Buy cinnamon, onions, tofu, apples and ingredients for chocolate cake

Daisy Cutter BLU 82B Commando Vault impact area of a football field
wrote down nucleus vocabulary like justice, God and truth and Daisy Cutter like someone next door.
religious affiliations in God’s country
emanations of reality naturalizing sacred silent language of a bomb

Yellow leaves in yellow trees as a mass against each other
I noticed with my side eye
there was someone standing there next to me
fanciful impulse of hacking and digging, picturing, looking by accident
wind a vertical drum trembling leaves and horsepower for raising ore on a whim.

Poured my clay balls on a nearby bench

Poured my clay balls on a nearby bench

in war.

Revolution is lucrative business. in art. 

This sounds like I don’t believe in making revolution. To change methods of interaction, patterns of thinking and gaining wealth. To change how we gain, what we want to gain, if we gain and what there is to gain. Are we doing things to have it all? Despair is one bottom of the end. Desperate people do anything they can to survive. State of ready to be insane, do hurtful irrational acts, ease the pain to hurt someone else, or get a change to one’s situation by learning to be wiser. Revolution is not a sane situation. Chaos and disorder, why we need that. I claim that what is interesting and tempting revolutionizing anything is the happening, event itself. Radicalism and outlaw qualities appeal. What is forbidden allures, to be against all what is set, letting aggression rule is an easy way. Revolution is an expression.

Hypocrisy is a safety net, a mask to look better than you actually are. It is denial of facts, to do otherwise than you tell to do, should be done, would be good to do. It is more of a normality than obscurity to act hypocritically. It is telling there is much fear of letting you be yourself, to admit your true opinions, your true face, to disagree. Fear of loss is great.

Prejudices stick hard, almost unbelievably tough. To know personally gay people, mentally ill, poor, rich, people of different ethnic backgrounds, different classes, people who think differently, look different, act different etc. is essential in making world more tolerant, therefore ghettos, isolation, divisions keep prejudices alive. For not people to marginalize in an unsatisfactory way left in loneliness they have to do something about prejudices themselves. It is scary to meet people who hate you because you are gay, as it is scary if they hate you being a woman. How would that kind of meeting happen and what would happen? A hate crime or public hugging? Prejudices function strangely in an imagined fantasy world, simplistically focusing on weakness. Working on comparison between those who think are strong to evaluate those who seem weak. Weakness is intolerable still, weaknesses seem easy to spot and strengths are there to be grasped if you are willing to join group of strong and able to, having those abilities required. Groups of those who think are mighty and strengthen their existence as a community. Comparison and division, separation, isolation, it is a familiar behavioral pattern. It is a lonely spot to think differently, but what can you do but be honest with yourself. How honest must one be and how dear a feature honesty is altogether?

Normal and abnormal having a battle in our everyday in us. We go through thinking is that what we do normal and acceptable and try to find ways to preferably stay in that frame of normal and acceptable. In this picture art is very much welcomed as mixing the pack and moving barriers of thinking patterns and ways of seeing. Therefore artists are also seen as dangerous hazardous and suspicious people. They like to think themselves and do as they please, at least some of them since art scene is also regulated and appropriated by rules of proper. Insanity is much of a taboo, but fully with us since we daily face it, like it or not, acknowledge it or not. We define insanity ourselves, what is mad for us, what is a crazy thing to do equals to something you would not do and you disapprove. Or it is hip and outrageous behavior. Go figure. Insanity entails danger in any social scene, art is no exception. Danger of losing face, danger in irrationality and unexpectedness. Art is not free of prejudices, unfortunately. As it seems prejudices go stronger the smaller and isolated the group is. Contemporary art scene has isolated itself very effectively. To say artists are like that has been common enough for me to hear in the arts and outside of it. One problematic issue being ideas of inside and outside of it. What are they like exactly? There is a stereotype of an artist which creates partly the whole scene of arts. If art is strongly divided into an outer part of society what is it for, who does it serve? Prejudices and fascist ideas do not fit my idea of spirit of art nor spirit of equal mankind.

How could art be fascist!?OMG

in speed declaring mental love

It is often heard dichotomy, confrontation between political and personal. It is to say personal is political, a common phrase to use, it is also true. My choices in everything make politics not only by voting and educating myself, but by what I consume, how I choose to live, eat, drink, travel, see, listen, watch.  Everything comes up from making political decisions of what is safe, good, correct, profitable, good for economy, good for our nation, what is good for us to do in order to live in an organized society. But it is common to think politics does not concern, touch, interest or they, who do politics are not interested, concerned or touched by lives of ordinary citizens.
Emotional landscapes we inhabit, which we make, we have and how we notice them, invaded emotional spaces and which emotions are there for us to sense, why are they there for us, why do we have feelings at all if we are unable to use them or are they to use selectively. Do we inhabit emotions at all, maybe emotions are rare precious things we cannot afford anymore other than instant ecstatic thrills and chills called experiencing, sudden bursts which we go hunting to avoid boredom, loneliness, not to face ourselves, not to face the everyday of someone nor mine nor anyone’s
 

Speed of change, there is a time for change is a phrase, phrasing as framing, it is settling, maybe an effort to find crystallized truth and meaning and explanation of what happens, what might happen and why. Timing, what happens with timing, in time, in waiting, in lining up, in hurry, speed that media brings in our lives, speed of pictures, speed of events, speed of a runner. Speeding, measuring, comparing at work.

Blue-haired Grand petite called Salvador Nebula. I don’t know who he is.

Horses fucking on a yard, they steam. Bear bare le jardin.
I will be back as soon as I can. I can’t stand to watch.
Mischiefvous,
ambiquous and nefarious dissent that is who he is, someone
yelled on the phone, delusional

Hierarchy by machinery, interconnected electronic components – How violence manifests itself (in our everyday lives just like that)

Violence, to cause violence knowingly, not knowingly, inflict pain deliberately is to be bad, wanting to be bad, to feel bad and ill aggression and adrenaline in your veins and bones must be a powerful feeling, hate, loath, contempt, power in them, it is suffering itself, not knowingly and knowingly is either stupidity, incapability to understand the effects of one’s actions, to put oneself in position of the other, to give a damn, how could that happen. Violent behavior is a learned way to solve life, to solve other people, to solve problems, to see life in violent way is to see only problems.

Violence is a pattern of blindness towards good, blind aggression, blind desire for power.

In this violent simplistic solving one creates more violence. If we are not able to forgive and forget, what do we get. Which acts are violent in the very meaning of hurt? A look, talk, judgment. We can begin to understand violence when we look at ourselves and that we are hurt. Stepping on an ant is killing that ant. There are so many of them how could killing it be avoided? Some sweep their way gently in order to avoid killing bugs since they may be ancestors who have got ants body. Spirit is more important than body, spirit that moves, circulates in the universe, in cosmos over and over again changing form seeking enlightenment. What is violence in this picture of spirits? Punishments of god, what has happened to you in your past lives, what did you do during those past lives. Were you good or bad towards other beings? Of course if you believe.