Isn’t it so we, even if not religious, are bound to religious traditions and doctrines, like self-evidently falling into them. There is beauty, wisdom, some truth, guidance and hope. We know them since they are taught to us and lived by throughout the year. There is no escape, religion is here and there like a good thing. Our Finnish society for instance lays on Christian values, festivities, terminology, history and names even though we are secular state. Schooling system is built on Lutheran schooling system which was in use before in history, meaning preachers were the educators of people up to the beginning of 1900’s. Even thought church schools were separated from state schools at the end of 1800’s influence of church is immense. To teach religion at school still meant in 1980’s and 90’s serious deep studying of Christianity. This is slowly changing, very slowly, the compulsory part of studying faith. How many of those schooled really have had faith in their hearts since to have faith and say it out loud has been weakness. Here it is a very private matter. To be a believer is stereotyped often as a Holy Roller and zealot trying to convert those with doubt. There are strong bias what comes to believing in god or not and to which god to believe, not that there are many options offered. Essential questions in life probably for everyone. Do I believe that there is someone or something guiding us, making us, judging and watching. Being part of Lutheran faith by birth, schooling and living in a Lutheran country is somewhat a normality and everyday practice here. It is there like a rock. Loud objections aren’t that common, but you can choose to believe or not. It is there still and raises its head when LGBT rights or are women fit to be priests(still) are talked about and church personnel have objections. Religion is a serious business. Kids understand that and they listen, god is mysteriously intriguing and puzzling. We have a silent agreement and illusion of freedom which is not that free. 

She is fucking mad!

I wanted to disturb, I wanted to be annoying. I was hoping someone would understand why. Yes I had a little hope for being understood, just a little, but the thing that I think about hoping, the most important thing is what you do yourself, how do you understand what you are doing. And why you do what you do. Why do I think by disturbing I could make my statement or make something positive happen? Yet comes question what can I as a person do?