2001: age of innocence.

Color/What to do with paint and paper?

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2008/What is truly ugly?

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Co-worker, 2002

Working class experience

Rose

I was given a rose at the cash register at a grocery store. The flower didn’t have a smell. I thought it was odd, a rose with no smell. I took carefully off its thirty petals which I counted. Carefully placing them on a paper sheet and let wind take them. It was strikingly sunny.

2008/Not adopting any method to be faster but clearer. Not adjusting according to what is.

Not adopting any method to be faster but clearer. Not adjusting according to what is.

drop something, pick it up

drop something, pick it up

drop something, pick it up

turn the lock, open the door

turn the lock, open the door

turn the lock, open the door

move the chair, sit on it

move the chair, sit on it

move the chair, sit on it

sit on a chair, straighten your back

sit on a chair, straighten your back

sit on a chair, straighten your back

do it backwards, open your mouth

do it backwards, think about your mouth

do it backwards, show me your tongue.

2001: Age of innocence/Heart of an air hostess.

Heart of an air hostess

As heart of a waitress, but in air. As a take-off, landing, a journey anywhere, like an ad. Heart of a passenger with a mission of moving ahead going somewhere and coming back, a plan to leave. An experience, something that is more fun, enjoyable, would be enjoyable to remember. It is a beat, a calling, a seduction, a vacation, a job, moving of a body and mind. It takes a lot to make that beating of a heart as it continues, on and on, and why the muscle hits with the rhythm of the same, with pace of similar but individual. We recognize it and think we know it. Beat of choosing, pushing the button of a destination on computer screen. Palm trees and going there, arriving there, exploring it there, learning it. Having a good time there.

Heart as warmth, a symbol of love and strength, a warm bloody gushy sounding organ inside her makes you vomit, it is so profoundly familiar and too close, kindness and hospitality, a smile on her and the blood. For passengers to ask for help, to place trust upon as you paid for it, someone to count on to bring a blanket. Moving on with a cart with drinks and snacks. Sitting down to rest her feet. Hearts of many air hostesses moving back and forth on passages in the air to take care of passengers.

Modernit työtilat ja mielenkiintoinen työympäristö. Täällä haisee kasvava pilvi.

Sielunhoidonvalmentaja
lapiomies
yleislääkäri, videovastaanotto, mysteerikko
kasvokkainmarkkinoija
siivooja korjaamokohteeseen Peltolammille, eristäjä,
kaivinkoneenkuljettaja mittamies dementiakodin
johtaja työnjohtaja eläinlääkäri hieroja audionomi
legojenrakentelija kurottajankuljettaja, pidetty hevosnainen häränsilmänhalkeamat, lasten aapisesta puuttuu pissata ja paskantaa. Tiedetään, mikä on keskivertokansalainen ja mitä hän haluaa, mitä hänen tulee osata ja tehdä.
Hemmottelua kaipaava lässyn lässyn. Ihminen joka kieltäytyy ymmärtämästä, sulkee ulkopuolelleen kaiken, mitä ei halua ymmärtää. Ihminen joka haluaa tiettyjä asioita, jotka ovat kaikkien tiedossa ja joita monet muutkin haluavat. Tietää mitä haluaa ja saada se, saa sen.

Elämäni eläimet: kisulin näkö, suurikokoinen liero, hajuaisti on niin tarkka että haistaa lieron paksunkin maakerroksen läpi. Naistentauti, tanssivat What is love-biisin käsilaukkukasan ympärillä, tahtiin. T-paita-idea: luodinreikiä. Ei kovin uusi.

 

 

2008

First you shred a picture in a shredder, pictures, as many as you have, maybe all of them. You can do it by hand, tear a picture into little pieces. Then you put the pieces back together and look at the picture. Crunch it, it starts to look like the picture experienced something. Experiences of a picture. There is never a good time, there is never a decent time, there is never enough time, so you can do it now. Hopefully you have a shredder. As long as parts get together in order, they get what they need in form of see-through tape, see through tape, togetherness of pieces, end of loneliness of shreds, glue in hands, glued.

People who put their all in a shredder for whatever reason and end up putting things shredded back together again hoping things would be better, the same or at least become something whole, some kind of result and an event of making an effort. Like true love, whatever that is other than hard work, maybe it is more true when broken and put back together again, light and revelation, fixing something broken. It must be the kind of love between mother and child in an equation, that the mother loves her child and does not put her child in to pieces.

How to keep your child whole, unbroken but not like an image or why should you keep your child from harm? Over-protection can do an awful lot of damage. How closely can you adjust the pieces that belong next to each other? Something has to be broken. Do we have to get something missing also? To have a reason to look ahead.