Portrait of a missing person

pencil on paper, 2015

Sounds like corruption: abc of a blowjob.

Rodun puhtauden vaatimuksesta: lisääntyminen hallituissa olosuhteissa.

On omituista keskustella ihmisen kanssa jonka maailmankuva on fakkiutunut. Hän kokee että olevansa erinomainen ja että Suomi on erinomainen ja tätä erinomaisuuden brändiä hän toistaa kuin marssimusiikkia. Olisi parasta ettei mitään tarvitsisi muuttaa, paitsi tietysti demokraattinen päätöksenteko. Hän toistaa yhtäjaksoisesti ajatusta Suomen vihollisista ja uhista, joita on toki aina ollut Suomen yllä, mutta nyt erityisesti kun joudumme kohtaamaan sodan seuraukset pakolaisten ja terrorismin muodossa. Hän, maahanmuuttokriitikko, pelkää ’rotujen’ sekoittumista, suomalaisuuden katoamista, suomalaisuuden joka on ainutlaatuista ja täydellistä, muuttumista joksikin muuksi, tuntemattomaksi, uudeksi, kenties ja luultavasti huonommaksi versioksi, koska ulkopuolelta tuleva geneettinen, kulttuurillinen ja uskonnollinen massa, uhka, tekee hallaa meidän täydelliselle suomalaisuudelle, suomalaiselle perimälle, jota on puolustettava, suomalaisuutta sellaisenaan edelleen kuin Gallén-Kallelan maalauksessa. Kriitikko pelkää juuri sitä asiaa joka on ilman uskonnollisia faabeleita ihmiskunnalle täysin luonnollinen toiminto ja jatkumo eli sulautuminen ja sekoittuminen. Mikä tapahtuma, geenistön ja kulttuurien sekoittuminen, halutaan täysin vääristä syistä, rodun ja kansakunnan ’puhtaana’ säilymisen kannalta estää, ja toki sukua jatkamaan tänne ollaan tulossa ensisijaisesti.. Ajatus jonkun erehtymättömän hyvän ja täydellisen säilyttämisestä loputtomasti on mahdottomuus. Degeneraatio on paljon suurempi uhka. Vanheneminen ja erehtyminen ovat inhimillisiä ja väistämättömiä. Kun puutumme asioihin joihin meidän ei kuulu puuttua tapahtuu ’jalostamista’. Ajatus on hämmentävä: olla ihmisrotu joka haluaa olla monumentti ja säilötty sellainen.

Kiinnostavasti YLE2:n lisääntymisilta osuu huoleen kansamme jatkuvuudesta. Ajatukseen suomalaisten ylihuolehtivasta tarpeesta suojella omaa rotua ja maata ’saastumiselta’ tai näin minä ymmärrän maahanmuuttokritiikin yhden kärjen. Me olemme puhtaita syistä jotka ovat pelkkää pseudotiedettä ja uskonnollista propagandaa. Olemme haavoittuvaisia monella tapaa, mitä enemmän pelkäämme sitä enemmän meillä on uhkia. Aikuiset ihmiset häiritsevät ja kiusaavat niitä joista eivät pidä milloin mistäkin syystä, tarkkailevat toistensa elämiä: kuka on homo, kuka tuli raskaaksi kelle ja miten ne sen teki. Ihmiset jotka näkevät vihollisia erilaisissa ovat peloissaan tietämättömyyttään. Vihollinen on jumalaton elämä, erilainen elämä, poikkiteloin asettuminen ja vastahankaan sanominen. He jotka äänekkäimmin pelkäävät ovat usein kovin uskonnollisia, joille seksi on halveksittavaa puuhaa ja vain yhtä tarkoitusta varten. He puhuvat jostakin omastaan joka on uhattuna, elämäntavasta jossa on jotakin ainutlaatuisen hyvää ja erinomaista. Omista lapsistaan ja omasta maastaan jota he haluavat puolustaa ja pelko on näiden asioiden muuttuminen joksikin tuntemattomaksi, joka ei ole enää heidän hallittavissa, se jokin joka on heidän. Hallinnan puutteen tuntemus on todellinen nykyajan vitsaus, kun olemme oppineet että me voimme hallita tietyin tavoin toisia ihmisiä ja katastrofi on kun emme enää voikaan. Ihmisiä autetaan hallitsemaan elämää, kuinka tulla onnelliseksi, kuinka hallita toisten elämiä ja kuinka tähän on oikeus. On fasistinen ajatus hallinnasta jossa kaikkea ja kaikkia hallitaan hyvin tiukkojen sääntöjen mukaan suojellaksemme jotakin kuvitteellisesti puhdasta. Hallinnasta huolimatta lapsi kasvaa ja hänestä tulee joku muu kuin vanhempi halusi tai kuvitteli. Voiko kasvuprosessia ja muutosta hallita ja millaisia vaikutuksia hallinnalla on kokonaisuuden kannalta? On asioita joita voi hallita ja paljon niitä joita ei voi.

On niitä jotka asettavat toisia ihmisiä roskiin koska omasta mielestään voivat. Roskaksi joutuu monesta syystä. Kuvitelmamme omasta erehtymättömästä rationaalisuudesta on todellakin vain kuvitelmaa. Ne jotka ovat samaa mieltä, pääsevät kivasti samalle viivalle. Emme ole vielä barrikaadeilla vaan poteroissa joista kuuluu jupinaa, ei naimisen läiskintää tahi voihkintaa koska se on häpeällistä, kuten seksi on edelleen kovin noloa. Häpeämme luonnollisia kehon toimintoja ja halujamme, emmekä halua muillakaan noita haluja olevan, etenkään sellaisia ’luonnottomia’.

Se että kokee jonkun esimerkiksi maan tai toisen ihmisen omakseen niin voimakkaasti, ettei anna asian muuttua, koska haluaa puristaa hellyyden puuskassaan, ei ole kokonaisuuden kannalta rakentavaa, ei innovatiivista vaan paikallaan pysyvää tarpomista, jossa jankuttaminen ja kehän kiertäminen ovat tyypillisiä. Näitä umpimielisiä, joiden mielestä yhden totuuden toistaminen on oikeanlaista politiikkaa, joita pitäisi vielä pelätä, on joko kovin paljon tai heillä on kova ääni. Väkivallan uhka on ilmeinen jolla pelataan, haluammehan olla turvassa. Ihmisiä uhataan muiluttaa edelleen, esimerkiksi Somaliaan. Pitkähkö ja vaivalloinen matka, jopa fasistille. Mehän tiedämme kuinka käy kun joukko ei uskalla vastustaa sitä joka ajaa herrakansa-asiaa. Fasismi taas on hyvin globaali ilmiö ja jokainen kansa löytää fasisteja joukostaan. Voimme kysyä miksi fasismi ja pelko muutoksesta hallitsevat meitä ja annamme väkivallan uhan sanella miten toimimme. Pelko hallitsee monin tavoin vapauksiamme.

Se miten puhumme ja mistä puhumme on sosiaalisessa mediassa erityisen inspiroivaa. Vihaisena on heikko siinä mielessä, että tulee sanottua kova sana jonka vastapuoli ansaitsee ja joka jonkun on sanottava eli onko se heikkoutta lopulta kun saa sanottua takaisin. Pitäisikö pyydellä anteeksi julkista kiroilua tai oman mielipiteensä julkiseksi saattamista? Tuskin. Maahanmuuttokriitikotkin puhuvat sanan vapaudesta. Miten kielenkäyttö vaikuttaa voi päätellä lopputuloksesta kun on sanonut jotakin odottamatonta. Se että sanotaan, etteivät kirosanat sovi naisten eivätkä lasten suuhun, on asioita joita voi miettiä miksi ei ja miksi naisten ja lasten puhetta kontrolloidaan, mutta miesten ei. Näin ainakin ennen. Joidenkin mielestä ’äärimmäistä käytöstä’, kovaa kielenkäyttöä, pidetään huonona monestakin syystä. Meidän on edelleen suojeltava jotakin puhdasta ja oltava äärimmäisen korrekteja jotta meistä ajateltaisiin hyvää, taas kerran suojelemme jotakin puhdasta saastalta eli ala-arvoiselta kielenkäytöltä. Ettemme alentuisi käytämme kieltä joka kertoo meistä jotakin hyvää, pahoja emme halua olla, emmekä leimautua. Kiroilu on siis voimakas kannanotto. Opettelemme puhumaan korrektisti ja kunnioittavasti, näin ainakin teoriassa. Korrektius kunniaan, hyvät tavat, kunnioitus jne. Voimme miettiä milloin hyvistä tavoista voi luopua ja milloin voi olla avoimesti vihainen. Joka pidättyväiselle voi olla haasteellinen tehtävä, eli sanoa se asia, jonka haluaa sanoa, laittaa itsensä alttiiksi ja seisoa jonkun asian takana, ottaa se minkä tahtoo. Itse olen sitä mieltä, että korrektius on tasa-arvon ja ihmisoikeuksien ajamisen kannalta tehoton metodi, juuri sellainen mihin porvarillisesti sopuisa solahtaa emmekä saa aikaan haluttua muutosta, koska uskallus puuttuu ja tapakulttuuri vaatii ja mitä korrektia on porvarillisessa samanmielisyydessä ja täydellisyyden tavoittelussa. Tätä samaa ajatusta maahanmuuttokriitikot ja fasistit käyttävät. He haluavat rikkoa punavihreiden kuplan joka on rauhaa rakastavan korrekti päällisin puolin ja porvarillinen. Fasistien mielestä jotakin arvokasta rikkoutuu kun annamme maamme ja suomalaisuutemme muuttua, joten raju teksti on sallittua suojelullisista syistä ja ronski kielenkäyttö on perinteisesti työväenluokkaista. Fasismi kuvittelee suojelevansa rikkoessaan ja ottavansa jotakin omakseen. Vihaisuudessa ja väkivallassa on eroja ja on ymmärrettävä mitä kannattaa suojella ja mitä ei.

On voitava rikkoa hiljaisuus, samanmielisyys kun siihen on syytä ja riitelyllä on tarkoituksensa. Totuttu tapa olla samaa mieltä on olla rikkomatta hyminää koska rikkojaan kiinnitetään huomio ja halveksunta. Lasinen suojus jonka rikkoutumista pelkäämme juuri jonkun oman menettämisen pelossa, maineen menettämisen pelossa. Kielenkäyttö, hierarkkisen, sukupuolellisen ja rodullisen puhtauden vaatimus, liittyvät yhteen. Kova kielenkäyttö on miehistä ja luokkatietoista, joka naisten on tehtävä sivussa ja salaa. Se että joutuu ajattelemaan mitä sanoo on hyvä ja huono asia, on pohdittava seurauksia ja millaisia seurauksia tahtoo. Sanotaan että nykyään saa sanoa mitä tahansa joutumatta tilille. Tällä tarkoitettaneen sanoja joilla loukataan tunteita joita pitäisi suojella. Tunteita olemme tottuneet suojelemaan ja moni tuntuu loukkaantuvan nähdäkseni kovin vähästä. Joten mietin mistä yhteiskuntamme jämähtyneisyys johtuneekaan muusta kuin tuuletuksen puutteesta ja liiasta paapomisesta, pumpulissa elämisestä.

Kun todellinen paha, väärä tieto ihmisyydestä leviää ja saa tulta alleen, on aiheesta kirjoitettava kuten näkee parhaaksi. Yritän toki olla kiihkoilematta kuten vastapuoli tekee. Tunteenpalolta en voi välttyä, koska tuho jonka rotuopit ovat saaneet aikaan, on varsin mittava. Ihmisen keksityistä hierarkioista olentoina jotka ovat eri arvoisia toisiinsa nähden, emme pääse eroon muuten kuin sopimalla ja asettamalla rajoja joiden rikkomisesta on seurauksia, mutta sopimusta ei synny kovin helposti. Mikä taistelu on turruttavaa ja myös käsittämätön, syystä että on ihmisiä joiden mielestä hierarkiat ihmisten välillä ovat ainoastaan hyvä asia.  On ominaisuuksia joita pidetään tosina, hyvinä, huonoina ja jotka usein näkyvät päällepäin ja näiden ominaisuuksien johdosta meitä lajitellaan esimerkiksi rotuihin. Kallonmittaajien ja naamavärkkien analysoijien pseudotiede eugeniikka on joillekin edelleen merkittävä ja uskottava tieteenala johon viitataan puheessa ja kirjoituksissa. Aihe on vaikea syystä että on kyse ihmisen geeneistä, genetiikasta, rodun käsitteestä, rotuun kuulumisesta ja jalostuksesta, että on rodullisesti jalostuneempia ihmisiä ja vähemmän jalostuneita. Geenitieteestä tuntuu kovin monella olevan mielipide vaikka kyseessä on erittäin haastava tutkimusala ja olemme saadun tutkimustiedon varassa. Rotu-uskovaisten mielestä geenisysteemeitä ei saisi sekoittaa, mikä on historian ja tietämyksen valossa kovin kummallinen väite.

Aiheesta on kirjoitettu ja tehty tutkimusta, hyvää ja huonoa, parasta on kuitenkin että rotuja ei ole voitu todistaa olevan olemassa geneettisesti. Miksi siis puhumme roduista? Puhumme roduista koska ajattelemme olevamme kuin koirat ja luomme tämän uskomuksen silmillämme. Jos emme näkisi toisiamme asialla ei olisi minkäänlaista merkitystä, ja toisaalta emme olisi sellaisia kuin nyt olemme, joten asian pohdinta lienee turhaa. Se minkä näemme sen uskomme ja se mitä emme näe kuten geenit, uskomme koska meille kerrotaan että ne ovat olemassa. Aiheellinen asia ottaa esiin joka tapauksessa kuinka massiivisella tavalla näkökykymme vaikuttaa ajatteluumme ja miten ajattelumme näkemisen kautta tapahtuu. Ihmiset jotka meuhkaavat hyvin väkivaltaisesti rotupuhtauden puolesta maahanmuuttoa vastaan, erityisesti koska maahanmuutto vaarantaa suomalaisen kansankodin ja rodun, näkevät kovin kapeasti. He näkevät suomalaisen rodun, kuin Suomen pystykorvan. Se on sellainen söpö vekkuli jolla on paksu turkki. Koirista on sellainen fakta että vaikka sekarotuiset koirat näyttävät kenties hassuilta, ne ovat terveempiä kuin rotukoirat, mikä on fakta myös ihmisillä. Mitä paremmin geeniperimä sekoittuu, sen terveempiä ihmiset ovat ja jokainen varmaan tietää mitä tapahtuu sisäsiitoksessa. Suurimpia haittoja ovat vajaaälyisyys, aggressiivisuus ja muut vakavat taudit. Arabikansojen sisäsiittoisuudesta on ollut puhetta, mutta samaa on havaittu tapahtuneen siellä sun täällä kaikkien tosi erinomaisten keskuudessa. Rotupuhtausvauhkoilijat ovat löytäneet kohdan joka on heikko myös arabeille eli aivan kuin joka puolella pyrittäisiin säilyttämään veri puhtaana ja muuttumattomana, asema ja omaisuus naittamisen kautta samassa paikassa ja suvussa lopulta tuhoisin seurauksin.

Arrested woman

What makes an interesting person?

She looks like she has had a rough life, full of hardship and violence. How does that first impression make us look at her? It is a drawing from a picture of an arrested person which I found online, an elderly woman with fierce look on her face. She is not defeated, she is not surprised and she is very different from an ideal look for a woman which interests me. I don’t know who she is, what she did or what has been done to her. Her face is a story. We let our imagination wonder and wander when we let it and are able to, assumptions and stereotypes lead our thinking very easily. Feelings of contempt and repulsion, feeling of fear, of pity, wanting to judge her on the spot come so quick and toss her aside as unwanted now that she is captured.

Education the gift

Schooling is a priority in making society making people evolve as makers and thinkers. The more knowledgable and capable members of society are the better and more civilized society is? I wish. It is a complex issue even though it should be quite simple: there are people who have knowledge and skills that other people need to survive and should learn and know. Altruism and sharing sound so good on paper. Just as eating and production of food are in principle the simplest of things. We must eat and we must learn otherwise what else is there. Where does the complexity arise is what kinds of things there are to gain, who benefits, gets respect, has the most assets and what is shared. There are schools who take pride in giving the best possible teaching possible, then there are schools that think they are giving the best possible teaching for their students but fail to do just that. There are schools who concentrate in mere existing and fooling students who thought they would get proper instruction in to a craft but did not. There are schools who fail but fail to see that they fail because they are full of themselves thinking they do their best and are the best in their field. How do these delusional and grandiose ideas get born and why isn’t there enough will to correct failed schooling? There are people in power who like to protect interests of theirs. In education big money moves as does merit. Teacher’s position is still appreciated not to speak of position of a professor. It is undeniable and critique is taken personally even though it would be at place and accurate.
There are fields where I have had the best schooling there is. Art has not been that kind of field. Art has proven to be a kind of field where expertise and quality do not play the most important role. Low quality of schooling has been a rule. Progress happens very slowly for various of reasons, one being that money and merit play such a big part. When teachers are picked by merit gained in the field of art no experience in teaching is required. What is a student here, in this game of merit? Arrogance and enjoyment for entitlement tend to be more important to hold on than making progress. Interests of those who enter the field of art do not seem to be interesting enough. It is strange to be a customer in a shop where the customer has no authority, value or say over. Especially when schools get public funding one is to think the primary requirement of high quality of teaching is provided self-evidently, the tools for students to survive at the chosen field as artists.
Contempt and sensitivity towards straightforward criticism where one has to be scared of retaliation and being left outside is not uncommon. Such happened to me at art school for filing complaint some courses were not taught at all. So to complain for not getting what is promised nothing is given as a punishment. To file a complaint is normal in a shop when the product is not what the ad promises it to be. What is the legal position of the student in such case when school refuses to take responsibility for adequate schooling, school refuses to provide what it promises taking complaint personally and putting student in a position of air, a button which has no say over. Since it is an insult towards the student to lie, to play with future career of this student who wants to get the skills and info to manage in a profession. My conclusion is that schools who do not take professional quality of teaching seriously and do not know what it should be are not doing their job, are not there for students but for themselves.
Yes education is a gift and I take it very seriously since my work is the most important thing in my life. There are people who do not see this clearly and do not appreciate what I do as there is little merit and little money involved, also telling work should not be the main issue in one’s life. In this bullshit world it is the most important thing and I refuse to think otherwise. There are people who study to get a well paid job and respected place in society. I study for various reasons, reasons I have to explain over and over. Why I study something which possibly has no high pay in sight, why I study something which clearly is not in demand. What is in demand are quick winnings and being a successful consumer. What comes to schooling oneself I decide what is important for me to learn not my school, not the job market, not what sells. Art school that does not have expertise in poetry should find expertise instead of telling we really don’t know what to say.

Intellect of anything. Do butterflies have intellect or is it intellect of nature which they follow?

Intellect is connected with self-consciousness, ability to develop oneself disregarding the natural state one could be in thinking what one could, should be and would be, how else to do, how many options there are for that person to take advantage and see solutions. It is awareness and learning of one’s abilities, possibilities and what is around, learning by looking, imitating, inventing, trying out, failing, seeing ways to evolve with what one has and putting things together. It is not enough to have information you have to know what to do with it. It is to see oneself as one self with something special to contribute. It is to be able to manipulate, calculate, think for oneself, see consequences of actions, be able to realize oneself as individually capable being and solve the complexity rather than escape it. Intellect is itself complex to the point we are not clear yet what it is. We still dwell in the old concept of intellect and are very quick to think of knowing what intellect is. The concept of intelligent things and beings and intelligence in people we many times like to keep alive as one-sided, thin and inaccurate. It could be mixed with a loud bully who is rich. To be able to make a fortune equals intellect in this world. It means one is able to play the game of the market, ready to take risks knowing circumstances, map of the market and ready to put oneself there in the game.

The idea of what intellect is, is more an illusion, what gets our attention and gets noticed most and as such keeps the old structures of society as they have been. Where intellect is found can surprise as deeds talk mightier than words. Who has intellect, how it actualizes itself in our every day when it seems to have vanished but still we think we are very clever. Doing what? It is stitched into and stamped on, held on though it is gone, sown and hammered in a way that it stays on the surface rather than would be thoroughly understood, weight, respected, found and known, if you know what I mean. Simple solutions can be brilliant but be simple and oversimplify complexity is stupid. It is a possession and quality hastily judged which deed itself shows lack and disrespect towards intellect as it is something that measures carefully looking into details and nuances rather than glancing fast without second thought. Intellect has been a possession of the upper classes and has been seen as result more than something that all could have and cultivate. High-born more than peasants, men more than women, adults more than children, money men more than poor men.

It is the most talked about characteristic and trait of anything. We may say that something is frivolous, meaningless, something is difficult and something stupid is easy, light-headed. Intellect is high and stupidity is low. It is to pay attention, ask, learn, but it is not to underestimate because nothing is meaningless. The mere label can do a great deal of damage especially when those labels given get stuck and are taken as such without questioning why it is so, who says, who decided this and why it could not be looked further, why it could not be something else. True stupidity is to believe without second thought, not to see underneath, not to do research and learn from that and believe old truths are true always. Something said becomes a label and fable when said repeatedly like a fate made by people. There is more than meets the eye is true wisdom. To play a broken record on and on, as does mankind in repeat doing the same mistakes over and over again. Things and beings represent something that have intellectual capital of certain amount. Intellectual capital gives value in cases where there is vast public awareness by this capital, what this intellectual capital is and value of what? It has contributed to make general innovations, understanding of facts and truths, made our comprehension wider about the world and ourselves. How we find intellect is to find meaning and more importantly how do we find intellect of our own and evolve and how we see evolving.

To learn value of things and beings, what truly is precious goes beyond intellect. We make a mistake when we stop there and start admiring intellect. Intellect is a tool. We are taught who is who, whom we should be afraid of and why, where value and strength come from, what is valuable, what it is to be strong. We learn to unappreciated ourselves as intelligent learners and makers when atmosphere is set in a way who can be intelligent and what it is to be intelligent. It is to put something and someone on to their place which place is dictated not necessarily actively chosen. To call someone or something stupid is to take no interest further. It is to verbally say out loud where you stand compared to what you deem stupid and beneath you because you are more clever. To judge is to deny development. To say she is an idiot means there is not anything other than irritating non-intellectual nonsense she drivels, does and represents. She is useless. She or he is worthless because of this judgement. There is not anything in her or him that is interesting to you, is valuable in what she does and says. She or he is seen through in that moment like a nonperson whose value is taken.

To place feminist critique upon feminism itself is very appropriate and needed. How to do it is another matter.

The bashing of contemporary feminism gets nowadays an unchangeable tone or should I say what else is new. It is desperate yet in its despair forceful as it is surreal. For many feminism today is useless. Its points of views illogical, old-fashioned and untrue. It is to tear down institution of family, which as it is now, is a true comfort zone (see the sarcasm). Who would not want children, lawn and. According to men’s rights activists and fascists, to mention just a few, feminists hate men and boys, yes feminists are true haters, they disregard welfare of men and boys considering themselves only, feminism has no base in reality, their goals are unrealistic and disastrous and it, feminism, is an invention of hateful bitches who think they are better than, just to mention few juicy topics and ideas about feminism on Finnish social media.

When feminists start to speak they prove to all how useless and stupid the whole ideology is, they are irrational. What are these women talking about equality, rights and emancipation. All is well, or was before. Women who work for equality and for sexual rights again destroy something meaningful, solid and effort to change this godly state of ours is ruining the perfect welfare state, a nation and heritage, order of things as well as unity in our country. What unity? Country is getting more and more divided, of course, feminists are to blame. Noteworthy is how there must be a group of people to blame for all corruption and decline which would not exist and happen if there were not feminists and the left, women should stay quiet and at home. Let men do what men do without interruptions. What do men do? They are a pretty active lot. All blame falls upon those terrible feminists who destroy the good there is in tradition based patriarchal society, which can solve issues there may be in its own way, which issues are those? Immigrants, intellectuals, critics? We don’t have any issues other than unwanted people. Everything is fine, or was until feminists came. Men’s rights activists can talk about difficult psychological  problems like alcoholism, depression, mental abuse and physical violence, bullying, loneliness, unemployment without women’s rights activists meddling in. Feminism causes disturbance and brokenness. Men truly dislike being underdogs, till the end the fight is against the left. Anybody who is against male dominance is a communist which is bad. It is bad to be a communist. (Yes this is a very rational argument.)

There is a lot of nerve to blame feminists for doing the dissolving of values our country builds on when women’s rights movement has played a huge part in building this country as it is now. Home, religion and Fatherland stay solid, how else, and for some they should stay unchanged and we rooted to them no matter what. It is men who have done all the building. There must be some pussy to bang though.

To tell you that home, religion and Fatherland so far have not been all about equality, creating well-being and prosperity for all and those holy units will change whether you like it or not, they already have. I can say I come from a very sexist culture where men set the boundaries, where femininity is weakness, women aren’t rational but emotional, where gay is a swear word, men are more often listened to over everybody else, they get promoted, their authority and expertise is relied on no matter how poor it is. I have been told how I should dress, have my hair, when to get pregnant, that it is men’s world where I as a woman enter, that I will never make it as an artist, I should choose the easy way, I should not say what I think, I should not object my given role as a woman, my place, I should not think for myself, be critical and I should smile more, my body is constantly under scrutiny, so is my clothing, what I do for a living and will I make a living, to be loud is very unfeminine, so is swearing, still there are jobs that are for men only, odd is to draw porn, my intellect, professional knowledge and abilities are always suspected and undervalued, the ones I must constantly prove and still since I am so difficult and almost non-existent I must be stupid. I am a body without a mind, any demand is whining and complaining, all the wrong I do is many times bigger than when man does the same, men can do whatever because they are men, I must do many times better if I should overcome a man and show I actually can do something well. Culture that does not evolve is a dead culture.

Feminists do this and feminists say that, mostly arguments are based on assumptions, hearsay, bias and worn out repetition which seems to be the old record people are afraid to discard and through away. Need a thumb to suck? To see feminists in bad light is a default deeply rooted in misogyny which hateful look on women pushes aside issues that are important for women. Things that are important to feminists like equal opportunity to healthcare, education, possibilities to use one’s abilities and be good at what one wants, human rights, abolition of child labor, justice, right to seek justice and defend oneself, freedom of speech, possibility to live free and in peace without threat. Constant sexism is a threat, constant suspicion and ridicule are threats and deny dignity and human worth.

Feminists make everything difficult when it could be so easy. It is too easy to kill, bully and torture. What about men then? Do feminists advocate men’s rights, is feminism doing anything for men? What a question one has to answer all the time. Men have been boys. Having been able to attend day care, school, to have balanced life at home, see that mother is well and able to take care of children as well as go to work has been the very result of women’s movement and feminism. Yes women can work elsewhere than at home and aspire careers. People, women and men, have ambitions, talents, dreams, future that hopefully is full of challenging and inspiring work. Especially children, boys and girls, benefit from feminism a great deal. It gives hope that to pursue one’s goals is possible. Well-being of mothers results well-being of children. Can men’s rights movement say having done the same? It is time for a deep sigh on a good day and on a bad one to shoot every one who puts feminism to dirt just because they don’t like it. Yes it opposes to machismo attitude which has caused trauma and damage to men, women and children, which is almost impossible to escape. Macho is to lock in and keep in captive, incapable to show vulnerability. Still to like feminism sounds like liking a dog, a good dog that wags its tail when you tap its head. Criticism is welcome, for most part it just is not very constructive. To play nice is not how it works or how results have been accomplished. To dislike feminism because of multiple reasons you have invented and believe are true is kind of childish and thinking hitting is what makes it all go away, because feminism and women’s rights movement just is unpleasant, unnecessary and annoying. To hate feminists is to hate progress and human rights. Feminism is raising strong opposition and the threatening atmosphere builds up quite easily between leagues and camps. There is no unison in sight.

 

Reality hits those who like to cherish illusions.

Reality of another person can be extremely hard to grasp and see, even though it is right in front of you. It is the impossibility of understanding feelings of the other, seeing the position where one may be and how one got there. Value of the other, feelings of the other can be denied, belittled and despised just because you can. Reality of someone who is despised as such. Christians like to repeat we are born equal, somehow it does not resonate in true life. Christianity, the religion, is an excuse to put people down since God is on side of those who have the right god. Even though people don’t practice faith they are born in to culture which 100% has roots to some religion and practices of religious ideas, stories, beliefs and traditions. We are as cultural beings bound to religion, faith, mysticism, rules, which tell us how to live and how we see our place in the world and among other people.
What are realities now that religious people see in society which is more open to difference but still is very violent towards many people. Society is sexually more open, at least in theory, in entertainment and in advertising, demanding equality, equal treatment of the sexes, open discussion is available demanding tolerance and freedom of expression and speech. Religions are not the most tolerant. Religious entities are not demanding end of violence quite the contrary. Religions make war possible. Hypocrisy flourishes. How easy it is to not look. When religion demands hiding of our nature, hiding of beauty because it is seen evil and corrupt, how divine and godly that religion actually is. In societies where sexual intercourse is a sin, a taboo which makes all sexual topics shameful, all which is banned happens in hiding. We are punished for our sins which usually are of sexual nature. We are punished for wanting, desiring, lusting, having dirty ideas and doing filthy acts. Touching can become illegal and scary. Touching is too much to take, not to speak of kissing.
As an artist I am used to seeing nudity and I think it is the most natural thing as is sex. Just to depict and see nakedness is not porn, female and male sexual organs as such are not pornography to me, sexual yes but anything can be sexual. Asshole is holy as Allen Ginsberg stated in his poem Howl. What a scandal that became, all what he wrote was against the comfort and mediocre American society held dear. Dear hypocrisy, dear silence, dear oblivion, dear order which cannot be broken because it is not proper. Violence is more tolerated than sex. Violence is normal, so normal people don’t necessarily see when they are being violent and accept bullying when someone is to be put in order, be punished for what one is, dares to be in public. Order which cannot be torn apart because it is too frightening, too much to handle.