Her hers, into her, out of her

This is her hand, this is her other hand, this is her arm
this is her index finger, look where she is pointing at
this is her hands in the air, what things are in her hands

Feminists are

The ones who refuse to die. Feminists set the world on fire. The ones who refuse the lies that are fed by the acclaimed, the acknowledged and therefore lawful, righteous members of society. Feminists do not give in to the entertainment society that wishes such demanding negativity of human right fighters into oblivion. State of being completely forgotten as it has happened to history of feminists. It has been knowingly forgotten and silenced, because it is history of women, family and children. Those people who title themselves as anti-feminists do not know how much they should be thankful for feminism. Yes can you fucking believe it.

One of the most powerful ideologies and movements in human history is scary to those who like their comfort, their status, their unchanging likable fun with buddies. It is too easy to ridicule women, to laugh at them, to forget them, to diminish them, to step on them. Women also do it themselves; discouragement, envy, conformism, indifference, class loyalty, isolation, separation and ignorance  hurt women the most. Women are the most hurt group of people in the world in continuum. That is what we must make end to. Change is coming and you better believe it!You find feminism threatening, ask yourself why.

The Yellow Pearls of China: Women with a PhD

http://m.english.caixin.com/m/2014-10-18/100740078.html

Dark side gets darker.

As long as feminism is spoken and addressed by middle class only it has value of marginal jargon. Academic talk does not reach those whom it should benefit, whom feminism was made to benefit. That is the drawback of academic philosophizing and towering. Meaning of ideas and core of any worth while idea is in action. Value of feminism is how well it functions in every day, for every person and makes the grass root. How well it manifests itself there where people interact with each other. Without action feminism is dead. If people are afraid of feminists, of declaring feminism, being feminists, good question is why so. To deny feminism is to deny human rights from women. Why feminism has become ’unfashionable’? Women who fight for their human rights are unfashionable? We better change the fashion.

Being a good sport and playing it safe do not make the wanted effect. Revolution is in action. To play it safe is what academia does. Talk is not trustworthy enough, it is not good enough. People who play it safe are not trustworthy. Universities do not risk finance, reputation, status, jobs nor continuation of academia as it is for ideological fight.

To take action for what one believes in and most of the society does not is putting all at risk. Nothing will change unless we take such risks.

Flesh market, market of flesh after something

Ok, first my personal experience of growing up to be self-evidently a woman was that womanhood is a kind of fullness and dirtiness of sexuality in men’s world for men, not for herself, nor that the world would be for me or her, that female body is at every response and dimension laughable and for someone else to hold and look at. What makes that of me, made me and what did it make me think of me and of the world? Femininity makes people grin, idea of feminine woman is that she is after something, something that she cannot have without having her assets pushed in front. To see female breasts and other parts of female body brings a strange immediate chain of thoughts and again a repetition of grand sexism with laughter. It is without exception the case the ridicule of what a girl is about to be, the ridicule of what she might want, want to be and why she wants, what would she might want. Because of my body parts there cannot be a brain worth mentioning was the only thought and has been somehow a solid statement despite whatever I did, the issue by what I am defined by others, it would not change nor go away no matter what I did. No evidence would change the woman in me, who is half the man doomed to be jailed and diminished because she is a curse and a menace. Incapable.
As I think of this it is a pretty powerful image of womanhood exactly because the reverse upside down image I have been forced into, because of the black and white in which one is either good or bad man or woman. She is so powerful and mighty that she is feared and has to be harnessed and silenced since she was a little girl. What she might be is already as a thought too much to take.
“Whenever black women own their sense of sexuality and it appears to not be controlled by the hetero-male gaze, the whole world gets into a tizzy,”Feministing writer Mychal Denzel Smith wrote. He continued, “If black women aren’t allowed to own their sexuality, then who does it belong to?”
http://jezebel.com/behind-every-bullied-woman-is-a-man-yelling-about-free-1629502544/+morninggloria
”In the pursuit of some elusive, undefined web ideal, women’s mental and physical safety is (and always has been) an afterthought.”

Oh yes, about trauma and how one gets traumatized. I think we all are to a point traumatized, because that is the very essence of living. It is unavoidable.

To be traumatized is a very undervalued thing, because everybody should get traumatized. Life is a case of over-protection we try to maintain, but it is not possible, protection. So how to know what traumatizes, what is actually hurtful and what kind of hurt is something one can take. To what point should we protect our children for example? I mean don’t get traumatized and shit. It is like a joke. Did she get a trauma or something. An emotional shock and a disturbing happening, scary invasion, intrusion by something out of the ordinary which shakes a balance, does something hurtful. Injustice, lovelessness, hate, contempt, long-enduring ill-treatment. Is there something else than that? Hurt causes trauma. Question is do images cause mental imbalance, do images traumatize? Clear is that people do shit to each on daily basis without it being anything out of the ordinary, or without even knowing there would be something wrong about it. How do they get to that place of ignorance and arrogance?

#happytobeawoman? over-joyed

MY dear Lord, I love the art community. Which one? All of them. I really have the deepest faith in you. Cheers art! Keep on standing on the good side. Love the healing you do. Art is not about healing, what the fuck did you think. What is it about, because if they wish art to be cute as washed vagina. Is that your idea of cute? I don’t know. It’s a show off. O’ dear, I’m confused.

In short what I have to say about art scene as it is called is this: It is full of shit, full of pretentious fucks who have a high opinion of themselves, who like to net work and play buddies. It is a sadistic playground of shallow idiots. There is a trauma for you, sadly it is very real.

tits and thunder, thunder and tits

It is like God’s piss on my face, one cannot avoid it. It is like stuttering, to to to trtry to speak, but not being able to to and cannot help myself. Fear of being present, one have to overcome by overdoing, like shamming even more, make a real fool out of myself, a clown and an idiot, because you are not able to be yourself. So I’ll be sure the reaction will be negative and I will be in the dirt as a whole. Down and under dragging myself forward.

I was quiet. Didn’t speak, I was quiet, did not speak, they say I was quiet and they wondered why. It was clear to me, there was no one who wanted to hear me. I had nothing interesting to say. Interesting is something I don’t know what. Price of timber, apartment bought, new car, family vacation, what? That is the reason, there was no reason to say anything. Speak my dear so we can hear what you are thinking, because otherwise we might think you do not think at all.

I know that. I know that. This. I become to exist through verbal expression, through my gender, female quality, which is stated by what has been before and stamped upon me, because it is what is between my legs and on my chest, on my head and how I walk. I have a female voice, female hands and legs, female fat and female thoughts, things that go around about my body. What do I see? My hair and color. There are stony barriers to climb over and they, men, might stare at my ass as I climb. It takes a lot of cock to do manly things like climbing. I do it with my skirt up my ears (imagined).

What do I see? A folded paper with numbers on it. Six and four. Didn’t see what else was there underneath the foldings. Bent and wrapped, Q hat, on the floor. Too tiny though.

johnnyb0731 24 minutes ago I have a question about this episode. Were the German subtitles out of sync by multiple scenes when they watched this? For me there was no subtitles during the German was being spoken but they would pup up a few minutes later when we were back in the prison

We got the tango and a horse called syphilis. Drop some things, flush the toilet fucker. Not hugely excited. I’m not quite sure what this all is about, but I shall proceed.

Scary Arms. Who is scared? Offensive yes.

Weapons of choice, when and how to use them. The so-called hatchet, which I never had, actually, in the first place. Manner of speech, to hold weaponry, which is imaginary, old-fashioned and very strange. I still don’t possess such retarded methods. I tend to fight in different manner. If you lose, blame yourself. Your weapons reveal you and put you down. I say my way is effective. I’m sure you have noticed. More so, my direct action is effective by trusting immaturity and greed of the crowd (I have no need to flatter you either). 

To live is to learn, and it is wiser to act otherwise than by the traditional bloodshed, ill and isolation techniques used by many people, people who consider themselves above and educated, civilized and extraordinary. Some even call themselves intellectuals. Your status nor friends do not make you an intellectual. 

How to describe an intellectual? Intellect is something many people like to say they have. It is a reason to diminish and discard, the lack of it, the definitions of clever, wise and smart and how does thinking or lack of it show. To be intellectual takes more than wanting position and recognition. It also takes something that most are not willing to do, to oppose people who have power. It takes intransigent will to change the world and it takes sacrifice. One has to be ready of not being liked. It takes integrity, honesty, constant learning, sincerity and yes intellect.
 
It is strange how guilt and blame are placed upon the person who is persecuted and the reasons why someone is hunted can be irrational. The person who has the fault of being different, the one who is hit again and again because she dares to say against. Time to bury the hatchet one might ask. Someone else is holding such medieval weapon and I am sorry for it. Poor you.
 
Forgiveness, which is meant by saying burying weapons, forgetting maybe. I do not forgive something that is meant to kill me, something that is meant to dehumanize me, dishonor me and put me to a place of somewhere below and unworthy. 
Nor it is good to forgive when one is not asked for forgiveness. So be afraid, because I do not give in. I know on which side I am and what is my path.

For the art scene I say this, you truly have shown your skin. It is fucking ugly. I have nothing but distrust for you and whatever you do inside your circle. My deepest contempt. Do you see yourselves how much hate you have? People who do not see themselves are lost.

Do we all know what is bad leading and do we know the concept of democracy? Is it applied democracy, or facade and a phrase, manner of speech to make the speaker sound like a good guy with good intentions, democracy a thing like honey, to which we are reaching but do not have.

People want democracy, but people do not vote. People want prosperity, but do they want all to prosper? When we talk about democracy, we think the self-evident, freedom, wealth, health care, welfare, equality, work, education and so on. Good things, easy living, peaceful society with benefits and enjoyment of life. If people choose they are not interested in politics and do not use their vote, what happens? I think the result is happening now.
I use the word democracy, not in the ancient meaning that there would be some who are allowed to vote (free men) and those who are not allowed to vote and take part (slaves and women). I use the word democracy in the meaning that everyone has a voice and power. It is up to everyone individually to decide how to use that power of his/hers. To live in a system that is based on a noble idea of participation and trust should be easy. Do we have that kind of political system in use or only on idea level? That the one you give your vote does and works for what he or she promises to.

Politics today is done poorly partly because those who are interested in voting are conservative conformists and lean too much on religion in their decision-making. Too many people boycott elections, do not participate and follow what goes on in the world. Conservatives have an active role in molding society. Why do they always seem to be the ones with the assets, say over and connections? Why CEOs are listened to as political advisers? Well because we are run by economy and business and we want salesmen stars to give advise how to make a fortune. Corporal rulers are very loud, opinionated and listened to. Good performers are luring, so is power. As politics so is business a stage act. If people, the average men and women think the current system/s is/are rotten and does/do not represent him/her, the people, but the interests of the politicians and corporations, what kind of system would do representing better? Who would represent you best? Or is politics about representing the nation and interests of a nation? Are interests of nations interests of the people of the nation?

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Democracy