Angel baby

Dear diary, my hair.

Suosi suomalaista!

Voisiko sanoa että isänmaallinen ihminen rakastaa Suomea eli hän pitää Suomesta, haluaa kehittää Suomea, ylläpitää suomalaista kulttuuria ja kieltä. Voiko isänmaallisuutta mitata ja vertailla millainen isänmaallisuus on parempaa ja arvokkaampaa, vertailla kenen kannalta ja kenen hyväksi? Voi ajatella että ihminen joka on töissä valtiolla tekee isänmaallista työtä, tavallaan palvelee palkkaa vastaan valtiota ja sen ihmisiä. Näin oletan Suomessa vielä olevan, että ihmisiin jotka toimivat viroissa voi luottaa, ja että he tekevät parhaansa, etenkin tietävät mikä on maan ihmisille parhaaksi ja toimivat sen mukaan, eivät omien mieltymystensä ja etujen mukaan.

Monenlaiset epäonnistuneilta näyttävät liiketoimet joita valtio on harjoittanut ja keittoja joita isänmaallisina pidetyt suomalaiset yritykset keittävät edelleen luovat harmaan varjon muuten kovin vauhkon, uskollisen ja uskonnollisen isänmaallisuuden päälle. Jääkiekkoasu päällä ei kerro ihmisen todellisesta isänmaallisuudesta paljoakaan, eikä isänmaallisuutta poseeraamalla synny, ei sellaista uskoa kansaan ja kansalaisuuteen joka ylläpitäisi vahvaa identiteettiä ja luottamuksen tunnetta että selviämme yhdessä ja että meissä on voimaa, edelleen. Välillä on sellainen tunne että laiva on uppoamassa, uhkakuvia maalaillaan kovin tiuhaan ja niin mustina, että muualta tulevat pelottavat asiat vievät kaiken huomion. Ehkä niin on tarkoituskin, tarkoitus ei ole kasvaa suomalaisina vaan pysyä iänikuisesti samanlaisina epäluuloisina örrinkäisinä, englantia puhumattomina juntteina, jurpottajina ja helposti kauhistuvina pienessä lämpimässä piirissä supisijoina jotka eivät uskalla sanoa poikkipuolista sanaa. Sellaista suomalaisuutta minä en kannata enkä halua. Haluan edelleen pitää Suomesta ja nimenomaan sellaisena joka on utelias uudelle, omintakeinen, luontokeskeinen, avoin ja kekseliäs.

Minulle isänmaallisuutta on luonnonsuojelu, lapsuuteen ja nuoriin panostaminen, sitä että pidetään huolta. Huolenpito ei vain lähimmäisistä vaan myös ympäristöstä joka on iso osa suomalaisuutta. Osa suomalaisuutta on se kuinka rakennetaan ja tällä hetkellä se on huolestuttavan yksitotista ja yllätyksetöntä. Suomalaisuutta voi pohtia kun katsoo marketteja ja virastorakennuksia, jotka ovat saapuneet ja syöpyneet kaupunkimaisemaan lähtemättömästi kuin mitään ei olisi enää tehtävissä. Apatia osin johtuu siitä tunteesta, että koetaan kuin mitään ei voi tehdä markkinavoimien edessä, asiat vain  tapahtuvat. Rakennuksia vain rakennetaan sellaisiksi kuin joku viisaampi ja tietävämpi on päättänyt. Ilman meteliä asiasta näin varmasti tapahtuu, ilman että joku ääneen ihmettelee ja kyseenalaistaa miksi tehdään kuten tehdään. Ilmeisesti suurin osa suomalaisista on tyytyväisiä siihen mitä näkevät, koska en ole huomannut suurta kansalaisliikehdintää markettien ylivoimaa vastaan tai vastustusta rakennusurakoitsijoiden tapaa vastaan rakentaa samantyylisiä ylihinnoiteltuja blokkeja joka paikkaan ja edullisia vuokra-asuntoja kovin harvakseltaan, jos ollenkaan. Elementtityyli ilmeisesti viehättää suomalaisia, kuten halvat tuontitavarat, valkoinen ja musta ja halvempi työvoima. Tähän asti kovasti on ollut sellainen ajatus että kaikki parempi tulee ulkomailta ja meidän tulee apinoida sitä mitä muualla tehdään koska se on itsestäänselvästi parempaa, isoa, hienoa, upeata ja grandea, etenkin kallista. Kuten esimerkiksi ydinvoimala jonka uraani suinkaan ei tule Suomesta, tai museo jonka vallan upea brändi houkuttelee risteilymatkustajia konsultin mukaan varsin mukavasti, eli ei meillä ole mitään hätää, kun on näin fantastista isänmaallisuutta täällä Suomessa ja olemme niin kovin hyväuskoisia ja luottavaisia siihen, että ulkomailta tulee se parempi vaihtoehto. En tiedä, kuinka paljon ulkomaisia työläisiä rakennusmailla käytetään, mutta veikkaan että hyvin paljon. Se siitä isänmaallisuudesta. Suosi suomalaista on tainnut unohtua, kuten kestävä kehitys ja että läheltä voi löytyä ratkaisu isoihinkin ongelmiin kun tosissaan halutaan ratkaisu löytää. Lähiruoka ja Suomessa valmistetut tavarat joutuvat edelleen puolustamaan paikkaansa ja taistelemaan halvempien kanssa. Molemmat olisivat ekologisesti että talouden kannalta erinomaisia vaihtoehtoja. Tällä hetkellä tahtotilaa ratkaista ongelmat Suomea suosien ja tulevaisuus huomioon ottaen ympäristöystävällisesti ei ole löytynyt. Tyypillistä suomalaista itsensä vähättelyä ja liikemiesmäistä vähäjärkisyyttä jossa ainoa jolla on merkitystä on miltä asiat näyttävät ja mitä sillä tienaa löytyy yllin kyllin.

Isänmaallisuus on ihmisten hyvinvoinnin puolella, ei vain osan ihmisistä vaan kaikkien. Se ei vähättele omaa maataan eikä kanssakansalaisiaan. Syttyykö valo vai ei, sopii toivoa. Töitä ymmärryksen eteen on tehtävä, koska ihmiset jotka päättävät asioista eivät ilmeisesti ymmärrä oman maansa parasta kuten eivät kuluttajatkaan. Kannattaa kuluttaa vähemmän ja ostaa laadukkaampaa. Esimerkiksi ydinvoimaan satsaaminen tahi mihin tahansa katastrofin ainekset omaavaan energiamalliin panostaminen on umpikuja ja kallis sellainen. Pelkkä ajatus siitä kuinka hirveä rahakasa on tuhottu yhteen ydinvoimalaan saa voimaan pahoin. Millaisesta suomalaisuudesta ja identiteetistä energia- ja rakennuspolitiikkamme kertoo on karua kalkkia. Teemme voitonmaksimoinnin kustannuksella suuria päätöksiä jotka maksavat veronmaksajat ja luonto. Suomalaisuutta on se ettemme pysty muuttamaan teko- ja ajattelutapojamme niin nopeasti kuin olisi tarpeen. Epäilemme, vastustamme ja jahkaamme. Välillä vastustamme vastustamisen vuoksi. Emme pysty muuttamaan elintapojamme, koska pidämme niitä ainoina oikeina ja jääräpäisesti pitäydymme niissä, koska meidän ei voi todistaa olevan väärässä ja se joka yrittää on hullu tai muuten vain pelkkä uhka joka on eristettävä. Se mikä meitä uhkaa on tuo joku joka yrittää kertoa että on parempia tapoja elää ja ne säästävät luonnonvaroja, energiaa, tuovat työtä ja hyvinvointia. Kovin on ilmeinen uhka. Itsensä muuttaminen voi olla isänmaallinen teko ja muuttumattomuus isänmaan pahin uhka. Suurin uhka näyttäisi olevan suomalaisille ja suomalaisuudelle suomalaiset itse. Kannattaa valita viisaasti kun valintoja tekee, teemme päivittäin useita kymmeniä pieniä valintoja jotka vaikuttavat elämäämme.

Sketch for a blow job

blow me

End of poetry is end of man. Use of power, power we have, force we do not have and how we claim it, tools in use.

What kind of power do we have and how we use it is always the very basic issue to discuss and question. Those who have a lot of power may not like being questioned and even less if their power is taken or lessened away from them. Power corrupts has proven to be true, power does weird things to people. It is intoxicating to see how one can move and mold other people and their lives. It gives a self-assurance that one is above for a good reason, is able and capable, potent and noteworthy to have a say over, to rule, to lead, to dictate. How powerful do we feel and what kind of people do we see as weaker than or more than is due to what kind of values we have, what kind of acts are accepted as usage of power in a good way. What is this good kind of power as power has a negative echo? Power of love versus power of lovelessness, power of music vs. power of absolute noise could be interesting oppositions to study and effects of those in people and their behavior, moreover what is accomplished by having power over people since some are those who lead and they have to know how to. What do we want by power is probably the most important issue to look into and how we feel powerful. It depends on so many ’tiny’ details how the power of self builds up so that it is worth paying attention to individually and in a group. Domination, subjugation, segregation, division, bullying, how people are spoken to and how they respond, how we take our place within or are we left outside. Feeling of powerlessness is reason to be concerned because people should have feeling of having certain amount of power, understanding that one can do something to change oneself and situations in life and in society. When we lack this feeling and when a large amount of people have the same inadequacy and negative view to reality that nothing can be done to change things it is a serious matter of concern and deprivation of human value, human condition which should not be as such an oppressive nor oppressed state.
To feel powerful, empowered, is an essential existential human experience. It is like feeling good about yourself, listened to and appreciated. When we do not feel we have power over anything we become desperate, sad, angry, hateful, bitter, or better yet try and find a solution to change the situation. Best way to start is with yourself: what can you do and what do you want to learn to do. How do we come to understand power, find power within and calculate what kind of power we personally possess is valuable and is an interesting conduct of thought, a process and years long experience. Experience of having seen how power is used, what it does, how to get attention, make a reaction, make something wanted happen and repeat the desired act to get the same result or make a chain reaction. Power to heal, to help, to speak, to defend, power to manipulate, power to know and teach. When all action is in use of power of some kind how do we measure power of ours and decide weight of power used? We must have civil understanding of what is good and what is bad, wrong and right. What kind of results our use of personal power has had and what are the things to be corrected. If there are very little results or none at all despite our all constant efforts and push what can be said of power in use or forces one is up against? Are there more factors to be taken into consideration? We can be exhausted by having used our energy in doing something or having been pushed aside or violently handled by authorities or anybody. Power needs tools, force is created by multitude, decision and energy is something one person can have.

We use a lot of power even though we may think we do not. We also deliberately abuse power to become more powerful compared to others to have position, status of a powerful to become memorable and significant, meaningful, rich and noted members of society to live well. We often times don’t have to think about using power, having used power or having power in every day until we do not have it, until we are stepped over, silenced and exploited. When we are to be killed, vanished and doomed to non-existence. To have power begins organically out of making oneself, growing up bigger and learning what one can do, what one can think, think of doing and saying and then putting those ideas into action.

Power used over people especially women can go like this: She is stupid, she is crazy, she is arrogant, she is boring, she is weird, she is uninteresting, she is silent, she is distant, she is a jerk, she is religious, she is a believer, she is a nerd, she is an angel, she is kind, she is tacky, she a bad dresser, she is a bad artist, she is invisible, she is untalented, she is quite good, she is incompetent, she is ok, she is old, she is young, she is ugly, she looks wrong, she is a whore, she is unreliable, she is fun, she is tall, she is too short, she wears too much makeup, she dresses like a tart, she is unemployed, she is lazy, she is poor, she is greedy, she is jealous, she is bitter, she is a drunk, she is a drug addict, she is prude, she is rude, she is an exhibitionist, she is pervert

on and on the things given for her to be and she becomes a fabrication by people a person and a tragedy continued by people who hear this story about her and feel better than she is. When these adjectives and characteristics mold her within it is no wonder there is a rejection and an image that is almost impossible to alter because her word is not worthy and she has been seen drunk and badly dressed. It does not make any difference what she says or does when experts have spoken and witnessed her state. In expert society anybody can be an expert who is trained especially. Experts speak in a specific way and are well connected. They have power and they are believed in as they are legitimated by authorities, accomplishments, friends, places and institutions. Their word is trusted until it is proven wrong and expert loses face. Losing face is in expert circles the worst thing that can happen. 

You might also say that she is easy, she is uncomplicated, she is strange, she is vicious, she is bad mouthed, she is black-hearted, she is devious, she is malicious, she is cunning, she is dullSo you see it is not insignificant what you let out of your mouth and how you see other people. Yea there are experts you know.

Cult of genius (go wax your balls or something)

Giant, great, unique thinker, not usually small, fragile, insignificant or female but big, self-assure and male. Genius has something to do with Western success, dominance, power, knowledge, fame and obsession, adoring and idolizing. Idol who is someone special above the rest, someone who has special skills, abilities and way to present oneself in specific manner. Exceptional character who seeks to find perfection tirelessly, and truth, find something invisible which is and has been beyond most people to imagine and see. Impossible made possible, genius an exceptional person lifted up who has been able to reveal a new way of making, thinking and seeing, something unseen, unheard, unconventional, unimaginable, unsolvable and revolutionary. To be genius means one has to be creative, do creative work and go over limits that society has set. That maybe is not enough. To go further, go far and find the simplest solution usually on your own. It is a manifestation of power of one individual. One can do something new and innovative without being a genius. It has to be declared. Genius the personality trait as it is something we know when we think about it is something scary still. There is a thin line between crazy and genius, intellectual superiority that is almost too much for human brain to tolerate. What cult of genius expects is a freak of nature.
It is usually status given by experts who identify and acknowledge, have evaluated and recognized work of a genius. To declare oneself genius is a sign of lack of humility and modesty. Placing oneself somewhere where it is almost impossible to go but one has to take the step of doing so without shame for it. Who dares to challenge this person, who dares to say such a thing? No one but a full-blown narcissist, self-obsessed lunatic and megalomaniac. Success and being noticed is part of the cult, of course. One of a kind mastermind who know worth of oneself. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Genius_(mythology) Genius has spirit, divine guidance and protection so it is not false to speak about cult or religion in the context of genius. Must be due to Christianity genius has become to embody a man, man’s ability to think, do, invent and master.
https://broadly.vice.com/en_us/video/artist-marilyn-minter-is-pretty-dirty I have placed this interview of Marilyn Minter here because she refers herself to being a genius, a genius who creates something extraordinary, genius an exceptional thinker, a mind analytically and intellectually superior. What other would you say when you are asked are you a genius? First of all one has to have a lot of balls to give such a statement and yet what a banal thing to say. Is genius a bumper sticker? Interesting is how cult of genius seems to be a very American phenomenon. What kind of intellect is American genius about and is their criticism in Minter’s statement towards the royalty of intellect which is close to pop culture? How intellect manifests itself in a genius and in society today when anyone can be a genius?

 

 

All male panel on how to become a woman. Best of Pussy. You create yourself.

Also men having an expert conversation on menstruation is one I would like to go and listen to.

How does one become a woman, to become part of a gender that is specific, recognizable, is to know what are the things people of that gender do and what they look like, are about. What are women about then? The problem of being part of a pure idea, a perfect ideal to live by can be binding, womanhood which is controlled and firmly obedient to tradition. Obedience is strongly expected of young women as it is for children. Women who act against the rules have something wrong with them. There is something wrong with her, she is not right, she is trouble, she is wild, she is a warning sign. Women who do not fit in, do not fill up given criteria, do not appeal, please and do right are punished, silenced, killed, abandoned, isolated, stigmatized etc. Means are many and they are in use all over the world. Men do the talking for women, have opinion on women’s issues, lives, looks, decisions, education, rights and prohibitions.

One becomes a woman realizing there are fewer options for women than for men. She understands she is not allowed to do the same things as men are, she utterly sees how different her life is compared to men and it is very difficult to change that situation. This is one way to womanhood, comprehending it. To be a woman is to learn to defend oneself, defend children, defend childhood, take care of others, be emotional, be what you are expected to be and still be more, do otherwise than you are expected, do what you want to do and face the consequences. Caring, kind, speaking softly, not speaking, not daring, avoiding dark alleys, strangers, avoid stigma of any kind, or you can have your own way and face the consequences.

A never-ending mirroring of your body and image. Hey beautiful how are you feeling?
First you get yourself a pair of tits, you start to think about how you feel, how transformation made you feel from girl to a woman from man to a woman. You are not happy the way you look, you are not happy who you are? You feel bad, you feel good. You are an emotional body figuring out how to be a woman and what a woman does.
You think are your breasts big enough and how they look, how they should look and whose breasts you idolize and think look good and sexy, how your belly looks and is it flat enough. Images in your head. Are you legs long and firm enough, how much skin can you show, how your ass looks and can you wear tight clothing. What kind of response do you want from those who look at you and are you interested in what other people think. How depended women are on other people’s opinion and judgment?

Anything and anyone who seek to abolish the so-called art world is welcomed by me.

Anything and anyone who seek to abolish the so-called art world is welcomed by me.

Some torture