Self, 2013,2018

Heart condition

Conditions of heart, conditions of human heart, conditions of animal heart, nature which is conflicted in humans, beats in different volume and speed depending on body weight. Breathing and beating of heart are connected. A bird’s heart can beat. A bird’s heart can beat in a way as it flies through life fast and drops dead. Once you have held a scared bird, the bird is the heart. Secrets of the heart, of a heart, from my heart, the bottom of my heart, kindness of heart, you have a beautiful heart, to see someone’s heart, to replace a heart with another heart, black heart, ripped off a heart, heart surgeon doing her job, playing with my heart, out of a good heart, bless your heart, big heart big big big.

Do people suffer more than animals? Is heart a symbol of not suffering or suffering in a way it makes you grow as a person? A burning heart, a passionate organ metaphorically, there is strange connection between feeling and a muscle, blood and boiling, the pounding one, pumping, beating orderly, kicking on its own. I don’t have to think about it unless it gets sick. Conditions like not having one, having heart selectively, heart symbolizing warmth. Heart of glass, heart of gold, heart of steel, no heart, heart of a dog, her heart is strong, heart is in the right place. Heart of flame, to break a heart, a heart to break, heart attack, heart failure, heartache.

Heart condition

ever widening maw

Food of France, a blend at hotel FountaineBleau in Miami at sunrise. Arrange her, her open yawn, a complaint I could see down her throat, reddish and hear a voice. How to arrange something,  something locked away, something grown to squeak in the uncomfort and disability of contemporary womanhood. Horrified, please stop. Sunglasses. Original attractive unpowered without a change, so loud homogeneity, carefully crafted, commitment to the kind of planning, please send us your very best words, washing quantities humming alone.

2000

Some torture/Obsession – Naisen kahdet kasvot.

Obsession – Naisen kahdet kasvot

Pyydämme ystävällisesti teitä palauttamaan tai uusimaan myöhässä olevat lainanne. Myöhästymismaksujen lisäksi perimme muistutuksen postituskulut. Myöhästymismaksut kertyvät päivittäin eräpäivän jälkeen siihen saakka, kunnes lainat palautetaan tai uusitaan. Tämä palautuspyyntö on aiheeton, jos lainat on jo palautettu tai uusittu.

Oh, Sensuela.

Oh Sensuela.

Only my irrational need to sense, sensibility and sentences. Slim moments of beauty. Grasping all of them. For those who take pleasure from flesh, pleasures of flesh really so rare, though we seek it constantly to have seconds of thrill. Hold it, keep it, till it has passed so quickly. Another one and another, like drops of something to drink dripping. Something has gone waste, the most of it.

Portrait of a missing, pencil on paper, 2015

breathe, in order to have faith in to this interrogation of present of delinquency

Fear guides me, that is what I trust. Battle that cannot be won, but it has to be fought. Deliberate subversion unraveled with such speed. Enraged, cloudy, earthly, muddy, dark, behind and under, in 

experiencing historical ontology of me, of ourselves, of that other I see and don’t, verifying existence via cruelty, inner must of terror which drives me. Fear that keeps me going. Abomination, afraid when 

afraid always, keeping me alert, a pulled string, pulling.

 

Kalle hearts Minna

Opening

Say something brilliant.

aha aha

2008

Strategy Tegystra tactics tic

Strategy Tegystra Tactics tic 
January 16th, 2013 

cat act tic tac itc cit tci tci tci where is it leading?
Choose your favorite syllable and repeat it in a tempo chosen as you wish.
Ok. I’m ready.
or..not at all. It goes on and on unfinished.
Say syllables out loud on a wasteland, in front of it, after having walked over it. Say
repeat constantly
while walking standing thinking them how to say them looking up to the sky shout out loud syllables how they go gaps in between, pauses, tactics
inventing teg ASTRA TRA TRA TRA
stra stra gyte change order of the letters.
What sense does it make? What new views it opens? To tear words apart. How do you feel when you repeat these syllables? 

Halki

HALKI

Rautainen telttasänky, kokoontaitettuja sanomia, hylkiö, mehiläisiä vintillä tai muita ääniä. Ajattelin, kuinka sellainen pieni Buddha-patsas uppoaisi hankeen, jos sen kuumentaisi. Seisoin hiljaa nousevalle ajatukselle ja höyrylle. Nojailen sängynreunalla, peitossa on tulppa ja liuennutta saippuaa, oksaisessa kävelykepissä pistin, leivänmuruja, rakoja lattiassa.

Juovat sydämen alkoholissa siellä jossakin, aukaisevat käärmeen ja ottavat sen (pienen) kuin aarteen. Näin tv:stä. Tänään kävelin lumen peittämää tietää, lunta tippui lintujen jaloista, minun tanssahteleva tieni. Vastaani tuli poika, joka oli pukeutunut kevyesti. Tuli kylmä, kun näin hänet vähissä vaatteissa. Hänen pieni koiransa juoksenteli vapaana joka paikkaan, tiellä jossa auton jälkiä.

Se, mitä minulla on haljenneena,
halkaisin itse.

Jätin pöydälle sanomalehden viereen, en ehtinyt muutahörppäsin lasista ja ryntäsin pysäkille.