, let out, led to instructions and be without them. I allow myself be born over and over again. What do I make of myself is a plan, map and is spontaneous pain and joy of making from scratch. I never know the complete result of me. There is work to be done.

Pain has got a meaning.

When I open my eyes is there something I do not want to see? There is despair in the air, in the news, panic of losing, youthful looks to gain and have like possessions to be sold as anything. But why be bothered by these sights of contemporary disaster? There is nothing I can do to change this pain that is so obvious. Misery is not vanishing, it stays the same what ever happens, it possibly multiplies as humankind expands. Pain is there to tell us something. Pain has a meaning itself,  it is a sign. It tells us direction, when to stop, how to react and what to feel. We can adjust to tolerate pain, learn not to fear hurting because it is an everyday issue, learn to live with certain amount of it when we have to, when there is no other alternative than adjust. An unpleasant feeling caused by intense damaging stimuli, such as stubbing a toe, burning a finger, putting alcohol on a cut, and bumping the “funny bone”. “Pain is an unpleasant sensory and emotional experience associated with actual or potential tissue damage, or described in terms of such damage.” Wikipedia says. Pain motivates the individual to withdraw from damaging situations, to protect a damaged body part while it heals, and to avoid similar experiences in the future. Most pain resolves promptly once the painful stimulus is removed and the body has healed, but sometimes pain persists despite removal of the stimulus and apparent healing of the body; and sometimes pain arises in the absence of any detectable stimulus, damage or disease.