Is demand for equality absurd? I don’t think it has been. It is perfectly reasonable.

We should demand equal rights, equal treatment, equal pay. It means human rights for all, dignity, which can’t be repeated enough. Does this mean when a woman hits a man with her fist, the man should answer with fists? To me equality is when I feel I am mistreated I can say what I think about it. I have a right to give back and find justice for myself. Answering violence with violence isn’t the kind of equality I seek, balancing the amount of hits and injuries really does not bring happiness in the end. When one is in an underdog position bullied by lots of people without much chance to defend oneself, options may seem scarce. How to find an ally for example in a work place where you are only female, should you really fit in, imitate men, become butch to look tough, agree with everything, say nothing and just do your job? I myself only thought it would be hugely ridiculous for me to try be something I am not just to please others so that nothing would change in the world of men and at the work place where workers usually are men. There is an enormous pressure to fit in at work, at school just as if we did not mature from infancy when we seemingly grow up and become adults. To mature and become wise demand brain work, guidance and will to know more.

Just to add teaming up against one person is probably the most pathetic way of getting back at someone, it is not getting even it is to completely break that one person. To me it has happened several times. It has made me think I truly have something that make people tick. I provoke merely by appearance, by wanting to do things out of the box, being interested in things women maybe are not supposed to or are not normally interested in and just trying out. Yes I also say provocative things which to me are not provocative at all but need to be said. For example I said once at work when I did welding that you should be afraid gays they will attack you with pink tanks. I thought it was funny but it was offensive. Just to say gay is a red cloth for some people and so is woman who welds intimidating. (I am mostly quiet about my views at work to avoid trouble.) Open-mindedness is not common, you know, nor is sense of humour.

http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/uknews/11857210/Lawyer-who-shamed-barrister-over-sexist-LinkedIn-email-believes-men-make-workplaces-a-repugnant-world.html“When women enter the male realm whether law, politics, or a construction site, they find themselves in a repugnant world in which their only means of survival is by undergoing a fundamental transformation leaving them with little opportunity to make any change.” If men and women were truly equal, she said, “men’s genitals would be sliced up” in the same way that some women are subjected to female genital mutilation (FGM).

She added: “Equality is harmful to women and most men, as they are required to replicate behaviours that are degrading and dehumanising.””

Missing girl

Strong moral conviction: what a solid good set of words and not just words but an idea of how to live.

When universities do not seem to hold such conviction, how can society have it, how can every individual have it when society does not? What is place of universities if it is not to educate people the best possible way? If university serves as merit factory, diploma plant without even trying to provide best possible teaching, without obviously knowing what is best possible education there is, what do universities serve? Corporations, individual ambitions? When you have university for morons I understand if students are taught as morons, otherwise I do not accept poor quality from university. Yes you can have a good reputation, if that is a bubble it is short-lived reputation full of air. High standard is the only standard for high education. Anything other pisses me off, especially if I have to learn something what I already know just because it is compulsory. That is wasting my time and money. Surely university should be interested in such not so tiny matter as what their students can do when they enter the school! Also pay attention: it is far more important what the contents is than how things seem outside.
In general strong moral conviction means that we are responsible for our actions to other people, that our actions have consequences and we have to deal with those upcoming consequences. We can’t turn our back’s and think problems as vast as we are facing are problems of those others far away. Something which has happened in history effecting today does not mean it is not our task to make things better and take responsibility for something that clearly has a profound impact today such as colonialism has had. History of entitlement and privilege has not gone anywhere.

 

Menstruation/Kuukautiset, öljypastelli, 76*56cm, 2003

What is intelligence and how are we intelligent?

I ask because it is the main characteristic in humans that people like pay attention to, find and define by measurements of their own which society confirms. What does intellect become to be when it is decided within society without understanding how complex the issue is and what intellect means? What does it mean to have intellect and what to do with it? So far to me conclusions have been insanely absurd and something deep is seen as a blank paper, thin and white. When intellect is measured by looking at someone’s appearance conclusions are to go wrong and the very idea of knowing the brain of anyone is crooked. How are we intelligent and how are we not, the judgment happens in seconds so my conclusion is we know it, we know what is intelligent, what impresses us and what does an intelligent person do. So far those who consider themselves intelligent put other people down because they are the best of the best, intelligence as something of a privilege has a diabolic history for which patriarchy and science are to blame for their part. Men being more clever than women still lives on, adults more clever than children. I must remind you that learning abilities of children beat any adult.
We have to make an impression in a highly demanding task, know how computer works (do you know how computer works? You push the button and surf, log in to fb? You are so clever.), how society works, know without telling, look smart, impress, how to present yourself to belong, say the right things at the right spot, know the right people. We have intelligent everything because if it wasn’t intelligent we would not need it, right? Gossiping is stupid but still it happens frequently: you don’t like her, they don’t like her. Doesn’t sound hugely clever, but as a process it is for its purpose which gossiping serves: to shut certain kind of people out, to make distinction, and it surely makes society. So one can ask in what kind of society do we live? Conduction of thought is a straight line (jumping to conclusions is not something intelligent people do as they must see sides to things and to people) and you trust what that friend of yours says because he/she is a friend the one you trust, buddies on your side against the stupid ones. Stupid ones, you mean losers? Sounds like bullying. I must ask how bullies become teachers? The assumption is teachers have intellect. We like stupid things too even though we are the cream because we like to laugh at the losers. Lack of empathy is clear. It is no wonder our society is dragging in shit. Cream does not mean cream has intellect because it is cream, sadly.
We tend to find groups of people who think the same, do the same things as we do. It is us liking to do what we like and get together. There is a teeny tiny error in the way that idea of bonding appears and closes, stays closed. Bonding with similar minds and friends which in the long run become a pretty large flaw on every level of society. Something trickling down? Well it ain’t money. Similar minds preferring something that stays the same and changes very little as I notice because it is serving. When there is talk about change and progress which there is a lot, I understand you truly wish to make change,,,deep down inside. It is my advice to seek difference, all out of the box. Yes it is scary because you won’t be having your buddies, your safety net. My conclusion about people is quite horrifying and I see it is not wrong at all as very little changes eventually, especially in the arts. Arts the progressive, dear Lord. To have institutions have the power is sadly the interest of art. We live in meritocracy. Institutions gladly give credit to good and capable people, don’t they. It is one reason progress is not happening within the arts, the fame bubble, the privilege and the good you do. Bureaucrats taking credit, dictating what is good and worth while doing, what is art in this, who will be lifted up, who will be silenced. You will stay behind as long as the self-love and self-interest are those most important traits to reach out. This little I have faith in you too.
Fearlessness, ability to brake harmful destructive patterns and curiosity represent intelligence as does kindness of heart to me. Emotional intelligent is actually an extremely important part of being intelligent, finding out intelligence in yourself and in others. This not so minor detail continuously is failing as hard science and technological thinking prevail as the highest intellectual achievement, something to conquer and master. Cold formal behavior is made to represent something that is the very brain of the West and the good within civilization. Following orders, filling up forms, making rules to be obeyed, white wall, lack of emotion, inability to show compassion for someone you do not know. Inability to take and answer to critique is clear sign of masters liking their position too much.
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It is astonishing how backward the world can be and continues to be.

It is a fact that women can be hugely talented and bright. It is sad this has to be stated in this manner for people to believe it and act accordingly. Women have been and are discriminated in science and in art because they are women. It is a tradition that denies the fact that women have capabilities of their own and can be as good and far better than men. Tradition which denies human rights, dignity and full existence of women and girls is doing an awful lot of harm not just for women and girls but to societies as it is now being proved. I myself have experienced this in a fairly civilized country due to many outer traits and due to my gender. I have been seen as weak. It hasn’t made any difference what kind of proof I have displayed of my knowledge and ability, which is astonishing itself. It is as if evidence would not matter, it does not play a role in a world that has set its mind to thinking in a certain way of women like myself. I am of course my best example. It is quite jaw dropping to witness.
http://www.npr.org/sections/goatsandsoda/2015/08/26/434616512/selecting-boys-over-girls-is-a-trend-in-more-and-more-countries?utm_campaign=storyshare&utm_source=twitter.com&utm_medium=social ”And for every missing woman, there is a surplus man who will never establish a family. ”Men are unable to marry,” Hudson says, and frustrated, single men are more likelyget into trouble. ”It leads to instability. In masculinized societies, there are issues such as rising violent crime rates, increasing rates of gang activity and rebel group activity, increasing prostitution and trafficking, and greater constraints on the movement of women.””

As we must know what things, work, life are worth, we somehow do not acknowledge mostly the cost.

What happens when you add the word luxury and luxurious to describe something? There are expectations and dreams. Smell of honey, touch of heaven, access to something few can have, costly in many ways and a culture that is waste itself. As diamonds, cars, houses, furniture, clothes, bags, interiors, travel can be luxurious they are on the expense of nature and human labor. When status of a person is based on what that person owns we live in an upside down world where surface is more important that what is on the inside. Something becomes luxurious when someone with mastering skill and name has made an exquisite piece of design with the best materials possible and has possibility to market his/her items as luxury brand. Luxury is the standard for the super wealthy which those less wealthy desire to have and it is a big business. Question is why do we desire luxury so much and what does expensiveness and spending give extra to a person (do we measure each other by what we can buy, so it seems…), so much so that spending on luxury is more than a whim, it is goal and a sign of happiness of some sort. To have a show off lifestyle and means to buy all one wants is so important to many that not being able to do that can be a shame. The glittering standard to reach out is doing terrible harm in many ways.

Watching entertainment industry which pushes a very specific kind of imagery and story lines, most of which is pure advertising and ’making a living’ via being exposed and creating public persona who uses a look, creates looks which make something to want and be, identify and copy. Gossip, celebrity lifestyle, following, idolizing, noticing even when not following because there is no escape. It is almost impossible to escape the internet, the monster, and wherever TV:s and magazines fill in to our attention in any space. How our attention is monitored, monetized, our clicking makes money for someone, our interest is woken or numbed with sheer nonstop manipulation, overly and fully pumped air and surfaces of fun and something to want. All revolves around money, the news, the gossip, statistics, living, figures, scales, how much and where to reach, not enough or a jackpot. Feeling this and that and why, so confused, attempting to analyse something which is chemical, not matured, inherited pampered yearning to be someone else as we are not good enough. Personal growth is not guaranteed, but that is not actually the kind of growth we are looking for even though it sounds good and is socially acceptable to be good at heart and be against bad things, horrible things. What is socially acceptable then in a world which is in need of constant growth, attention, posing people and world that cannot stand silence, distance, loneliness and awkwardness but wants us to have fun, wants us to demonstrate how much fun we are having and know what is fun. Meaning of fun is to escape when normal life is not fun.

But back again to question of what anything is worth, worth while doing, how things are priced and valued, of which much has to do with media attention and exposure. I personally value a peaceful place to stay and work at, privacy, a good night sleep, closeness of nature and freedom of expression in my art and writing. Do these things have monetary value, are they something money can buy as they are something all should have self-evidently? I do not have much money (that kind of privilege I do not have) and to me things I mentioned are inexpensive or free, so it is difficult to estimate how valuable in money they are, but I would not trade them and when such things we take for granted like nature become polluted and disappearing altogether clean and pure become something only the rich can afford. To define rich is therefore a bit tricky.

There are many ways to be rich. There are many things contemporary people find amusing and fun and the same things I resent. We are rich in wanting more than is possible perhaps, wanting wrong things, ending up with something we didn’t want to end up with. Value of anything is a strange equation and still quite simple, it is difficult to put a finger on it and know why something costs what it does. Difficult  to fully know why something very basic is out of reach for many and is therefore luxurious like clean water, having a bath and living in peace. The cost of a museum franchise has been interesting to follow and learn: this is what a museum of modern art costs and those others are more expensive so it is a kind of bargain. Rhetoric is absurd to the extent that it is clear there is no bargaining, it is not charity, it is simply business. In this line of thought to ask for community funds is pretty weird and adding a kind heart into luxurious world of art where kindness is not an option. Kindness does not exist in business nor in art. As an artist I understand and accept the cost of being an artist, what the art world stands for and what it does I do not accept. What does it do then? As I see it produces luxury items and produces a massive amount of horse shit propaganda. A little taste of luxury.

Infant terrible

She is a she. She must be careful and strain herself. When she does things not permitted for girls she is putting something out of balance and finding stability of her own which is incomprehensible, unsafe and exciting. Norms for girl behavior are very strict, therefore they are fairly simple to break, if one has the nerve to do it and become infant terrible. Punishments will of course be severe, results somewhat expected and the girl will be shut out as she is improper, intolerable, smelly and dirty, always in trouble for testing limits set by adults. In the end all she tests is herself and where she can go with small gestures, small cracks in reality, cracks made by her.

She farts loudly in a restaurant (small farts smell the worst, but bigger farts make a disturbing element in a sophisticated environment). She starts singing in a bus when everyone else is silent, unexpected and clearly retarded. She pours milk on the table and strikes the glass out on the parquet leaving a dent on it. Naughty girl, what is wrong with you. Is that all? It does not take much to become a talking topic. She sees woman on balcony below her and pours water on her head.

Just wondering the amount of stimulation and noise needed to have an impact and get noticed. What is interesting and why.

Yes it is cacophony the media presents before us and why wouldn’t it (should it continue to make it more over the top with stimulus that in the end result is numbing for us to truly understand the insignificance of information today). Interesting is what is left untold, what is marketing and what is abuse of space for selling things, selling lifestyles and junk, what is pushed to our faces for us to adopt the already exploded package. There is no limit because we have to make a living, we have to do something, we have to stay connected and interested in what we are given as well as interesting, we have to stay up to date, know what is going on, what we should be and look like. And still we don’t know what is going on.
How do we define what is good, what is stimulating and interesting content seems to be extremely shallow straight forward line and have a body of well toned entertainer whom all wish to look like, so we work for it at Times Square (vomit freely, this is the place to do it). Thank you. Time well spent.
Madonna’s Trainer Reveals Her Workout Secrets, tick tock time goes by