He asked if I had gone any further. How far do you want me to go? What do you think I should find? Is it something particular?
I try to measure every word and I realize it is not enough, because then I am not me, but trying to please someone else.
art
Precious things
Speed of change, speed of time, there is a time capsule in change, my time in every moment. I have no time. Waiting it to happen, saying, phrasing what it is one wants to change. Framing to tell we have no other alternative. It is settling and alarming at the same time, maybe an effort to find crystallised, a meaning and explanation of what happens, what might happen and why. Timing, what happens with timing, in time, in waiting, in lining up, in hurry, in speed which media and civilization bring to our lives. Speed of pictures, speed of events, speed of a runner, speed of a shutter, speed of changing clothes. Speeding, measuring, comparing, working, staying put.
Spreading scent of perfume odor sprinkled too much to feel someone passing like foul smells of fat of loath of leather of floating of an aftershave of milk of sleeping in a world of smells in your nose and the living stench.
Mein Führer is an aftershave for people who
Juna-asemalta löytynyt viesti! Nyky-yhteiskuntamme lahtarit eli valkoiset eli kuinka heitä kuvailisi. Lahtari on hiukan vanhahtava termi, toisaalta ajaa vielä asiaansa. Lahtaustyyli vaan on enempi piilossa mutta yhtä kylmä ja laskelmoiva. Vaikeammin osoitettavissa kuin 1900-luvun alun yhteiskunnassamme.
Nyky-Suomen suunta kenties vai jatkuuko riisto nostamalla hintoja, potkimalla köyhiä, syyllistämällä duunareita kun eivät kestä muutoksen kelkassa. Onko Suomi radikalisoitumassa? Syyllisten etsiminen on ikuisuusprojekti. Kuinka syylliseksi kukin itsensä tuntee tämän hetkisessä tilanteessa mitä tulee ympäristöasioihin, eläinten suojeluun, heikompien kohteluun ja talouslamaan ja kuka tilannetta seuraa. Kuinka perillä asioista ihmiset keskimäärin ovat ja tietoisia kuka maailmaa johtaa ja kuinka. On helppo syyttää näkymätöntä lahtaria ja pankkiiria kun minusta vaikuttaa siltä että lahtareita on joka kadun kulmalla. Kuka lahtaa ja ketä?
How are we the same? What is the same? Why do you seek similarity? Why do you want to be safe with people like yourself?
When does desire begin? As we are needy from the beginning. Are need and desire the same? Feeling guilty for having desired, for being desired.
What is belief, what is devotion, what is the will to live.
Essential problematic of living is how one despite difficulties, heartache and other turmoil brought upon most everybody, one is capable of finding possibilities within oneself? I can speak for myself. Despite what anybody says you alone must know what you want to do, you must learn to know who you are.
I have consciously learned to be in every moment not looking for the next moment like living the future as now, but living the now as worth while happening and learned to appreciate this moment. And why is this important?
Funfair
I had a thought, couple of words. It was perfect couple of words.
and now and now and now and now and now and now and now and now and now and now and now and now and now and now and now and now and now and now and then I started to feel anxious and I said I am sorry I am sorry I am sorry I am sorry I am sorry I am sorry I am sorry I am sorry I am sorry I am sorry I am sorry I am sorry I am sorry I am sorry I am sorry I am sorry I am sorry I am sorry to explain what this is, I probably should, it is when you repeat a couple of words multiple times out loud they begin to sound something else and you see the letters in your mind and begin to wonder what do they mean and what does it actually mean when I repeat what I just repeated
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