rough rough rough rough rough rough rough rough, it’s as if dog was barking for hours with no end, no change in tone, me thinking how long will it last and what does it want. Does it belong to anybody?
Rough rough rough disgust, boredom
disturbance and irritation to get used to, to feel no pain by it, to let the disturbing angst go by letting those little things not get you. Thinking the possible sadness of a dog.
Kuukausi: lokakuu 2014
Daily photos
Measuring temperature with hand on one’s forehead for a minute. It tells me something. How accurate it is if my head is hot and my hand is cold.
What to do on green grass?
Roll over light optimism as expected, as taken for granted
light of optimism the night of when I am interested in the light of the truth that lying on grass brings: Truth a carefully weight bearable word to be carried
not more nor less, new grass, always new and fresh, tended similarly everywhere
word no more no less, grass, color of it does something to your mind.
Light of Truth. What is really crazy.
People who are afraid to stand under it, because it reveals them as they are. Liars who defend themselves telling whatever lies they desire to look as they wish, wanting to be adored and favored in this strange light of theirs, invented, manipulated reality. This is the humankind, another thing is how to survive it. Does one have to become similar to liars and better at lying. Does one have to close one’s eyes and be silent even injustices happen all the time. In fear we tend to do that, in our pride. Afraid of being bullied and isolated, afraid of being seen how small we can be. Cowards act like that. They do not do what is right and just, they hold on tightly to what is theirs even it was a lie. Obedient comfort seekers do what is expected of them, they close their eyes, they pretend and lie hoping nothing bad will come upon them. (but Let’s hope together we will make this world a better place! yes hope…) Bullying society continues as it ever was, because most of us are unable to confront themselves and the bullshit they do. Sounds like corruption to me. People liking their nice comfort and buddies liking each other in a perfect bubble. Stupidest thing is that people enjoy this double standard. They like being two-faced. It keeps them safe.
People like to lie, tell lies and most of us like to believe in lies, because that is easy, it is part of the survival and making it. We listen to stories about people we do not know and believe them, condemn the people whom we do not know, we do it because we can and it makes us look ’better’ and condemnation justified.
One has to become good at mind games, knowing how people think, what can be said aloud and when move with the crowd. How to find truth in this kind of world is difficult, difficulty begins when one cannot stand the lies anymore, hypocrisy, pure sinister greed and stupidity. To find people who are trustworthy, truthful in their words and deeds, who do not do things to gain the most respected things money, friends and status. To find truth and stick with it can be unbearably hard, one can end up alone. There is truth in that position. Alone. My truth is not your truth. Your ways of doing are not those of mine. So what is my truth to you? What is a truth teller to you, the one who questions you, makes you feel guilty and uncomfortable?
It is important to all the time question first oneself, always yourself. Question the establishment, question the authorities, ask them why they do what they do and what kind of values do they hold most important in their work.
What is to be good as a human?
Putting a woman to her place, a flower on palm of your hand, a flower a flower a flower a flower a flower a flower
How it happens? Women are kept in fear, in fear of losing appreciation, fear of losing dignity, of friends, of any kind of positive thing in one’s life. Kept in fear of losing ’love’. ”Because you did not do as we requested you won’t have this”. Sadism of it is disgusting. I have been wondering the teenage mentality of adults. It is easy to stay on the level of preschool cruelty and enjoy bullying, The same ’adults’ are telling those who still are in their teens how it is a bad thing to bully. ”Don’t you bully now.” Even writing about this feels stupid. Because saying it out loud is stupid and telling.
Place of a woman is inactive, isolated, undeveloped, pleasing, traditional underdog position. I am bad because I refuse that place. But I was naturally born bad deserving tough love in order to make it into what it is to be a woman in contemporary world.
Meaning of struggle
There must be a meaning, but to find a meaning and a life does not mean struggle is the only way. That it is the only thing to make us grow and understand the meaning of living, ways of doing and existing. Yes to see effort, pain and work to accomplish and have something I think is essential, it is unavoidable when making something lasting and worth while. It does not mean that via struggle and constant battle we should find our path. There are those who make it even through the toughest most difficult things imaginable. Then there are the most who maybe barely make their living, for whom every day is a fight to survive.
This is exactly the equation I do not comprehend, the amount of wealth, amount of extremely wealthy people and how much they own, how well this wealth benefits society, how wealthy nations over and over like to see that survival of the fittest is a good way to make politics, tend people’s businesses, affairs and lives. Money that there is does not benefit those who need it most and that is children. Education, health care, security, future prospects that look hazy and dim seem to be in many countries somewhat a similar kind of mess that continue to be unsolved. Yes we like hero stories and survivors, but I’d rather see much wiser heroic deeds done by politicians, people who decide how nations are run. If it is them who run countries. Those who take money from education and health care will keep this situation of struggle on going.
Wanna see my teeth?
This is my gun. I wish it was bigger. Experiment number 4.
instant bench
Society is afraid of loners, loners that it makes. They are seen as losers as we are divided into winners and losers. What is there to win depends on what we appreciate.
When you bully someone and that someone attacks you, it probably was not what you expected was it. I encourage people to learn to defend themselves. When somebody hits me, I hit back and it very possibly hurts. Still it is not to take a life as bullies want to do themselves. They are the extreme violators and in need of help.
Do you see in the dark?
It gets mighty dark among people as they do not see themselves, or if they see themselves, are what they want to be and like their image, it is a pretty fucked up picture. What happens when people have an object value only? When our world becomes webbed with help of technology, becomes more and more abstract and hidden, more and more we think we are cleverer than we are, groups of those geniuses support each other doing the same thing and looking for mastering of other people. Mastering people takes masters of technology. What kind of gangs of people rule our spaces? Who gave them power over spaces all people are free to use? What kinds of assets and skills are appreciated, what kind of characters and personalities? They are usually the loud ones, who seek attention and appreciation within their group.
My theory is that these men and boys who do cyber bullying do not have much contact with women, do not know different kinds of women, do not want to know. For them woman is an image with few dimensions. An image that is done and closed up without any change, without variety, without any other meaning than to please silently and pose. These males come from a world of chauvinism, sexism and tradition thinking they are funny, intelligent, righteous and manly. They are appreciated as they are continuation to tradition of being men.
Within their group they may seem strong, alone they are nothing which is a strange contradiction in image of appreciation they may be in. Hiding behind fake names anonymously is a coward act itself. That is the manhood of theirs, fear of losing it. They game in a way they can nothing but win, which is in a group anonymously. Greatest fear is to be beaten by a woman, a woman who has more skills than they do. This is very clear as men want to be on top to manifest their manhood. It is no surprise that women have to be better than men on any field.
For such men woman is merely a sex object, typically stereotypical, child-like, incapable. A repetition of a repetition, just like Hollywood film and mainstream entertainment want to show women over and over again, as needy and weak, overly sexual sub-beings, who are still contradictory demons not to be trusted, wicked and evil. In this kind of culture woman is something to take over and rule, tame to be obedient. To actually face a woman as equal or superior would be losing strength, losing an old ideology that has prevailed too long. Ideology of place of a woman and use of a woman is now to be changed. Woman is still used and treated as she has no will of her own, therefore it is a shock in a community when there are women who act up, use, speak up, make and do regardless of do they get respect and are they acknowledged or not. Such women need to exist for culture to change. Women need to do what they wish, not what other people wish they’d do.
Yes fear of violence keeps women in place. I hope women would learn to be fearless and stand up for themselves. Do it now!
My theory is that these men and boys who do cyber bullying do not have much contact with women, do not know different kinds of women, do not want to know. For them woman is an image with few dimensions. An image that is done and closed up without any change, without variety, without any other meaning than to please silently and pose. These males come from a world of chauvinism, sexism and tradition thinking they are funny, intelligent, righteous and manly. They are appreciated as they are continuation to tradition of being men.
Within their group they may seem strong, alone they are nothing which is a strange contradiction in image of appreciation they may be in. Hiding behind fake names anonymously is a coward act itself. That is the manhood of theirs, fear of losing it. They game in a way they can nothing but win, which is in a group anonymously. Greatest fear is to be beaten by a woman, a woman who has more skills than they do. This is very clear as men want to be on top to manifest their manhood. It is no surprise that women have to be better than men on any field.
For such men woman is merely a sex object, typically stereotypical, child-like, incapable. A repetition of a repetition, just like Hollywood film and mainstream entertainment want to show women over and over again, as needy and weak, overly sexual sub-beings, who are still contradictory demons not to be trusted, wicked and evil. In this kind of culture woman is something to take over and rule, tame to be obedient. To actually face a woman as equal or superior would be losing strength, losing an old ideology that has prevailed too long. Ideology of place of a woman and use of a woman is now to be changed. Woman is still used and treated as she has no will of her own, therefore it is a shock in a community when there are women who act up, use, speak up, make and do regardless of do they get respect and are they acknowledged or not. Such women need to exist for culture to change. Women need to do what they wish, not what other people wish they’d do.
Yes fear of violence keeps women in place. I hope women would learn to be fearless and stand up for themselves. Do it now!
http://www.theatlantic.com/technology/archive/2014/10/the-unsafety-net-how-social-media-turned-against-women/381261/2/
”Danielle Keats Citron, law professor at the University of Maryland and author of the recently released book Hate Crimes in Cyberspace, explained, “Time and time again, these women have no idea often who it is attacking them. A cybermob jumps on board, and one can imagine that the only thing the attackers know about the victim is that she’s female.”
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