He asked if I had gone any further. How far do you want me to go? Emotionally experimenting is awkward and risky. What do you think I should find or something very expected? Is it something particular, new, unexpected, understood by people only as weird?
I try to measure every word and realize it is not enough, because then I am not me, but trying to please someone else.

Contextualized furor, living, aorta flowing, pumping, curling, consciously suffocating thinking about blood in fullness but dehiscent,
to rupture and break open. It is something violent to live.
Trampoline on a yard covered with snow, a grey house and on its wall said Enchantment. Reflections of passengers on train window. Their phones and laptops.