The constant search for acceptance ends at some point. It ends when there is nothing else received but disapproval, contempt, sadness and disappointment. Fundamental question is what is there to give? What do we give each other? It is a moment of complete realization of randomness, selfishness, something to gain and coincidence. What is good, what is ill, which one to choose and why. Only thing one can do is not to fail oneself. It is that I am my best friend and the only person to take care of me. This person who is me knows what I can do. So why seek any approval when there is none to be found. Everything is for sale but me. Something is finished at that point when I stand up for myself, when need to be loved by someone else does not guide me and what I do. End of being on mercy of anyone. It is to accept randomness and irrationality of life, human mind, emotions and lunacy of our deeds, but also understanding that I can make a difference. Those things I cannot control stay there, if I can’t control anything it is a dead-end. What I decide to think and do still has meaning. Do I wish to do good or do I wish to do ill and how random those choices are. How much do our emotions guide what we do is important to take into consideration. Humans are by nature active in making and by seeing what we have accomplished we can appreciate ourselves. Where does narcissism begin and where does it end?