Heavy brushing, Instagram is a toilet.
The only thing in my body I have fixed, is my teeth. Having braces in my thirties was an experience, people do stare at your mouth with contempt and disbelief (do try to hide it, make a big effort people, it is just my mouth.). The thought is that very young people have braces, not adults. I thought it was hilarious and the experience has strengthen my view of highly superficial humans who do judge you merely based on your looks (I am a better artist when I look presentable, for instance). So, why not play with it and feel sorry for people, who do have issues, especially what comes to women’s appearance and artist’s appearance, female artist’s appearance. To demand artist look business-like is more anti-art. Looks is never right, when looks is just natural, it is more wrong than ever, to be ungroomed is more a statement than ever, make-up I haven’t used because I have other things to think about and I look in the mirror in the evening. I know, I should be concerned what anybody thinks, I know what they are thinking so I am not, I am just wondering and I am not impressed. With braces I took a large smile: take a good look. Isn’t it beautiful when you smile in photos, you look so happy. If that is how you define happiness, fine. When looks is the number one thing in you and you don’t think it is, it is a weird situation, since the environment doesn’t see it the same as you, one is compelled to figure it out, what is going on and what is the thing you should be and why. I figured it out, there is no reason for me to please anyone with looks, since it is impossible. Should I desperately seek for acceptance or do what I have always done, do me? Yes, I do me. Being pretty is not my first goal in life, it is not the most interesting thing in me, believe me. Artist’s looks is a strange issue and it is outside the art but part of art. Is looks art? Many seem to think so and looks brings value. To a point I understand it, but now it is how youthful one looks approaching 50.. eat veggies, sleep, exercise, do things you enjoy doing. That is my ‘beauty’ regime.
