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Climax cave

| Henna Timanttimetsä

River of no return

| Henna Timanttimetsä
River of no return

How many takes? She was very sweet. She was a comedian. She was very shy. She was fuck me. She was very uncomfortable. She was convinced, she was not very sexy and pretty. She didn’t have an aura of sexiness about her. There was some magic about her, she would play at it. She would burlesque it. She seemed like a lost child. It seemed to her like Alice in Wonderland and she could not believe it. Anybody was very serious about her. She really felt she didn’t have the inner qualifications to fulfil the image of a sex goddess. She thought that the whole thing was a lie, because it was not her. She would never feel worthy. She was very very difficult. She was vulnerable. She was weak. She was teary. She was struggling. She was falling apart. She was hurt. She was an addict. She was needy. She was difficult. She was in pain. She was adorable. She was drunk. She was nice. She was childlike. She was late. She was lovely. She was hanging on. She was calling me. She was calling everybody. She was caring. She was unprofessional. She was sexy. She was beautiful. She was funny. She was doing the thing that was wanted of her, she was not doing what she wanted.

LET’S Go BACK TO FLASHDANCE: THERE IS MORE TO THE MOVIE THAN THE PLOT. IT IS MORE CLEVER THAN YOU GIVE IT CREDIT FOR.

| Henna Timanttimetsä

It is a fairytale kind of spectacle or anti-spectacle in a spectacle, if that is a thing. Anti-spectacle in the sense of changing of the perspective towards gender, class, work and art, romantic is the spectacle, a pattern we expect. The spectacle we are used to seeing and thinking in terms of movies and in general how class, work, gender and art function and are, are thought to represent and be like. The American dream in this case where a beautiful young woman reaches out for her dream, a place in the sun and ends up getting more or ‘all’, a romantic relationship with a Man with a Porsche, who is also the owner of the factory where Alexandra, the woman in question, works at as a welder. One big plus of the movie is it does not highlight the work Alexandra does, welding is just work with men as co-workers, it makes the movie hugely more interesting though, and her the one who lives outside the box and is allowed to do so. She is not harassed by her co-workers, her abilities are not questioned. It is truly a beautiful setting, which her choice of work, most definitely would be seen weird still today.

To explore deeper into what the movie is all about is worth our while as it has been deeply overlooked as many romantic movies that are meant for women usually are. To pay attention to details, characters, camera shots, what is being looked at and told via tensions between women and men and why those tensions exist. What happens between the sexes, between women especially, what are sexes both expected to do, look and be like. Movie is a language as is dance as is sex, sexuality, clothing and gender. You have to focus on to read it all and actually think what are we looking at, what happens there and why all the time. It is not just an entertaining show where you can relax and forget what is going on, this is told via contrasts between sleazy bars, working men and art, how women are treated in different settings and how these settings differ, how women want to be treated and what do they desire of their lives to be. Movie is never just a movie that is meant to entertain, not even those that are made for that purpose, nor is music or the dance acts that seem to be out of place. Point is easily missed when the romantic is what stays interesting and in the focus.

In a bar where ambitious fit and talented dancers show their art, act for paying customers who are watching and are a bit amazed by the unexpected shows. Contrast is also to the other bar where dancing is not the primary interest of anyone, only nude female bodies, that move in a certain way. Women are dancing for money but in a show-your-ass-kind of way, but they still want to be discovered and dream of making it. What are people watching and why, who gets attention? Watching happens for instant gratification, simplicity of getting pleasure cheap and for fun. A bar is a world of something else than the workplace and not a place of thought, burdening oneself. Customers of the bar are not the assumed ordinary art lovers, but that is the point. Why should people be provoked to think more than is necessary, why not give them what they want? To whom is art for and why is it a class issue? What is art and where is art, who is capable of art and why it is a special occasion in a special place? High and low seem to be repulsed by each other, classes stay separated  like oil and water. The dance acts, art and artists, are really in the right place. Intention of the movie is not to depict a straightforward story in a manner of this is what happens: this is what we dream of happening to us. It is not a children’s story and it is not pink. It seems light, but is heavier when one starts exploring. That are the expectations and frame women are supposed to fit in, want, act upon and are shown in the movie, that those who dare, can change the game. There is social critique hidden there to be found.

To say Flashdance is a feminist movie is not quite what a true movie lover might expect. What do you think about the turn, that a seemingly light Hollywood movie is feminist in a very kick-ass way and about the structural difficult issue of choosing how to get ahead in life, on one’s own terms and talent, and not sleeping with the boss or buddy who has connections. What do you think about when after having seen and evaluated for example the scene where Alexandra goes and finds her friend who has gone to work as a stripper, moving herself in conventional stripper manner, she is grabbed off the stage by Alexandra and escorted out. In the scene Alexandra’s clothing and standing position compared to her friend tell a lot when friend the stripper ends up in a puddle on street wearing only panties and high heels and is cold. Money, she earned gets wet in the rain on the pavement. Alexandra’s loose pants and sneakers when she stands firmly behind the naked woman who has fallen down and sold her body for money to please men may seem easy and naive, but it is something very basic, a woman on the ground beaten down feeling there is no other opportunity for her.

After having read couple of critiques about the movie and clearly many have missed the point: When one is an art critic it is essential to see behind the expected, the image and be free of bias. What is the seen image telling us, what happens without words, what is the setting and who are the characters, what do they do. Do you need more clues, because explaining has to be done also in a very basic manner, obviously also for critics. When you are an art critic, don’t fall for the simple clichés. Such poor analysis destroys a lot, as does arrogance, assumptions and cynicism. Minimizing culture that is aimed at and is about women and girls is a normal practice. It is a learned reaction which comes without thinking. A black woman eating a banana in a scene where women talk about relationships, well sounds as cliché as anything, but it happens in couple of seconds, and is easily missed, but telling. To make it as you with your raw capabilities, without handouts and favours..

Flashdance, is a feminist movie https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Flashdance in which woman does work as a welder and pursues her dream to become a professional dancer, also in which women help each other, face sexual harassment and deal with it by acting out, consequences lurking there and threat of violence is almost a certainty. To oppose men means you have to be one and be prepared. Movie portrays different kinds of female roles, a gallery of different kinds of women. The expectations of what women should be like, playing with stereotypes with which women struggle and hold on to as coping mechanisms. They may be afraid to go against the machine or don’t know how to or should they, and those who do not fit in the accepted roles especially, seem to be out of sync or do what they need to do despite whatever. Interesting are the different kinds of female characters there, how there are systematic learned rules of behaviour that stick, codes for genders and how these codes are taken for granted. How women portrayed are in their places and obviously struggle and lack power. They try to move on up as do men, they have dreams. Men try to move inside women’s panties and sex is clearly a very basic tool of control and making it. It is the first thought, easy way out, a getaway car and motive. World of art is a dusty stagnant relic too, which needs heavy dusting. Alex, the leading women, is afraid to enter this monument of perfected trained fragile-looking fairy-like ballerinas and primadonnas. She want’s to make it on her own with her own credentials with her talent and does not need a man to do that for her.

Real life is stranger than fiction says this welder.

 

”I have a friend who has a simple test for a movie: Is this movie as interesting as the same things would be, happening in real life? A lot of movies aren’t, and ”Flashdance” sure isn’t. If this movie had spent just a little more effort getting to know the heroine of its story, and a little less time trying to rip off ”Saturday Night Fever,” it might have been a much better film.”

http://www.rogerebert.com/reviews/flashdance-1983

http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0085549/reviews

http://articles.latimes.com/2013/may/09/entertainment/la-et-cm-flashdance-musical-review-segerstrom-20130509

Reviews and critiques strongly reflect the persona of the critic who is writing. For some reason in this case feminist perspective does not shine through. Wonder why.

You belong to me – Series of women killed by their husbands

| Henna Timanttimetsä

MÄ OLEN KASSALLA. MÄ OLEN AUTOLLA. Sä oot KIVAN AITO.

| Henna Timanttimetsä

Kassalla ei ihmetellä kuittia. Kassalla voi jutella mukavia. Kuten mitä nyt tulisi mieleen, tai mennään ohi sen liukuhihnan?
Ei voi päivitellä kaiken kalleutta, koska ei voi antaa ymmärtää, että rahat eivät riitä, että on köyhä tai että olisi niuho valittaja tai että aiheet olisivat vähissä tai että ihan sama. Kaikki jo tietävät eikä asialle voi mitään. Kassa ei voi asiaan vaikuttaa, hän piippaa. Hän katsoo merkitsevästi jos jotakin poikkeavaa on, aivan kuin vihaisia inhottavia, tai vihaisi kaikkia kassansa ohi liukuvia, liikkuvia, ja tavaroita, tai ei tavaroita, koska niillä on rahallinen arvo. Arvo on siinä kyljessä. Raha kelpaa. Muoviraha, käteinen ja tavara saa hymyn huulille, hyvälle tuulelle.

Rahattomuus on inhottavaa, rahattomat ovat ei-toivottuja. Ei käy, kun mikään ei käy. Hyvän päivän toivotuksen kanssa samoissa, pienet sanat voi sanoa, koska se on työtä ja sanoa kaikille samaa, toivottaa kaikille samaa, koska se on se työn humaani osa, jonka johdosta ihmiset tulevat uudestaan, inhimillisyyden vuoksi. Kassa on täällä töissä, konekin, koska sen pitää elää. Rahastaa sen tavaran hinnan, antaa rahasta takaisin ja antaa kuitin. Älä hidasta kassan toimintaa tai epäile, että kassa on tehnyt jotakin väärin, etenkin jos itse olet väärässä ja vähänkin epäilet itseäsi. Jos joudut ottamaan muovikassin, se on 80 senttiä. Kassalle on myös turha sanoa, että tämä ei käy. Siinä ei ole mitään epäselvää tai epäkohtaa, koska meillä täällä hoidetaan asiat. On niillä muutakin tekemistä. Kassakone tekee oikein, koska se on kone. Piippaa kun toiminto tapahtuu ja tapahtuma rekisteröityy. Se on ohjelmoitu siihen eli kun tai jos sitä kyseenalaistaa, niin se olet sinä se, joka on luultavasti väärässä ja kaikki katsovat. Älä hidasta kassan toimintaa.

Siementä vakoon. Pellolla on peuroja. Ne syövät osan sadosta, paskantavat ja kuljeskelevat sadossa, äestetyssä pellossa laumana. Syövät sen, mikä eteen tulee. Valppaina kuin mitkäkin. Kaikki äänet ovat mahdollisia uhkia. Suu käy kuin kone. Pelto on niitten, vako on niitten, kaikki on niitten vaikka on viljelijän virallisesti ja viljelijän on mukauduttava siihen, mitä ei voi estää ja haettava korvauksia kun sato on pilattu ja syöty eläinten toimesta, koska ei niitä kaikkia ampuakaan voi, kai.

Siementä vakoon. Pellolla on joutsenia. Kauniita kuin mikäkin satu tai unikuva. Otan kuvan. Pitkäkaulainen kaakattava pilvi elävä kuin mikäkin ylimys. Onko se välinpitämätön? Esimerkiksi tästä näkymästä, esimerkiksi siitä joka sitä katsoo?

Täällä etsin aitoa parisuhdetta ja märkää vittua. Mulla on auto. Mulla on märkä vittu kuin jumala mun ajatuksissa, liha. Se on jokin suon tyyppinen mätäs kuin kuva, jotakin lämmintä jonne upota, upottaa osansa. Kysyn vaan joltakulta, että nussitaanko? Eikö se ole aitoutta? Mä olen autolla. Mä juon teetä etten humaltuisi. Tulee juotua kahvia töissä, että pysyisin hereillä. No tuu vaan. Haluatko nähdä mun auton? Katotaan onko tässä kipinää. Jos ei, niin täytyy jatkaa etsintöjä. Kiva auto. Nussitaanko siinä? Aika epätavallista ja vähän vaarallista.

SPORTTIKOJOOTTI: SÄ OLET RUOKAA.

| Henna Timanttimetsä

Päiväkirja: miltä se tuntuu kun repsahtaa, tulee depis ja tuntee itsensä huonoksi, häviäjäksi, lihavaksi ja että on ottanut takapakkia. Kun ottaa pussiin irtokarkkeja, tuntee iloa, että voi täyttää sen niin, ettei pohjaa näy.
Ruokavalio käynnissä. Syön autossa kun kaverini syövät ravintolassa. Treenaan kisoihin, jotka ovat kuukauden päästä, mutta yritän pitää yllä sosiaalista elämääni, koska muuten elämä pyörii harjoitusten ja syömisen ympärillä. Hyvää ruokaa, hyvää viiniä tekisi mieli, kauhee nälkä. Tää on hullua, mä tiedän. Aktiivitreenaaja herkuttelee silloin tällöin, joka on kerrottava katsojille, ettei tule fiilistä etteivät laihat kauniit ihmiset syö väärin koskaan.
Onneksi huomenna on maanantai, voin aloittaa alusta. Välillä rentoudutaan löhöömällä, syömällä poppareita. Dietillä ei kaikki ole mahdollista.

Nimimerkki Dinneri: Läskitön, lihaksikas, luiseva, fitti, slimmi, timmi, lihava, muodokas, pullukka, joku näiden välimaastossa, löhööjä ja laiskimus.
Kun puhutaan avuttomuudesta, nelisilmäinen susi tuijottaa sinua pimeydestä, luonnosta – siniset silmät, harmaa turkki, iso pää. Kokemusta ja näkyvyyttä. Jännittääkö sua väliaika punnitus?

Märkään vahaan jää kenkienne jäljet. Miten kevyet miten raskaat, miten laahaavat miten nopeat, kuviolliset kookkaat, kuinka monta askelta ovelle tai ovelta pois päin. Etsi joku joka hymyilee ja on aito.

You use hateful terms of radical feminists, as far as I’m concerned, you are not feminist at all.

| Henna Timanttimetsä

It is a constant need for different kinds of groups of people to aid their cause by dismissing feminists, western, white or radical feminist, who disagree, debate, bring up issues that are contradicting, unpleasant, annoying, wrongly thought for many who think they are absolutely correct and can freely call themselves whatever they want as it is a free world and feminists should just without questioning support all causes that are by default without contradictions and true. Feelings don’t make things true and binary is not what we should live by as it is an invention of patriarchy. And they do hate feminists, who do and say as they see best and right, because feminists dare to fight back and seek the truth. Those hating feminists, who are many, use hateful terms just as fluently as any antifeminist and misogynist has ever done. It is nothing new and because of that, and that I for example, can have freedom of speech and expression and speak out loud what I think about complex matters and disapprove oversimplifying of very complex issues, those who disagree with me can do so. I am one of those who don’t want to think in a way women are supposed to think and do what women are expected to do and be like. Support and compassion has been scarce for me throughout all my life. When I didn’t identify as a feminist and nothing has changed after I labelled myself. It makes me wonder, is it the title that really bothers or is it something else, and my bet is it is the something else. Woman is a threat, capable woman is an even bigger threat. This combat one faces as a woman, be it white and western, privileged, rich or poor, straight or lesbian, is an on going one and I refuse to think otherwise for many to feel better. It is true one becomes a feminist for very personal reasons and seeks justice through that ideology as do I. All one has to be is female to be treated as inferior and wrong from day one. It is really sad. There are the questions women and girls go through, what does a woman look like, should look like, be like, sound like and do, be strong but dismissive? How about submissive, that is nice. Look beautiful but agreeing and nice? I don’t find beauty in there.

It is a strange thought that you will be corrected, completed and healed when you’ll become a real woman, you construct yourself to fit in and look it in the eyes of others. You seek happiness via body and looks, and confidence: good luck with that one.

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Anybody using hateful terms about radical feminists, just bc they disagree with you, I will gladly block u.

Käännä kielestä englanti

Feminists, they don’t do enough for you? How unfortunate. It is of course fault of feminists that things aren’t nicely simple. I hear trans-activist dismissing radical feminists, you just are in a loop which is called binary. I suppose the trans prefix is there for a reason, don’t you think. Let it bleed.

 

SEN PITUINEN SE

| Henna Timanttimetsä

Se märkä, se pieni sukupuolielin, on karvaton ja jalkojen välissä, on kuin ihmisen keskipiste. Siellä minne katse kääntyy mielellään ja tahtoo nähdä millainen se on, virnistää. Jalat harallaan selällään mahallaan levitä,
klitoris pillu piilossa pitää käsillä kiinni tyynystä, huohota tyynyyn.
Käsi sinne valkoinen aivan kuin ei uskaltaisi kun epäröi,
vaaleanpunainen punoittava iho kuin puraistu halkaistu, pakarat, väli-iho. Suuri liha on tunnetta, punoittavaa, kiiltävää ja aistikasta etenkin pitsin läpi. Iso penis on kuin joku elukka.

Löytää sanat työntymiseen toiseen ihmiseen, nussimiseen, yhdyntään, ääniin jotka lähtevät kahdesta ihmisestä, sanotaan kun tuntuu hyvältä, tuntuvaan ääneen jotta tulee selväksi hurmio ja voidaan jatkaa kovempaa, puhua kovempaa, huohottaa, liikkua nopeampaan, hinkuttaa että paranee, liiku makaa sano rakastan sun vittua, kokeile tai muistuta: varo hampaita tai sano: nuole sitä, ota se suuhun tai kaikki tapahtuu niin nopeasti, että ehtii huohottamaan kuin juoksisi ylämäkeen, sylki valuu. Miten rumia sanoja, rumuutta kuvaavia tekoja tai miten ruma voi olla kaunista puremista. Puremista nuolemista hätäisyyttä ja sylkeä.

Sitten hän työntyi koko painollaan suurella kalullaan Janinaan. Janina voihkaisi kuuluvasti. Mies työntyi uudestaan yhä rajummin. Mieskin voihki.

Finding feminine

| Henna Timanttimetsä