socialism
eroticism that never leaves because we desire, never is wiped away because we want to be wanted, attempts to get rid off any sexual reference is useless, an itch, a curse, a need, a part to play
There are erotic things we recognize erotic immediately, blond hair, showing full breasts and full lips (hah), accessories like black high heels, black underwear, anything black and tight clothing around toned bodies is a sign, a message and we look at such sights if they are there, because we enjoy them. We enjoy with our eyes. All kinds of reactions come about, thoughts. The more detailed, decorated the more burlesque, luring, luxurious, tempting and naughty, denied, banned, pushed away like horror that would reveal us what we really want. Erotics is an art of detail. We may think of those things if they are not present, dream of such things to wear or to look at. We look at the muscles, limbs, body parts, shapes, what is shown and what is not. Where does eroticism begin, come from is that we don’t have to look for it. It appears effortlessly, or seemingly with little effort. There are common sexually interesting features and materials which arouse savor, they are the clichés we are accustomed to, we are fed with, banalities of what sexuality is in mainstream. What is it?. Erotics is overused, capitalized. Porn is grotesque and obscene. I find it a necessary vent even the clichés: pvc-outfits, higher heels that are impossible to walk on, make-up, posing, fantasizing. Ultimately naked bodies in twisted positions. Something full dripping over, leaking over like liquid. Something that is erotic is never boring. It is still a task to put it in writing what is erotic. Human body is erotic to put it simple.
Erotica is a language that we should be able to speak, but often fail to for whatever reasons, mostly denial, fear and disgust. It is effortless but contradictory conflicting and difficult to approach. We can be naive or cynical about it. It is easy and impossible, but it is there not going away. Maybe it just is tacky, smelly and unpleasant remainder of our bestial self to put it in stereotypically normative frame. Something we like to forget. Sexuality is interesting since it does not fit in frames we so much like. It is something we like to reject, reject as a possibility, positive and joyful part of everyday. Because erotics for us is not an everyday mode, not for many women at least, not for us reasonable people who hide that side of ours, it is difficult and religion has something to do with this. It is intolerable and too enjoyable, too pushy, disgustingly everywhere, because it is not coded as the good positive thing to have but sinful, dirty and wrong that needs to be pushed distant but is force-fed, we are in constant difficulty with our sexuality.
To feel ashamed by eroticism, to hide behind a bashful little laughter. We are grown into feeling ashamed when we watch something erotic. Something that belongs to bedrooms and dark places, something, again, shameful a part of us so much that without erotic thoughts, images, desires, deeds we feel we are missing something essential, but we have to miss it to like it. Eroticism cannot be an everyday object. Objects are dead. We may be too practical for it to live with us as fully accepted part, maybe it is pragmatism to deny horny feelings. Erotica is never fully accepted, therefore we are damned. We are cursed by our desire, because of the inescapable nature of our existence. We cannot escape ourselves. Maybe sexuality would lose its edge if it was fully accepted as whatever forms it takes. What do you think? Would we be too liberated and get bored with the whole thing? To reject eroticism we become less human trying to achieve a perfect senselessness, obedient order of things without distractions or temptations.
Eroticism is cheap, it is sold and bought, true. That is much of eroticism today, a consumed item, a consumed feeling, body, intercourse, image, song, movie, advertising. Or is it so expensive we rarely can afford it? We cannot tolerate to be seen as sexual, as wanting sex.
http://review31.co.uk/article/view/314/the-rotating-bed“The weirdness of the image of Hefner in his PJs talking domesticity is doubled as we imagine this meeting of him and a similarly attired Preciado through the TV screen in the middle of the night. Just as Preciado’s curiosity stops him sleeping, so we are reeled in with a desire to see an organisation which is rarely regarded as representing anything more than the most superficial and exploitative entertainment from a totally unimagined angle.”
A sermon on Thursday: I have deep faith in human evil. No, I don’t wish it to exist and happen, but still it does, deep. I know it sounds so terrible, but I just cannot help myself.
There is nothing that changes in terms of hatred, because it is the easy way and collective. It accelerates, spins faster and faster without us wanting to stop. We belong to it, we are of more hate than of love. Revenge is a tool for those who are not able to change, who do not want change, who are righteous. This means I have faith in people and their acting in a certain way like clockwork. You make yourselves repeat the same. You think you are complex, that is the funny part. Things you accomplish may be, but you are not.
My faith means I think there are things in us that do not change and it is the way we think and how those thoughts make action. It is not something new – evil and my faith in it. All the good people who also are bad people is a norm. We are good in our sinister, illusion-filled and self-loving way, as much as there is room for good and usually there is very little. People do have to some extent faith in the good in people, it gives us hope. We define the good and we must seek it, even promise our devotion to it. Those who exist among and within the bad is the difficult and horrible scenario and a fact, living with and inside bad knowingly, like accepting it, avoiding it so, that it does not touch nor hurt, scared and sunken. What a ludicrous idea altogether. There isn’t much we can do as it seems. Evil humanity could not be more obvious.
To have faith in the good while doing the bad is a weird thought. We cannot honestly say evil prevails in us and because of us even though it clearly does. We say it is far away and someone else. We do not admit to it and we attack it and we hate it lovingly. To have faith in those who hurt knowingly and deliberately we like to give patriotic and other explanations. To do it yourself is the unthinkable but done effortlessly. I think we are exited about the bad in us. It gives us a thrill. All the things we can do. We like to believe liars and live in a world of violence and say we are better than people before us. We have evolved. This is my faith in humanity. I believe in the bitter, hurtful and evil man. He is true to himself to the end and in a way true in his actions. Pass on the bad and it will live forever and expand many times over. The most effective part of humanity is the opposite of what is thought is good. The most effective we are in our bitter hatred. To have faith in evil of course testifies that I am evil and I do evil, I commit and worship evil. Maybe that is true since I am a human being, but at least I question myself. I do it everyday. There is no escape for humans what comes to evil. I do not know whether people who do evil things consciously declare themselves evil, very possibly they do not. Hypocrisy and denial keep the image and posture no matter what you do. People are masters of deception, self-deception and deceiving others to benefit the most powerful, to keep on going on this chosen path. I think we do change the world but not ourselves, because to change as a person is difficult and demands constant effort, which is mostly painful. Honesty and sincerity do not make the biggest paychecks, get the best respect, best positions, most friends and most wealth.
http://boingboing.net/2015/01/28/a-beginners-guide-to-the-red.html
“They want you to lift the veil pulled over your eyes by the progressives who secretly control society. Like Neo escaping the Matrix, your choice is to wake up and see how the world really is, discarding religion, subjectivity, and feminist indoctrination. Conspiracy theorists, Men’s Rights Activists, Pick-Up Artists, GamerGate, even theNeoreaction: all of these communities share a common creed, tech-fluent and superficially self-aware. To outsiders, it’s distinctly conservative. But they don’t see themselves as conservatives at all.”
Change is coming and there is no other way!
There is bitterness and hurt. In political game there is always much to gain. Power corrupts has been proved true many times over. To make a revolution benefit everyone not first financially but emotionally and mentally is an ideal and to make people learn from mistakes of theirs and others would be the best revolution ever.
What kind of revolutions are at hand now? Technological advancements are spreading fast and doing just that, revolutionary evolution of man firstly on level of ideas and how ideas are put to use. Is there anything natural about it what we are experiencing now and what is the revolution part? There is no exact beginning nor end. Changing our ways of interacting, working and living is research that is interesting in terms of how we make our lives. How well do we cope with dramatic changes and altering of everyday life. It is a fast modification happening, which requires altering of habits and patterns of our thinking. Making the globe more democratic than ever, accessible. Is everyone accessible? Even the word change expects something of the individual. Emotional involvement, subjective experience, determination, devotion and work.
Human development is a complex process and it is hugely neglected by everyone, double oops. This is my claim. Hugely neglected are also human possibilities. There can be a dad who looks at his child and says out loud: that child is going to be trouble, that child will not be anything. I ask Why do you hate your child? Everyone will be something, but what, and what are people suppose to become and be is a good question. It is very common, believe it or not, to judge and treat children of your own by the most harsh ways. There is no way for anyone to know what will be, but parents are creating paths for their children which they can follow if he/she believes what parents or anyone close by is saying. So what to believe? Yes it is a cruel world, but oh there are ways to make it less cruel and the ways are very simple. They require kindness and an open mind at least. Is it too much to ask? Such a thing does not cost a thing.
You do not have kindness in your heart, learn it. It goes like this: how can I do and say things that would cause the least hurt. If you do not know what someone else is thinking or you see there are problems ASK if you can do something.
It does not absolutely mean you have to be mother Teresa, but it would not hurt to do things like her. Sometimes it just means shut the fuck up. You think ill, because it is fun for you, don’t let it out and fun is overrated. There is enough bullshit already.
the unemployed – people regarded as morally suspect and of negligible social worth.
There are personal hells people go through, maybe unimaginable for people living with everything desired within reach. It seems to be convenient for some to let mass of people live in poverty, and there is plenty of reason to question why is it convenient to let hells like homelessness, hunger and constant violence stay in people’s lives. Life lived as unavoidable turmoil and an error. The gap between rich and poor could be reduced if there was will to do so. There is enough knowledge and wealth to demolish extreme poverty right this minute. How many well-off people would be ready to live with less? Less with what would be the next question. For example take the bus and cut meat out one’s diet would be a good start. To begin to think there is something that everybody can do instead of there is nothing that can be done. TV is out of the window, again.
Oh, it was worth it.

