Mad in love, paint and poster, 2012

To draw a penis and how to breathe

 

Think about how gossiping makes you feel, powerful, right. You are observing someone’s life from above and laughing at it or having other kind of reactions. What kind of power that is to be able to know what goes on in other people’s lives and be able to discuss that? What does gossip do and what is the purpose? It has many purposes of which most aren’t positive. It is a power play of simple people who feel powerless without the possibility of being able to put someone down. This is of course a global phenomenon which one should be very careful about. It makes us careful who we trust if anyone. Gossip makes you look so intelligent, doesn’t it. Especially when you don’t know..wtf.

Gossip, word of mouth. It is to believe, that what is said, is passed forward in faith it will do harm and is somehow justified, a play of hierarchy. By saying the things you say you will cause something which may become a storm. It is used to destroy people or it is used to do something else. What other can gossip make than harm? Haters make nowadays social media phenomenons of those who are hated, there are few examples. This may turn out to be a good thing in the end as people understand at some point how useless and simple hating is as a strategy and how it tells more about those who hate and gossip than of those who are targeted. How something so hateful and negative can turn out to be a good thing? Gossip can be advertising as it travels in speed that positive things do not. There is an image of human nature there and what stands as interesting to us.

Fine art proves in so many ways how fascist its structures and practices of thought are, it keeps things  willingly as stagnant as possible. Such state is more lucrative, to keep things unchanged as to change anything takes a lot of hard work, and yes thinking. People obviously do not notice.

2017

Photo of spring 2000

You stand behind my back, beware I might ask you things you probably won’t like.

Just making strange noise at home, noises. What makes them strange? That it is clamor, dictionary says it is roaring. Racket of letting noise come out just as you feel like, just as you sound whenever. Something adults do not do without something being wrong there like ouch. Giving birth sounds, testing what kind of sound comes from the bottom of your belly out of your mouth and nose. Breath heavily and faster. Incomprehensible nonsense which must have a purpose because without purpose in what you do you are doing nonsense. Strange laughter, no it is not me but this urge to make it. Mumbling, moving my mouth like eating without opening my mouth. Unusual for a normal person who is grown up. Don’t do it in public places because you seem like unable to control yourself.

Look at what is she doing? What is she doing? Why is she doing what she does? Go away. How does she do it? Talk to a person next to you. Look at the weird one together like signing. It is a language. Look at her with faces to make the distinction and to say that what she does is weird.

Weird is out of ordinary, scary, seeking for explanation, we need an explanation. We need to know why she does what she does.

Meneekö viesti perille? Onko vika viestin vastaanottajassa, viestivälineessä vai viestissä?

Kun on puhe viestinnästä ja kommunikaatiosta on hyvä, että virallinen viestintä on selkeää, puolueetonta ja ajanmukaista. Voi tietysti kysyä mitä ajanmukaisuus tarkoittaa, kuinka ajanmukaisuus saavutetaan, onko se ajankohtaista ja kiinni ajassa vai tavoissa ajatella, koska tavat ajatella muuttuvat naurettavan hitaasti? Kuinka ajattelemme nykyään verrattuna aikaan 20 vuotta taaksepäin? Voiko sitä edes käsittää? Kun on kysymys viestin ymmärtämisestä, ketä voi syyttää jos ajatus ei aukene? Ydinajatus menee ohi tai jää ymmärtämättä laisinkaan. Kun on esimerkiksi kysymys feminismistä tai taiteesta, että löytää pienen ymmärryksen välähdyksen on selitettävä asia aivan perusasioista lähtien miksi ja mitä, mihin tämä perustuu ja miksi on niin vaikea hyväksyä feminismin saavutukset ja vaikutus koko yhteiskuntaan.

Kommunikaatio on haastavin alue ihmisenä olemisessa. Eläimillä tiettävästi viestikoodisto on toistuva ja aina sama jotta tapahtuu ymmärrys kuka kukin on ja mitä tapahtuu. Koska kaikki on kommunikaatiota on oltava huolellinen. Miten ihmisillä kommunikaatiotavat muuttuvat kun väitetään aikojen muuttuvan ja onko kyse edistyksestä? Huonosti hoidettu viestintä kostautuu jos kuulijalle, joka nykyään on usein myös ostava osapuoli, tulee olo että jotakin jätetään kertomatta, kuulijaa manipuloidaan ajattelemaan tietyllä tavalla ja hän on sivistymätön moukka jos ei ajattele niinkuin pitäisi. Kuulija ei ole viestin antajan mielestä tarpeeksi älykäs ymmärtääkseen annetun viestin piilomerkityksiä tai sitä miksi siellä on piilomerkityksiä. Ylimielisyyttä voi olla ajatus siitä millaista tietoa voi antaa ja mikä jätetään antamatta, tiedon pimittäminen, vaikealla kielellä puhuminen, keskustelun ulkopuolelle jättäminen tavalla tai toisella ovat tapoja kertoa jotakin. Tiedonvälityksessä on ylimielistä kertoa asioista erikoiskielellä jota asiaan vihkiytymättömät eivät ymmärrä, kielellä joka on olevinaan parempaa kuin jos tapaa kertoa yksinkertaistaisi ja havainnollistaisi. Mitä halutaan kertoa, miksi, kenelle. Mutta mitä tarkoittaa ajatus monimutkaisuus jää yksinkertaisuuden jalkoihin ja mikä osuus koulutuksella tässä on? Maailmaa yritetään tehdä helpommaksi mutta se on edelleen hyvin monimutkainen tiedon, käsitysten, mielipiteiden ja kommunikaation sekamelska.

On ilmiselvää että vaikka taiteen kanssa työskentelevät ihmiset työskentelevät kommunikoinnin parissa, juuri kommunikointi on haastavin osuus. Kuinka puhua ihmiselle, joka ei tunne taidetta, taiteesta, kuinka olla kiinnostunut jostakin mikä on omasta mielestä täyttä hölynpölyä. Äly ei ole taiteissa vahvin alue on tullut selväksi, joten miksi ääliöitä pitäisi yrittää ymmärtää. Ei tarvitse. On eri asia kuvitella olevansa älykäs kuin olla älykäs. Älykäs ei vähättele sitä jolle kertoo jotakin, etenkin jos on tarve saada asiaa eteenpäin. On älykästä hallita ammattinsa niin, ettei työ jota tekee eristäydy ja eristä muusta maailmasta. Näinhän ei nykytaiteessa ole. Älyn puute on karua seurattavaa ja kuinka ylipaisunut ego korvaa sen mitä kutsumme älyksi, defenssit ovat korkealla. Kun tulee sokeaksi omalle itselleen ja sille mitä todella teet, olet sinä se jonka voi olla vaikea ymmärtää todella mitä tapahtuu ja miksi. Teot puhuvat puolestaan esimerkiksi. Itse mittaan älyä juuri siinä kohtaa miten hyvin tapa kertoa asioita uusiutuu. Kuinka ajattelu kehittyy ja muuttuu, miten tavat tehdä muuttuvat ja niiden annetaan muuttua ja miten ulkopuoli ja sisäpuoli kommunikoivat ja kohtaavat. Viestinnässä on paljon sellaista me- ja he- ajattelua. Kuinka me viestijät voisimme saada asiamme kerrottua heille toisille kun välissämme on ammottava kuilu, jota kukaan ei halua ryhtyä kuromaan umpeen, koska se tarkoittaisi oman uran ja itsen laittamista likoon täysin ja tekemisen muutosta. Totaalista uudelleen järjestelyä ja asioiden uudelleen ajattelua. Kun oma ura on tärkein syy tehdä mitään, on viesti jonka antaa mahdollisesti puhutteleva ainoastaan hyvin kapealle määrälle ihmisiä. Maailma joka juuri nyt on läsnä, on vain sellaisille kuin sinä. Asioita kerrotaan omasta navasta, omasta kokemuksesta, omasta piiristä ja kuinka kukaan omassa lähipiirissä ei tunne ketään joka äänestää persuja.

Instant idea for video 2012

Cowardice is the cancer.

She has to be beaten down, so that she won’t have any feeling of power left in her. She will be easy to govern when she is scared and does not understand her rights. That she feels herself powerless, insignificant, scared, alone, defenceless and pathetic in her given role which is inescapable. She feels subhuman without power, is treated as such because she has no way to defend herself. Her power is to settle and submit to those who hold power over her. She begins to believe this is true and there is nothing she can do to change that. Lot of women around the world are still treated this way, as cattle who do not have dignity, who are not granted permission for having self-worth, to be something else than beings living under someone else’s will.
It has been a conversation once, maybe still today, do women have souls. Soul which is a sign of divinity within which men have. Divinity of men, divine in men who are godly, who act accordingly and are allowed to think women do not have the same divinity within. Women are not worthy because there is the divine that is against them.

Why violence against the weaker is so accepted? Is it too dangerous to go in the middle?

Trying to find an answer because it appears to be and have been the easiest way to manifest one’s power position and humanity irony being to behave like an animal is acceptable. To prove one’s excellence in the eyes of buddies is at the core of this problem. Show excellence via hate and violence is one way to tell tools are few and vulnerability is a shame, shaming being something which organically is part of our behaviour. We must be ashamed of certain things, bullying is not one of those things. To be vulnerable and humbly trying to understand one’s power in a different kind of way is too much to ask for many. Weak spots must be noticed and hated. Weakness being gender, sexuality, looks, fragility, occupation, background, ethnicity, religion, possession, anything, something the other has or hasn’t got or is afraid. It is a matter of comparison. For some to win is to bully and repeat, to look big and powerful. Something interesting there is in sameness and enforcing that powerful sameness which has appeal like uniforms, rock music and leather jackets. You are the man and you are correct, you are correcting, you are forcing to obey. There are men and women who enjoy having power over those who they think are weak and should be controlled. To make sure suffering comes to those who deserve it due to their weakness is the idea or bully is passing forward suffering he or she has faced. To deserve bad treatment is kind of educational idea to alter and break those who don’t belong, who dare to do and think differently, a punishment via self-made laws, rules and ideas of what is good, what is good to be. Bullying is passing forward negative emotions, experiences and continuing a history.
Bullies don’t know better because they usually haven’t been given taste of their own medicine and they truly do not understand the other point of view. It is incomprehensible so much so that the issue has to be put into little pieces and be fed just as carefully as you were feeding a baby. This goes for feminism and communism for instance, and art. Bullies stay safe among those who think the same strengthened by ideology of the traditional strong, traditions play a big part. Bullies enforce their universe blocking out all other ways of being as to support the supposed weakness would make bullies weak as well. How to know what is truly weak and what is strong: to recognise one’s own weak performance would be too much wisdom to ask. Bullies are not able to do and think otherwise because they are afraid to change, they can talk about progress and change, change happening on surface of the structures. Fear is strangely the one biggest issue here, ironically, threat, feeling threatened by the weak, by weakness, afraid of an infection and loss. Losing a game, losing wealth, losing position, losing job, losing friends etc are fears generating hate, one of course becoming hated oneself and alone. Bullies liking their mainstream universe where they have been able to make their laws, comfort and have learned that laws of their own are power, are powerful and obeyed. This is how you get ahead in the world, by oppressing, abusing, creating suffering and that is power. They have gotten away with behaving and thinking this way. One can ask how is it possible still, obviously very easily.
Bullying often is done in groups against one person. Easy deduction would be to stop being weak. To become strong might mean one should learn to defend oneself, hit back, be proud of what oneself is to respect oneself. Are we, weak ones, not proud enough? There is something wrong with us or humanity is truly realising its nature in violence? How not seem weak when weakness is to be the opposite of the bully. Question is how to rip off power off the bully. It happens by shaming as that is one of the worst fears in masculine and macho world.

So not to become a bully oneself, but be able to show strength, is something else than putting down those who don’t belong in the circle of the similar and nonstop repetition but put down bullies. We probably do not survive without use of violence, question of what kind of means one wants to put in use. Mainstream is the strong and to fit in there is to imitate, to be able to imitate is strength oddly. The ones, who do not either want to imitate to fit in or simply can’t as the idea of human in mainstream is so narrow, almost opposite of creative, one must get creative in a new way and find inner strength which will carry forward. That requires strength against all odds. To cultivate one’s creativeness is one tool to empower oneself and understand what creativeness can be.

How do you do that when you are all grown up and you think you know everything and means are few? People get bullied as adults as well, maybe even by the same kind of types that lurked at ground school corridors and classrooms. Some people do not evolve from that stage. It is too demanding a task. They stay the same and they think that is power.

Bullying is a social menace which is difficult to tackle. It must be taken more seriously as it causes tragedies and longtime suffering. It is obviously very build-in in our ways of behaving and thinking. Humiliation is something many people like doing, be it children or co-workers whom some like to shame and bully, or total strangers who look like ideal targets, anybody who shows something to laugh at, kill and violate.

http://www.newstatesman.com/science-tech/internet/2017/04/i-pictured-dude-whole-time-why-internet-assumes-youre-man

’He physically blocked my escape’: Bullies leaving a trail of destruction.http://www.smh.com.au/interactive/2017/workplace-bullying/?utm_source=twitter&utm_medium=social&utm_campaign=nc&eid=socialn%3Atwi-13omn1677-edtrl-other%3Annn-17%2F02%2F2014-edtrs_socialshare-all-nnn-nnn-vars-o%26sa%3DD%26usg%3DALhdy28zsr6qiq

GROWING UP POOR AND QUEER IN A FRENCH VILLAGE

http://www.newyorker.com/magazine/2017/05/08/growing-up-poor-and-queer-in-a-french-village?utm_content=bufferc8bd5&utm_medium=social&utm_source=twitter.com&utm_campaign=buffer