I have wondered what is needed to be of high value in society. What society values highly in a person, what is valuable for a person and in a person who has achieved appreciation, has been noticed as a maker. What gets noticed as we seem to seek getting noticed? We do not get appreciation just being alive, we have to make a life, a face and become visible. To have done something in life that can be appreciated is what all people want. Life worth living and be proud of. What I wonder where does the appreciation come from, what is it, how it is given, granted since it is there to be given after having done something valuable to all, something all can see. What is worth while to connect with, something to relate to, follow, get to know and idolize?
How egoist one has to be in world today and is good to be is good to ask and bear in mind the extent of ego one has and what does it mean to have an ego. Without ego we do not manage to make ourselves, to be individuals and it appears we need to be egoists to fit in in contemporary society, to be part of egoist culture that appreciates those who take their place regardless of what there may be in their way, regardless if the goal if worth having.
To be an independent actor, artist, ego is something that one has to work with, to have a strong self-reliance, confidence to stand behind one’s actions and art is essential. Artist therefore has to be able to produce possibly without constructive feedback, alone with only oneself as coach and mentor and to trust making pieces of art for the public, if they wish to have them. Work without anybody telling what to do, without someone telling when, how, where and so forth. Art has high value in contemporary society, high art especially. Such high place can be a dead-end for art. To evolve and become high as high is noted as good, it is a wrong place for some reason. There are more rules, policing, codes, barriers, complex relations and silent contracts that make art in high become less, distant, expensive and losing part of its purpose. Art is noted in news papers when it has news value. The more people are interested and the more money art attracts the more valuable it is to news papers. Everything revolves around money and how to make it. To ask again what to accomplish as an artist in this kind of stage and age?