Kronstadt 2001

Grand Canyon 2001

 

Päivän lukukokemus: Modernin lumo ja pelko, kymmenen kirjoitusta 1800-1900-lukujen vaihteen sukupuolisuudesta

modernin-lumo-ja-pelko

toim. Immonen, Hapuli, Leskelä, Vehkalahti, 2000

Toppen!

Should I ReaLlY?

Ah Slut! Suck it.

Yes, give it a go. btw what if we would make dogs glow in the dark as well as their shit and the leash and the hand holding the leash. The owner may stay in the dark. Smell the news. Love it.

Mass destruction (warring and whoring. What is it all about?). Ways of facing problems, problems of making politics seem vast, benefiting from politics by making war, dynamics of everyday life, diplomacy, hierarchy and protocol, means of how to build an equal society are always beyond sufficient and quick to be done.

At war there is a constant threat of killing, seeing, smelling, hearing death and getting killed. Meaning of war is to kill or get killed. To win at war is an illusion. War is performative audio-visual act of violence in which there are only victims and losers. Possible winner is the arms dealer for whom business winnings are beyond comprehension, a jackpot. Killer is a victim as is the killed.

Situation where is no alternative is victimizing, when there is an obligation to go to war. Before the act of killing killing has already happened. Who feel obligated and is obligation born out of nationalism and having honor. Victim of war propaganda, victim of brainwash, of being on a side of something against something, circumstances of politics, accidents, destiny, faith and circumstances. Victim of political game and schemes, where very often the biggest criminals deciding for wars go free and prosperously retire. At war people are forced to make murder, which is not considered normal behavior for a person with morals, dignity and appreciation for human life. Defending values and ways of life by killing is a way to make the world. In this light for whom is this world made?

Number of ongoing wars and wars fought is mind-blowing. The amount of money spent to kill seems to be secondary issue. For warring money is found, billions of it. Effects of battles to those who have battled and to those who live within and in battle fields are no doubt crucial and long-lasting. It probably can be said no one leaves a war zone unhurt. Those effects last decades and do not remain within one generation. In the US scars of World War 2 and Vietnam War are still in the process of healing. Many veterans of war have ended homeless being unable to work and support themselves. Side effects like alcoholism, depression, suicides, post-traumatic stress disorder do not heal by themselves in time. Symptoms affect not only the individual but the whole community. War does not end to declaration of peace. It continues in the minds of people, in movies, stories, cities, landscapes and in history books. Desperate acts and useless in every way, not to mention far from peaceful life on Earth.  
How much the politics of the US is actually made by corporations and owners of these corporations running I can only guess. It appears to me the most of the world is owned by corporations and politicians merely have position to execute wishes of the money men. Warring requires equipment, preparing, planning, strategy, focus, patriotism, loyalty and it makes good profit for those who manufacture arms, astronomical. The US still has an agreement with Egypt for example according to which US grants Egypt financial aid to buy American arms. The amount of money is substantial which goes straight to arms manufactures in the US. Money flow does not leave the country.

”Despite the highly secretive military budget, which the law protects from scrutiny, there are a few cases in which the public can glimpse the vast economic power contained by the Egyptian military. One such case is the economic-military agreement between the United States and Egypt. Between 1948 and 2011, the United States has provided Egypt with 71.6 billion received approximately 1.3 dollars annually in military aid from the United States. The Obama Administration requested another 1.3 billion dollars for the 2012 fiscal year.” http://www.jadaliyya.com/pages/index/14063/the-moral-ambiguity-of-united-states-aid-to-egypt

There are some radical contradictions in the picture of salvation. First what is salvasion, how we pursue it, how we select which ones are worthy of rescuing and how we place grounds for saving. In order to be saved something has to be gone wrong. Our inhabiting the world being one major threat and violent act against the world, against ourselves. Our blue planet, our nature, nature of having and owning. What is what is rightfully ours are our lives.

Us against us, we against animals. It is a place of excellence to put oneself against, on place of righteousness, of knowing and having force over. People who have placed themselves on pedestals to have leadership. It is one way of evolving and building cultures, to follow something, someone who knows where to go. How long does master race last on that mastering spot? There is the world of nature of which we are part organically, biologically, on cell level and also mentally we still have animal instincts in us working

Centuries long oppression and hate against women and girls, which seems to go on and on is reason enough to be fucking angry.

I see this division very clearly in the art scene where working class based artists and audiences are minority, at least working class-ness is a very distant echo. Feminist theory and queer theory are very popular topics in the arts, which of course deal with important issues, but I have felt the more theory is emphasized the more distant art gets. This goes with feminism which paradoxically and firstly is about making change happen on grass root level not only on idea level, which is of course vital what comes to making change in academic studying and research more welcoming to women. So far historically Feminism is divided into three waves which begin from suffrage movement evolving to development of ideas and to action of women’s liberation movement and third wave is continuation and reaction to the second wave feminism There is hostility in Feminism which can keep it distant and repulsive. It is accused of hating men, hating sex, but looking from what kinds of issues Feminism springs out feelings of hate are more than understandable.

Feminism is first a movement, demonstration and fierce action claiming equal rights for all, possibilities to choose how to live. After having put action out Feminist theory started to develop. Prejudice has made it so that Feminism is not mainstream ideology even we are bound to it as ideology. It is not all that common to be working class feminist. Feminist theory is working and looking out from middle-class points of views and is seen as radical movement of those who can afford radicalism still. Working class is not all that radical anymore, at least not in Finland. They are scared and conformist, contents consuming quiet citizens. Feminist theory does not address everyone as doesn’t science as a whole even though it is meaning of science to serve everyone. Elitism and academic towers can be isolating. To talk to only certain kind of people of social change is not enough to make that change needed happen. Change required does not happen within middle-class, in academies and in theory, theory is empowering as is being able to think for yourself. Middle-class and working class do not respect each other enough, know each other enough, speak the same language or even want to understand each other. There is a mutual contempt there which stops multilevel action, compassion and collaboration.

What is gender, what is the meaning of gender? Is gender the most important ruling feature of people? How much does it dictate what happens to me? Funnily it has got to do with everything there possibly is in life. Gender dictates something naturally, people make strange delusional gender rules and orders themselves. Many say in this day Feminism is outdated, that Feminism has lost its power and meaning in making equality happen because it is about women, because capitalism has harnessed Feminism since Feminists demanded women right to work outside their homes. It is a shame to be a Feminist to demand equal rights as people. It is like a profanity and curse just like being a woman has been. How odd it sounds to be female and a curse. Most appalled I am that women curse gender of theirs, themselves and other women. The matter of division of genders is one of the biggest errors of mankind since now we know we all have both female and male qualities in us, therefore Feminism is about all people. It is to benefit all. That a man can walk like a woman, talk like a woman and I can weld if I like and still be feminine.

Where have all the Flowers gone? Fight of the Feminists, Feminism the ugly bad word. Why I feel so strongly about this is because anyone in her right mind would, secondly is because I am that girl. There has been a substantial amount of discrimination against me, diminishing me as a woman, artist, worker and as a person. There is no end to that until someone puts an end to that.

Women and girls make up half of the human population of the world. But they represent a staggering 70% of the world’s poor. Poor education, healthcare, nutrition, violence remains the main obstacles for women to empower themselves and their families. In many countries baby girls aren’t welcomed, they get aborted or killed when young. Due to latest news there are 60 Million girls missing in India alone because of gender inequality and sex selective abortion. It is a silent genocide happening every day. Things change all too slowly and why is that? In many respects there is not much respect for women to educate, to let them speak for themselves, let them take the lead if they choose to. As it happens even women do not respect sex of their own. Sex selective abortion is one of many appalling ways to hate female sex. But how we are appalled by hate without noticing hate we carry ourselves. What I mean by that?

http://jezebel.com/where-are-indias-60-million-missing-girls-the-tragic-1091500375

What is a woman? I work all my life to be respected as an equal person, and I have to work for it. Is that why I work, to be respected? It is in some sense understandable in some not. Literally to work my ass off to do that, get it. How I see it I stand alone. Woman who has guts to speak her mind and do things her way is an oddity, a target. I cherish my oddity. Is there respect for anything if there is constant doubt? Without trust there is no respect. BANG!

It’s not journey’s end, it begins over and over again.

It is a cry in anger and frustration. Saddened by the ways of ours against nature, against anything that is good. How to examine and evaluate good, define it or forget it. To seek only good can also end up being bad. Because we evaluate good with our eyes and how we feel. We are seekers of pleasure. It is odd how behavior of ours can be justified by nature. It is natural for woman to be weak and man to be strong. Still nature comes second in any regard. Interests of ours do not benefit those who cannot speak for themselves. We are destroyers leaving storms and deserts behind for future generations. Dry and decayed heads in tanks, stuck onto tanks, stuck in our unconsciousness, stuck to our horror.

It makes me wonder how those divisions get made and who makes them? There are things that attract women and things that attract men. Then there are people who like to keep it that way in obedience to the tradition of differences between sexes. It is natural. How natural are we? My organic body is natural, it decays, gets infected, clearly things happen to it that are nature’s ways not mine. Is my behavior natural? Is my gender natural, is it what I do for living natural? Natural is obvious, naturally, clearly, obviously. Self-evident, inescapable. We try to protect ourselves from it, we must, otherwise we would die. Our race would perish without fear of death, without pain and suffering. It is my nature to keep myself alive as well as I can. That is my healthy nature, my health, my true nature. Natural is something non-manipulated. Clean from so-called intelligent and conscious interferences to nature’s processes. Unhealthy is a will to die, in this context unnatural, nature grows back after devastation. Picture of hey pushing through asphalt. It grows where sun shines, looking for light, looking for water. To find that nature in myself is hope. That is to be part of nature. To learn from it, to grow with it. Defining natural in human context is kinky.

How to express nature, does it have to be expressed, will it find its way like hey?