Sense of self/Climax cave

pencil on paper, 2005

Climax cave
uhh baby, yes harder, (is this a woman?).Give it to me baby, nice and slow. (is this a woman too?). Yes harder, but be nice and slow. That requires talent to do hard and be nice simultaneously. Niceness is, of course, the outcome of sex, self-evidently pleasurable. To be hard and nice is a lovely contradiction and combination what comes to having sex. It is like bringing up children, be firm but loving. Know what you are doing and what is wanted of you. Funny is how these pornographic clichés work. They must work because they are used quite much. Horny is a state of mind of the contemporary world. Level of arousal and intoxication of upcoming orgasm is a state of overwhelming simplicity of sudden feel good.

Niceness and slowness, coming. What a disgusting image of drooling. A self-centered pleasure hunt. Where there is a cunt. Give it to me. What do I get in return? Is it a give and take? Sexist power play where there is something for oneself only. Good time for me, only, but you must get something out of it too. Yea, sure I want exactly the same thing as you, and I want to give everything to you, because we are the same mind, we want the same pleasure. In mutual understanding, I provide your ecstasy.

Hunter&Hippo

oil pastel on paper, 2020

Naming a horse

Naming a horse
Smell of whiskey
Kicking hard
Black beauty
running fast
Flying fish
Silver bullet
Indian summer
Dancing fox
Immortal light
Amazing grace
Flickering skies
Blinded love
Forever’s chase
Awakening beauty
Amorette’s ballet
Wildfire twilight
Orchid
wild dance
Himalaya Campari
Amber dancer
Keener than keen
King’s step ahead

Possible sadness of a dog

Possible sadness of a dog

TOUGH IS SADNESS DELETED, EMBRACED BATTLE OF WILL AND ABILITY rough rough rough rough rough rough rough rough, it’s as if dog was barking for hours with no end, no change in tone, me thinking how long will it last and what does it want. Does it belong to anybody? Rough rough rough disgust, boredom disturbance and irritation to get used to, to feel no pain by it, to let the disturbing angst go by letting those little things not get you. Thinking the possible sadness of a dog.

Oh, Sensuela.

Oh Sensuela.

Only my irrational need to sense, sensibility and sentences. Slim moments of beauty. Grasping all of them. For those who take pleasure from flesh, pleasures of flesh really so rare, though we seek it constantly to have seconds of thrill. Hold it, keep it, till it has passed so quickly. Another one and another, like drops of something to drink dripping. Something has gone waste, the most of it.

Portrait of a missing, pencil on paper, 2015

Let’s talk more my bunny!

Let’s talk more my bunny!

March 6, 2013 

Hello! My name is Tanya. I am lonely Russian woman from Ulyanovsk. I hope you will interested in my letter or in my structure in agency. I have decided to write to you really liked to me. Some more about me…. I am 25, I have finished medical university in our city and now I work as the children’s doctor. My free time I spend on a hippodrome, as I 7 years am engaged in equestrian sport. I think more about my appearance will tell you my photos. If you want to learn more about me you may write me to Zvyereva68@yandex.ru Also if you want to ask me some questoins (if interested in me), please write me and I promise answer you and also I will send you more of my photos. Bye for now. 

I hope it’s letter will not without your reply. ?  
(SUCK THE BONES.) 

Bunnies

Some torture/Ladies like it sniff sniff

Ladies like it sniff sniff

Spreading scent of perfume odor sprinkled too much to feel someone passing foul smells of fat of loathing of leather of floating of an aftershave of milk of sleeping in a world of smells in your nose and the living stench. Fragrance that brings instant feeling of power on your face for you, habitus in your hands on your body and around you all day, while splashing odor you can hear screaming women and children, aroma of blood sweat tears spit piss leather nails and steel hitting bodies. You rule you kill you smell.

What a portrait should look like and who is it? Does it matter what the person has done? Portrait of a rapist from a photo found online. In jails drawing self and portraits of others is therapy. (image made unrecognisable, unlike images on media coming from the US)

You belong to me – Series of women killed by their husbands, 2020