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Strive to be better and better is to love yourself. It is strange for a woman to be labelled weak when she is stronger than most. Thinking pattern of which people are not willing to let go because it empowers them and enslaves those who need to be seen as weak. That is a wall to climb and people to walk over because that is what they need to be made understand and feel in their bodies. Body remembers and gets if mind does not.

When those who should love you are your worst enemy situation is something you cannot escape, physically yes but not mentally. People are compelled and forced not to love because loving makes them vulnerable admitting to emotion that is delicate and caring, soft, profound, open, accepting and feminine almost childish and naive. Love becomes nonexistent and meaningless words when you are betrayed by those who you think should love you unconditionally. Love is used as an excuse to exploit, a misused emotion, misused way to fool and fake, get your way, manipulate, to act the a way which stands opposite to love. Love is misunderstood and loathed, put to dirt the same as people who are seen as not worthy of love. There are people who think love is something to bargain with and people who think they are not worthy to be loved. The opposite of love in everyday life is there to be endured, understood as normal, so common it hurts, love a word and world which is upside down looking like a monster, love untrustworthy statement, people filled with hate, distrust and ill talk, violence the best tool just as despair, illness to have. When one grows up in such a climate lovelessness is a rule and seeing through people’s intentions and people themselves on daily basis a normality which in its accuracy is scary.

Some torture

Some torture

You know how to fly?

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Most stunned I am how persistently bias live on, that people are convinced their thinking they know is absolutely correct and such bias and idea of superiority is very difficult to change.

To learn to think otherwise seems to be the hardest thing to do as it means consciously admitting flawed judgment and thinking, knowingly changing one’s perspectives and point of views which are often learned and hard stuck as there may be the whole community who thinks the same and with that same thinking assume they are correct and cannot be proven otherwise. Collective wrong thinking can be seen as the most harmful way of humanity doing wrong on regular basis which regularly tend to repeat over and over until there are enough people who stand against ill patterns of society/people, of a group of same. Most appalling situation is when one has to convince a group of similar minded jackasses, convince after convincing, prove after proving, results happen so slowly when minds are made up, when world views are stuck as if Earth was center of the Universe again and again. Biggest blasphemy of all is to show prove that men are not the most intelligent self-evidently, the best at everything, know everything and to show that men can be corrected, talked over, punched back, argued with, questioned. Authority that cannot be questioned is losers’ authority. To take authority and primal stage of having a say over mean to take responsibility. It means one is capable of giving spotlight for others, for diversity of others, it does not mean having right to rule and judge. To think you are among civilized people can be proven wrong every day makes a strange picture of people and what is true. Civilized? I haven’t been thinking mankind is civilized for a long time now. Civilized people do not hurt just because they can.

http://www.huffingtonpost.co.uk/2015/09/20/pakistan-violence-schools-girls-my-law-plan-international_n_8164716.html?utm_hp_ref=ukHe is realistic that it will take years to change a society where “boys are by definition born with authority and virtually given immunity to being corrected”.http://www.huffingtonpost.co.uk/professor-louise-serpell/rosalind-franklin-female-scientists_b_8146848.html
http://www.thedailybeast.com/articles/2015/08/08/the-book-that-shocked-tinsel-town.html?utm_content=bufferc6247&utm_medium=social&utm_source=twitterbfi&utm_campaign=buffer
http://www.middleeasteye.net/in-depth/features/female-guerrilla-fighters-pkk-2044198184“A woman can’t feel free just by pursuing her own individual freedom – she has to struggle for the liberation of all the other women too,” says Rashat. “In the PKK, our main goal is to uproot from the girls’ minds all the misconceptions hailed from male-dominated societies. Women need to find their mental freedom before anything else.””

Drawing is a test which is what makes drawing intimidating, if you think it is a test. If you think it is a method of finding it will be something more. It is evidence of something and unpredictable when it is an unknown practise. Lines don’t always go the way you want. How do you find the perfect line?

Children draw intuitively from the minute they take a pencil in hand after having put pencil in mouth, after having chewed and tasted the tool, after having trashed the paper. To see what those tools do, what can be done with them. When drawing becomes very controlled technique to master or not master and one can become scared of being judged, scared of paper, scared of someone looking because of flaws are there, because results are not impeccable. I guess it is the same with singing. We can be scared of showing our voice and flaws we may make when we let loose our voice. To repeat something seen as it is seen, how does it happen and what do we see? Do we see the same when we do not experience the same? Beauty of hand-drawn mark, image made which is unique, line which is unique, uniqueness is the beauty which machines rarely can achieve. To be scared of making and creating line of your own is to be scared of your uniqueness which is different in comparison to others and think there is something wrong and flawed with your mark and personal voice.

 http://www.blunderbussmag.com/what-happened-fu-manchu/